HOLDING THE WORD OF PROMISE TO THE EAR.
So far as I could judge from outward appearances, the coldness between
uncle Bryan and Jessie increased with time, rather than lessened.
Their natures seemed to be in direct antagonism, and every effort to
make things pleasant between them completely failed. My mother often
made such efforts in her quiet loving way; Jessie herself wooed him,
after her fashion, when the humour was on her; but he was implacable,
except on one occasion to which I shall presently refer.
'He ought,' said Jessie to me, 'to be at the head of a monastery of
monks; he thinks it is a crime even to laugh. What sort of a young man
was he, I wonder?'
I could have told her, but the seal of secrecy was on my tongue. I
need scarcely say that all my sympathies were with Jessie. I was an
attentive observer of the state of things at home, and I had many
confidential conversations with my mother concerning matters. Loving
Jessie as I did, I could not, in my heart, be tolerant and kind to
uncle Bryan, as she begged me to be; the hard and stern rules which he
had set down for himself, the following out of which by us might
possibly have won his favour, would have made life a burden. I applied
these rules to himself, and his own life was his own condemnation.
There was no question in my mind as to whether he was right or wrong.
But I could not win my mother to my way of thinking; nor did I
endeavour after a little while, for I saw that it gave her pain. Never
did a hard word pass her lips concerning him; she had affectionate
excuses for him in every fresh difference between him and Jessie. I
thought she was wrong, but I did not tell her so, nor did I distress
her by endeavouring to explain to her that her own conduct was a
contradiction to her words. That she never missed an opportunity to be
tender and gentle to Jessie was a sufficiently strong argument against
uncle Bryan. In her love for my mother Jessie never wavered; it seemed
to me to grow stronger every day. Sometimes when we were at home
together--it was not a very frequent occurrence now, for Jessie and I
were generally out of an evening at the Wests', or at a theatre for
which orders had been given to us--I observed Jessie watching us; but
when she saw my eyes upon her, she would turn hers away thoughtfully.
One night we had come home late; uncle Bryan was abed; my mother had
prepared supper for us. We sat down, and after supper fell into
silence; I do not know what I was thinking of, but we remained silent
for many minutes. Happening to look in the direction of my mother, I
saw her wistful eyes upon me, and at the same moment Jessie rose, and,
kneeling before my mother, drew her face down, and kissed it. I was by
their side in an instant, and the three of us were clasped in one
embrace; but Jessie quickly released herself, and left me and my
mother together.
Time went on and there was no change, except that we were growing
older, and that Jessie was growing more and more beautiful. I was
getting along well, and as I was earning fair wages, I contributed,
with pride, a fair sum towards the expenses of the house. I was
enabled to make my mother and Jessie many little presents now, and I
sometimes coaxed my mother to buy Jessie a new dress or a new hat, and
not to let her know that they came from me. On the anniversary of my
twenty-first birthday we had a party at home, the four of us, and were
happier and more comfortable in each other's society than we had been
for a long time. Even uncle Bryan softened--not only towards me, but
towards Jessie.
'Your boyhood is over,' said uncle Bryan; 'you are now a man, with a
man's responsibility, and a man's work to do in life. Do it well.'
'I will try to, uncle,' I replied.
'To perform one's duties,' continued uncle Bryan, 'taxes a man's
judgment very severely, and as a man's judgment is generally the slave
of his inclination, it is seldom that he can look back upon his life
with satisfaction.'
'I don't quite understand that,' I observed; 'if a man's inclinations
are good----'
Uncle Bryan interrupted me, for I had paused. He took up my words.
'Inclination is an idle selfish imp. Life is full of temptations, and
inclination leads us to them; we follow only too readily.'
'All that we can do,' said my mother, caressing me fondly, 'is to do
our best; we are often the slave of circumstances, Bryan.'
'In many cases,' he replied, 'not in all, a man can rise above them.
We do not exercise our reason sufficiently. We cry and fret like
children because things are not exactly as we wish.'
'Do you?' asked Jessie quickly. He answered her evasively. 'I have my
sorrows.'
'I am glad of that,' said Jessie, in a low tone.
'There is more wisdom in your remark,' he said, with a thoughtful
observance of her, 'than you probably imagine. I give you credit for
using it in the best and kindest sense.'
'I meant it in that sense,' said Jessie gently, drawing a little
nearer to him.
'Will you tell me why you are glad that I should have sorrows?'
'For one reason----'
'Well?'
'It does not remove you so far from us,' said Jessie, with less
confidence than she usually exhibited.
'I try to do that?' he asked. 'I try to remove myself from you?'
'I think so,' she answered. 'You are not angry with me?'
'No, child,' he said, and the gentleness of his tone surprised me.
'But for sorrow and trouble,' mused my mother, the tenderest qualities
of our nature would never be shown. God is very good to us, in our
hardest trials. Dear Bryan! I am thinking of the time when Chris and I
were in London without a friend. As I look upon my darling boy now,
and think of the happy future there is before him----' She did not
complete her sentence, but she went towards uncle Bryan, and stooped
and kissed him.
'Say no more, Emma,' he said huskily; you do not know how vastly the
balance is in your favour.'
'Notwithstanding your sorrows? questioned Jessie.
'Yes,' he replied, with an approving nod, notwithstanding my sorrows.
You are sharp-witted, Jessie.'
'Thank you, uncle,' she said merrily.
It was almost like the commencement of a new and more harmonious era
in our relations with one another.
'How old are you, Jessie?' I asked.
'I shall be eighteen in a little more than three months. A girl
becomes a woman at eighteen, I am told. I shall expect to be treated
with dignity then, Chris.'
The greatest wonder of the evening was reserved for its close. Uncle
Bryan was the first to rise and wish us good-night. He grasped my hand
warmly, and kissed my mother. He did not offer to shake hands with
Jessie, but wished her good-night, and lingered at the door, waiting
for her response; but it did not come. He turned to go, but before he
could leave the room, she was by his side.
'Why are you so kind to others,' she asked, and so cold to me?' He
stood silent, looking upon the ground. I want to love you if you will
let me; I want you to love me. Say "Good-night, dear Jessie," and kiss
me.'
He did exactly as she desired. 'Good-night, dear Jessie,' he said, and
they kissed each other. He drew his arm round her, and I saw a tender
light flash into his face, and rob it of its habitual sternness of
expression. But it was gone in a moment, and he with it.