CHAPTER LXI.

Twenty days--the happiest my life had ever known--thus glided on. Apart

from the charm which love bestows on the beloved, there was that in

Lilian’s conversation which made her a delightful companion. Whether it

was that, in this pause from the toils of my career, my mind could

more pliantly supple itself to her graceful imagination, or that her

imagination was less vague and dreamy amidst those rural scenes, which

realized in their loveliness and grandeur its long-conceived ideals,

than it had been in the petty garden-ground neighboured by the stir and

hubbub of the busy town,--in much that I had once slighted or contemned

as the vagaries of undisciplined fancy, I now recognized the sparkle

and play of an intuitive genius, lighting up many a depth obscure to

instructed thought. It is with some characters as with the subtler and

more ethereal order of poets,--to appreciate them we must suspend the

course of artificial life; in the city we call them dreamers, on the

mountain-top we find them interpreters.

In Lilian, the sympathy with Nature was not, as in Margrave, from the

joyous sense of Nature’s lavish vitality; it was refined into exquisite

perception of the diviner spirit by which that vitality is informed.

Thus, like the artist, from outward forms of beauty she drew forth the

covert types, lending to things the most familiar exquisite meanings

unconceived before. For it is truly said by a wise critic of old, that

“the attribute of Art is to suggest infinitely more than it expresses;”

and such suggestions, passing from the artist’s innermost thought into

the mind that receives them, open on and on into the Infinite of Ideas,

as a moonlit wave struck by a passing oar impels wave upon wave along

one track of light.

So the days glided by, and brought the eve of our bridal morn. It had

been settled that, after the ceremony (which was to be performed by

license in the village church, at no great distance, which adjoined my

paternal home, now passed away to strangers), we should make a short

excursion into Scotland, leaving Mrs. Ashleigh to await our return at

the little inn.

I had retired to my own room to answer some letters from anxious

patients, and having finished these I looked into my trunk for a

Guide-Book to the North, which I had brought with me. My hand came upon

Margrave’s wand, and remembering that strange thrill which had passed

through me when I last handled it, I drew it forth, resolved to examine

calmly if I could detect the cause of the sensation. It was not now

the time of night in which the imagination is most liable to credulous

impressions, nor was I now in the anxious and jaded state of mind in

which such impressions may be the more readily conceived. The sun was

slowly setting over the delicious landscape; the air cool and serene; my

thoughts collected,--heart and conscience alike at peace. I took, then,

the wand, and adjusted it to the palm of the hand as I had done before.

I felt the slight touch of the delicate wire within, and again the

thrill! I did not this time recoil; I continued to grasp the wand, and

sought deliberately to analyze my own sensations in the contact. There

came over me an increased consciousness of vital power; a certain

exhilaration, elasticity, vigour, such as a strong cordial may produce

on a fainting man. All the forces of my frame seemed refreshed,

redoubled; and as such effects on the physical system are ordinarily

accompanied by correspondent effects on the mind, so I was sensible of a

proud elation of spirits,--a kind of defying, superb self-glorying. All

fear seemed blotted out from my thought, as a weakness impossible to

the grandeur and might which belong to Intellectual Man; I felt as if

it were a royal delight to scorn Earth and its opinions, brave Hades

and its spectres. Rapidly this new-born arrogance enlarged itself

into desires vague but daring. My mind reverted to the wild phenomena

associated with its memories of Margrave. I said half-aloud, “if a

creature so beneath myself in constancy of will and completion of

thought can wrest from Nature favours so marvellous, what could not be

won from her by me, her patient persevering seeker? What if there be

spirits around and about, invisible to the common eye, but whom we can

submit to our control; and what if this rod be charged with some occult

fluid, that runs through all creation, and can be so disciplined as to

establish communication wherever life and thought can reach to beings

that live and think? So would the mystics of old explain what perplexes

me. Am I sure that the mystics of old duped them selves or their pupils?

This, then, this slight wand, light as a reed in my grasp, this, then,

was the instrument by which Margrave sent his irresistible will through

air and space, and by which I smote himself, in the midst of his

tiger-like wrath, into the helplessness of a sick man’s swoon! Can the

instrument at this distance still control him; if now meditating evil,

disarm and disable his purpose?” Involuntarily, as I revolved these

ideas, I stretched forth the wand, with a concentred energy of desire

that its influence should reach Margrave and command him. And since I

knew not his whereabout, yet was vaguely aware that, according to any

conceivable theory by which the wand could be supposed to carry its

imagined virtues to definite goals in distant space, it should be

pointed in the direction of the object it was intended to affect, so I

slowly moved the wand as if describing a circle; and thus, in some point

of the circle--east, west, north, or south--the direction could not fail

to be true. Before I had performed half the circle, the wand of itself

stopped, resisting palpably the movement of my hand to impel it onward.

Had it, then, found the point to which my will was guiding it, obeying

my will by some magnetic sympathy never yet comprehended by any

recognized science? I know not; but I had not held it thus fixed for

many seconds, before a cold air, well remembered, passed by me, stirring

the roots of my hair; and, reflected against the opposite wall, stood

the hateful Scin-Laeca. The Shadow was dimmer in its light than when

before beheld, and the outline of the features was less distinct; still

it was the unmistakable lemur, or image, of Margrave.

And a voice was conveyed to my senses, saying, as from a great distance,

and in weary yet angry accents,

“You have summoned me? Wherefore?”

I overcame the startled shudder with which, at first, I beheld the

Shadow and heard the Voice.

“I summoned you not,” said I; “I sought but to impose upon you my will,

that you should persecute, with your ghastly influences, me and mine

no more. And now, by whatever authority this wand bestows on me, I so

abjure and command you!”

I thought there was a sneer of disdain on the lip through which the

answer seemed to come,--

“Vain and ignorant, it is but a shadow you command. My body you have

cast into a sleep, and it knows not that the shadow is here; nor, when

it wakes, will the brain be aware of one reminiscence of the words that

you utter or the words that you hear.”

“What, then, is this shadow that simulates the body? Is it that which in

popular language is called the soul?”

“It is not: soul is no shadow.”

“What then?”

“Ask not me. Use the wand to invoke Intelligences higher than mine.”

“And how?”

“I will tell you not. Of yourself you may learn, if you guide the wand

by your own pride of will and desire; but in the hands of him who has

learned not the art, the wand has its dangers. Again I say you have

summoned me! Wherefore?”

“Lying shade, I summoned thee not.”

“So wouldst thou say to the demons, did they come in their terrible

wrath, when the bungler, who knows not the springs that he moves, calls

them up unawares, and can neither control nor dispel. Less revengeful

than they, I leave thee unharmed, and depart.”

“Stay. If, as thou sayest, no command I address to thee--to thee, who

art only the image or shadow--can have effect on the body and mind of

the being whose likeness thou art, still thou canst tell me what passes

now in his brain. Does it now harbour schemes against me through the

woman I love? Answer truly.”

“I reply for the sleeper, of whom I am more than a likeness, though only

the shadow. His thought speaks thus: ‘I know, Allen Fenwick, that in

thee is the agent I need for achieving the end that I seek. Through the

woman thou lovest, I hope to subject thee. A grief that will harrow thy

heart is at hand; when that grief shall befall, thou wilt welcome my

coming. In me alone thy hope will be placed; through me alone wilt thou

seek a path out of thy sorrow. I shall ask my conditions: they will make

thee my tool and my slave!’”

The shadow waned,--it was gone. I did not seek to detain it, nor, had I

sought, could I have known by what process. But a new idea now possessed

me. This shadow, then, that had once so appalled and controlled me,

was, by its own confession, nothing more than a shadow! It had spoken of

higher Intelligences; from them I might learn what the Shadow could

not reveal. As I still held the wand firmer and firmer in my grasp, my

thoughts grew haughtier and bolder. Could the wand, then, bring those

loftier beings thus darkly referred to before me? With that thought,

intense and engrossing, I guided the wand towards the space, opening

boundless and blue from the casement that let in the skies. The wand no

longer resisted my hand.

In a few moments I felt the floors of the room vibrate; the air was

darkened; a vaporous, hazy cloud seemed to rise from the ground without

the casement; an awe, infinitely more deep and solemn than that which

the Scin-Laeca had caused in its earliest apparition, curdled through my

veins, and stilled the very beat of my heart.

At that moment I heard, without, the voice of Lilian, singing a simple,

sacred song which I had learned at my mother’s knees, and taught to her

the day before: singing low, and as with a warning angel’s voice. By an

irresistible impulse I dashed the wand to the ground, and bowed my head

as I had bowed it when my infant mind comprehended, without an effort,

mysteries more solemn than those which perplexed me now. Slowly I raised

my eyes, and looked round; the vaporous, hazy cloud had passed away, or

melted into the ambient rose-tints amidst which the sun had sunk.

Then, by one of those common reactions from a period of overstrained

excitement, there succeeded to that sentiment of arrogance and daring

with which these wild, half-conscious invocations had been fostered and

sustained, a profound humility, a warning fear.

“What!” said I, inly, “have all those sound resolutions, which my reason

founded on the wise talk of Julius Faber, melted away in the wrack of

haggard, dissolving fancies! Is this my boasted intellect, my vaunted

science! I--I, Allen Fenwick, not only the credulous believer, but the

blundering practitioner, of an evil magic! Grant what may be possible,

however uncomprehended,--grant that in this accursed instrument of

antique superstition there be some real powers--chemical, magnetic, no

matter what--by which the imagination can be aroused, inflamed, deluded,

so that it shapes the things I have seen, speaks in the tones I have

heard,--grant this, shall I keep ever ready, at the caprice of will, a

constant tempter to steal away my reason and fool my senses? Or if,

on the other hand, I force my sense to admit what all sober men must

reject; if I unschool myself to believe that in what I have just

experienced there is no mental illusion; that sorcery is a fact, and a

demon world has gates which open to a key that a mortal can forge,--who

but a saint would not shrink from the practice of powers by which each

passing thought of ill might find in a fiend its abettor? In either

case--in any case--while I keep this direful relic of obsolete arts, I

am haunted,--cheated out of my senses, unfitted for the uses of life.

If, as my ear or my fancy informs me, grief--human grief--is about to

befall me, shall I, in the sting of impatient sorrow, have recourse to

an aid which, the same voice declares, will reduce me to a tool and

a slave,--tool and slave to a being I dread as a foe? Out on these

nightmares! and away with the thing that bewitches the brain to conceive

them!”

I rose; I took up the wand, holding it so that its hollow should not

rest on the palm of the hand. I stole from the house by the back way,

in order to avoid Lilian, whose voice I still heard, singing low, on

the lawn in front. I came to a creek, to the bank of which a boat

was moored, undid its chain, rowed on to a deep part of the lake, and

dropped the wand into its waves. It sank at once; scarcely a ripple

furrowed the surface, not a bubble arose from the deep. And, as the boat

glided on, the star mirrored itself on the spot where the placid waters

had closed over the tempter to evil.

Light at heart, I sprang again on the shore, and hastening to Lilian,

where she stood on the silvered, shining sward, clasped her to my

breast.

“Spirit of my life!” I murmured, “no enchantments for me but thine!

Thine are the spells by which creation is beautified, and, in that

beauty, hallowed. What though we can see not into the measureless future

from the verge of the moment; what though sorrow may smite us while we

are dreaming of bliss, let the future not rob me of thee, and a balm

will be found for each wound! Love me ever as now, oh, my Lilian; troth

to troth, side by side, till the grave!”

“And beyond the grave,” answered Lilian, softly.

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