For contemplation he, and valour formed;
For softness she, and sweet attractive grace;
He for God only, she for God in him.
MILTON.
The last few words of the ceremony were quickly hurried over. Ellen
was supported into the vestry, where she quickly recovered; and the
circumstance of a bride’s fainting was not an event of such rare
occurrence as to excite much surprise.
Mr. Hamilton’s place was situated in a lovely country on the borders
of Sussex and Surrey. Hanging woods, extensive oak copses mixed with
birch, sandy lanes, hedges which are enlivened by large hollies with
their glossy leaves and their red berries—wild patches of heath,
studded with juniper bushes—fern and innumerable wild flowers in
the shaws and dingles—banks blue with violets, and dells yellow with
primroses, are the characteristics of that most enjoyable part of
England.
Belhanger, which was the name of his place, was in the Elizabethan
style. A spacious hall, in which was an immense fire-place, surmounted
by the antlers of some patriarchal stag, communicated with a large,
low, oak dining-room, and through some smaller apartments to a
drawing-room, which was hung with tapestry, and adorned with beautiful
oak carving; the crossings of the beams in the ceiling were ornamented
with wooden rosettes, in the most antique taste, while the rest of
the room was provided with all the essentials requisite for modern
comfort. A broad and massive staircase of black oak led, as is usual
with buildings of that period, to a gallery on the upper floor, which
extended the whole length of the south front, and which, with its two
fire-places, and its innumerable windows of all shapes and sizes,
admitting every ray of sun, was one of the most delightful winter
apartments imaginable.
The exterior of the mansion was as irregular as the most ardent lover
of the picturesque could desire. It was built of grey-stone, and
composed of gable-ends of every possible angle. As its name indicated,
it was built upon the side of a hill, which had originally been covered
with hanging woods. The woods had been partially cleared away near the
house, and a sloping lawn led down to the small but romantic deer-park
in the valley.
Ellen thought Belhanger the very _beau ideal_ of an English manorial
house, and, if she had not been too much in love, and too happy in the
affections of such a man as Mr. Hamilton, to find room in her heart for
emotions that were not connected with him, she would have thought the
possession of such a place as Belhanger an additional pleasure.
The poor people, too, were a more primæval race than those who have
not lived in that part of the world would expect to find at so short a
distance from the metropolis. The bright blue smock-frocks which are
there the common dress of the men, and the red cloaks which the women
still wear, gave a picturesque appearance to the peasant congregation
as they trooped out of church, and wound down the steep road, by the
beech-crowned knoll.
Ellen was charmed with all she saw, but, perhaps, she would have been
equally charmed had her home been less perfect in itself, for she had
that within which would have made a cottage appear to her a palace—a
desert a paradise.
The judicious kindness of Mr. Hamilton to her children, the eldest
of whom was now six years old, gave him still another claim on her
affections and her gratitude. He counselled with her on the best
course of education, the proper method of training a boy’s mind, and
entered into the subject with all a father’s eagerness and anxiety.
Ellen rejoiced that she had given her son such a protector, and looked
forward to his making, under such guidance, a useful and an exemplary
member of society.
Mr. Hamilton found in Ellen new charms, new virtues, each succeeding
day. She was one of those shrinking and sensitive creatures who cannot
put forth half their powers of pleasing except in the intimacy of
domestic life, and under the fostering hand of kindness. Before her
first marriage she had been but a child, a timid frightened child—while
the wife of Mr. Cresford, although adored by himself, he had been so
fearful of her appearing too attractive in the eyes of others, that
she had acquired the habit of trying to glide through life unobserved,
in order to avoid any ebullitions of jealousy on his part, rather than
of attempting to shine as an agreeable person. She was astonished and
delighted when she saw her husband’s expressive eyes follow her as she
spoke, and gleam on her with kindly pride when others seemed to admire
her.
Life was to her a new state of existence: not that she had hitherto
been an unhappy person; she had always repeated to herself how much
cause she had for gratitude: but the inward dancing of the heart she
had never before experienced, and she often said to her husband,
“Algernon, you make me too happy. This cannot last; something must
happen: I do not deserve to be so blessed above the rest of womankind.”
He would reply with a smile, “Do you fancy, Ellen, you are the only
woman whose husband loves her?”
“No, but I am the only woman in the world who am loved by you. Am I
not?” she added, with a playful glance of entire confidence in his
devotion.
When parliament met, they repaired to London, and she then moved in a
sphere vastly more elevated than that to which she had been introduced
as Mrs. Cresford. But she had so much native grace and dignity, that
she did not appear to be transplanted into a new soil, but rather to be
now restored to that which was natural and congenial to her.
She had the rapture of hearing her husband spoken of with respect, and
of seeing him treated with deference, by every one. By his own party
he was looked up to as one of its most influential members, more from
the weight of his personal character than from that of his property and
situation, although they also were of considerable importance. By his
opponents he was considered as the one fair man, who, though decided
in his own opinions, was ready to render justice to the uprightness of
those who differed from him. There can be no condition of life happier
than that of Ellen at this moment, none more respectable in the scale
of human beings, than that of the wife of an Englishman of unblemished
reputation, who holds a distinguished position in the senate of that
nation whose laws and constitution have been the admiration, and the
model, of nearly every civilised country in both hemispheres.
Ellen again became a mother, and the birth of a little girl, if
possible, cemented more strongly the bond of union between herself, her
husband, and her children.
Nearly two years had now elapsed since she had become the happy wife of
Mr. Hamilton; and he had for nearly two years enjoyed the society of
the lovely and devoted woman for whom his affection daily increased, as
her valuable qualities continually opened upon him. She was adored by
all around. The poor showered blessings upon her name whenever it was
mentioned,—their richer neighbours had nothing but acts and words of
kindness to record of her. Her eldest brother took every opportunity
that his avocations allowed him, to run down to Belhanger. Her father,
when with Mr. Hamilton, seemed to lose his captiousness; for there is
a magic in very high breeding which renders any ebullition of temper
almost impracticable. Matilda, who was become a fine showy girl, often
passed some time with her sister Ellen, and had profited much by her
example and advice.
Mr. and Mrs. Allenham were at this moment in the house; Lord and
Lady Coverdale, and their daughter, had just arrived, and some other
persons, political friends of Mr. Hamilton’s.
Lady Coverdale had been telling Ellen she thought her the most
fortunate woman in the world; she had been speaking of Mr. Hamilton,
whom she had known from his infancy, in terms which even Ellen
thought worthy of the theme, and had been saying how happy she should
esteem herself if she could ever see her daughter blessed with such
a husband, and possessed of such a home; Algernon’s friends had been
gaily complimenting him upon his good taste, and his good fortune,
and declaring they had sufficient discrimination to appreciate such a
woman, if they could only have the good fortune to meet with any one
at all resembling Mrs. Hamilton, when one morning at breakfast Ellen
received a letter from her brother, enclosing one directed to her as
Mrs. Cresford, and addressed to the house in London which she had
formerly inhabited.
The post-mark was foreign, and there was something in a letter
addressed to her by that name, which struck her as being so strange
that she did not open it, but folding it again in her brother’s
envelope, she waited till she could retire to peruse its contents. She
continued to perform her part of hostess at the breakfast-table, and
told herself it must be a begging letter, from some one, perhaps, who
had known Mr. Cresford at Verdun.
Still the letter haunted her, and she could scarcely smile at the gay
jests which passed round the breakfast-table, or listen to the news
and gossip contained in the correspondence of the other members of
the society. The outside was so covered with post-marks, and various
directions, that she had not remarked in what sort of hand the name
was written, and she quietly took it out of the envelope, just to see
if it did look like a begging letter. Her former name always made her
shudder, she could not tell why, and she had often reproached herself
for the feeling, as an unkind and ungrateful one towards the memory
of him who was gone. It was that strange instinct which had made her
so quickly put this letter aside, and it was with an unaccountable
trepidation that she again drew it forth to examine the hand-writing.
She looked and looked again, till her eyes swam. It was very like the
writing which was only too familiar to her. It was,—it must be his
writing,—she could not be mistaken; only it was impossible.—quite
impossible. Yet it might contain his last behests, which had, from
some cause, never been delivered before. She could not open it. She
hastily concealed it, and turning deadly pale, she sat, scarcely
conscious of what passed around her, till the last person had been
helped to his last cup of tea.
She longed to know the contents, but there came a sickness over her
heart, which made her postpone the dreaded moment. At length the
company rose one by one, and straggled towards the windows. She
summoned all her might, and walked steadily to the door—she sought her
own boudoir, and seating herself upon the sofa, she again unfolded the
envelope, she again gazed on the outside—she had not yet courage to
break the seal.
There was something dreadful in thus receiving the dying injunctions of
one husband, one who had loved her, too, so passionately, in reading
the ebullitions of his vehement affection, when she was the adoring
wife of another. She felt as though he were about to speak to her from
the grave.
She looked at the post-marks. There were upon it, in various coloured
inks, Gratz, Vienna, Dresden, Magdeburg, Hamburgh. No Verdun post-mark!
How strange! Wonder, terror, conquered all other feelings—she tore open
the seal—it was indeed his own hand-writing!—the date, Gratz, June
1808—What could it mean? She looked at the end—it was his own, very
own name!—it was addressed to her! It began, “My beloved wife, my own
Ellen!” She could read no more; the letter dropped from her hand, and
she fainted on the floor.
She was in this state, when Mr. Hamilton, alarmed by her paleness at
breakfast, sought her in her boudoir. He raised her from the ground,
and calling her maid, soon succeeded in restoring her to herself—To
herself? No! She could never again be what she had been!
She gazed around with wild and haggard eyes; then motioning the maid to
leave the room, and watching with agonized fear till the double doors
were both closed, she screamed rather than said,—
“He is alive! he is alive! I am not your wife, Algernon! I am not
yours!” and she threw herself into his arms, she clung to him, she
clasped her arms around his neck, with desperate energy, as if she
thought thus to rivet the tie she felt was severed.
“Ellen! dearest Ellen! my own gentle Ellen, are you raving? You must be
ill! What is the matter? You really frighten me!” he added, attempting
to smile.
“Look there, Algernon! there it lies! I have only read the first line,
and would to heaven I had died! Oh! if I could but die now, with my
head on your bosom,—your arms around me,—my eyes fixed on yours!
Dearest, dearest Algernon! I love you better than any thing else in the
whole world—better, ten thousand times better than myself! Words cannot
express the thousandth part of the agonizing love I feel for you! and
it is all a crime! Look there! read that!” and she pressed her hands
against her eyeballs, as if to exclude light and consciousness.
This burst of passion was so unlike his retiring Ellen, whose
affection, though evinced by every action of her life, implied by
all she said, had still seemed frightened back into her heart, if in
any moment of tenderness she was called upon to couch it into actual
language, that Mr. Hamilton was lost in astonishment! In dread and
wonder he took the letter in his hand—he saw the beginning—he looked at
the date—he staggered to a chair, and exclaiming, “Merciful Heaven!” he
too remained stupified, unable to utter, and scarcely to think, or to
comprehend the extent of the misfortune which had befallen them.
At length reason in some measure resumed its sway, and he suggested,
“May it not be a forgery? Are you sure it is his hand?” A momentary
light flashed athwart her mind; she seized the paper, and they sat
down together to the perusal of that letter, on which their fates so
completely hung!