THE MANIAC'S CURSE.
Life is before ye! Oh, if ye would look
Into the secrets of that sealed book,
Strong as ye are in youth and hope and faith,
Ye would sink down and falter, "Give us Death!"--FANNY KEMBLE.
Oswald Waring remained three years at the University of Virginia, and
during the whole of that period he had not returned home once. The
vacations had been spent at various Northern watering-places, to which
he went, accompanied by his inseparable companion and valet, Valentine.
His fellow-students at the university often warned him of what they
called the reckless imprudence of taking his slave with him to the
North, expressing their belief that one day the fellow would give him
the slip. But Oswald laughed, in his reckless, confiding good humor, and
declared, if the rascal could have the heart to leave him, he was
perfectly welcome to do so, at the same time expressing his belief that
the boy understood his true interests too well to do anything of the
sort. But the fact was, Valentine loved his master much too well to
leave him lightly.
Oswald Waring never distinguished himself at the university, or anywhere
else, for anything but good nature, generosity, and reckless
extravagance. He never graduated; but at the close of his third year,
being some months past his legal majority, he left the university
finally, and went on a tour through the Northern States and Canada,
before embarking for Europe. He was accompanied, as usual, by Valentine.
And the youth did not avail himself of that opportunity to leave his
master, perhaps from the fascination of their easy, careless, roving
life, as well as the affection that bound them together.
Mr. Waring had reached New York, on his return from Canada, and was
making a short stay in that city, previous to embarking for his European
travels, when he received a letter from his father's attorney, Mr.
Pettigrew, announcing the death of old Madam Waring, and the extreme
illness of Colonel Waring, and pressing for the immediate return of his
son.
Mr. Waring lost no time in commencing his homeward journey, and attended
by his favorite, in less than a fortnight from the day of leaving New
York, he reached the city near to which was his father's plantation.
But there fatal news met him. He was too late. The virulent fever of
that latitude had quickly done its work; and Colonel Waring's funeral
had taken place the week previous. As this result had been dreaded by
Oswald, the shock of hearing of it lost half its force. There was
nothing to do but to hasten to the plantation, to examine into the
confused condition of affairs there. Leaving a note for Mr. Pettigrew to
meet him there the next day, Oswald took a carriage, and, with Valentine
by his side, drove rapidly out to the plantation. They were met by
Phaedra, who had been tacitly left in sole charge of the house, and who
saluted her young master with grave respect, and greeted her long absent
son with a silent pressure of the hand, deferring all expression of
interest in or affection for Valentine, until they should be alone
together.
The next morning Mr. Pettigrew arrived, and the examination of the
condition of the estate of the deceased began.
The lawyer expressed his opinion that there was no will of his late
client in existence; and, further, that none had ever been made by him.
Colonel Waring had never spoken to him, as his legal adviser, upon the
subject, as he would have been likely to have done had he contemplated
making one. Colonel Waring was a hale, sanguine man, in the prime of
life, and not likely to entertain the thought of the contingency of his
own death. And the fever that terminated his existence had been too
sudden in its attack and delirium--insensibility and death had followed
with too fatal rapidity, to admit of such a possibility as his executing
his will. However, a search for a possible one was instituted; the
library, secretaries, bureau, strong boxes--in fact, the whole house was
ransacked for a will, or some memento of one; but neither will, nor sign
of will, could be discovered.
Perhaps the person most deeply interested in the search was Phaedra. As
soon as her quick intelligence discovered that there was a doubt
relative to the existence of a will, her interest became intense. When
coming into the house to attend her young master or the lawyer, she
paused, loitered near them; and, whenever she was allowed to do so, she
assisted in the search with a zeal not equaled by either of the others.
And when at last this search was abandoned as fruitless, she looked so
unutterably wretched, as she hurried from the room, that both gentlemen
gazed after her in astonishment.
"Why, what is the matter with Phaedra?" inquired Mr. Waring, looking
interrogatively at the lawyer.
"She is disappointed, most probably."
"But in what respect? I do not understand."
"She was a favorite slave, was she not?"
"Yes--that is to say, she was a very faithful servant to my late father,
and was very well treated. But what has that to do with it?"
"Why, that she probably expected to be left free by your father's will."
"And that accounts for her anxiety that the will should be found."
"I think so."
"What a fool that woman must be! Free, indeed! Why should she want to be
free--at her age, too. What can be her object? What would she do if she
were free? How in the world came she to get such an idea into her head?
Who could have put it there, do you think?"
"No one, I suppose."
"But how should she ever think of such nonsense as her freedom?"
"It is a notion they all have, I believe."
"A notion! I should think it was a notion, and a very foolish one, on
her part; I am really half inclined to cure her of her folly by setting
her free, and letting her try her freedom on, to see how it fits.
Nothing but experience will teach ignorant creatures like herself."
"I've noticed, in the course of my practice, a good many such instances
of folly as hers."
"They are, the best of them, a set of the dullest and most
ungrateful----. Now, I want to know if there are not hundreds of white
women who would jump at such a situation as Phaedra's?"
"Quite likely."
"Why, where could the fool be better off, or freer, if that's her whim?
She is mistress of the house--absolutely to all intents and purposes,
mistress of the house. All the money for domestic expenses passes
through her hands; she carries the keys, governs the maids, and arranges
everything to suit herself."
"And her master, too, let us hope, sir."
"Yes, yes; I do not complain of her good management or her fidelity. In
fact, I should be very unjust to do so, for she is everything that I
could desire in these respects. And to render exact justice in this
tribute, I may say that it would be difficult, and, more than that, it
would be impossible, to replace her. It is these considerations, you
see, that vex me so, when I hear of her hankering after her freedom.
Freedom from what, I should like to know? In what respect does her
position now differ from that of any respectable white woman, filling
the situation of housekeeper?"
"Really, I wish the conversation had not arisen. Certainly, Phaedra's
absurd notions were not of sufficient importance to occupy so much of
our attention. Now, then, to business."
And the lawyer and the heir were soon deep in the papers and accounts,
which they found in such hopeless confusion as promised many weeks, if
not months, and perhaps years, of legal and financial diplomacy to
settle.
Phaedra, when she had left the room in such a state of strange
excitement, had hurried off in search of her son.
Valentine was in his master's chamber, surrounded by the trunks and
boxes that had been sent after them from New York, and had but that day
arrived. Half of them were opened and unpacked, and a part of their
contents scattered all over the floor. They consisted of books,
pictures, statuettes, vases, and other beautiful fancies, that Valentine
had persuaded his master to collect in New York, during the visits he
had made there while residing at the University of Virginia.
And in the midst of the picturesque and beautiful confusion, Valentine
sat, reclining in an easy chair, fascinated, spellbound by an
illustrated volume of Shakespeare's plays. It was a new purchase of his
master's, made evidently without his knowledge, for it came in a box of
books direct from the bookseller, and that was now unpacked for the
first time.
Valentine had taken the costly book from its double wrapper of coarse
and of tissue paper, and merely meant to look at it before placing it in
the bookcase; but that single look was fatal to his resolution for
industry that morning, for he threw himself back in his master's easy
chair, and was soon deep in the spells of the magic volume.
Hour after hour passed, and there he sat, his body in his master's
lounging-chair, surrounded by the beautiful litter of books and
pictures, statuettes and vases, flutes and eolian harps and other toys,
and his spirit enchanted and carried captive by the master magician to
attend the fortunes of King Lear. The spirit-music, of which his ear was
still conscious, came not from the eolian harp in the window, that
vibrated to the touch of the breeze, but from some old minstrel harper
at the court of King Lear; and the perfume that filled the room came not
from the magnolias of the grove outside, but from rare English flowers
tended by Cordelia, for his soul was not in America in the nineteenth
century, but in ancient Britain in the age of poetry and fable.
He was aroused from his daydream by the entrance of Phaedra, in more
excitement than he had ever seen her betray.
Without a word spoken, she fell upon his neck, and, clasping him
closely, burst into tears; then, quickly sinking down by his side,
clasped his knees, dropped her head upon them, and wept convulsively.
Astonished and alarmed, Valentine tried to raise her, exclaiming:
"Mother! what is the matter? Mother! why, mother! what ails you? What
has happened?"
But she clung around his knees, and buried her face, and wept as she had
never wept before.
Using all his strength, the youth forcibly unclasped her arms, and got
up, and raised her, and placed her in the chair that he had vacated.
"Now, mother, what is the matter?" he asked, bending affectionately over
her.
"Oh, Valentine!" she said, as soon as she could speak for sobbing, "Oh,
Valentine! after all, there is no will!"
"No will!" he repeated, in quiet perplexity, for he did not quite
comprehend the cause of her excessive emotion. "No will, did you say,
mother?"
"No! no! no! no!" she repeated, tearing her hair, "there is no will!
although he promised--and I felt sure he'd keep his word--I never
doubted it, because he was an honorable man, after his fashion--there
was no will!"
"Well, my dear mother, what of that, that it should distress you so?"
"What of that? Oh, Valley! Valley! what a question!"
"Indeed, I do not know why you should take the non-existence of a will
so much to heart, mother," he said, soothingly.
"Oh, Valley! Valley! Master promised faithfully that he would leave you
free, and leave you money to take you to France, or to some other
foreign country. And he broke his word to me! Master broke his pledged
word to me, who served his family so faithfully so many years. I didn't
ask for freedom for myself, only for you!"
"Mother, don't take it to heart so! don't go on so, don't."
"Hush! hush! it is the Spanish woman's curse falling on us--me! She
cursed me, dying."
"My own dear mother, the curse recoiled upon her own head, for she died
mad. It never reached you, who did not in any way deserve it. It was
you that was wronged, not her, I am sure."
"Yes, yes, it was I that was wronged! It was I that was wronged! I came
to my master with his other property--with his land, and with his
negroes. I had no mother, for my mother died when I was but seven years
old. I was brought up by an old negro, named Dinah. I was but fourteen
years old when I came into the possession of my master, along with his
patrimony."
"Don't look upon things in that light, mother; don't talk in that wild,
imbittered way," said Valentine, taking both her hands, and looking
gently and fondly on her. But she snatched her hands away, and covered
her face, and was silent for awhile--then she spoke:
"I know it hurts you. I know it goes to your heart like a knife; but it
is true, true as--as that I might have been tempted to take your life
and my own, had I seen how this was to end!"
"I am very glad you did not, mother, I am sure."
"Will you always say so?"
"As I hope to be saved, yes, mother," replied the youth, half smiling,
to raise her spirits.
"Ah, you think so now. Will you think so in the future?"
"Yes, mother! I will pledge you my word to think no other way forever,
if that will satisfy you."
"Yet, oh, Valley! that Spanish woman's dying curse! It haunts me now
upon this day of the fall of all my hopes for you; it haunts me, it
hangs over me like a funeral pall! It oppresses and darkens all my
soul!"
"My dear mother, don't be superstitious, if you do inherit a tendency in
that direction from both sides of your ancestry. Forget that violent
woman's curse; and whatever you do, don't make it fulfill itself, by
believing in it. And believe that if any evil befall us, it will not
have come from that angry woman's malediction. Why, if I thought that
the imprecations of the angry and malignant could bring down curses from
heaven upon the heads of the innocent, I should turn pagan, and worship
beasts. Besides, as I said before, it was not her, but you, who was
injured. And if any one could have had the right to utter maledictions,
it was you; yet you never did it."
"No, Heaven forbid! I took things as a matter of course; and though my
heart was almost broken, I made no complaint, far less ventured on any
reproach; for I am sure I thought master would do no great wrong; and I
thought he acted much better than his neighbors, when he promised that
you should be free, and should go to France, and learn a profession. But
he broke that promise. Oh, he broke his pledged word and honor, and the
woman's curse is surely falling."
"Think no more of that, mother; she had no power to curse you."
"I never did her harm, in deed, or word, or thought. I never deserved it
from her, whatever I deserved from Heaven. It was the old Bible story of
Abraham and Sarah and Hagar acted over again on this plantation, only
this was a great deal worse, as I look upon it now, though then I
thought it was all right, hard as it was to bear. I had been keeping
house for master four years, and you were nearly a year old, when one
winter he went to New Orleans, to spend a month or two. He stayed the
whole winter. I did not know that he married there, for he never wrote
to tell me, and I never read a newspaper. How should either happen, when
I could not read nor write? Well, in the spring, instead of coming home,
he sent a message with some directions to the overseer, but no word
about his being married, only that he was going abroad for awhile. Well,
he went, and he stayed away for a year. And then he came home by way of
New Orleans, where he stopped to buy furniture, that he sent up before
him, in charge of an upholsterer, who was to fix it all up. But still no
word of his marriage. I might have guessed something, from the
refurnishing of the house; but I did not, because my heart was so taken
up with the thought that master was coming home, and how nice everything
should be for him when he should come. I afterward knew that my master
had written to Mr. Hewitt, to come over and tell me to prepare to meet
my new mistress; but Mr. Hewitt, for the sake of what he called the
joke, left me in ignorance, so that madam might find me and you when she
should come. Well, I don't want to talk any more about this. The
afternoon that master was expected to arrive, I was on the watch. I was
standing on the portico, holding you by the hand, when I saw the
carriage approach. It came up very rapidly, and my heart beat thick and
fast, as if it would suffocate me. I could not help it, Valley! When the
carriage stopped, my master got out first, and handed out a lady, and
led her up the stairs. And while the whole scene was swimming before me,
he said to the lady, 'This is your maid, madam'; and to me, 'Phaedra,
attend your mistress.' I had no business to faint, I know, because I was
only master's poor housekeeper, and I might have expected this thing
that had happened; but it came so suddenly, so unexpectedly, and my
heart had been beating so high only the minute before, that I could not
help it. One single glimpse of her great, black eyes, and the sight left
mine, and I fell, like a tree. You see this scar upon my forehead; it
was where my head struck the sharp edge of the stone step, when I fell
down. When I came to myself, I was in old Dinah's cabin. You were there,
too. I was very stupid from the blow I had received in falling, and
could not more than half understand old Dinah's mumbled consolations.
And I was almost as stupid the next morning, when my master paid me a
visit, and stood there, and advised me not to be a fool, and asked me
what I had expected--and told me that I had behaved very badly, very
badly indeed; that he had hoped I had had more sense, and more regard
for his comfort; but that I had acted abominably--I had spoiled his
domestic peace for he did not know how long. That I had given madam such
a shock on her first arrival, too, that he did not believe she could
ever endure to look upon my face again; that she was in strong hysterics
now; that I ought to have had more consideration for him, than to have
brought him into so much trouble. But that women are a great curse,
anyhow, with their abominable selfishness and jealousy----"
"Stop, stop, mother!" gasped the boy, "I shall go mad, if you tell me
more."
She raised her eyes and looked at him and grew frightened at his looks.
His face was gray, and his features haggard, with the struggle in his
bosom. His hand clutched his breast as if to grapple with some hidden
demon there.
After awhile, Phaedra resumed, softly and quietly:
"Hush! he was not naturally cruel. I never knew him to do a cruel thing
wantonly or knowingly. But many people do not understand or make
allowance for others who have naturally more tender hearts than theirs.
He did not know how I felt----"
"Mother! mother! for Heaven's sake!"
"Dear Valley, let me go on and tell this story for the first and last
time. I felt that I had to tell it some day; the day is come; let me
finish--finish for my own justification, for I would be justified to
you. Well, I never entered the lady's presence again, of course, and,
from that day to this, was only my master's faithful servant, and no
more. As soon as I was able to travel, my master sent me with you into
the town to hire out. I found a good place, where we lived several
years. I never even saw my master's face all the time, but strange
reports went around, notwithstanding. People said that Colonel Waring
and his lady lived very unhappily together; that they quarreled very
often; that she was mad with jealousy of the Mestizza; that every time
the colonel came in town, there would be a dreadful scene upon his
return home. At last it is certain that my master left off visiting the
city altogether, and did all his business there by deputies. But the
lady's attacks of passion or hysterics became periodical, returning at
regular intervals, and in the course of the first year she became a
confirmed lunatic. Before the end of the second year, it became
necessary to put her under restraint. Finally, she was taken to a
Northern lunatic asylum, in the hope of cure, and there, at the end of a
few months, she died raving mad, and hurling down imprecations upon me.
It was generally reported then, as now, that jealousy had driven her
mad; but it was not true--Heaven knows that it was not true, any more
than it was true that she had a just cause for her jealousy. For if ever
I saw insanity in any creature, I saw it in her great staring eyes the
first and only time I ever set mine upon her face. No; jealousy did not
cause her madness, but her madness caused her jealousy!"
Phaedra paused, and, with her head bent upon her hand, remained silent
some moments; then she resumed:
"When that unfortunate lady had been dead some time, and one nurse after
another had been intrusted with the care of her child, and had failed to
give satisfaction, my year at last being up with my city employer, my
master took me home, to mind Master Oswald. It was the first time I had
seen the baby, although he had come home with his mother, and was in the
carriage with his nurse at the very time that she first set foot upon
the threshold of her new home. Master Oswald was about two years old
when I first took charge of him; and if my heart had been ever so seared
and hardened, it could not but have been touched at the sight of that
motherless infant--so puny, neglected and suffering, as he looked. Well,
I took care of him--Heaven knows I did--excellent care of him, or he
would not be living now. But he doesn't remember that. How should he,
indeed, when even his father did not remember it, although many, many
times, when he saw how his heir thrived under my care, he would praise
me, and promise me such great things for my own poor boy. Well, I was
sure he would keep his word. He has not done so; and I could find it in
my heart to pray for both your death and mine!" exclaimed Phaedra, with a
short, sudden sob, as if she were on the eve of another burst of violent
emotion.
"Do not grieve, mother; Mr. Waring has not done ill by us, I am sure. I
have had as happy a life with him as my own nature will permit. I could
not have borne life with a master less good-natured and tolerant. In
truth, if our mutual relations had been reversed, I fear that I should
not have been so uniformly kind as he. In fact, barring a little
selfishness, where his habits and personal comforts are concerned, he is
one of the very kindest of men. You know how he has regarded us both,
from his boyhood----"
"Until he left home--he changed to us from that time."
"Only for a while, when he was at school, and his classmates laughed at
him for his attachment to me, and he grew angry and ashamed to show it;
now he is his old self again. And, mother, there is but one obstacle to
his realizing for us the hopes his father disappointed."
"And what is that, Valentine?"
"His affection for us both, that has in it a certain alloy of
selfishness, as, indeed, many other people's affections for others also
have. He loves us both, in a different way; and he loves his own comfort
in us. He would not like to lose his faithful, motherly housekeeper, or
his confidential, attached valet; or that either the one or the other
should have the power to leave him at will. Ah, mother, I can understand
Master Oswald better than any one else in the world can. I can read his
heart like an open book; and, moreover, I can in most things wind him
around my finger like a string. Look at these things. Why do you suppose
he collected them? He doesn't care for anything like this, but I delight
in them, and so I persuaded him to collect them to adorn his rooms. I
did not do so for my own gratification alone, but that I really did wish
to see him cultivate a refined taste. Now, we are soon going to Europe.
Why? Do you think he wished to go at first? No; he never would have
thought of it. It would have been a great deal too much trouble to take
the lead in such a plan, but I thought he ought to make the grand tour,
like other young men of fortune; besides which, I had a desire to travel
myself. So I persuaded him that a gentleman of fashion (as he desires to
be thought, you know) ought to see Europe. So we go! Why, bless his
easy, good-natured heart, I have such great power over him--may I never
abuse it! that ninety-nine days out of a hundred it is I who am master!"
"But the hundredth day, Valentine!"
The boy's face suddenly changed.
"I had rather not think of that, mother," he said, in an altered voice.
Phaedra's face also changed. It was as if a thundercloud had suddenly
crossed the sun, and darkened all the room. The mother spoke first, and
her voice was deep and hollow, as she said:
"Valentine! Valentine! you have said that in ninety-nine days of a
hundred you can govern your master. Oh, my son, pray God to give you
grace on that hundredth day to govern yourself!"
"Mother! Mother! Why do you say that to me?" exclaimed the boy, with a
shudder.
"I do not know why--or if I do, I dare not tell you. A heavy weight is
on my heart; I cannot shake it off. You are going away soon! I must warn
you now; I may not have another chance, or may not feel able to do it.
Oh, Valentine, learn self-control, try to keep your temper always under.
Ay! seek the grace of God; there is such a thing, though your poor
mother has not got it, and only wishes she had. Seek it, Valentine--it
is your best safety; in every time of trial and temptation, it is a
steadfast support. I know it, though I haven't got it; I know it,
because I've seen it in many others."
Valentine was looking at her with the most intense expression of
countenance.
"Anger is a short madness, is it not, mother? So it was with me, at
least, when I was a boy; and how those frenzies of passion, into which I
would be thrown, used to terrify me when I came to my senses! I used to
be haunted with a fear that, in some such mad and blind fury, I
might----"
"Hush! oh, hush! Pray to God!" exclaimed Phaedra, turning pale.
"Well, but of late years I have been able to control myself, and have
also suffered less provocation."
"Ah, yes; less provocation."
"Well, mother, I will promise you, faithfully, at least, to exercise
habitual self-control. As for your other subject of anxiety, be at rest.
Oswald Waring has his fits of generosity, in which even his sensual love
of his own comforts is forgotten. And I shall take advantage of one of
those moods to procure our manumission--not that I am sure I shall leave
him, even after that is obtained."
All that is necessary to record of their conversation ended here. In a
few minutes after, Phaedra left the chamber to attend to her domestic
affairs.
In the course of a few weeks, Mr. Waring hurried the completion of all
the business to which his personal attention was indispensable; and
then, attended by Valentine, he set out for his European travels,
leaving the further settlement of his estate in the hands of Mr.
Pettigrew.