The Wharton Wedding
It was at last settled that the Wharton marriage should take place
during the second week in June. There were various reasons for
the postponement. In the first place Mary Wharton, after a few
preliminary inquiries, found herself forced to declare that Messrs.
Muddocks and Cramble could not send her forth equipped as she ought
to be equipped for such a husband in so short a time. "Perhaps they
do it quicker in London," she said to Everett with a soft regret,
remembering the metropolitan glories of her sister's wedding.
And then Arthur Fletcher could be present during the Whitsuntide
holidays; and the presence of Arthur Fletcher was essential. And it
was not only his presence at the altar that was needed;--Parliament
was not so exacting but that he might have given that;--but it was
considered by the united families to be highly desirable that he
should on this occasion remain some days in the country. Emily had
promised to attend the wedding, and would of course be at Wharton
for at least a week. As soon as Everett had succeeded in wresting a
promise from his sister, the tidings were conveyed to Fletcher. It
was a great step gained. When in London she was her own mistress; but
surrounded as she would be down in Herefordshire by Fletchers and
Whartons, she must be stubborn indeed if she should still refuse to
be taken back into the flock, and be made once more happy by marrying
the man whom she confessed that she loved with her whole heart. The
letter to Arthur Fletcher containing the news was from his brother
John, and was written in a very business-like fashion. "We have put
off Mary's marriage a few days, so that you and she should be down
here together. If you mean to go on with it, now is your time."
Arthur, in answer to this, merely said he would spend the Whitsuntide
holidays at Longbarns.
It is probable that Emily herself had some idea in her own mind of
what was being done to entrap her. Her brother's words to her had
been so strong, and the occasion of his marriage was itself so sacred
to her, that she had not been able to refuse his request. But from
the moment that she had made the promise, she felt that she had
greatly added to her own difficulties. That she could yield to
Arthur never occurred to her. She was certain of her own persistency.
Whatever might be the wishes of others, the fitness of things
required that Arthur Fletcher's wife should not have been the widow
of Ferdinand Lopez,--and required also that the woman who had married
Ferdinand Lopez should bear the results of her own folly. Though
since his death she had never spoken a syllable against him,--if
those passionate words be excepted which Arthur himself had drawn
from her,--still she had not refrained from acknowledging the truth
to herself. He had been a man disgraced,--and she as his wife, having
become his wife in opposition to the wishes of all her friends, was
disgraced also. Let them do what they will with her, she would not
soil Arthur Fletcher's name with this infamy. Such was still her
steadfast resolution; but she knew that it would be, not endangered,
but increased in difficulty by this visit to Herefordshire.
And then there were other troubles. "Papa," she said, "I must get a
dress for Everett's marriage."
"Why not?"
"I can't bear, after all that I have cost you, putting you to such
useless expense."
"It is not useless, and such expenses as that I can surely afford
without groaning. Do it handsomely and you will please me best."
Then she went forth and chose her dress,--a grey silk, light enough
not to throw quite a gloom on the brightness of the day, and yet dark
enough to declare that she was not as other women are. The very act
of purchasing this, almost blushing at her own request as she sat at
the counter in her widow's weeds, was a pain to her. But she had no
one whom she could employ. On such an occasion she could not ask her
aunt Harriet to act for her, as her aunt was distrusted and disliked.
And then there was the fitting on of the dress,--very grievous to
her, as it was the first time since the heavy black mourning came
home that she had clothed herself in other garments.
The day before that fixed for the marriage she and her father went
down to Herefordshire together, the conversation on the way being
all in respect to Everett. Where was he to live? What was he to do?
What income would he require till he should inherit the good things
which destiny had in store for him? The old man seemed to feel that
Providence, having been so very good to his son in killing that other
heir, had put rather a heavy burden on himself. "He'll want a house
of his own, of course," he said, in a somewhat lachrymose tone.
"I suppose he'll spend a good deal of his time at Wharton."
"He won't be content to live in another man's house altogether, my
dear; and Sir Alured can allow him nothing. It means, of course, that
I must give him a thousand a year. It seems very natural to him, I
dare say, but he might have asked the question before he took a wife
to himself."
"You won't be angry with him, papa!"
"It's no good being angry. No;--I'm not angry. Only it seems that
everybody is uncommonly well pleased without thinking who has to pay
for the piper."
On that evening, at Wharton, Emily still wore her mourning dress. No
one, indeed, dared to speak to her on the subject, and Mary was even
afraid lest she might appear in black on the following day. We all
know in what condition is a house on the eve of a marriage,--how
the bride feels that all the world is going to be changed, and that
therefore everything is for the moment disjointed; and how the rest
of the household, including the servants, are led to share the
feeling. Everett was of course away. He was over at Longbarns with
the Fletchers, and was to be brought to Wharton Church on the
following morning. Old Mrs. Fletcher was at Wharton Hall,--and the
bishop, whose services had been happily secured. He was formally
introduced to Mrs. Lopez, the use of the name for the occasion being
absolutely necessary, and with all the smiling urbanity which as a
bishop he was bound to possess, he was hardly able not to be funereal
as he looked at her and remembered her story. Before the evening was
over Mrs. Fletcher did venture to give a hint. "We are so glad you
have come, my dear."
"I could not stay away when Everett said he wished it."
"It would have been wrong; yes, my dear,--wrong. It is your duty, and
the duty of us all, to subordinate our feelings to those of others.
Even sorrow may be selfish." Poor Emily listened but could make no
reply. "It is sometimes harder for us to be mindful of others in our
grief than in our joy. You should remember, dear, that there are some
who will never be light-hearted again till they see you smile."
"Do not say that, Mrs. Fletcher."
"It is quite true;--and right that you should think of it. It will
be particularly necessary that you should think of it to-morrow. You
will have to wear a light dress, and--"
"I have come provided," said the widow.
"Try then to make your heart as light as your frock. You will be
doing it for Everett's sake, and for your father's, and for Mary's
sake--and Arthur's. You will be doing it for the sake of all of us on
a day that should be joyous." She could not make any promise in reply
to this homily, but in her heart of hearts she acknowledged that it
was true, and declared to herself that she would make the effort
required of her.
On the following morning the house was of course in confusion. There
was to be a breakfast after the service, and after the breakfast the
bride was to be taken away in a carriage and four as far as Hereford
on her route to Paris;--but before the great breakfast there was
of course a subsidiary breakfast,--or how could bishop, bride, or
bridesmaids have sustained the ceremony? At this meal Emily did not
appear, having begged for a cup of tea in her own room. The carriages
to take the party to the church, which was but the other side of the
park, were ordered at eleven, and at a quarter before eleven she
appeared for the first time in her grey silk dress, and without a
widow's cap. Everything was very plain, but the alteration was so
great that it was impossible not to look at her. Even her father
had not seen the change before. Not a word was said, though old Mrs.
Fletcher's thanks were implied by the graciousness of her smile. As
there were four bridesmaids and four other ladies besides the bride
herself, in a few minutes she became obscured by the brightness of
the others;--and then they were all packed in their carriages and
taken to the church. The eyes which she most dreaded did not meet
hers till they were all standing round the altar. It was only then
that she saw Arthur Fletcher, who was there as her brother's best
man, and it was then that he took her hand and held it for half a
minute as though he never meant to part with it, hidden behind the
wide-spread glories of the bridesmaids' finery.
The marriage was as sweet and solemn as a kind-hearted bishop could
make it, and all the ladies looked particularly well. The veil from
London,--with the orange wreath, also metropolitan,--was perfect, and
as for the dress, I doubt whether any woman would have known it to be
provincial. Everett looked the rising baronet, every inch of him, and
the old barrister smiled and seemed, at least, to be well pleased.
Then came the breakfast, and the speech-making, in which Arthur
Fletcher shone triumphantly. It was a very nice wedding, and Mary
Wharton,--as she had been and still was,--felt herself for a moment
to be a heroine. But, through it all, there was present to the hearts
of most of them a feeling that much more was to be effected, if
possible, than this simple and cosy marriage, and that the fate of
Mary Wharton was hardly so important to them as that of Emily Lopez.
When the carriage and four was gone there came upon the household the
difficulty usual on such occasions of getting through the rest of the
day. The bridesmaids retired and repacked their splendours so that
they might come out fresh for other second-rate needs, and with the
bridesmaids went the widow. Arthur Fletcher remained at Wharton with
all the other Fletchers for the night, and was prepared to renew his
suit on that very day, if an opportunity were given him; but Emily
did not again show herself till a few minutes before dinner, and
then she came down with all the appurtenances of mourning which she
usually wore. The grey silk had been put on for the marriage ceremony
and for that only. "You should have kept your dress at any rate for
the day," said Mrs. Fletcher. She replied that she had changed it for
Everett, and that as Everett was gone there was no further need for
her to wear clothes unfitted to her position. Arthur would have cared
very little for the clothes could he have had his way with the woman
who wore them,--could he have had his way even so far as to have
found himself alone with her for half-an-hour. But no such chance was
his. She retreated from the party early, and did not show herself on
the following morning till after he had started for Longbarns.
All the Fletchers went back,--not, however, with any intention on the
part of Arthur to abandon his immediate attempt. The distance between
the houses was not so great but that he could drive himself over at
any time. "I shall go now," he said to Mr. Wharton, "because I have
promised John to fish with him to-morrow, but I shall come over
on Monday or Tuesday, and stay till I go back to town. I hope she
will at any rate let me speak to her." The father said he would do
his best, but that that obstinate resumption of her weeds on her
brother's very wedding day had nearly broken his heart.
When the Fletchers were back at Longbarns, the two ladies were very
severe on her. "It was downright obstinacy," said the squire's wife,
"and it almost makes me think it would serve her right to leave her
as she is."
"It's pride," said the old lady. "She won't give way. I said ever so
much to her,--but it's no use. I feel it the more because we have all
gone so much out of the way to be good to her after she had made such
a fool of herself. If it goes on much longer, I shall never forgive
her again."
"You'll have to forgive her, mother," said her eldest son, "let her
sins be what they may,--or else you'll have to quarrel with Arthur."
"I do think it's very hard," said the old lady, taking herself out of
the room. And it was hard. The offence in the first instance had been
very great, and the forgiveness very difficult. But Mrs. Fletcher had
lived long enough to know that when sons are thoroughly respectable a
widowed mother has to do their bidding.
Emily, through the whole wedding day, and the next day, and day after
day, remembered Mrs. Fletcher's words. "There are some who will
never be light-hearted again till they see you smile." And the old
woman had named her dearest friends, and had ended by naming Arthur
Fletcher. She had then acknowledged to herself that it was her duty
to smile in order that others might smile also. But how is one to
smile with a heavy heart? Should one smile and lie? And how long and
to what good purpose can such forced contentment last? She had marred
her whole life. In former days she had been proud of all her virgin
glories,--proud of her intellect, proud of her beauty, proud of that
obeisance which beauty, birth, and intellect combined, exact from all
comers. She had been ambitious as to her future life;--had intended
to be careful not to surrender herself to some empty fool;--had
thought herself well qualified to pick her own steps. And this had
come of it! They told her that she might still make everything right,
annul the past and begin the world again as fresh as ever,--if she
would only smile and study to forget! Do it for the sake of others,
they said, and then it will be done for yourself also. But she could
not conquer the past. The fire and water of repentance, adequate as
they may be for eternity, cannot burn out or wash away the remorse
of this life. They scorch and choke;--and unless it be so there is
no repentance. So she told herself,--and yet it was her duty to be
light-hearted that others around her might not be made miserable by
her sorrow! If she could be in truth light-hearted, then would she
know herself to be unfeeling and worthless.
On the third day after the marriage Arthur Fletcher came back to
Wharton with the declared intention of remaining there till the end
of the holidays. She could make no objection to such an arrangement,
nor could she hasten her own return to London. That had been fixed
before her departure and was to be made together with her father.
She felt that she was being attacked with unfair weapons, and that
undue advantage was taken of the sacrifice which she had made for
her brother's sake. And yet,--yet how good to her they all were!
How wonderful was it that after the thing she had done, after the
disgrace she had brought on herself and them, after the destruction
of all that pride which had once been hers, they should still
wish to have her among them! As for him,--of whom she was always
thinking,--of what nature must be his love, when he was willing to
take to himself as his wife such a thing as she had made herself!
But, thinking of this, she would only tell herself that as he would
not protect himself, she was bound to be his protector. Yes;--she
would protect him, though she could dream of a world of joy that
might be hers if she could dare to do as he would ask her.
He caught her at last and forced her to come out with him into the
grounds. He could tell his tale better as he walked by her side than
sitting restlessly on a chair or moving awkwardly about the room
as on such an occasion he would be sure to do. Within four walls
she would have some advantage over him. She could sit still and be
dignified in her stillness. But in the open air, when they would
both be on their legs, she might not be so powerful with him, and he
perhaps might be stronger with her. She could not refuse him when he
asked her to walk with him. And why should she refuse him? Of course
he must be allowed to utter his prayer,--and then she must be allowed
to make her answer. "I think the marriage went off very well," he
said.
"Very well. Everett ought to be a happy man."
"No doubt he will be,--when he settles down to something. Everything
will come right for him. With some people things seem to go smooth;
don't they? They have not hitherto gone smoothly with you and me,
Emily."
"You are prosperous. You have everything before you that a man can
wish, if only you will allow yourself to think so. Your profession is
successful, and you are in Parliament, and everyone likes you."
"It is all nothing."
"That is the general discontent of the world."
"It is all nothing,--unless I have you too. Remember that I had said
so long before I was successful, when I did not dream of Parliament;
before we had heard of the name of the man who came between me and
my happiness. I think I am entitled to be believed when I say so.
I think I know my own mind. There are many men who would have been
changed by the episode of such a marriage."
"You ought to have been changed by it,--and by its result."
"It had no such effect. Here I am, after it all, telling you as
I used to tell you before, that I have to look to you for my
happiness."
"You should be ashamed to confess it, Arthur."
"Never;--not to you, nor to all the world. I know what it has been.
I know you are not now as you were then. You have been his wife, and
are now his widow."
"That should be enough."
"But, such as you are, my happiness is in your hands. If it were not
so, do you think that all my family as well as yours would join in
wishing that you may become my wife? There is nothing to conceal.
When you married that man you know what my mother thought of it;
and what John thought of it, and his wife. They had wanted you to
be my wife; and they want it now,--because they are anxious for
my happiness. And your father wishes it, and your brother wishes
it,--because they trust me, and think that I should be a good husband
to you."
"Good!" she exclaimed, hardly knowing what she meant by repeating the
word.
"After that you have no right to set yourself up to judge what may
be best for my happiness. They who know how to judge are all united.
Whatever you may have been, they believe that it will be good for me
that you should now be my wife. After that you must talk about me no
longer, unless you will talk of my wishes."
"Do you think I am not anxious for your happiness?"
"I do not know;--but I shall find out in time. That is what I have to
say about myself. And as to you, is it not much the same? I know you
love me. Whatever the feeling was that overcame you as to that other
man,--it has gone. I cannot now stop to be tender and soft in my
words. The thing to be said is too serious to me. And every friend
you have wants you to marry the man you love and to put an end to the
desolation which you have brought on yourself. There is not one among
us all, Fletchers and Whartons, whose comfort does not more or less
depend on your sacrificing the luxury of your own woe."
"Luxury!"
"Yes; luxury. No man ever had a right to say more positively to a
woman that it was her duty to marry him, than I have to you. And I
do say it. I say it on behalf of all of us, that it is your duty. I
won't talk of my own love now, because you know it. You cannot doubt
it. I won't even talk of yours, because I am sure of it. But I say
that it is your duty to give up drowning us all in tears, burying us
in desolation. You are one of us, and should do as all of us wish
you. If, indeed, you could not love me it would be different. There!
I have said what I've got to say. You are crying, and I will not take
your answer now. I will come to you again to-morrow, and then you
shall answer me. But, remember when you do so that the happiness of
many people depends on what you say." Then he left her very suddenly
and hurried back to the house by himself.
He had been very rough with her,--had not once attempted to touch her
hand or even her arm, had spoken no soft word to her, speaking of
his own love as a thing too certain to need further words; and he
had declared himself to be so assured of her love that there was no
favour for him now to ask, nothing for which he was bound to pray as
a lover. All that was past. He had simply declared it to be her duty
to marry him, and had told her so with much sternness. He had walked
fast, compelling her to accompany him, had frowned at her, and had
more than once stamped his foot upon the ground. During the whole
interview she had been so near to weeping that she could hardly
speak. Once or twice she had almost thought him to be cruel;--but he
had forced her to acknowledge to herself that all that he had said
was true and unanswerable. Had he pressed her for an answer at the
moment she would not have known in what words to couch a refusal. And
yet as she made her way alone back to the house she assured herself
that she would have refused.
He had given her four-and-twenty hours, and at the end of that time
she would be bound to give him her answer,--an answer which must then
be final. And as she said this to herself she found that she was
admitting a doubt. She hardly knew how not to doubt, knowing, as she
did, that all whom she loved were on one side, while on the other
was nothing but the stubbornness of her own convictions. But still
the conviction was left to her. Over and over again she declared to
herself that it was not fit, meaning thereby to assure herself that
a higher duty even than that which she owed to her friends, demanded
from her that she should be true to her convictions. She met him that
day at dinner, but he hardly spoke to her. They sat together in the
same room during the evening, but she hardly once heard his voice.
It seemed to her that he avoided even looking at her. When they
separated for the night he parted from her almost as though they
had been strangers. Surely he was angry with her because she was
stubborn,--thought evil of her because she would not do as others
wished her! She lay awake during the long night thinking of it all.
If it might be so! Oh;--if it might be so! If it might be done
without utter ruin to her own self-respect as a woman!
In the morning she was down early,--not having anything to say,
with no clear purpose as yet before her,--but still with a feeling
that perhaps that morning might alter all things for her. He was
the latest of the party, not coming in for prayers as did all the
others, but taking his seat when the others had half finished their
breakfast. As he sat down he gave a general half-uttered greeting to
them all, but spoke no special word to any of them. It chanced that
his seat was next to hers, but to her he did not address himself at
all. Then the meal was over, and the chairs were withdrawn, and the
party grouped itself about with vague, uncertain movements, as men
and women do before they leave the breakfast table for the work of
the day. She meditated her escape, but felt that she could not leave
the room before Lady Wharton or Mrs. Fletcher,--who had remained
at Wharton to keep her mother company for a while. At last they
went;--but then, just as she was escaping, he put his hand upon her
and reminded her of her appointment. "I shall be in the hall in a
quarter of an hour," he said. "Will you meet me there?" Then she
bowed her head to him and passed on.
She was there at the time named and found him standing by the hall
door, waiting for her. His hat was already on his head and his back
was almost turned to her. He opened the door, and, allowing her to
pass out first, led the way to the shrubbery. He did not speak to her
till he had closed behind her the little iron gate which separated
the walk from the garden, and then he turned upon her with one word.
"Well?" he said. She was silent for a moment, and then he repeated
his eager question: "Well;--well?"
"I should disgrace you," she said, not firmly as before, but
whispering the words.
He waited for no other assent. The form of the words told him that he
had won the day. In a moment his arms were round her, and her veil
was off, and his lips were pressed to hers;--and when she could see
his countenance the whole form of his face was altered to her. It was
bright as it used to be bright in old days, and he was smiling on her
as he used to smile. "My own," he said;--"my wife--my own!" And she
had no longer the power to deny him. "Not yet, Arthur; not yet," was
all that she could say.