A RELAPSE
"He died," said Johnny, "of pneumonia. One of those quick cases, you
know. Cecilia's frightfully broken up--you can see it--although she
doesn't say anything."
"I'm sorry," said Stuyvesant.
"I never saw much in him," said John musingly, "but he had an awful
hold on a lot of people."
"Your sister cared for him, didn't she?" asked Stuyvesant, then added
bravely, "I think that assures his being unusual."
"Oh, I don't know," said John in a lazy way; "girls are
queer,--sometimes sentimental. He was good to her when she was tiny.
She always remembers things like that. I think she's kinda
sentimental."
Stuyvesant looked peculiar and grunted.
"Saw Tommy Dixon down town to-day," said John. A sudden flush spread
across Stuyvesant's face. His eyes were unpleasantly bitter. "Good
sport," continued John.
"I disagree," said Stuyvesant loudly. "Don't like him, nor his
rotten code." John looked on Stuyvesant speculatively. He reflected
that, after all, Stuyv didn't know it all, and that if he wore a
cassock he might have been taken for Father McGowan. His ideals were
very similar.
"Can't train with a Sunday school class," said John. "Live while
you're here, yuh know. Damned if I haven't been good lately!"
Stuyvesant was worried. Thus far his work had been easy, because of
John's adoring following. But,--were John to follow Tommy Dixon with
the same adoration,--then,--it _would_ be work! He thought, with an
inward sneer, of the smallness of the boy's measures for life. He
thought of his always following the new, and of his weak swaying, and
then he thought of who had asked his help.
"Come to dinner with me, John," he said, while he made mental
arrangement for the cancelling of another engagement.
"Don't mind," answered the old John, in his old tired-of-life manner.
"Got a date before dinner. Where'll I meet you?" Stuyvesant named a
club, and they parted. Stuyvesant went to his office. There were
several matters awaiting his attention, but he pushed them aside.
Across the room he saw Tommy Dixon's insolent face. On it was the
ever-present smile, that which shaded into a leer too easily....
"She says she can't forget his kisses," came with a touch of flame
across his tortured brain.
"God!" said K. Stuyvesant. "God!" He hid his eyes with his hands.
His breath came fast.
It was half after eight, and John was to have met him at eight.
Stuyvesant looked at his watch, and frowned. The day had been hard,
and had left small capacity for patience.... The mention of Tommy
Dixon had brought back a misery he'd hoped somewhat dulled (one
remembered by a stern control of thought, usually not more than once
a day).
Now John, after Stuyvesant's breaking an engagement,--was late. His
casual acceptance of Stuyvesant's hospitality brought a smile to that
gentleman's lips. He wondered if John thought he courted the
opportunity of hearing his rather young, and too often callow,
opinions stated with absolute assurance as truths?
At nine Stuyvesant shut his watch with a snap, and went out alone to
dinner. He was entirely out of humour. He allowed himself to
meditate largely on Tommy Dixon. It was torture--exactly fitted his
mood, and helped.
"Celie," said Jeremiah.
Celie stopped playing the chimes of a new "piece" of Jeremiah's
pattern.
"Celie," he went on, "I done that you asked."
"Doctor Van Dorn?" she asked in a whisper.
"Yes," answered Jeremiah. He blew his nose loudly. "_He_ asked me,
an' he asked me," Jeremiah explained, "an' I was that uppish!
Jeremiah,' he'd say, 'don't try to cast yourself for God. It won't
work,' an' I'd say, 'Is it going to rain, Father McGowan?' Just the
last time he come I seen him in the hall, an' he was pleadin' with
me; he sez, 'You can control his work. See that he does no harm, but
don't do more,' an' I sez, 'It's snowin' now, ain't it?' Oh, dear
Lordy! Ain't life one mess of regrets! One after the other,
spoilin' your digestion, an' makin' yuh kick around of nights! ... I
loved him too."
"Dear," said Cecilia, "he knew that!"
"Yuh think so, Celie?" asked Jeremiah wistfully. "Oh, yes!" she
answered. Her answer held an applied genuineness. It convinced
Jeremiah.
"I give him back his rotten little factory (I was losin' money on it,
anyway), and I wrote him a letter. I sez, 'Dear Sir----' An' I went
on telling him Father McGowan an' Gawd done it, not me. I sez I was
his well-wisher now, wishin' him all success, an' I sez not to get
funny in the hospital business on sick kids no more or I'd have him
jailed. The letter was friendly and Christian, all owing to Father
McGowan, who doesn't know it--God rest his soul!"
Cecilia was smiling tremulously. "You absolute darling!" she said.
She perched on the arm of his chair, and they sat in silence.
"After all," she said, "hurting this little man wouldn't bring mamma
her pink roses, would it, dear?"
Jeremiah's eyes snapped. In them was the look that certain
competitors, who scorned him socially, dreaded. "It brung me mine,"
he stated; "it brung me mine!" Cecilia laughed. A sudden lightness
of spirit, like the flash of day into dawn, was hers.
"Dear," she said, "I believe Father McGowan knows! I believe he
does!" Jeremiah kissed her and smoothed her golden hair with his
hand which would never become smooth. "You're like your maw," he
said. It was his greatest tribute. Cecilia clung to him with a
pathetic hunger.
"Miss Cecilia, the telephone," said the pompous person from the
doorway.
"Yes, sir; yes, sir," answered Jeremiah, "she's a-coming." Cecilia
went to an adjoining room. After her "yes" things swayed a bit. She
did not need his voice, which said, "This is Stuyvesant Twombly."
She knew. "Yes," she repeated.
"I _have_ to bother you," he said. "I've just had a message from
John. He's been a little hurt--just a little, Miss Cecilia, and he
wants you to come with me to where he is. He's a little hurt. You
won't worry? I'll stop for you in a moment, that is, if you'll come?"
"Oh, of course!" she answered; "but you're sure he's not really hurt?"
"Yes," he answered. "Do up well. It's cold." She hung up the
receiver, and stood a minute, hand over her thudding heart. She was
not thinking of John.
As for Stuyvesant, he hung up the receiver and swore loudly. He was
thinking of the 'phone message which had come from John, and of
John's small sister. "Stuyv," he had heard John say, "I'm up here at
the Eagles' View House. I had a bust-up. Get Celie and come. I'm
dying----" There had been a lull. "He's fainted," had come across
the wires in another tone. Stuyvesant's first amusement over the
last 'phone message faded suddenly. Perhaps John had made the
supreme effort and had managed to speak those few words? Then he
abandoned speculation and telephoned Cecilia. He had assured her
that John was not much hurt.... The gentle care of her was
instinctive. If John were right the other would come later.
With a doctor in the car they drew up before the Madden House. The
chauffeur was not off his seat before Stuyvesant was out and on the
steps. "Are you warmly enough dressed?" he asked of her.
"Yes, thank you. John?" she questioned.
"He telephoned me that he had a smash-up and that he wanted you. I
have a doctor; he may have some sprains or bruises," said Stuyvesant.
"It's so good of you," she responded. All of Marjory's hints had
gone. She felt his hand on her arm and felt from it a sweet sickness.
"Miss Cecilia, may I introduce Doctor Holt? Miss Madden----" After
that she settled, and felt rugs being wrapped around her.
Stuyvesant's hands lingered. They held a thrilling tenderness. "Are
they well around you?" he asked. Cecilia said they were, and
Stuyvesant drew a long breath. The doctor looked from one to the
other speculatively. He judged them lovers and himself in the way.
The girl was certainly entirely lovely--the soft type who asked for
gentleness in return for unbounded love. The way she looked at young
Twombly as he stared straight ahead was rather beautiful, thought the
doctor. She jumped as he spoke. "These gay young men and their
speeding," he had said.
"Oh, yes," said Cecilia, "aren't they fearful? I think they should
be reared without silly sisters to worry over them!"
The doctor agreed. He imagined young Madden to be a hard-muscled
fellow who liked sport. In speaking of speed, his only thought had
been mileage.
The car had left the city and was running with difficulty over a road
which was bad from a light snow.
"Miss Madden is skidding quite a bit (pardon me, Miss Madden) alone
on that back seat. You'd better get back there, Mr. Twombly," said
the doctor. He smiled. He thought he had done something very kind,
and done it neatly. Mr. Twombly stuttered something that sounded
like, "I'm glad; I'd be glad--pleased----" Cecilia stared agonizedly
ahead. The car made a turn, and, alone on the broad seat, she
swayed, slid half across the seat, bumped.
Stuyvesant turned his chair. "May I, Miss Cecilia, or the doctor?
We're going so fast. You'll be so jolted." In answer she turned
back the rug, and Stuyvesant settled by her. After that there was
quiet. Cecilia looked ahead, through steamed glass, at the ears of
Stuyvesant's chauffeur. Stuyvesant sneakingly looked at her.
"Only ten," said the doctor; "we're making good time."
"Pardon?" said Stuyvesant, and at the same time from Cecilia, "Excuse
me. I didn't hear." Under cover of the dark the doctor smiled.
Cecilia flushed, and Stuyvesant bit his lip. He clasped his hands
together very tightly, for he was afraid that if she looked toward
him he would put his arms around her and draw her close.
The doctor began to criticise the administration, as people always do
when they know little of the facts. Stuyvesant clutched the straw,
and argued hotly first on one side, and then the other. The doctor
was pleased, for K. Stuyvesant was illustrating a pet theory of his,
universal insanity. "Now if Van Dorn could hear this!" he reflected.
"Why, the man could be locked up! He's much worse than millions in
asylums!"
The car jolted, and turned. Cecilia swayed, and bumped against
Stuyvesant's arm. It slipped back of her protectingly, and closed
around her. "That was a jolt--" he said shortly, "these roads,--did
it jar you?"
"No," answered Cecilia, "thank you." His arm had been pulled away
with a jerk. Cecilia stared ahead at the chauffeur's ears. They
were large and floppy, and the whole world seemed like them, a
misfit. She felt chilled, alone, afraid. She wished the car would
jolt again. She wished so brazenly. She didn't care,--she did!
At the Eagles' View Cecilia was ushered up creaking stairs to a
cheap, little room. It was shabby, and hung with soiled cretonnes.
There were pictures on the walls, entitled "The Bathers,"--"Playful
Kittens,"--"A Surprise!" Some more lurid with titles impossible.
Stuyvesant had followed Cecilia and from the doorway, over her head,
he caught the impression. He had expected it, but it hurt cruelly.
His spirit was a mixture of longing to press her face against his
shoulder, and a great hankering to kick John.
"I'm dying!" gasped John.
"My dearest!" said Cecilia, and caught her breath sharply, then she
slipped to her knees by the bed. She put her arm beneath his head,
which was too low, and turned to Stuyvesant. "Where is the doctor?"
she asked. At that moment he appeared in the doorway. "Well, young
man," he, said, "speeding?"
"I'm going to die," answered John in gasps. Cecilia had grown very
white.
"Nonsense!" said the doctor. "Now if you people will just leave us
for a few moments----" He began to open his case as he spoke.
"Want me?" asked Stuyvesant.
"No," he was answered; "you take care of Miss Madden." The door
opened and a girl appeared. Her hair was streaked from bleach, and
dark at the roots; her expression insolently daring.
"How yuh feel, honey boy?" she asked of John. John turned away his
face. He looked sicker.
"One of your friends?" questioned Cecilia. John did not answer.
"Yes," replied the girl. "I'm Miss LeMain. Me and John have been
pals for this long while."
"I'm John's sister," said Cecilia, and held out her hand. Miss
LeMain took it with a limp and high gesture cultivated as "elegant."
"Pleased to meet yuh," she murmured, and then, "I'm glad you've came.
My nerves is that shook up! Mebbe the gent'man would get us
something to drink. My nerves is all shook. I feel fierce."
They descended the rickety stairs, the girls followed by Stuyvesant.
If John had been well something would have happened to him. As it
was Stuyvesant was fiercely protective of the small sister in a curt,
silent way. His anger was almost overpowering.... He thought of
Cecilia on her knees in that evil room. He thought of her gentle
treatment of Miss LeMain.... He was humbled by her sweetness, and
furious from its cause.
"Is he your gent'man friend?" asked Miss LeMain while Stuyvesant
ordered the drink. Cecilia shook her head.
"Thought he was. Seems like a cute fellah. Gawd, my nerves is
shook! Jacky speeds so! I sez, 'Jack, you'll do this trick once too
often!' an' he sez, 'I'm running this boat, girlie,' an' I sez some
more, an' then he kissed me; yuh know what a kidder he is! An' the
car a-running like that! Then the next thing she was over, an' I was
in a field. Jack was somewhere in the road. This ain't the _first_
accident I been in. I believe in a short life an' a merry one. All
my gent'men friends has cars. No Fords neither. I hope Jacky ain't
suffering. He's a sweet boy, an' some sport!" Cecilia's hands were
locked tightly together in her lap. Her eyes were tragic. "My
nerves is shook up fierce!" echoed Miss LeMain.
"I'm sorry," said Cecilia.
Stuyvesant had appeared in time to hear the last of the recital.
"You'd better go lie down," he said decidedly. "It will do you good,
and Miss Madden needs quiet."
"An' 'two's company, three's a crowd!' ain't that it?" questioned
Miss LeMain with a giggle. Her sally was not greeted with
enthusiasm. She left, terming Stuyvesant a grouch, and Cecilia
sweet, but lacking pep.
Alone, Stuyvesant stood looking down at Cecilia. His arm was on the
mantel. The shadows and lights from an open fireplace played on
them. The rest of the room in half dark brought them close.
Constraint was impossible because of the situation and Cecilia's
dependence on Stuyvesant.
"The money came too quickly," she said meeting his eyes. "John has
to spend it in the way that makes the most noise. I--I am so tired
of it! So bruised by it! I wish we were back in that little flat,
with John laying bricks as my father did. Perhaps then he would be a
good man. That is everything to me."
"He is going to be a good man, Cecilia," said Stuyvesant. Neither
noticed the use of her first name. "He will be a good man. This is
a relapse,--a recurrence of growing pains. There are good things in
him. When he's awake he has a sense of humour. That is a darn good
thing to have, you know. I think, next to God, it's the best thing a
man can own."
Cecilia pressed her handkerchief against her lips. "You will help
him again?" she whispered.
"I will," said Stuyvesant. He put out his hand in pledge and hers
was swallowed in his huge grasp. At the touch of her hand he gasped,
"Cecilia!" but she did not answer, for the doctor's step was heard on
the rickety stairs.
"Two broken ribs," he said; "scratch on his arm. Now we'll take him
home. He'll probably yell over the bumps, but I judge the yells will
do him good. Where's his companion? Send another car for her, or
take her along?"
"Send for her," said Stuyvesant.
"No," disagreed Cecilia, "if you don't mind, we'll take her. I think
it would be better." Stuyvesant looked annoyed, but sent the oily
proprietor to call the lady of the shook-up-nerves. She descended
immediately, wrapped in a large fur coat, and with a cerise motor
scarf about her head. "I couldn't get no rest," she called; "I'm all
fussy. How's Jacky darling?"
"_She_ isn't going with us?" said John at the top of the stairs. He
stopped and leaned heavily on Stuyvesant. "My God!" he exploded.
"Stuyv, she _can't_! Celie can't meet her! She can't! Tell her
we'll send a car. I don't want Celie to see her."
"They've been talking for half an hour," said Stuyvesant. "Your
sister insists on taking her in."
"Oh, Lord!" said John. "Oh, Lord!"
"Come along!" said Stuyvesant roughly.
"I really thought I was dying," said John in a shamed way.
"Shut up!" ordered Stuyvesant. "You make me sick!" They went down
with no more conversation.
"How are you, dear?" asked Cecilia.
"Oh, Celie!" said John. He reached for her hand and clung to it.
"Oh, Celie!" he echoed.
Until dawn Stuyvesant relived the night. The ride home had made the
deepest impression. A girl with a painted soul and face had
chattered loudly, and with a cheap sentiment reeking in her talk.
She had spoken often of "Jacky darling."
While Jacky darling, from shame and pain, had groaned in deep, shaky
groans, his head had lain on his sister's shoulder. On the other
side Stuyvesant had sat. The doctor had disposed of the case as
typical, and was thinking of an article which he'd just read in the
_Medical Journal_.
"Dearie," Fanchette LeMain had said, "your fur's open." She had
reached toward Cecilia's throat, but Stuyvesant reached first. He
fastened the clasp with shaking hands, and the back of one hand
touched her chin. Then he had sunk back to dream his impossible
dreams, and wonder why she should have cared. He knew he was a
duffer! But he was almost sure that she once had cared,--for him.