I gave a short laugh and turned to Aiken.

“That’s the first intelligent military order I’ve heard yet,” I said.

Aiken scowled at me fearfully, and Reeder and Heinze gasped. General

Laguerre had caught the words, and turned his eyes on me. Like the real

princess who could feel the crumpled rose-leaf under a dozen mattresses,

I can feel it in my bones when I am in the presence of a real soldier.

My spinal column stiffens, and my fingers twitch to be at my visor. In

spite of their borrowed titles, I had smelt out the civilian in Reeder

and had detected the non-commissioned man in Heinze, and just as surely

I recognized the general officer in Laguerre.

So when he looked at me my heels clicked together, my arm bent to my hat

and fell again to my trouser seam, and I stood at attention. It was as

instinctive as though I were back at the Academy, and he had confronted

me in the uniform and yellow sash of a major-general.

“And what do you know of military orders, sir,” he demanded, in a low

voice, “that you feel competent to pass upon mine?”

Still standing at attention, I said: “For the last three years I have

been at West Point, sir, and have listened to nothing else.”

“You have been at West Point?” he said, slowly, looking at me in

surprise and with evident doubt. “When did you leave the Academy?”

“Two weeks ago,” I answered. At this, he looked even more incredulous.

“How does it happen,” he asked, “if you are preparing for the army at

West Point, that you are now travelling in Honduras?”

“I was dismissed from the Academy two weeks ago,” I answered. “This was

the only place where there was any fighting, so I came here. I read that

you had formed a Foreign Legion, and thought that maybe you would let me

join it.”

General Laguerre now stared at me in genuine amazement. In his interest

in the supposed spy, he had forgotten the loss of his guns.

“You came from West Point,” he repeated, incredulously, “all the way to

Honduras--to join me!” He turned to the two officers. “Did he tell you

this?” he demanded.

They answered, “No,” promptly, and truthfully as well, for they had not

given me time to tell them anything.

“Have you any credentials, passports, or papers?” he said.

When he asked this I saw Reeder whisper eagerly to Heinze, and then walk

away. He had gone to search my trunk for evidence that I was a spy, and

had I suspected this I would have protested violently, but it did not

occur to me then that he would do such a thing.

“I have only the passport I got from the commandante at Porto Cortez,” I

said.

At the words Aiken gave a quick shake of the head, as a man does when he

sees another move the wrong piece on the chess-board. But when I

stared at him inquiringly his expression changed instantly to one of

interrogation and complete unconcern.

“Ah!” exclaimed Heinze, triumphantly, “he has a permit from the

Government.”

“Let me see it,” said the General.

I handed it to him, and he drew a camp-chair from the tent, and, seating

himself, began to compare me with the passport.

“In this,” he said at last, “you state that you are a commercial

traveller; that you are going to the capital on business, and that you

are a friend of the Government.”

I was going to tell him that until it had been handed me by Aiken, I had

known nothing of the passport, but I considered that in some way this

might involve Aiken, and so I answered:

“It was necessary to tell them any story, sir, in order to get into

the interior. I could not tell them that I was _not_ a friend of the

Government, nor that I was trying to join you.”

“Your stories are somewhat conflicting,” said the General. “You are led

to our hiding-place by a man who is himself under suspicion, and the

only credentials you can show are from the enemy. Why should I believe

you are what you say you are? Why should I believe you are not a spy?”

I could not submit to having my word doubted, so I bowed stiffly and did

not speak.

“Answer me,” the General commanded, “what proofs have I?”

“You have nothing but my word for it,” I said.

General Laguerre seemed pleased with that, and I believe he was really

interested in helping me to clear myself. But he had raised my temper by

questioning my word.

“Surely you must have something to identify you,” he urged.

“If I had I’d refuse to show it,” I answered. “I told you why I came

here. If you think I am a spy, you can go ahead and shoot me as a spy,

and find out whether I told you the truth afterward.”

The General smiled indulgently.

“There would be very little satisfaction in that for me, or for you,” he

said.

“I’m an officer and a gentleman,” I protested, “and I have a right to be

treated as one. If you serve every gentleman who volunteers to join

you in the way I have been served, I’m not surprised that your force is

composed of the sort you have around you.”

The General raised his head and looked at me with such a savage

expression that during the pause which ensued I was most uncomfortable.

“If your proofs you are an officer are no stronger than those you offer

that you are a gentleman,” he said, “perhaps you are wise not to show

them. What right have you to claim you are an officer?”

His words cut and mortified me deeply, chiefly because I felt I deserved

them.

“Every cadet ranks a non-commissioned man,” I answered.

“But you are no longer a cadet,” he replied. “You have been dismissed.

You told me so yourself. Were you dismissed honorably, or dishonorably?”

“Dishonorably,” I answered. I saw that this was not the answer he had

expected. He looked both mortified and puzzled, and glanced at Heinze

and Aiken as though he wished that they were out of hearing.

“What was it for--what was the cause of your dismissal?” he asked. He

now spoke in a much lower tone. “Of course, you need not tell me,” he

added.

“I was dismissed for being outside the limits of the Academy without a

permit,” I answered. “I went to a dance at a hotel in uniform.”

“Was that all?” he demanded, smiling.

“That was the crime for which I was dismissed,” I said, sulkily. The

General looked at me for some moments, evidently in much doubt. I

believe he suspected that I had led him on to asking me the reason for

my dismissal, in order that I could make so satisfactory an answer. As

he sat regarding me, Heinze bent over him and said something to him in

a low tone, to which he replied: “But that would prove nothing. He might

have a most accurate knowledge of military affairs, and still be an

agent of the Government.”

“That is so, General,” Heinze answered, aloud. “But it would prove

whether he is telling the truth about his having been at West Point. If

his story is false in part, it is probably entirely false, as I believe

it to be.”

“Captain Heinze suggests that I allow him to test you with some

questions,” the General said, doubtfully; “questions on military

matters. Would you answer them?”

I did not want them to see how eager I was to be put to such a test, so

I tried to look as though I were frightened, and said, cautiously,

“I will try, sir.” I saw that the proposition to put me through an

examination had filled Aiken with the greatest concern. To reassure him,

I winked covertly.

Captain Heinze glanced about him as though looking for a text.

“Let us suppose,” he said, importantly, “that you are an

inspector-general come to inspect this camp. It is one that I myself

selected; as adjutant it is under my direction. What would you report as

to its position, its advantages and disadvantages?”

I did not have to look about me. Without moving from where I stood,

I could see all that was necessary of that camp. But I first asked,

timidly: “Is this camp a temporary one, made during a halt on the march,

or has it been occupied for some days?”

“We have been here for two weeks,” said Heinze.

“Is it supposed that a war is going on?” I asked, politely; “I mean, are

we in the presence of an enemy?”

“Of course,” answered Heinze. “Certainly we are at war.”

“Then,” I said, triumphantly, “in my report I should recommend that the

officer who selected this camp should be court-martialled.”

Heinze gave a shout of indignant laughter, and Aiken glared at me as

though he thought I had flown suddenly mad, but Laguerre only frowned

and waved his hand impatiently.

“You are bold, sir,” he said, grimly; “I trust you can explain

yourself.”

I pointed from the basin in which we stood, to the thickly wooded hills

around us.

“This camp has the advantage of water and grass,” I said. I spoke

formally, as though I were really making a report. “Those are its only

advantages. Captain Heinze has pitched it in a hollow. In case of an

attack, he has given the advantage of position to the enemy. Fifty

men could conceal themselves on those ridges and fire upon you as

effectively as though they had you at the bottom of a well. There are no

pickets out, except along the trail, which is the one approach the enemy

would not take. So far as this position counts, then,” I summed up, “the

camp is an invitation to a massacre.”

I did not dare look at the General, but I pointed at the guns at his

side. “Your two field-pieces are in their covers, and the covers are

strapped on them. It would take three minutes to get them into action.

Instead of being here in front of the tent, they should be up there on

those two highest points. There are no racks for the men’s rifles or

ammunition belts. The rifles are lying on the ground and scattered

everywhere--in case of an attack the men would not know where to lay

their hands on them. It takes only two forked sticks and a ridge-pole

with nicks in it, to make an excellent gun-rack, but there is none of

any sort. As for the sanitary arrangements of the camp, they are _nil_.

The refuse from the troop kitchen is scattered all over the place, and

so are the branches on which the men have been lying. There is no way

for them to cross that stream without their getting their feet wet; and

every officer knows that wet feet are worse than wet powder. The place

does not look as though it had been policed since you came here. It’s a

fever swamp. If you have been here two weeks, it’s a wonder your whole

force isn’t as rotten as sheep. And there!” I cried, pointing at the

stream which cut the camp in two--“there are men bathing and washing

their clothes up-stream, and those men below them are filling buckets

with water for cooking and drinking. Why have you no water-guards?

You ought to have a sentry there, and there. The water above the first

sentry should be reserved for drinking, below him should be the place

for watering your horses, and below the second sentry would be the water

for washing clothes. Why, these things are the A, B, C, of camp life.”

For the first time since I had begun to speak, I turned on Heinze and

grinned at him.

“How do you like my report on your camp?” I asked. “Now, don’t you agree

with me that you should be court-martialled?” Heinze’s anger exploded

like a shell.

“You should be court-martialled yourself!” he shouted. “You are

insulting our good General. For me, I do not care. But you shall not

reflect upon my commanding officer, for him I--”

“That will do, Captain Heinze,” Laguerre said, quietly. “That will do,

thank you.” He did not look up at either of us, but for some time sat

with his elbow on his knee and with his chin resting in the palm of his

hand, staring at the camp. There was a long, and, for me, an awkward

silence. The General turned his head and stared at me. His expression

was exceedingly grave, but without resentment.

“You are quite right,” he said, finally. Heinze and Aiken moved

expectantly forward, anxious to hear him pass sentence upon me. Seeing

this he raised his voice and repeated: “You are quite right in what you

say about the camp. All you say is quite true.”

He leaned forward with his elbows on his knees, and, as he continued

speaking with his face averted, it was as though he were talking to

himself.

“We grow careless as we grow older,” he said, “One grows less difficult

to please.” His tone was that of a man excusing himself to himself. “The

old standards, the old models, pass away and--and failures, failures

come and dull the energy.” His voice dropped into a monotone; he seemed

to have forgotten us entirely.

It must have been then that for the first time I saw the wistful look

come into his eyes, and suddenly felt deeply sorry for him and wished

that I might dare to tell him so. I was not sorry for any act or speech

of mine. They had attacked me, and I had only defended myself. I was not

repentant for anything I had said; my sorrow was for what I read in the

General’s eyes as he sat staring out into the valley. It was the saddest

and loneliest look that I had ever seen. There was no bitterness in

it, but great sadness and weariness and disappointment, and above all,

loneliness, utter and complete loneliness.

He glanced up and saw me watching him, and for a moment regarded me

curiously, and then, as though I had tried to force my way into his

solitude, turned his eyes quickly away.

I had forgotten that I was a suspected spy until the fact was recalled

to me at that moment by the reappearance of Major Reeder. He came

bustling past me, carrying as I saw, to my great indignation, the sword

which had been presented to my grandfather, and which my grandfather had

given to me. I sprang after him and twisted it out of his hand.

“How dare you!” I cried. “You have opened my trunk! How dare you pry

into my affairs? General Laguerre!” I protested. “I appeal to you, sir.”

“Major Reeder,” the General demanded, sharply, “what does this mean?”

“I was merely seeking evidence, General,” said Reeder. “You asked for

his papers, and I went to look for them.”

“I gave you no orders to pry into this gentleman’s trunk,” said the

General. “You have exceeded your authority. You have done very ill, sir.

You have done very ill.”

While the General was reproving Reeder, his eyes, instead of looking at

the officer, were fixed upon my sword. It was sufficiently magnificent

to attract the attention of anyone, certainly of any soldier. The

scabbard was of steel, wonderfully engraved, the hilt was of ivory, and

the hilt-guard and belt fastenings were all of heavy gold. The General’s

face was filled with appreciation.

“You have a remarkably handsome sword there,” he said, and hesitated,

courteously, “--I beg your pardon, I have not heard your name?”

I was advancing to show the sword to him, when my eye fell upon the

plate my grandfather had placed upon it, and which bore the inscription:

“To Royal Macklin, on his appointment to the United States Military

Academy, from his Grandfather, John M. Hamilton, Maj. Gen. U.S.A.”

“My name is Macklin, sir,” I said, “Royal Macklin.” I laid the sword

lengthwise in his hands, and then pointed at the inscription. “You will

find it there,” I said. The General bowed and bent his head over the

inscription and then read the one beside it. This stated that the sword

had been presented by the citizens of New York to Major-General John

M. Hamilton in recognition of his distinguished services during the war

with Mexico. The General glanced up at me in astonishment.

“General Hamilton!” he exclaimed. “General John Hamilton! Is that--was

he your grandfather?”

I bowed my head, and the General stared at me as though I had

contradicted him.

“But, let me tell you, sir,” he protested, “that he was my friend.

General Hamilton was my friend for many years. Let me tell you, sir,”

he went on, excitedly, “that your grandfather was a brave and courteous

gentleman, a true friend and--and a great soldier, sir, a great soldier.

I knew your grandfather well. I knew him well.” He rose suddenly, and,

while still holding the sword close to him, shook my hand.

“Captain Heinze,” he said, “bring out a chair for Mr. Macklin.” He did

not notice the look of injury with which Heinze obeyed this request.

But I did, and I enjoyed the spectacle, and as Heinze handed me the

camp-chair I thanked him politely. I could afford to be generous.

The General was drawing the sword a few inches from its scabbard and

shoving it back, again, turning it over in his hands.

“And to think that this is John Hamilton’s sword,” he said, “and that

you are John Hamilton’s grandson!” As the sword lay across his knees he

kept stroking it and touching it as one might caress a child, glancing

up at me from time to time with a smile. It seemed to have carried him

back again into days and scenes to which we all were strangers, and

we watched him without speaking. He became suddenly conscious of our

silence, and, on looking up, seemed to become uncomfortably aware of the

presence of Aiken and the two officers.

“That will do, gentlemen,” he said. “You will return with Mr. Aiken

after roll-call.” The officers saluted as they moved away, with Aiken

between them. He raised his eyebrows and tapped himself on the chest. I

understood that he meant by this that I was to say a good word for

him, and I nodded. When they had left us the General leaned forward and

placed his hand upon my shoulder.

“Now tell me,” he said. “Tell me everything. Tell me what you are doing

here, and why you ran away from home. Trust me entirely, and do not be

afraid to speak the whole truth.”

I saw that he thought I had left home because I had been guilty of some

wildness, if not of some crime, and I feared that my story would prove

so inoffensive that he would think I was holding something back. But his

manner was so gentle and generous that I plunged in boldly. I told

him everything; of my life with my grandfather, of my disgrace at the

Academy, of my desire, in spite of my first failure, to still make

myself a soldier. And then I told him of how I had been disappointed and

disillusioned, and how it had hurt me to find that this fight seemed so

sordid and the motives of all engaged only mercenary and selfish. But

once did he interrupt me, and then by an exclamation which I mistook for

an exclamation of disbelief, and which I challenged quickly. “But it

is true, sir,” I said. “I joined the revolutionists for just that

reason--because they were fighting for their liberty and because they

had been wronged and were the under-dogs in the fight, and because

Alvarez is a tyrant. I had no other motive. Indeed, you must believe me,

sir,” I protested, “or I cannot talk to you. It is the truth.”

“The truth!” exclaimed Laguerre, fiercely; and as he raised his eyes I

saw that they had suddenly filled with tears. “It is the first time I

have heard the truth in many years. It is what I have preached myself

for half a lifetime; what I have lived for and fought for. Why, here,

now,” he cried, “while I have been sitting listening to you, it was as

though the boy I used to be had come back to talk to me, bringing my old

ideals, the old enthusiasm.” His manner and his tone suddenly altered,

and he shook his head and placed his hand almost tenderly upon my own.

“But I warn you,” he said, “I warn you that you are wrong. You have

begun young, and there is yet time for you to turn back; but if you hope

for money, or place, or public favor, you have taken the wrong road. You

will be a rolling-stone among milestones, and the way is all down

hill. I began to fight when I was even younger than you. I fought for

whichever party seemed to me to have the right on its side. Sometimes I

have fought for rebels and patriots, sometimes for kings, sometimes for

pretenders. I was out with Garibaldi, because I believed he would give a

republic to Italy; but I fought against the republic of Mexico, because

its people were rotten and corrupt, and I believed that the emperor

would rule them honestly and well. I have always chosen my own side,

the one which seemed to me promised the most good; and yet, after

thirty years, I am where you see me to-night. I am an old man without

a country, I belong to no political party, I have no family, I have no

home. I have travelled over all the world looking for that country which

was governed for the greater good of the greater number, and I have

fought only for those men who promised to govern unselfishly and as the

servants of the people. But when the fighting was over, and they were

safe in power, they had no use for me nor my advice. They laughed, and

called me a visionary and a dreamer. ‘You are no statesman, General,’

they would say to me. ‘Your line is the fighting-line. Go back to it.’

And yet, when I think of how the others have used their power, I believe

that I could have ruled the people as well, and yet given them more

freedom, and made more of them more happy.”

The moon rose over the camp, and the night grew chill; but still we

sat, he talking and I listening as I had used to listen when I sat at

my grandfather’s knee and he told me tales of war and warriors. They

brought us coffee and food, and we ate with an ammunition-box for a

table, he still talking and I eager to ask questions, and yet fearful of

interrupting him. He told of great battles which had changed the history

of Europe, of secret expeditions which had never been recorded even

in his own diary, of revolutions which after months of preparation

had burst forth and had been crushed between sunset and sunrise; of

emperors, kings, patriots, and charlatans. There was nothing that I

had wished to do, and that I had imagined myself doing, that he had not

accomplished in reality--the acquaintances he had made among the leaders

of men, the adventures he had suffered, the honors he had won, were

those which to me were the most to be desired.

{Illustration: The moon rose over the camp ... but still we sat.}

The scene around us added color to his words. The moonlight fell on

ghostly groups of men seated before the camp-fires, their faces glowing

in the red light of the ashes; on the irregular rows of thatched

shelters and on the shadowy figures of the ponies grazing at the

picket-line. All the odors of a camp, which to me are more grateful than

those of a garden, were borne to us on the damp night-air; the clean

pungent smell of burning wood, the scent of running water, the smell of

many horses crowded together and of wet saddles and accoutrements. And

above the swift rush of the stream, we could hear the ceaseless pounding

of the horses’ hoofs on the turf, the murmurs of the men’s voices, and

the lonely cry of the night-birds.

It was past midnight when the General rose, and my brain rioted with the

pictures he had drawn for me. Surely, if I had ever considered turning

back, I now no longer tolerated the thought of it. If he had wished to

convince me that the life of a soldier of fortune was an ungrateful one

he had set about proving it in the worst possible way. At that moment I

saw no career so worthy to be imitated as his own, no success to be so

envied as his failures. And in the glow and inspiration of his talk, and

with the courage of a boy, I told him so. I think he was not ill pleased

at what I said, nor with me. He seemed to approve of what I had related

of myself, and of the comments I had made upon his reminiscences. He had

said, again and again: “That is an intelligent question,” “You have put

your finger on the real weakness of the attack,” “That was exactly the

error in his strategy.”

When he turned to enter his tent he shook my hand. “I do not know when I

have talked so much,” he laughed, “nor,” he added, with grave courtesy,

“when I have had so intelligent a listener. Good-night.”

Throughout the evening he had been holding my sword, and as he entered

the tent he handed it to me.

“Oh, I forgot,” he said. “Here is your sword, Captain.”

The flaps of the tent fell behind him, and I was left outside of them,

incredulous and trembling.

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