the city. He thought he understood his business fairly, and the outlook
was not discouraging. He had a little money well invested; his life was
simple; and, beyond the having nothing to do, he was not anxious. He had
thought of farming as a last resort; but there was rather a wide
difference between tossing over laces and following the plow.
"Not that I dread hard work, but I do not love the _solitude_ of country
life. 'A wise man is never less alone than when he is alone,' Swift
writes; but I am not a wise man, nor a wild beast. I love men and the
homes of men, the business of men, the opportunities that I find among
men."
She had not replied to this letter; what a talk they would have over it!
She had learned Hollis; she knew him by heart; she could talk to him now
almost as easily as she could write. These years of writing had been a
great deal to both of them. They had educated each other.
The last time Mrs. West had seen Hollis she had wondered how she had ever
dared speak to him as she had spoken that morning in the kitchen. Had
she effected anything? She was not sure that they were engaged; she had
"talked it over" with his mother, and that mother was equally in the
dark.
"I know what his intentions are," confided Marjorie's mother "I know he
means to have her, for he told me so."
"He has never told me so," said Hollis' mother.
"You haven't asked him," suggested Mrs. West comfortably.
"Have _you_?"
"I made an opportunity for it to be easy for him to tell me."
"I don't know how to make opportunities," returned Mrs. Rheid with some
dignity.
"Everybody doesn't," was the complacent reply.
Marjorie had had a busy day arranging household matters for her mother
while she should be gone, and was dozing with her head nestled in the
soft folds of the shawl when her mother's step aroused her.
"Child, you are asleep and letting the fire go down."
"Am I?" she asked drowsily, "the room _is_ cold."
She wrapped the shawl about her more closely and nestled into it again.
"Perhaps Hollis will come home with you," her mother began, drawing her
own especial chair nearer the fire and settling down as if for a long
conversation.
"Mother, you will be chilly;" and, with the instinct that her mother must
be taken care of, she sprang up with her eyes still half asleep and
attended to the fire.
The dry chips soon kindled a blaze, and she was wide awake with the flush
of sleep in her cheeks.
"Why do you think he will?" she asked.
"It looks like it. Mrs. Rheid ran over to-day to tell me that the Captain
had offered to give him fifty acres and build him a house, if he would
come home for good."
"I wonder if he will like it."
"You ought to know," in a suggestive tone.
"I am not sure. He does not like farming."
"A farm of his own may make a difference. And a house of his own. I
suppose the Captain thinks he is engaged to you."
Mrs. West was rubbing her thumb nail and not looking at Marjorie.
Marjorie was playing with a chip, thrusting it into the fire and bringing
it out lighted as she and Linnet used to like to do.
"Marjorie, _is_ he?"
"No, ma'am," answered Marjorie, the corners of her lips twitching.
"I'd like to know why he isn't," with some asperity.
"Perhaps he knows," suggested Marjorie, looking at her lighted chip. It
was childish; but she must be doing something, if her mother would insist
upon talking about Hollis.
"Do _you_ know?"
Marjorie dropped her chip into the stove and looked up at the broad
figure in the wooden rocker--a figure in a black dress and gingham apron,
with a neat white cap covering her gray hair, a round face, from which
Marjorie had taken her roundness and dimples, a shrewd face with a
determined mouth and the kindliest eyes that ever looked out upon the
world. Marjorie looked at her and loved her.
"Mother, do you want to know? I haven't anything to tell you."
"Seems to me he's a long time about it."
Marjorie colored now, and, rising from her seat in front of the fire,
wrapped the shawl again around her.
"Mother, dear, I'm not a child now; I am a woman grown."
"Too old to be advised," sighed her mother.
"I don't know what I need to be advised about."
"People never do. It is more than three years ago that he told me that he
had never thought of any one but you."
"Why should he tell you that?" Marjorie's tone could be sharp as well as
her mother's.
"I was talking about you. I said you were not well--I was afraid you were
troubled--and he told me--that."
"Troubled about _what_?" Marjorie demanded.
"About his not answering your letter," in a wavering voice.
The words had to come; Mrs. West knew that Marjorie would have her
answer.
"And--after that--he asked me--to write to him. Mother, mother, you do
not know what you have done!"
Marjorie fled away in the dark up to her own little chamber, threw
herself down on the bed without undressing, and lay all night, moaning
and weeping.
She prayed beside; she could not be in trouble and not give the first
breath of it to the Lord. Hollis had asked her to write because of what
her mother had said to him. He believed--what did he believe?
"O, mother! mother!" she moaned, "you are so good and so lovely, and yet
you have hurt me so. How could you? How could you?"
While the clock in Mrs. Kemlo's room was striking six, a light flashed
across her eyes. Her mother stood at the bedside with a lighted candle in
her hand.
"I was afraid you would oversleep. Why, child! Didn't you undress?
Haven't you had anything but that quilt over you?"
"Mother, I am not going; I never want to see Hollis again," cried
Marjorie weakly.
"Nonsense child," answered her mother energetically.
"It is not nonsense. I will not go to New York."
"What will they all think?"
"I will write that I cannot come. I could not travel to-day; I have not
slept at all."
"You look so. But you are very foolish. Why should he not speak to me
first?"
"It was your speaking to him first. What must he think of me! O, mother,
mother, how could you?"
The hopeless cry went to her mother's heart.
"Marjorie, I believe the Lord allows us to be self-willed. I have not
slept either; but I have sat up by the fire. Your father used to say that
we would not make haste if we trusted, and I have learned that it is so.
All I have done is to break your heart."
"Not quite that, poor mother. But I shall never write to Hollis again."
Mrs. West turned away and set the candle on the bureau. "But I can," she
said to herself.
"Come down-stairs where it is warm, and I'll make you a cup of coffee.
I'm afraid you have caught your death of cold."
"I _am_ cold," confessed Marjorie, rising with a weak motion.
Her new gray travelling dress was thrown over a chair, her small trunk
was packed, even her gloves were laid out on the bureau beside her
pocket-book.
"Linnet has counted on it so," sighed her mother.
"Mother!" rising to her feet and standing by the bedside. "I will go.
Linnet shall not be disappointed."
"That's a good child! Now hurry down, and I'll hurry you off," said her
mother, in her usual brisk tone.
An hour and a half later Mrs. West kissed Marjorie's pale lips, and bade
her stay a good while and have a good time. And before she washed up the
breakfast dishes she put on a clean apron, burnished her glasses, and sat
down to write to Hollis. The letter was as plain as her talk had been. He
had understood then, he should understand now. But with Marjorie would be
the difficulty; could he manage her?
XXX.
THE COSEY CORNER.
"God takes men's hearty desires and will instead of the deed where they
have not the power to fulfill it; but he never took the bare deed instead
of the will."--_Richard Baxter_.
Prue opened the door, and sprang into Marjorie's arms in her old,
affectionate way; and Marjorie almost forgot that she was not in Maple
Street, when she was led into the front parlor; there was as much of the
Maple Street parlor in it as could be well arranged. Hollis was there on
the hearth rug, waiting modestly in the background for his greeting;
he had not been a part of Maple Street. The greeting he waited for was
tardy in coming, and was shy and constrained, and it seemed impossible to
have a word with her alone all the evening: she was at the piano, or
chatting in the kitchen with old Deborah, or laughing with Prue, or
asking questions of Linnet, and when, at last, Mr. Holmes took her
upstairs to show her his study, he said good night abruptly and went
away.
Marjorie chided herself for her naughty pride and passed another
sleepless night; in the morning she looked so ill that the plans for the
day were postponed, and she was taken into Mrs. Holmes own chamber to be
petted and nursed to sleep. She awoke in the dusk to find Aunt Prue's
dear face beside her.
"Aunt Prue," she said, stretching up her hands to encircle her neck, "I
don't know what to do."
"I do. Tell me."
"Perhaps I oughtn't to. It's mother's secret."
"Suppose I know all about it."
"You can't! How can you?"
"Lie still," pushing her back gently among the pillows, "and let me tell
you."
"I thought I was to tell you."
"A while ago the postman brought me a note from your mother. She told me
that she had confessed to you something she told me last summer."
"Oh," exclaimed Marjorie, covering her face with both hands, "isn't it
too dreadful!"
"I think your mother saw clearly that she had taken your life into her
own hands without waiting to let God work for you and in you. I assured
her that I knew all about that dark time of yours, and she wept some very
sorrowful tears to think how heartbroken you would be if you knew.
Perhaps she thought you ought to know it; she is not one to spare
herself; she is even harder upon herself than upon other sinners."
"But, Aunt Prue, what ought I to do now? What can I do to make it right?"
"Do you want to meddle?"
"No, oh no; but it takes my breath away. I'm afraid he began to write to
me again because he thought I wanted him to."
"Didn't you want him to?"
"Yes--but not--but not as mother thought I did. I never once asked God to
give him back to me; and I should if I had wanted it very much, because I
always ask him for everything."
"Your pride need not be wounded, poor little Marjorie! Do you remember
telling Hollis about your dark time, that night he met you on your way
from your grandfather's?"
"Yes; I think I do. Yes, I know I told him; for he called me 'Mousie,'
and he had not said that since I was little; and with it he seemed to
come back to me, and I was not afraid or timid with him after that."
"You wrote me about the talk, and he has told me about it since. To be
frank, Marjorie, he told me about the conversation with your mother, and
how startled he was. After that talk with you he was assured that she was
mistaken--but, child, there was no harm, no sin--even if it had been
true. The only sin I find was your mother's want of faith in making
haste. And she sees it now and laments it. She says making haste has been
the sin of her lifetime. Her unbelief has taken that form. You were very
chilly to Hollis last night."
"I couldn't help it," said Marjorie. "I would not have come if I could
have stayed at home."
"Is that proud heart satisfied now?"
"Perhaps it oughtn't to be--if it is proud."
"We will not argue about it now as there's somebody waiting for you
down-stairs."
"I don't want to see him--now."
"Suppose he wants to see you."
"Aunt Prue! I wish I could be selfish just a few minutes."
"You may. A whole hour. You may be selfish up here all by yourself until
the dinner bell rings."
Marjorie laughed and drew the lounge afghan up about her shoulders. She
was so happy that she wanted to go to sleep;--to go to sleep and be
thankful. But the dinner bell found her in the parlor talking to Linnet;
Prue and Hollis were chattering together in French. Prue corrected his
pronunciation and promised to lend him books.
The most inviting corner in the house to Marjorie was a cosey corner in
the library; she found her way thither after dinner, and there Hollis
found her, after searching parlors, dining-room, and halls for her. The
cosey corner itself was an arm-chair near the revolving bookcase; Prue
said that papa kept his "pets" in that bookcase.
Marjorie had taken a book into her hand and was gathering a thought here
and there when Hollis entered; he pushed a chair to her side, and,
seating himself, took the book from her fingers.
"Marjorie, I have come to ask you what to do?"
"About your father's offer?"
"Yes. I should have written to-day. I fancy how he watches the mail. But
I am in a great state of indecision. My heart is not in his plan."
"Is your heart in buying and selling laces?"
"I don't see why you need put it that way," he returned, with some
irritation. "Don't you like my business?"
"Do you?"
"I like what it gives me to do."
"I should not choose it if I were a man."
"What would you choose?"
"I have not considered sufficiently to choose, I suppose. I should want
to be one of the mediums through which good passed to my neighbor."
"What would you choose for me to do?"
"The thing God bids you do."
"That may be to buy and sell laces."
"It may be. I hope it was while you were doing it."
"You mean that through this offer of father's God may be indicating his
will."
"He is certainly giving you an opportunity to choose."
"I had not looked upon it in that light. Marjorie, I'm afraid the thought
of his will is not always as present with me as with you."
"I used to think I needed money, like Aunt Prue, if I would bless my
neighbor; but once it came to me that Christ through his _poverty_ made
us rich: the world's workers have not always been the men and the women
with most money. You see I am taking it for granted that you do not
intend to decide for yourself, or work for yourself."
"No; I am thinking of working for you."
"I am too small a field."
"But you must be included."
"I can be one little corner; there's all Middlefield beside. Isn't there
work for you as a citizen and as a Christian in our little town? Suppose
you go to Middlefield with the same motives that you would go on a
mission to India, Africa, or the Isles of the Sea! You will not be sent
by any Board of Commissioners for Foreign Missions, but by him who has
sent you, his disciple, into the world. You have your experience, you
have your strength, you have your love to Christ and your neighbor, to
give them. They need everything in Middlefield. They need young men,
Christian young men. The village needs you, the Church needs you. It
seems too bad for all the young men to rush away from their native place
to make a name, or to make money. Somebody must work for Middlefield. Our
church needs a lecture room and a Sunday school room; the village needs a
reading room--the village needs more than I know. It needs Christian
_push_. Perhaps it needs Hollis Rheid."
"Marjorie, it will change all my life for me."
"So it would if you should go West, as you spoke last night of doing. If
you should study law, as you said you had thought of doing, that would
change the course of your life. You can't do a new thing and keep to the
old ways."
"If I go I shall settle down for life."
"You mean you will settle down until you are unsettled again."
"What will unsettle me?"
"What unsettled you now?"
"Circumstances."
"Circumstances will keep on being in existence as long as we are in
existence. I never forget a motto I chose for my birthday once on a time.
'The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.'"
"He commands us to fight, sometimes."
"And then we must fight. You seem to be undergoing some struggles now.
Have you any opening here?"
"I answered an advertisement this morning, but we could not come to
terms. Marjorie, what you say about Middlefield is worth thinking of."
"That is why I said it," she said archly.
"Would _you _like that life better?"
"Better for you?"
"No, better for yourself."
"I am there already, you know," with rising color.
"I believe I will write to father and tell him I will take his kindness
into serious consideration."
"There is no need of haste."
"He will want to begin to make plans. He is a great planner. Marjorie! I
just thought of it. We will rent Linnet's house this summer--or board
with her, and superintend the building of our own, Do you agree to that?"
"You haven't taken it into serious consideration yet."
"Will it make any difference to you--my decision? Will you share my
life--any way?"
Prue ran in at that instant, Linnet following. Hollis arose and walked
around among the books. Prue squeezed herself into Marjorie's broad
chair; and Linnet dropped herself on the hassock at Marjorie's feet, and
laid her head in Marjorie's lap.
There was no trouble in Linnet's face, only an accepted sorrow.
"Marjorie, will you read to us?" coaxed Prue. "Don't you know how you
used to read in Maple Street?"
"What do you feel like listening to?"
"Your voice," said Prue, demurely.
XXXI.
AND WHAT ELSE?
"What is the highest secret of victory and peace?
To will what God wills."--_W.R. Alger_.
And now what further remains to be told?
Would you like to see Marjorie in her new home, with Linnet's chimneys
across the fields? Would you like to know about Hollis' success as a
Christian and a Christian citizen in his native town? Would you like to
see the proud, indulgent grandmothers the day baby Will takes his
first steps? For Aunt Linnet named him, and the grandfather declares "she
loves him better than his mother, if anything!"
One day dear Grandma West came to see the baby, and bring him some
scarlet stockings of her own knitting; she looked pale and did not feel
well, and Marjorie persuaded her to remain all night.
In the morning Baby went into her chamber to awaken her with a kiss; but
her lips were cold, and she would not open her eyes. She had gone home,
as she always wanted to go, in her sleep.
That summer Mrs. Kemlo received a letter from her elder daughter; she was
ill and helpless; she wanted her mother, and the children wanted her.
"They _need_ me now," she said to Marjorie, with a quiver of the lip,
"and nobody else seems to. When one door is shut another door is opened."
And then the question came up, what should Linnet and Marjorie do with
their father's home? And then the Holmeses came to Middlefield for
the summer in time to solve the problem. Mrs. Holmes would purchase it
for their summer home; and, she whispered to Marjorie, "When Prue marries
the medical student that papa admires so much, we old folks will settle
down here and be grandpa and grandma to you all."
In time Linnet gave up "waiting for Will," and began to think of him as
waiting for her. And, in time, they all knew God's will concerning them;
as you may know if you do the best you can before you see it clearly.
THE END.
End of Project Gutenberg's Miss Prudence, by Jennie Maria (Drinkwater) Conklin