Illustrated by FINLAY

_I smelled the trouble the moment I stepped on

the lift and took the long ride up the side of

the "Lachesis." There was something wrong. I

couldn't put my finger on it but_

five years in the Navy gives a man a feeling for these things. From the

outside the ship was beautiful, a gleaming shaft of duralloy, polished

until she shone. Her paint and brightwork glistened. The antiradiation

shields on the gun turrets and launchers were folded back exactly

according to regulations. The shore uniform of the liftman was spotless

and he stood at his station precisely as he should. As the lift moved

slowly up past no-man's country to the life section, I noted a work

party hanging precariously from a scaffolding smoothing out meteorite

pits in the gleaming hull, while on the catwalk of the gantry standing

beside the main cargo hatch a steady stream of supplies disappeared into

the ship's belly.

I returned the crisp salutes of the white-gloved sideboys, saluted the

colors, and shook hands with an immaculate ensign with an O.D. badge on

his tunic.

"Glad to have you aboard, sir," the ensign said.

"I'm Marsden," I said. "Lieutenant Thomas Marsden. I have orders posting

me to this ship as Executive."

"Yes, sir. We have been expecting you. I'm Ensign Halloran."

"Glad to meet you, Halloran."

"Skipper's orders, sir. You are to report to him as soon as you come

aboard."

Then I got it. Everything was SOP. The ship wasn't taut, she was tight!

And she wasn't happy. There was none of the devil-may-care spirit that

marks crews in the Scouting Force and separates them from the stodgy

mass of the Line. Every face I saw on my trip to the skipper's cabin was

blank, hard-eyed, and unsmiling. There was none of the human noise that

normally echoes through a ship, no laughter, no clatter of equipment, no

deviations from the order and precision so dear to admirals' hearts.

This crew was G.I. right down to the last seam tab on their uniforms.

Whoever the skipper was, he was either bucking for another cluster or a

cold-feeling automaton to whom the Navy Code was father, mother, and

Bible.

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The O.D. stopped before the closed door, executed a mechanical right

face, knocked the prescribed three times and opened the door smartly on

the heels of the word "Come" that erupted from the inside. I stepped in

followed by the O.D.

"Commander Chase," the O.D. said. "Lieutenant Marsden."

Chase! Not Cautious Charley Chase! I could hardly look at the man behind

the command desk. But look I did--and my heart did a ninety degree dive

straight to the thick soles of my space boots. No wonder this ship was

sour. What else could happen with Lieutenant Commander Charles Augustus

Chase in command! He was three classes up on me, but even though he was

a First Classman at the time I crawled out of Beast Barracks, I knew

him well. Every Midshipman in the Academy knew him--Rule-Book

Charley--By-The-Numbers Chase--his nicknames were legion and not one of

them was friendly. "Lieutenant Thomas Marsden reporting for duty," I

said.

He looked at the O.D. "That'll be all, Mr. Halloran," he said.

"Aye, sir," Halloran said woodenly. He stepped backward, saluted,

executed a precise about face and closed the hatch softly behind him.

* * * * *

"Sit down, Marsden," Chase said. "Have a cigarette."

He didn't say, "Glad to have you aboard." But other than that he was

Navy right down to the last parenthesis. His voice was the same dry

schoolmaster's voice I remembered from the Academy. And his face was the

same dry gray with the same fishy blue eyes and rat trap jaw. His hair

was thinner, but other than that he hadn't changed. Neither the war nor

the responsibilities of command appeared to have left their mark upon

him. He was still the same lean, undersized square-shouldered blob of

nastiness.

I took the cigarette, sat down, puffed it into a glow, and looked around

the drab 6 x 8 foot cubicle called the Captain's cabin by ship designers

who must have laughed as they laid out the plans. It had about the room

of a good-sized coffin. A copy of the Navy Code was lying on the desk.

Chase had obviously been reading his bible.

"You are three minutes late, Marsden," Chase said. "Your orders direct

you to report at 0900. Do you have any explanation?"

"No, sir," I said.

"Don't let it happen again. On this ship we are prompt."

"Aye, sir," I muttered.

He smiled, a thin quirk of thin lips. "Now let me outline your duties,

Marsden. You are posted to my ship as Executive Officer. An Executive

Officer is the Captain's right hand."

"So I have heard," I said drily.

"Belay that, Mr. Marsden. I do not appreciate humor during duty hours."

You wouldn't, I thought.

"As I was saying, Marsden, Executive Officer, you will be responsible

for--" He went on and on, covering the Code--chapter, book and verse on

the duties of an Executive Officer. It made no difference that I had

been Exec under Andy Royce, the skipper of the "Clotho," the ship with

the biggest confirmed kill in the entire Fleet Scouting Force. I was

still a new Exec, and the book said I must be briefed on my duties. So

"briefed" I was--for a solid hour.

Feeling angry and tired, I finally managed to get away from Rule Book

Charley and find my quarters which I shared with the Engineer. I knew

him casually, a glum reservist named Allyn. I had wondered why he always

seemed to have a chip on his shoulder. Now I knew.

He was lying in his shock-couch as I came in. "Welcome, sucker," he

greeted me. "Glad to have you aboard."

"The feeling's not mutual," I snapped.

"What's the matter? Has the Lieutenant Commander been rolling you out on

the red carpet?"

"You could call it that," I said. "I've just been told the duties of an

Exec. Funny--no?"

He shook his head. "Not funny. I feel for you. He told me how to be an

engineer six months ago." Allyn's thin face looked glummer than usual.

"Did I ever tell you about our skip--captain?" Allyn went on. "Or do I

have to tell you? I see you're wearing an Academy ring."

"You can't tell me much I haven't already heard," I said coldly. I don't

like wardroom gossips as a matter of policy. A few disgruntled men on a

ship can shoot morale to hell, and on a ship this size the Exec is the

morale officer. But I was torn between two desires. I wanted Allyn to go

on, but I didn't want to hear what Allyn had to say. I was like the

proverbial hungry mule standing halfway between two haystacks of equal

size and attractiveness. And like the mule I would stand there turning

my head one way and the other until I starved to death.

But Allyn solved my problem for me. "You haven't heard _this_," he said

bitterly. "The whole crew applied for transfer when we came back to base

after our last cruise. Of course, they didn't get it, but you get the

idea. Us reservists and draftees get about the same consideration as the

Admiral's dog--No! dammit!--Less than the dog. They wouldn't let a mangy

cur ship out with Gutless Gus."

Gutless Gus! that was a new one. I wondered how Chase had managed to

acquire that sobriquet.

* * * * *

"It was on our last patrol," Allyn went on, answering my question before

I asked it. "We were out at maximum radius when the detectors showed a

disturbance in normal space. Chase ordered us down from Cth for a quick

look--and so help me, God, we broke out right in the middle of a Rebel

supply convoy--big, fat, sitting ducks all around us. We got off about

twenty Mark VII torpedoes before Chase passed the word to change over.

We scooted back into Cth so fast we hardly knew we were gone. And then

he raises hell with Detector section for not identifying every class of

ship in that convoy!

"And when Bancroft, that's the Exec whom you've relieved, asked for a

quick check to confirm our kills, Chase sat on him like a ton of brick.

'I'm not interested in how many poor devils we blew apart back there,'

our Captain says. 'Our mission is to scout, to obtain information about

enemy movements and get that information back to Base. We cannot

transmit information from a vaporized ship, and that convoy had a naval

escort. Our mission cannot be jeopardized merely to satisfy morbid

curiosity. Request denied. And, Mr. Bancroft, have Communications

contact Fleet. This information should be in as soon as possible.' And

then he turned away leaving Bancroft biting his fingernails. He wouldn't

even push out a probe--scooted right back into the blue where we'd be

safe!

"You know, we haven't had one confirmed kill posted on the list since

we've been in space. It's getting so we don't want to come in any more.

Like the time--the 'Atropos' came in just after we touched down. She was

battered--looked like she'd been through a meat grinder, but she had ten

confirmed and six probable, and four of them were escorts! Hell! Our

boys couldn't hold their heads up. The 'Lachesis' didn't have a mark on

her and all we had was a few possible hits. You know how it

goes--someone asks where you're from. You say the 'Lachesis' and they

say 'Oh, yes, the cruise ship.' And that's that. It's so true you don't

even feel like resenting it."

I didn't like the bitter note in Allyn's voice. He was a reservist,

which made it all the worse. Reservists have ten times the outside

contacts we regulars do. In general when a regular and reservist tangle,

the Academy men close ranks like musk-oxen and meet the challenge with

an unbroken ring of horns. But somehow I didn't feel like ringing up.

I kept hoping there was another side to the story. I'd check around and

find out as soon as I got settled. And if there was another side, I was

going to take Allyn apart as a malicious trouble-maker. I felt sick to

my stomach.

* * * * *

We spent the next three days taking on stores and munitions, and I was

too busy supervising the stowage and checking manifests to bother about

running down Allyn's story. I met the other officers--Lt. Pollard the

gunnery officer, Ensign Esterhazy the astrogator, and Ensign Blakiston.

Nice enough guys, but all wearing that cowed, frustrated look that

seemed to be a "Lachesis" trademark. Chase, meanwhile, was up in Flag

Officer's Country picking up the dope on our next mission. I hoped that

Allyn was wrong but the evidence all seemed to be in his favor. Even

more than the officers, the crew was a mess underneath their clean

uniforms. From Communications Chief CPO Haskins to Spaceman Zelinski

there was about as much spirit in them as you'd find in a punishment

detail polishing brightwork in Base Headquarters. I'm a cheerful soul,

and usually I find no trouble getting along with a new command, but this

one was different. They were efficient enough, but one could see that

their hearts weren't in their work. Most crews preparing to go out are

nervous and high tempered. There was none of that here. The men went

through the motions with a mechanical indifference that was frightening.

I had the feeling that they didn't give a damn whether they went or

not--or came back or not. The indifference was so thick you could cut it

with a knife. Yet there was nothing you could put your hand on. You

can't touch people who don't care.

Four hours after Chase came back, we lifted gravs from Earth. Chase was

sitting in the control chair, and to give him credit, we lifted as

smooth as a silk scarf slipping through the fingers of a pretty woman.

We hypered at eight miles and swept up through the monochromes of Cth

until we hit middle blue, when Chase slipped off the helmet, unfastened

his webbing, and stood up.

"Take over, Mr. Marsden," he said. "Lay a course for Parth."

"Aye, sir," I replied, slipping into the chair and fastening the web. I

slipped the helmet on my head and instantly I was a part of the ship.

It's a strange feeling, this synthesis of man and metal that makes a

fighting ship the metallic extension of the Commander's will. I was

conscious of every man on duty. What they saw I saw, what they heard I

heard, through the magic of modern electronics. The only thing missing

was that I couldn't feel what they felt, which perhaps was a mercy

considering the condition of the crew. Using the sensor circuits in the

command helmet, I let my perception roam through the ship, checking the

engines, the gun crews, the navigation board, the galley--all the

manifold stations of a fighting ship. Everything was secure, the ship

was clean and trimmed, the generators were producing their megawatts of

power without a hitch, and the converters were humming contentedly,

keeping us in the blue as our speed built to fantastic levels.

I checked the course, noted it was true, set the controls on standby and

relaxed, half dozing in the chair as Lume after Lume dropped astern with

monotonous regularity.

An hour passed and Halloran came up to relieve me. With a sigh of relief

I surrendered the chair and headset. The unconscious strain of being in

rapport with ship and crew didn't hit me until I was out of the chair.

But when it did, I felt like something was crushing me flat. Not that I

didn't expect it, but the "Lachesis" was worse than the "Clotho" had

ever been.

I had barely hit my couch when General Quarters sounded. I smothered a

curse as I pounded up the companionway to my station at the bridge.

Chase was there, stopwatch in hand, counting the seconds.

"Set!" Halloran barked.

"Fourteen seconds," Chase said. "Not bad. Tell the crew well done." He

put the watch in his pocket and walked away.

I picked up the annunciator mike and pushed the button. "Skipper says

well done," I said.

"He got ten seconds out of us once last trip," Halloran said. "And he's

been trying to repeat that fluke ever since. Bet you a munit to an 'F'

ration that he'll be down with the section chief trying to shave off

another second or two. Hey!--what's that--oh ..." He looked at me.

"Disturbance in Cth yellow, straight down--shall we go?"

"Stop ship," I ordered. "Sound general quarters." There was no

deceleration. We merely swapped ends as the alarm sounded, applied full

power and stopped. That was the advantage of Cth--no inertia. We

backtracked for three seconds and held in middle blue.

* * * * *

"What's going on?" Chase demanded as he came up from below. His eyes

raked the instruments. "Why are we stopped?"

"Disturbance in Cth yellow, sir," I said. "We're positioned above it."

"Very good, Mr. Marsden." He took the spare helmet from the Exec's

chair, clapped it on, fiddled with the controls for a moment, nodded,

and took the helmet off. "Secure and resume course," he said. "That's

the 'Amphitrite'--fleet supply and maintenance. One of our people."

"You sure, sir?" I asked, and then looked at the smug grin on Halloran's

face and wished I hadn't asked.

"Of course," Chase said. "She's a three converter job running at full

output. Since the Rebels have no three converter ships, she has to be

one of ours. And since she's running at full output and only in Cth

yellow, it means she's big, heavy, and awkward--which means a

maintenance or an ammunition supply ship. There's an off phase beat in

her number two converter that gives a twenty cycle pulse to her pattern.

And the only heavy ship in the fleet with this pattern is 'Amphitrite.'

You see?"

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