CHAPTER XVII

After the Ten Commandments have been spoken, conscience becomes

less something inherent than something acquired. It is now a point

of view, differing widely, as the ignorant man differs from the

educated. You and I will agree upon the Ten Commandments; but

perhaps we will refuse to accept the other's interpretation of the

ramifications. I step on my neighbour's feet, return and apologize

because my acquired conscience orders me to do so; whereas you

might pass on without caring if your neighbour hopped about on one

foot. The inherent conscience keeps most of us away from jail, from

court, from the gallows; the acquired conscience helps us to

preserve the little amenities of daily life. So then, the acquired

is the livelier phase, being driven into action daily; whereas the

inherent may lie dormant for months, even years.

To Spurlock, in this hour, his conscience stood over against the

Ten Commandments, one of which he had broken. He became primitive,

literal in his conception; the ramifications were, for the nonce,

fairly relegated to limbo. He could not kiss Ruth because the

acquired conscience--struggling on its way to limbo--made the idea

repellant. Analysis would come later, when the primitive

conscience, satisfied, would cease to dominate his thought and

action.

Since morning he had become fanatical; the atoms of common sense no

longer functioned in the accustomed groove. And yet he knew clearly

and definitely what he purposed to do, what the future would be.

This species of madness cannot properly be attributed to his

illness, though its accent might be. For a time he would be the

grim Protestant Flagellant, pursuing the idea of self-castigation.

That he was immolating Ruth on the altar of his conscience never

broke in upon his thought for consideration. The fanatic has no

such word in his vocabulary.

Ruth had not expected to be kissed; so the omission passed unnoted.

For her it was sufficient to know that somebody wanted her, that

never again would she be alone, that always this boy with the

dreams would be depending upon her.

A strange betrothal!--the primal idea of which was escape! The

girl, intent upon abrogating for ever all legal rights of the

father in the daughter, of rendering innocuous the thing she had

now named the Terror: the boy, seeking self-crucifixion in

expiation of his transgression, changing a peccadillo into

damnation!

It was easy for Ruth to surrender to the idea, for she believed she

was loved; and in gratitude it was already her determination to

give this boy her heart's blood, drop by drop, if he wanted it. To

her, marriage would be a buckler against the two evils which

pursued her.

There was nothing on the Tablets of Moses that forebade Spurlock

marrying Ruth; there were no previous contracts. And yet, Spurlock

was afraid of the doctor; so was Ruth. They agreed that they must

marry at once, this morning, before the doctor could suspect what

was toward. The doctor would naturally offer a hundred objections;

he might seriously interfere; so he must be forestalled.

What marriage really meant (aside from the idea of escape), Ruth

had not the least conception, no more than a child. If she had any

idea at all, it was something she dimly recalled from her books:

something celestially beautiful, with a happy ending. But the

clearly definite thing was the ultimate escape. Wherein she

differed but little from her young sisters.

That is what marriage is to most young women: the ultimate escape

from the family, from the unwritten laws that govern children.

Whether they are loved or unloved has no bearing upon this desire

to test their wings, to try this new adventure, to take this leap

into the dark.

Spurlock possessed a vigorous intellect, critical, disquisitional,

creative; and yet he saw nothing remarkable in the girl's readiness

to marry him! An obsession is a blind spot.

"We must marry at once! The doctor may put me on the boat and force

you to remain behind, otherwise."

"And you want me to find a minister?" she asked, with ready

comprehension.

"That's it!"--eagerly. "Bring him back with you. Some of the hotel

guests can act as witnesses. Make haste!"

Ruth hurried off to her own room. Before she put on her sun-helmet,

she paused before the mirror. Her wedding gown! She wondered if the

spirit of the unknown mother looked down upon her.

"All I want is to be happy!" she said aloud, as if she were asking

for something of such ordinary value that God would readily accord

it to her because there was so little demand for the commodity.

Thrilling, she began to dance, swirled, glided, and dipped.

Whenever ecstasy--any kind of ecstasy--filled her heart to

bursting, these physical expressions eased the pressure.

Fate has two methods of procedure--the sudden and the

long-drawn-out. In some instances she tantalizes the victim for

years and mocks him in the end. In others, she acts with the speed

and surety of the loosed arrow. In the present instance she did not

want any interference; she did not want the doctor's wisdom to edge

in between these two young fools and spoil the drama. So she brought

upon the stage the Reverend Henry Dolby, a preacher of means,

worldly-wise and kindly, cheery and rotund, who, with his wife and

daughter, had arrived at the Victoria that morning. Ruth met him in

the hall as he was following his family into the dining room. She

recognized the cloth at once, waylaid him, and with that directness

of speech particularly hers she explained what she wanted.

"To be sure I will, my child. I will be up with my wife and

daughter after lunch."

"We'll be waiting for you. You are very kind." Ruth turned back

toward the stairs.

Later, when the Reverend Henry Dolby entered the Spurlock room, his

wife and daughter trailing amusedly behind him, and beheld the

strained eagerness on the two young faces, he smiled inwardly and

indulgently. Here were the passionate lovers! What their past had

been he neither cared nor craved to know. Their future would be

glorious; he saw it in their eyes; he saw it in the beauty of their

young heads. Of course, at home there would have been questions.

Were the parents agreeable? Were they of age? Had the license been

procured? But here, in a far country, only the velvet manacles of

wedlock were necessary.

So, forthwith, without any preliminaries beyond introductions, he

began the ceremony; and shortly Ruth Enschede became Ruth Spurlock,

for better or for worse. Spurlock gave his full name and

tremblingly inscribed it upon the certificate of marriage.

The customary gold band was missing; but a soft gold Chinese ring

Spurlock had picked up in Singapore--the characters representing

good luck and prosperity--was slipped over Ruth's third finger.

"There is no fee," said Dolby. "I am very happy to be of service to

you. And I wish you all the happiness in the world."

Mrs. Dolby was portly and handsome. There were lines in her face

that age had not put there. Guiding this man of hers over the

troubled sea of life had engraved these lines. He was the true

optimist; and that he should proceed, serenely unconscious of reefs

and storms, she accepted the double buffets.

This double buffetting had sharpened her shrewdness and insight.

Where her husband saw only two youngsters in the mating mood, she

felt that tragedy in some phase lurked in this room--if only in the

loneliness of these two, without kith or kin apparently, thousands

of miles from home. Not once during the ceremony did the two look

at each other, but riveted their gaze upon the lips of the man who

was forging the bands: gazed intensively, as if they feared the

world might vanish before the last word of the ceremony was spoken.

Spurlock relaxed, suddenly, and sank deeply into his pillows. Ruth

felt his hand grow cold as it slipped from hers. She bent down.

"You are all right?"--anxiously.

"Yes ... but dreadfully tired."

Mrs. Dolby smiled. It was the moment for smiles. She approached

Ruth with open arms; and something in the way the child came into

that kindly embrace hurt the older woman to the point of tears.

These passers-by who touch us but lightly and are gone, leaving the

eternal imprint! So long as she lived, Ruth would always remember

that embrace. It was warm, shielding, comforting, and what was

more, full of understanding. It was in fact the first embrace of

motherhood she had ever known. Even after this woman had gone, it

seemed to Ruth that the room was kindlier than it had ever been.

Inexplicably there flashed into vision the Chinese wedding

procession in the narrow, twisted streets of the city, that first

day: the gorgeous palanquin, the tom-toms, the weird music, the

ribald, jeering mob that trailed along behind. It was surely odd

that her thought should pick up that picture and recast it so

vividly.

At half after five that afternoon the doctor and his friend

McClintock entered the office of the Victoria.

"It's a great world," was the manager's greeting.

"So it is," the doctor agreed. "But what, may I ask, arouses the

thought?"

The doctor was in high good humour. Within forty-eight hours the

girl would be on her way east and the boy see-sawing the South

China Sea, for ever moving at absolute angles.

"Then you haven't heard?"

"Of what?"

"Well, well!" cried the manager, delighted at the idea of

surprising the doctor. "Miss Enschede and Mr. Spurlock--for that's

his real name--were married at high noon."

Emptiness; that was the doctor's initial sensation: his vitals had

been whisked out of him and the earth from under his feet. All his

interest in Ruth, all his care and solicitude, could now be

translated into a single word--love. Wanted her out of the way

because he had been afraid of her, afraid of himself! He, at

fifty-four! Then into this void poured a flaming anger, a blind and

unreasoning anger. He took the first step toward the stairs, and

met the restraining hand of McClintock.

"Steady, old top! What are you going to do?"

"The damned scoundrel!"

"I told you that child was opal."

"She? My God, the pity of it! She knows nothing of life. She no

more realizes what she has done than a child of eight. Marriage!

... without the least conception of the physical and moral

responsibilities! It's a crime, Mac!"

"But what can you do?" McClintock turned to the manager. "'It was

all perfectly legal?

"My word for it. The Reverend Henry Dolby performed the cermony,

and his wife and daughter were witnesses."

"When you heard what was going on, why didn't you send for me?"

"I didn't know it was going on. I heard only after it was all

over."

"If he could stand on two feet, I'd break every bone in his

worthless body!"

McClintock said soothingly: "But that wouldn't nullify the

marriage, old boy. I know. Thing's upset you a bit. Go easy."

"But, Mac . . . !"

"I understand," interrupted McClintock. Then, in a whisper: "But

there's no reason why the whole hotel should."

The doctor relaxed. "I've got to see him; but I'll be reasonable.

I've got to know why. And what will they do, and where will they

go?"

"With me--the both of them. So far as I'm concerned, nothing could

please me more. A married man!--the kind I've never been able to

lure down there! But keep your temper in check. Don't lay it all to

the boy. The girl is in it as deeply as he is. I'll wait for you

down here."

When the doctor entered the bedroom and looked into the faces of

the culprits, he laughed brokenly. Two children, who had been

caught in the jam-closet: ingratiating smiles, back of which lay

doubt and fear.

Ruth came to him directly. "You are angry?"

"Very. You don't realize what you have done."

"My courage gave out. The thought of going back!--the thought of

the unknown out there!--" with a tragic gesture toward the east. "I

couldn't go on!"

"You'll need something more than courage now. But no more of that.

What is done cannot be undone. I want to talk to Mr. Spurlock. Will

you leave us for a few minutes?"

"You are not going to be harsh?"

"I wish to talk about the future."

"Very well."

She departed reluctantly. The doctor walked over to the bed, folded

his arms across his chest and stared down into the unabashed eyes

of his patient.

"Do you realize that you are several kinds of a damned scoundrel?"

he began. This did not affect Spurlock. "Your name is Spurlock?"

"It is."

"Why did you use the name of Taber?"

"To keep my real name out of the mess I expected to make of myself

over here."

"That's frank enough," the doctor admitted astonishedly. So far the

boy's mind was clear. "But to drag this innocent child into the

muck! With her head full of book nonsense--love stories and fairy

stories! Have you any idea of the tragedy she is bound to stumble

upon some day? I don't care about you. The world is known to you. I

can see that you were somebody, in another day. But this child! ...

It's a damnable business!"

"I shall defend her and protect her with every drop of blood in my

body!" replied the Flagellant.

The intensity of the eyes and the defiant tone bewildered the

doctor, who found his well-constructed jeremiad without a platform.

So he was forced to shift and proceed at another angle, forgetting

his promise to McClintock to be temperate.

"When I went through your trunk that first night, I discovered an

envelope filled with manuscripts. Later, at the bottom of that

envelope I found a letter."

"To be opened in case of my death," added Spurlock. From under his

pillow he dragged forth the key to the trunk. "Here, take this and

get the letter and open and read it. Would you tell her ... now?"

his eyes flaming with mockery.

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