CHAPTER LXXIII.

Si ad honestatem nati sumus ea aut sola expetenda est, aut certe omni

pondere gravior est habenda quam reliqua omnia.--Tully.

Cas. Brutus, I do observe you now of late: I have not from your eyes

that gentleness, And shew of love as I was wont to have.--Julius

Caesar.

I rose at my usual early hour; sleep had tended to calm, and, I hope,

also, to better my feelings. I had now leisure to reflect, that I had

not embraced my party from any private or interested motive; it was not,

therefore, from a private or interested motive that I was justified in

deserting it. Our passions are terrible sophists! When Vincent had told

me, the day before, that it was from men, not measures, that I was to

change, and that such a change could scarcely deserve the name, my heart

adopted the assertion, and fancied it into truth.

I now began to perceive the delusion; were government as mechanically

perfect as it has never yet been (but as I trust it may yet be), it

would signify little who were the mere machines that regulated its

springs: but in a constitution like ours, the chief character of

which--pardon me, ye De Lolmites--is its uncertainty; where men

invariably make the measures square to the dimensions of their own

talent or desire; and where, reversing the maxim of the tailor, the

measures so rarely make the men; it required no penetration to see how

dangerous it was to entrust to the aristocratic prejudice of Lincoln,

or the vehement imbecility of Lesborough, the execution of the very same

measures which might safely be committed to the plain sense of Dawton,

and, above all, to the great and various talents of his coadjutors. But

what made the vital difference between the two parties was less in the

leaders than the body. In the Dawton faction, the best, the purest, the

wisest of the day were enrolled; they took upon themselves the origin

of all the active measures, and Lord Dawton was the mere channel through

which those measures flowed; the plain, the unpretending, and somewhat

feeble character of Lord Dawton’s mind, readily conceded to the abler

components of his party, the authority it was so desirable that they

should exert. In Vincent’s party, with the exception of himself, there

was scarcely an individual with the honesty requisite for loving the

projects they affected to propose, or the talents that were necessary

for carrying them into effect, even were their wishes sincere; nor were

either the haughty Lincoln, or his noisy and overbearing companion,

Lesborough, at all of a temper to suffer that quiet, yet powerful

interference of others, to which Dawton unhesitatingly submitted.

I was the more resolved to do all possible justice to Dawton’s party,

from the inclination I naturally had to lean towards the other; and

in all matters, where private pique or self-interest can possibly

penetrate, it has ever been the object of my maturer consideration to

direct my particular attention to that side of the question which such

undue partizans are the least likely to espouse. While I was gradually,

but clearly, feeling my way to a decision, I received the following note

from Guloseton:--

“I said nothing to you last night of what is now to be the subject of

my letter, lest you should suppose it arose rather from the heat of an

extempore conviviality, than its real source, viz. a sincere esteem for

your mind, a sincere affection for your heart, and a sincere sympathy in

your resentment and your interest.

“They tell me that Lord Dawton’s triumph or discomfiture rests entirely

upon the success of the motion upon--, brought before the House of

Commons, on the--. I care, you know, very little for my own part, which

way this question is decided; do not think, therefore, that I make any

sacrifice when I request you to suffer me to follow your advice in the

disposal of my four votes. I imagine, of course, that you would wish

them to adopt the contrary side to Lord Dawton; and upon receiving a

line from you to that effect, they shall be empowered to do so.

“Pray, oblige me also by taking the merit of this measure upon yourself,

and saying (wherever it may be useful to you), how entirely, both the

voters and their influence are at your disposal. I trust we shall yet

play the Bel to this Dragon, and fell him from his high places.

“Pity me, my dear friend; I dine out to-day, and feel already, by an

intuitive shudder, that the soup will be cold, and the sherry hot.

Adieu.

“Ever your’s,

“Guloseton.”

Now, then, my triumph, my vanity, and my revenge might be fully

gratified. I had before me a golden opportunity of displaying my own

power, and of humbling that of the minister. My heart swelled high at

the thought. Let it be forgiven me, if, for a single moment, my previous

calculations and morality vanished from my mind, and I saw only the

offer of Vincent, and the generosity of Guloseton. But I checked the

risings of my heart, and compelled my proud spirit to obedience.

I placed Guloseton’s letter before me, and as I read it once more in

order to reply to it, the disinterested kindness and delicacy of one,

whom I had long, in the injustice of my thoughts, censured as selfish,

came over me so forcibly, and contrasted so deeply with the hollowness

of friends more sounding, alike in their profession and their creeds,

that the tears streamed fast and gushingly from my eyes.

A thousand misfortunes are less affecting than a single kindness.

I wrote, in answer, a warm and earnest letter of thanks for an offer,

the judicious kindness of which penetrated me to the soul. I detailed,

at some length, the reasons which induced me to the decision I had

taken; I sketched also the nature of the very important motion about

to be brought before the House, and deduced from that sketch the

impossibility of conscientiously opposing Lord Dawton’s party in

the debate. I concluded with repeating the expressions my gratitude

suggested, and after declining all interference with Lord Guloseton’s

votes, ventured to add, that had I interfered, it would have been in

support of Dawton; not as a man, but a minister--not as an individual

friend, but a public servant.

I had just despatched this letter, when Vincent entered: I acquainted

him, though in the most respectful and friendly terms, with my

determination. He seemed greatly disappointed, and endeavoured to shake

my resolution; finding this was in vain, he appeared at last satisfied,

and even affected with my reasons. When we parted, it was with a

promise, confirmed by both, that no public variance should ever again

alter our private opinions of each other.

When I was once more alone, and saw myself brought back to the very foot

of the ladder I had so far and so fortunately climbed; when I saw

that, in rejecting all the overtures of my friends, I was left utterly

solitary and unaided among my foes--when I looked beyond and saw no

faint loophole of hope, no single stepping-stone on which to recommence

my broken, but unwearied career--perhaps one pang of regret and

repentance, at my determination, came across me: but there is something

marvellously restorative in a good conscience, and one soon learns to

look with hope to the future, when one can feel justified in turning

with pride to the past.

My horse came to the door at my usual hour for riding: with what

gladness I sprung upon his back, felt the free wind freshening over my

fevered cheek, and turned my rein towards the green lanes that border

the great city on its western side. I know few counsellors more

exhilarating than a spirited horse. I do not wonder that the Roman

emperor made a consul of his steed. On horseback I always best feel my

powers, and survey my resources; on horseback, I always originate my

noblest schemes, and plan their ablest execution. Give me but a light

rein, and a free bound, and I am Cicero--Cato--Caesar; dismount me, and

I become a mere clod of the earth which you condemn me to touch; fire,

energy, etheriality have departed; I am the soil without the sun--the

cask without the wine--the garments without the man.

I returned home with increased spirits and collected thoughts; I urged

my mind from my own situation, and suffered it to rest upon what Lady

Roseville had told me of Reginald Glanville’s interference in my behalf.

That extraordinary man still continued powerfully to excite my interest;

nor could I dwell, without some yearning of the kindlier affections,

upon his unsolicited, and, but for Lady Roseville’s communication,

unknown exertions in my cause. Although the officers of justice were

still actively employed in the pursuit of Tyrrell’s murderer, and

although the newspapers were still full of speculations on their

indifferent success, public curiosity had began to flag upon the

inquiry. I had, once or twice, been in Glanville’s company when the

murder was brought upon the tapis, and narrowly examined his behaviour

upon a subject which touched him so fearfully. I could not, however,

note any extraordinary confusion or change in his countenance; perhaps

the pale cheek grew somewhat paler, the dreaming eye more abstracted,

and the absent spirit more wandering than before; but many other causes

than guilt, could account for signs so doubtful and minute.

“You shall soon know all,” the last words which he had addressed to me,

yet rang in my ears, and most intensely did I anticipate the fulfilment

of this promise. My hopes too--those flatterers, so often the pleasing

antitheses of reason, whispered that this was not the pledge of a guilty

man; and yet he had said to Lady Roseville, that he did not wonder at

my estrangement from him: such words seemed to require a less favourable

construction than those he had addressed to me; and, in making

this mental remark, another, of no flattering nature to Glanville’s

disinterestedness, suggested itself; might not his interference for me

with Lord Dawton, arise rather from policy than friendship; might it not

occur to him, if, as I surmised, he was acquainted with my suspicions,

and acknowledged their dreadful justice, that it would be advisable

to propitiate my silence? Such were among the thousand thoughts which

flashed across me, and left my speculations in debate and doubt.

Nor did my reflections pass unnoticed the nature of Lady Roseville’s

affection for Glanville. From the seeming coldness and austerity of Sir

Reginald’s temperament, it was likely that this was innocent, at least

in act; and there was also something guileless in the manner in which

she appeared rather to exult in, than to conceal, her attachment. True

that she was bound to no ties; she had neither husband nor children,

for whose sake love became a crime: free and unfettered, if she gave her

heart to Glanville, it was also allowable to render the gift lawful and

perpetual by the blessing of the church.

Alas! how little can woman, shut up in her narrow and limited circle

of duties, know of the wandering life and various actions of her

lover. Little, indeed, could Lady Roseville, when, in the heat of her

enthusiasm, she spoke of the lofty and generous character of Glanville,

dream of the foul and dastardly crime of which he was more than

suspected; nor, while it was, perhaps, her fondest wish to ally herself

to his destiny, could her wildest fancies anticipate the felon’s fate,

which, if death came not in an hastier and kinder shape, must sooner or

later await him.

Of Thornton, I had neither seen nor heard aught since my departure from

Lord Chester’s; that reprieve was, however, shortly to expire. I had

scarcely got into Oxford-street, in my way homeward, when I perceived

him crossing the street with another man. I turned round to scrutinize

the features of his companion, and, in spite of a great change of dress,

a huge pair of false whiskers, and an artificial appearance of increased

age, my habit of observing countenances enabled me to recognize, on

the instant, my intellectual and virtuous friend, Mr. Job Jonson. They

disappeared in a shop, nor did I think it worth while further to observe

them, though I still bore a reminiscetory spite against Mr. Job

Jonson, which I was fully resolved to wreak, at the first favourable

opportunity.

I passed by Lady Roseville’s door. Though the hour was late, and I had,

therefore, but a slight chance of finding her at home, yet I thought

the chance worth the trouble of inquiry. To my agreeable surprise, I

was admitted: no one was in the drawing-room. The servant said, Lady

Roseville was at that moment engaged, but would very shortly see me, and

begged I would wait.

Agitated as I was by various reflections, I walked (in the restlessness

of my mood) to and fro the spacious rooms which formed Lady Roseville’s

apartments of reception. At the far end was a small boudoir, where none

but the goddess’s favoured few were admitted. As I approached towards

it, I heard voices, and the next moment recognised the deep tones of

Glanville. I turned hastily away, lest I should overhear the discourse;

but I had scarcely got three steps, when the convulsed sound of a

woman’s sob came upon my ear. Shortly afterwards, steps descended the

stairs, and the street door opened.

The minutes rolled on, and I became impatient. The servant

re-entered--Lady Roseville was so suddenly and seriously indisposed,

that she was unable to see me. I left the house, and, full of bewildered

conjectures, returned to my apartments.

The next day was one of the most important in my life. I was standing

wistfully by my fireplace, listening to a broken-winded hurdy-gurdy,

with the most mournful attention, stationed opposite to my window, when

Bedos announced Sir Reginald Glanville. It so happened, that I had that

morning taken the miniature I had found in the fatal field, from the

secret place in which I usually kept it, in order more closely to

examine it, lest any more convincing proof of its owner, than the

initials and Thornton’s interpretation, might be discovered by a minuter

investigation.

The picture was lying on the table when Glanville entered: my first

impulse was to seize and secrete it; my second to suffer it to remain,

and to watch the effect the sight of it might produce. In following

the latter, I thought it, however, as well to choose my own time for

discovering the miniature; and as I moved to the table, I threw my

handkerchief carelessly over it. Glanville came up to me at once, and

his countenance, usually close and reserved in its expression, assumed a

franker and bolder aspect.

“You have lately changed towards me,” he said:--“mindful of our former

friendship, I have come to demand the reason.”

“Can Sir Reginald Glanville’s memory,” answered I, “supply him with no

probable cause?”

“It can,” replied Glanville, “but I would not trust only to that. Sit

down, Pelham, and listen to me. I can read your thoughts, and I might

affect to despise their import--perhaps two years since I should--at

present I can pity and excuse them. I have come to you now, in the love

and confidence of our early days, to claim, as then, your good opinion

and esteem. If you require any explanation at my hands, it shall be

given. My days are approaching their end. I have made up my accounts

with others--I would do so with you. I confess, that I would fain leave

behind me in your breast, the same affectionate remembrance I might

heretofore have claimed, and which, whatever be your suspicions, I have

done nothing to forfeit. I have, moreover, a dearer interest than my own

to consult in this wish--you colour, Pelham--you know to whom I allude;

for my sister’s sake, if not for my own, you will hear me.”

Glanville paused for a moment. I raised the handkerchief from the

miniature--I pushed the latter towards him--“Do you remember this?” said

I, in a low tone.

With a wild cry, which thrilled through my heart, Glanville sprung

forward and seized it. He gazed eagerly and intensely upon it, and his

cheek flushed--his eyes sparkled--his breast heaved. The next moment he

fell back in his chair, in one of the half swoons, to which, upon any

sudden and violent emotion, the debilitating effects of his disease

subjected him.

Before I could come to his assistance he had recovered. He looked

wildly and fiercely upon me. “Speak,” he cried, “speak--where got you

this--where?--answer, for mercy’s sake!”

“Recollect yourself,” said I, sternly. “I found that token of your

presence upon the spot where Tyrrell was murdered.”

“True, true,” said Glanville, slowly, and in an absent and abstracted

tone. He ceased abruptly, and covered his face with his hands; from this

attitude he started with some sudden impulse.

“And tell me,” he said, in a low, inward, exulting tone, “was it--was it

red with the blood of the murdered man?”

“Wretch!” I exclaimed, “do you glory in your guilt?”

“Hold!” said Glanville, rising, with an altered and haughty air; “it is

not to your accusations that I am now to listen: if you are yet desirous

of weighing their justice before you decide upon them, you will have the

opportunity: I shall be at home at ten this night; come to me, and you

shall know all. At present, the sight of this picture has unnerved me.

Shall I see you?”

I made no other rejoinder than the brief expression of my assent, and

Glanville instantly left the room.

During the whole of that day, my mind was wrought up into a state of

feverish and preternatural excitation. I could not remain in the same

spot for an instant; my pulse beat with the irregularity of delirium.

For the last hour I placed my watch before me, and kept my eyes

constantly fixed upon it. Should any one think this exaggerated, let

him remember, that it was not only Glanville’s confession that I was

to hear; my own fate, my future connection with Ellen, rested upon

the story of that night. For myself, when I called to mind Glanville’s

acknowledgment of the picture, and his slow and involuntary remembrance

of the spot where it was found, I scarcely allowed my temper, sanguine

as it was, to hope.

Some minutes before the hour of ten I repaired to Glanville’s house. He

was alone--the picture was before him.

I drew my chair towards him in silence, and accidentally lifting up my

eyes, encountered the opposite mirror. I started at my own face; the

intensity and fearfulness of my interest had rendered it even more

hueless than that of my companion.

There was a pause for some moments, at the end of which Glanville thus

began.

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