Nocet empta dolore voluptas.--Ovid.
The FIRST person I saw at the Duke of--‘s was Mr. Mivart--he officiated
as gentleman usher: the SECOND was my mother--she was, as usual,
surrounded by men, “the shades of heroes that have been,” remnants of
a former day, when the feet of the young and fair Lady Frances were
as light as her head, and she might have rivalled in the science de la
danse, even the graceful Duchess of B--d. Over the dandies of her own
time she still preserved her ancient empire; and it was amusing enough
to hear the address of the ci-devant jeunes hommes, who continued,
through habit, the compliments began thirty years since, through
admiration.
My mother was, indeed, what the world calls a very charming, agreeable
woman. Few persons were more popular in society; her manners were
perfection--her smile enchantment; she lived, moved, breathed, only for
the world, and the world was not ungrateful for the constancy of her
devotion. Yet, if her letters have given my readers any idea of her
character, they will perceive that the very desire of supremacy in ton,
gave (God forgive my filial impiety!) a sort of demi-vulgarism to her
ideas; for they who live wholly for the opinion of others, always want
that self-dignity which alone confers a high cast to the sentiments;
and the most really unexceptionable in mode, are frequently the least
genuinely patrician in mind.
I joined the maternal party, and Lady Frances soon took an opportunity
of whispering, “You are looking very well, and very handsome; I declare
you are not unlike me, especially about the eyes. I have just heard that
Miss Glanville will be a great heiress, for poor Sir Reginald
cannot live much longer. She is here to-night; pray do not lose the
opportunity.”
My cheek burnt like fire at this speech, and my mother, quietly
observing that I had a beautiful colour, and ought therefore immediately
to find out Miss Glanville, lest it should vanish by the least delay,
turned from me to speak of a public breakfast about shortly to be
given. I passed into the dancing-room; there I found Vincent; he was in
unusually good spirits.
“Well,” said he, with a sneer, “you have not taken your seat yet. I
suppose Lord Dawton’s representative, whose place you are to supply, is
like Theseus, sedet eternumque sedebit. A thousand pities you can’t
come in before next week; we shall then have fiery motions in the Lower
House, as the astrologers say.”
I smiled. “Ah, mon cher!” said I, “Sparta hath many a worthier son than
me! Meanwhile, how get on the noble Lords Lesborough and Lincoln? ‘sure
such a pair were never seen, so justly formed to meet by nature!’”
“Pooh!” said Vincent, coarsely, “they shall get on well enough, before
you get in. Look to yourself, and remember that ‘Caesar plays the
ingrate.’”
Vincent turned away; my eyes were rivetted on the ground; the beautiful
Lady--passed by me; “What, you in a reverie?” said she, laughing; “our
very host will turn thoughtful next!”
“Nay,” said I, “in your absence would you have me glad? However, if
Moore’s mythology be true--Beauty loves Folly the better for borrowing
something from Reason; but, come, this is a place not for the grave, but
the giddy. Let us join the waltzers.”
“I am engaged.”
“I know it! do you think I would dance with any woman who was not
engaged?--there would be no triumph to one’s vanity in that case.
Allons, ma belle, you must prefer me to an engagement;” and so saying, I
led off my prize.
Her intended partner was Mr. V--; just as we had joined the dancers, he
spied us out, and approached with his long, serious, respectful face;
the music struck up, and the next moment poor V. was very nearly struck
down. Fraught with the most political spite, I whirled up against him;
apologized with my blandest smile, and left him wiping his mouth, and
rubbing his shoulder, the most forlorn picture of Hope in adversity,
that can possibly be conceived.
I soon grew wearied of my partner, and leaving her to fate, rambled into
another room. There, seated alone, was Lady Roseville. I placed myself
beside her; there was a sort of freemasonry between her and myself; each
knew something more of the other than the world did, and we read his
or her heart, by other signs than words. I soon saw that she was in no
mirthful mood; so much the better--she was the fitter companion for a
baffled aspirant like me.
The room we were in was almost deserted, and finding ourselves
uninterrupted, the stream of our conversation flowed into sentiment.
“How little,” said Lady Roseville, “can the crowd know of the
individuals who compose it. As the most opposite colours may be blended
into one, and so lose their individual hues, and be classed under a
single name, so every one here will go home, and speak of the ‘gay
scene,’ without thinking for a moment how many breaking hearts may have
composed it.”
“I have often thought,” said I, “how harsh we are in our judgments of
others--how often we accuse those persons of being worldly, who merely
seem so to the world; who, for instance, that saw you in your brightest
moments, would ever suppose that you could make the confession you have
just made?”
“I would not make such a confession to many beside yourself,” answered
Lady Roseville; “nay, you need not thank me. I am some years older than
you; I have lived longer in the world; I have seen much of its various
characters; and my experience has taught me to penetrate and prize a
character like yours. While you seem frivolous to the superficial, I
know you to have a mind not only capable of the most solid and important
affairs, but habituated by reflection to consider them. You appear
effeminate, I know that none are more daring--indolent, none are more
actively ambitious--utterly selfish, and I know that no earthly interest
could bribe you into meanness or injustice--no, nor even into a venial
dereliction of principle. It is from this estimate of your character,
that I am frank and open to you. Besides, I recognize something in the
careful pride with which you conceal your higher and deeper feelings,
resembling the strongest actuating principle in my own mind. All
this interests me warmly in your fate; may it be as bright as my
presentiments forebode.”
I looked into the beautiful face of the speaker as she concluded;
perhaps, at that solitary moment, my heart was unfaithful to Ellen; but
the infidelity passed away like the breath from the mirror. Coxcomb as
I was, I knew well how passionless was the interest expressed for me.
Libertine as I had been, I knew, also, how pure may be the friendship of
a woman, provided she loves another.
I thanked Lady Roseville, warmly, for her opinion, “Perhaps,” I added,
“dared I solicit your advice, you would not find me wholly undeserving
of your esteem.”
“My advice,” answered Lady Roseville, “would be, indeed, worse than
useless, were it not regulated by a certain knowledge which, perhaps,
you do not possess. You seem surprised. Eh bien; listen to me--are
you not in no small degree lie with Lord Dawton?--do you not expect
something from him worthy of your rank and merit?”
“You do, indeed, surprise me,” said I. “However close my connection with
Lord Dawton may be, I thought it much more secret than it appears to
be. However, I own that I have a right to expect from Lord Dawton,
not, perhaps, a recompense of service, but, at least, a fulfilment of
promises. In this expectation I begin to believe I shall be deceived.”
“You will!” answered Lady Roseville. “Bend your head lower--the walls
have ears. You have a friend, an unwearied and earnest friend, with
those now in power; directly he heard that Mr. V--was promised the
borough, which he knew had been long engaged to you, he went straight to
Lord Dawton. He found him with Lord Clandonald; however, he opened the
matter immediately. He spoke with great warmth of your claims--he did
more--he incorporated them with his own, which are of no mean order, and
asked no other recompense for himself than the fulfilment of a long
made promise to you. Dawton was greatly confused, and Lord Clandonald
replied, for him, that certainly there was no denying your talents--that
they were very great--that you had, unquestionably, been of much service
to their party, and that, consequently, it must be politic to attach you
to their interests; but that there was a certain fierte, and assumption,
and he might say (mark the climax) independence about you, which could
not but be highly displeasing in one so young; moreover, that it was
impossible to trust to you--that you pledged yourself to no party--that
you spoke only of conditions and terms--that you treated the proposal
of placing you in parliament rather as a matter of favour on your part,
than on Lord Dawton’s--and, in a word, that there was no relying upon
you. Lord Dawton then took courage, and chimed in with a long panegyric
on V--, and a long account of what was due to him, and to the zeal
of his family, adding, that in a crisis like this, it was absolutely
necessary to engage a certain, rather than a doubtful and undecided
support; that, for his part, if he placed you in parliament, he thought
you quite as likely to prove a foe as a friend; that, owing to the
marriage of your uncle, your expectations were by no means commensurate
with your presumption, and that the same talents which made your claims
to favour, as an ally, created also no small danger in placing you in
any situation where you could become hurtful as an enemy. All this,
and much more to the same purpose, was strenuously insisted upon by the
worthy pair; and your friend was obliged to take his leave, perfectly
convinced that, unless you assumed a more complaisant bearing, or gave
a more decided pledge, to the new minister, it was hopeless for you to
expect any thing from him, at least, for the present. The fact is, he
stands too much in awe of you, and would rather keep you out of the
House than contribute an iota towards obtaining you a seat. Upon all
this, you may rely as certain.”
“I thank you from my heart,” said I, warmly, seizing and pressing Lady
Roseville’s hand. “You tell me what I have long suspected; I am now upon
my guard, and they shall find that I can offend as well as defend. But
it is no time for me to boast; oblige me by informing me of the name of
my unknown friend; I little thought there was a being in the world who
would stir three steps for Henry Pelham.”
“‘That friend,” replied Lady Roseville, with a faltering voice and a
glowing cheek, “was Sir Reginald Glanville.”
“What!” cried I, “repeat the name to me again, or--” I paused, and
recovered myself. “Sir Reginald Glanville,” I resumed haughtily, “is too
gracious to enter into my affairs. I must be strangely altered if I need
the officious zeal of any intermeddler to redress my wrongs.”
“Nay, Mr. Pelham,” said the countess, hastily, “you do Glanville--you do
yourself injustice. For him, there never passes a day in which he does
not mention you with the highest encomiums and the most affectionate
regard. He says, of late, that you have altered towards him, but that he
does not blame you--he never mentions the cause; if I am not intruding,
suffer me to inquire into it; perhaps (oh! how happy it would make me)
I may be able to reconcile you; if you knew--if you could but guess half
of the noble and lofty character of Reginald Glanville, you would suffer
no petty difference to divide you.”
“It is no petty difference,” said I, rising, “nor am I permitted to
mention the cause. Meanwhile, may God bless you, dearest Lady Roseville,
and preserve that kind and generous heart from worse pangs than those of
disappointed ambition, or betrayed trust.”
Lady Roseville looked down--her bosom heaved violently; she felt the
meaning of my words. I left her and St. J--‘s Square. I returned home to
court sleep as vainly as the monarch in the tragedy, and exclaim as idly
as the peasant in the farce, “Oh! that there were no House of Commons in
the world!”