"You Don't Know."
As Timothy Weeks limped hastily away, Holcroft, with a strong revulsion
of feeling, thought of Alida. HE had been able to answer insults in a
way eminently satisfactory to himself, and every blow had relieved his
electrical condition. But how about the poor woman who had received
worse blows than he had inflicted? As he hastened toward the house he
recalled a dim impression of seeing her sink down on the doorstep.
Then he remembered her effort to face the marauders alone. "She said
she was to blame, poor child! As if there were any blame at all! She
said, 'spare him,' as if I was facing a band of murderers instead of a
lot of neighborhood scamps, and that she'd go away. I'd fight all
Oakville--men, women, and children--before I'd permit that," and he
started on a run.
He found Alida on the step, where she had sunk as if struck down by the
rough epithets hurled at her. She was sobbing violently, almost
hysterically, and at first could not reply to his soothing words. He
lifted her up, and half carried her within to a chair. "Oh, oh," she
cried, "why did I not realize it more fully before? Selfish woman that
I was, to marry you and bring on you all this shame and danger. I
should have thought of it all, I ought to have died rather than do you
such a wrong."
"Alida, Alida," protested Holcroft, "if it were all to do over again,
I'd be a thousand times more--"
"Oh, I know, I know! You are brave and generous and honest. I saw
that much when you first spoke to me. I yielded to the temptation to
secure such a friend. I was too cowardly to face the world alone. And
now see what's happened! You're in danger and disgrace on my account.
I must go away--I must do what I should have done at first," and with
her face buried in her hands she rocked back and forth, overwhelmed by
the bitterness and reproach of her thoughts.
"Alida," he urged, "please be calm and sensible. Let me reason with
you and tell you the truth. All that's happened is that the Oakville
cubs have received a well-deserved whipping. When you get calm, I can
explain everything so it won't seem half so bad. Neither you nor I are
in any danger, and, as for your going away, look me in the eyes and
listen."
His words were almost stern in their earnestness. She raised her
streaming eyes to his face, then sprung up, exclaiming, "Oh! You're
wounded!"
"What's that, compared with your talk of going away?"
All explanations and reassurances would have been trivial in effect,
compared with the truth that he had been hurt in her defense. She
dashed her tears right and left, ran for a basin of water, and making
him take her chair, began washing away the blood stains.
"Thunder!" he said, laughing, "How quickly we've changed places!"
"Oh, oh!" she moaned, "It's a terrible wound; it might have killed you,
and they WILL kill you yet."
He took her hands and held them firmly. "Alida," he said, gravely yet
kindly, "be still and listen to me."
For a moment or two longer her bosom heaved with convulsive sobs, and
then she grew quiet. "Don't you know you can't go away?" he asked,
still retaining her hands and looking in her face.
"I could for your sake," she began.
"No, it wouldn't be for my sake. I don't wish you to go, and wouldn't
let you. If you should let the Oakville rabble drive you away, I WOULD
be in danger, and so would others, for I'd be worse on 'em than an
earthquake. After the lesson they've had tonight, they'll let us alone,
and I'll let them alone. You know I've tried to be honest with you
from the first. Believe me, then, the trouble's over unless we make
more for ourselves. Now, promise you'll do as I say and let me manage."
"I'll try," she breathed softly.
"No, no! That won't do. I'm beginning to find you out. You may get
some foolish, self-sacrificing notion in your head that it would be
best for me, when it would be my ruination. Will you promise?"
"Yes."
"Famous! Now you can bathe my head all you please for it feels a
little queer."
"It's an awful wound," she said in tones of the deepest sympathy. "Oh,
I'm so sorry!"
"Pshaw! My head is too hard for that little scamp of a Weeks to break.
His turn'll come next."
She cut away the blood-clotted hair and bound up the rather severe
scalp wound with a tenderness and sympathy that expressed itself even
in her touch. She was too confused and excited to be conscious of
herself, but she had received some tremendously strong impressions.
Chief among them was the truth that nothing which had happened made any
difference in him--that he was still the same loyal friend, standing
between her and the world she dreaded--yes, between her and her own
impulses toward self-sacrifice. Sweetest of all was the assurance that
he did this for his own sake as well as hers. These facts seemed like
a foothold in the mad torrent of feeling and shame which had been
sweeping her away. She could think of little more than that she was
safe--safe because he was brave and loyal--and yes, safe because he
wanted her and would not give her up. The heart of a woman must be
callous indeed, and her nature not only trivial but stony if she is not
deeply touched under circumstances like these.
In spite of his laughing contempt of danger, she trembled as she saw
him ready to go out again; she wished to accompany him on his round of
observation, but he scouted the idea, although it pleased him.
Standing in the door, she strained her eyes and listened breathlessly.
He soon returned and said, "They've all had enough. We won't be
disturbed again."
He saw that her nerves needed quieting, and he set about the task with
such simple tact as he possessed. His first step was to light his pipe
in the most nonchalant manner, and then he burst out laughing. "I'll
hang that hickory up. It has done too good service to be put to common
use again. Probably you never heard of a skimelton, Alida. Well, they
are not so uncommon in this region. I suppose I'll have to own up to
taking part in one myself when I was a young chap. They usually are
only rough larks and are taken good-naturedly. I'm not on jesting terms
with my neighbors, and they had no business to come here, but I
wouldn't have made any row if they hadn't insulted you."
Her head bowed very low as she faltered, "They've heard everything."
He came right to her and took her hand. "Didn't I hear everything
before they did?"
"Yes."
"Well, Alida, I'm not only satisfied with you, but I'm very grateful to
you. Why shouldn't I be when you are a good Christian woman? I guess
I'm the one to be suited, not Oakville. I should be as reckless as the
devil if you should go away from me. Don't I act like a man who's
ready to stand up for and protect you?"
"Yes, too ready. It would kill me if anything happened to you on my
account."
"Well, the worst would happen," he said firmly, "if we don't go right
on as we've begun. If we go quietly on about our own affairs, we'll
soon be let alone and that's all we ask."
"Yes, yes indeed! Don't worry, James. I'll do as you wish."
"Famous! You never said 'James' to me before. Why haven't you?"
"I don't know," she faltered, with a sudden rush of color to her pale
face.
"Well, that's my name," he resumed, laughing. "I guess it's because we
are getting better acquainted."
She looked up and said impetuously, "You don't know how a woman feels
when a man stands up for her as you did tonight."
"Well, I know how a man feels when there is a woman so well worth
standing up for. It was a lucky thing that I had nothing heavier in my
hand than that hickory." All the while he was looking at her
curiously; then he spoke his thought. "You're a quiet little woman,
Alida, most times, but you're capable of a thunder gust now and then."
"I'll try to be quiet at all times," she replied, with drooping eyes.
"Oh, I'm not complaining!" he said, laughing. "I like the trait."
He took a small pitcher and went to the dairy. Returning, he poured
out two glasses of milk and said, "Here's to your health and happiness,
Alida; and when I don't stand up for the woman who started out to save
me from a mob of murderers, may the next thing I eat or drink choke me.
You didn't know they were merely a lot of Oakville boys, did you?"
"You can't make so light of it," said she. "They tried to close on you,
and if that stone had struck you on the temple, it might have killed
you. They swore like pirates, and looked like ruffians with their
blackened faces. They certainly were not boys in appearance."
"I'm afraid I swore too," he said sadly.
"You had some excuse, but I'm sorry. They would have hurt you if you
hadn't kept them off."
"Yes, they'd probably have given me a beating. People do things in hot
blood they wish they hadn't afterward. I know this Oakville
rough-scuff. Since we've had it out, and they know what to expect,
they'll give me a wide berth. Now go and sleep. You were never safer
in your life."
She did not trust herself to reply, but the glance she gave him from
her tearful eyes was so eloquent with grateful feeling that he was
suddenly conscious of some unwonted sensations. He again patrolled the
place and tied the dog near the barn.
"It's barely possible that some of these mean cusses might venture to
kindle a fire, but a bark from Towser will warn 'em off. She IS a
spirited little woman," he added, with a sharp change in soliloquy.
"There's nothing milk-and-water about her. Thunder! I felt like
kissing her when she looked at me so. I guess that crack on my skull
has made me a little light-headed."
He lay down in his clothes so that he might rush out in case of any
alarm, and he intended to keep awake. Then, the first thing he knew,
the sun was shining in the windows.
It was long before Alida slept, and the burden of her thoughts
confirmed the words that she had spoken so involuntarily. "You don't
know how a woman feels when a man stands up for her as you did." It is
the nature of her sex to adore hardy, courageous manhood. Beyond all
power of expression, Alida felt her need of a champion and protector.
She was capable of going away for his sake, but she would go in terror
and despair. The words that had smitten her confirmed all her old
fears of facing the world alone. Then came the overpowering thought of
his loyalty and kindness, of his utter and almost fierce repugnance to
the idea of her leaving him. In contrast with the man who had deceived
and wronged her, Holcroft's course overwhelmed her very soul with a
passion of grateful affection. A new emotion, unlike anything she had
ever known, thrilled her heart and covered her face with blushes. "I
could die for him!" she murmured.
She awoke late in the morning. When at last she entered the kitchen
she stopped in deep chagrin, for Holcroft had almost completed
preparations for breakfast. "Ha, ha!" he laughed, "turn about is fair
play."
"Well," she sighed, "there's no use of making excuses now."
"There's no occasion for any. Did you ever see such a looking case as
I am with this bandage around my head?"
"Does it pain you?" she asked sympathetically.
"Well, it does. It pains like thunder."
"The wound needs dressing again. Let me cleanse and bind it up."
"Yes, after breakfast."
"No, indeed; now. I couldn't eat my breakfast while you were suffering
so."
"I'm more unfeeling then than you are, for I could."
She insisted on having her way, and then tore up her handkerchief to
supply a soft linen bandage.
"You're extravagant, Alida," but she only shook her head.
"Famous! That feels better. What a touch you have! Now, if you had a
broken head, my fingers would be like a pair of tongs."
She only shook her head and smiled.
"You're as bad as Jane used to be. She never said a word when she
could shake or nod her meaning."
"I should think you would be glad, after having been half talked to
death by her mother."
"As I said before, take your own way of doing things. It seems the
right way after it is done."
A faint color came into her face, and she looked positively happy as
she sat down to breakfast. "Are you sure your head feels better?" she
asked.
"Yes, and you look a hundred per cent better. Well, I AM glad you had
such a good sleep after all the hubbub."
"I didn't sleep till toward morning," she said, with downcast eyes.
"Pshaw! That's too bad. Well, no matter, you look like a different
person from what you did when I first saw you. You've been growing
younger every day."
Her face flushed like a girl's under his direct, admiring gaze, making
her all the more pretty. She hastened to divert direct attention from
herself by asking, "You haven't heard from anyone this morning?"
"No, but I guess the doctor has. Some of those fellows will have to
keep shady for a while."
As they were finishing breakfast, Holcroft looked out of the open
kitchen door and exclaimed, "By thunder! We're going to hear from some
of them now. Here comes Mrs. Weeks, the mother of the fellow who hit
me."
"Won't you please receive her in the parlor?"
"Yes, she won't stay long, you may be sure. I'm going to give that
Weeks tribe one lesson and pay off the whole score."
He merely bowed coldly to Mrs. Weeks' salutation and offered her a
chair. The poor woman took out her handkerchief and began to mop her
eyes, but Holcroft was steeled against her, not so much on account of
the wound inflicted by her son as for the reason that he saw in her an
accomplice with her husband in the fraud of Mrs. Mumpson.
"I hope you're not badly hurt," she began.
"It might be worse."
"Oh, Mr. Holcroft!" she broke out sobbingly, "spare my son. It would
kill me if you sent him to prison."
"He took the chance of killing me last night," was the cold reply.
"What's far worse, he insulted my wife."
"Oh, Mr. Holcroft! He was young and foolish; he didn't realize--"
"Were you and your husband young and foolish," he interrupted bitterly,
"when you gulled me into employing that crazy cousin of yours?"
This retort was so overwhelming that Mrs. Weeks sobbed speechlessly.
Alida could not help overhearing the conversation, and she now glided
into the room and stood by her husband's side.
"James," she said, "won't you do me a favor, a great kindness?"
Mrs. Weeks raised her eyes and looked wonderingly at this dreadful
woman, against whom all Oakville was talking.
"I know what you wish, Alida," he replied sternly, "but I can't do it.
This is a case for justice. This woman's son was the leader of that
vile crowd that insulted you last night. I can forgive his injuring
me, but not the words he used about you. Moreover, when I was alone
and struggling to keep my home, Mrs. Weeks took part with her husband
in imposing on me their fraud of a cousin and in tricking me out of
honest money. Any woman with a heart in her breast would have tried to
help a man situated as I was. No, it's a clear case of justice, and
her son shall go to jail."
Mrs. Weeks wailed afresh at this final sentence. Holcroft was amazed
to see his wife drop on her knees beside his chair. He raised her
instantly. "Don't do such a thing as that," he said huskily.
Without removing her pleading eyes from his face she asked gently, "Who
told us to forgive as we would be forgiven? James, I shall be very
unhappy if you don't grant this mother's prayer."
He tried to turn away, but she caught his hand and held his eyes with
hers. "Alida," he said in strong agitation, "you heard the vile, false
words that Timothy Weeks said last night. They struck you down like a
blow. Can you forgive him?"
"Yes, and I plead with you to forgive him. Grant me my wish, James; I
shall be so much happier, and so will you."
"Well, Mrs. Weeks, now you know what kind of a woman your son came to
insult. You may tell your neighbors that there's one Christian in
Oakville. I yield to Mrs. Holcroft, and will take no further action in
the affair if we are let alone."
Mrs. Weeks was not a bad woman at heart, and she had received a
wholesome lesson. She came and took Alida's hand as she said, "Yes,
you are a Christian--a better woman than I've been, but I aint so mean
and bad but what, when I see my fault, I am sorry and can ask
forgiveness. I do ask your forgiveness, Mr. Holcroft. I've been
ashamed of myself ever since you brought my cousin back. I thought she
would try, when she had the chance you gave her, but she seems to have
no sense."
"There, there! Let bygones be bygones," said the farmer in
embarrassment. "I've surrendered. Please don't say anything more."
"You've got a kind heart, in spite--"
"Oh, come now! Please quit, or I'll begin to swear a little to keep up
the reputation my neighbors have given me. Go home and tell Tim to
brace up and try to be a man. When I say I'm done with a grudge, I AM
done. You and Mrs. Holcroft can talk all you like, but please excuse
me," and with more than most men's horror of a scene, he escaped
precipitately.
"Sit down, Mrs. Weeks," said Alida kindly.
"Well, I will. I can't say much to excuse myself or my folks--"
"You've already said everything, Mrs. Weeks," interrupted Alida gently;
"you've said you are sorry."
Mrs. Weeks stared a moment, and then resumed sententiously, "Well, I've
heard more gospel in that remark than if I'd gone to church. And I
couldn't go to church, I could never have gone there again or held my
head up anywhere if--if--"
"That's all past and gone," said Alida, smiling. "When Mr. Holcroft
says anything, you may depend on it."
"Well, God bless you for intercedin'--you had so much to forgive.
Nobody shall ever speak a word against you again while I've got breath
to answer. I wish you'd let me come and see you sometimes."
"Whenever you wish, if you care to visit one who has had so much--so
much trouble."
"I see now that's all the more reason I should come, for if it hadn't
been for you, I'd have been in bitter trouble myself. We've been worse
than heathen, standin' off and talking against you. Oh, I've had a
lesson I won't forget! Well, I must hurry home, for I left Timothy and
Lemuel in a dreadful state."
Seeing the farmer in the barn as she was passing, she rushed to him.
"You've got to shake hands with me, Mr. Holcroft. Your wife IS a good
woman, and she's a lady, too. Anyone with half an eye can see she's
not one of the common sort."
The farmer shook the poor woman's hand good-naturedly and said
heartily, "That's so! All right, meeting's over. Goodbye." Then he
turned to his work and chuckled, "That's what Tom Watterly said. Thank
the Lord! She ISN'T of the common sort. I've got to brace up and be
more of a man as well as Tim Weeks."
In spite of the pain in his head, Alida's words proved true. He was
happier than he had been in many a long day. He had the glow which
follows a generous act, and the thought that he had pleased a sweet
little woman who somehow seemed very attractive to him that May
morning; at the same time the old Adam in his nature led to a sneaking
satisfaction that he had laid on the hickory so unsparingly the evening
before.
Alida uttered a low, happy laugh as she heard him whistling
"Coronation" in jig time, and she hustled away the breakfast things
with the eagerness of a girl, that she might be ready to read to him
when he came in.