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All this time his mother, her vast bulk immovable beneath the

mountainous sheets, followed him with her eyes. She must have recognized

the symptoms, for presently she broke the way.

“Have you anything you want to say?” she asked.

Willie moved back to the bed and for a time stood in silence fingering

the carving of the footboard. He cleared his throat as if to speak but

only fell silent again. When at last he was able to say what was in his

mind, he did so without looking up. He behaved as though the carving

held for him the most profound interest.

“Yes,” he said gently, “I want to say that I’m going to get out of the

Mills. I hate them. I’ve always hated them. I’m no good at it!” To

forestall her interruptions he rushed on with his speech. The sight of

his mother lying helpless appeared to endow him with a sudden desperate

courage. She was unable to stop him. He even raised his head and faced

her squarely. “I don’t like this strike. I don’t like the fighting. I

want to be an ordinary, simple man who could walk through Halsted street

in safety. I want to be left alone.”

Mrs. Harrison did not raise her head, but all the violent emotion, pent

up and stifled by her helplessness, rose and flashed in her eyes. The

scorn was thunderous but somehow it failed to overwhelm the faded,

middle-aged man at the foot of the gigantic bed.

“I thank God your father cannot hear those words! He would strike you

down!”

Still Willie did not flinch. “My father is dead,” he observed quietly.

But his smile carried implications and a malice of its own. “My father

is dead,” said the smile. “And my mother is helpless. Before long I

shall be free ... for the first time in my life ... free ... to do as I

please ... the slave of no one.”

The smile wavered and clung to his face. Of course he said none of this.

What he said was, “It is a dirty business. And I want nothing to do with

it ... not even any stock. If it hadn’t been for the Mills, Lily might

have married me.”

From the bed arose the scornful sound of a hoarse chuckle, “Oh no, she

wouldn’t. You don’t know her! She wouldn’t marry you because you were

such a poor thing.”

At this Willie began to tremble. His face became as white as the

spotless coverlet, and he grasped the bed rail with such intensity that

his thin knuckles showed blue against his skin. It was the old taunt of

a mother toward a child whose gentleness and indecision were to her both

incomprehensible and worthy only of contempt, a child who had never

suited her gigantic ideas of power and wealth.

“And pray tell me what you _do_ intend to do,” she asked with rich

sarcasm.

A tremulous quality entered Willie’s voice as he replied. “I want to

have a farm where I can raise chickens and ducks and rabbits.”

“Great God!” replied his mother in her deep voice. It was all she said.

Moving her head with a terrible effort, she turned her face to the wall

away from her son. But Willie, though he still trembled a little in the

presence of the old woman and the glowering portrait above his head, had

a look of triumph in his pale eyes. It said, “I have won! I have won! I

have achieved a victory. I am free at last from the monster which I have

always hated.... I am through with the Mills. I am through with Judge

Weissman.... I can be bullied no more!”

Outside the wind howled and tore at the eaves and presently there came a

suave knock at the door ... the knock of the worldly, white haired

butler. “Miss Abercrombie is here to see Mrs. Harrison,” came a suave

voice, and before Willie could answer, his mother’s crony, her nose very

red from the cold, had pushed her way like a wriggling ferret into the

room.

At the sight of Willie, she halted for a moment winking at him in a

purely involuntary fashion.

“Your mother is so much better,” she said bridling. “Aren’t you

delighted?”

Willie’s answer was an inarticulate grunt.

“I’ve come to hear all about the funeral,” she continued in her bustling

manner. “I would have gone myself except for the weather. Now sit down

like a good boy and tell me all about.” She too treated him as an anemic

child still wearing curls.

Willie shook her hand politely. “My mother will tell you,” he said. “I

have told her everything.”

And he slipped from the room leaving the two women, the ferret and the

mountain, to put the finishing touches upon the obsequies of Julia

Shane.

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