CHAPTER XV.

DUBLIN, ----.

DEAR MRS. JAMESON,

I received your third kind letter yesterday morning, and have no

more time to-day than will serve to inclose my answer to your

second, which reached me and was replied to at Glasgow; owing to

your not having given me your address, I had kept it thus long in

my desk. You surely said nothing in that letter of yours that the

kindest good feeling could take exception to, and therefore need

hardly, I think, have been so anxious about its possible

miscarriage. However, "Misery makes one acquainted with strange

bed-fellows," and I am afraid distrust is one of them. You will be

glad, I know, to hear that I have been successful here, and perhaps

amused to know that when your letter reached me yesterday, I was

going, _en lionne_, to a great dinner-party at Lady Morgan's. You

ask me for advice about your Shakespeare work, but advice is what I

have no diploma for bestowing; and such suggestions as I might

venture, were I sitting by your side with Shakespeare in my hand,

and which might furnish pleasant matter of converse and discussion,

are hardly solid enough for transmission by post.

I have been reading the "Tempest" all this afternoon, with eyes

constantly dim with those delightful tears which are called up

alike by the sublimity and harmony of nature, and the noblest

creations of genius. I cannot imagine how you should ever feel

discouraged in your work; it seems to me it must be its own

perpetual stimulus and reward. Is not Miranda's exclamation, "O

brave new world, that has such people in it!" on the first sight of

the company of villainous men who ruined her and her father, with

the royal old magician's comment, "'Tis new to thee!" exquisitely

pathetic? I must go to my work; 'tis "The Gamester" to-night; I

wish it were over. Good-by, my dear Mrs. Jameson. Thank you for

your kind letters; I value them very much, and am your affectionate

F. KEMBLE.

P.S.--I am very happy here, in the society of an admirable person

who is as good as she is highly gifted,--a rare union,--and who,

moreover, loves me well, which adds much, in my opinion, to her

other merits. I mean my friend Miss S----.

My only reminiscence connected with this dinner at Lady Morgan's is of

her kind and comical zeal to show me an Irish jig, performed _secundum

artem_, when she found that I had never seen her national dance. She

jumped up, declaring nobody danced it as well as herself, and that I

should see it immediately; and began running through the rooms, with a

gauze scarf that had fallen from her shoulders fluttering and trailing

after her, calling loudly for a certain young member of the viceregal

staff, who was among the guests invited to a large evening party after

the dinner, to be her partner. But the gentleman had already departed

(for it was late), and I might have gone to my grave unenlightened upon

the subject of jigs if I had not seen one performed, to great

perfection, by some gay young members of a family party, while I was

staying at Worsley with my friends Lord and Lady Ellesmere, whose

children and guests got up an impromptu ball on the occasion of Lady

Octavia Grosvenor's birthday, in the course of which the Irish national

dance was performed with great spirit, especially by Lord Mark Kerr and

Lady Blanche Egerton. It resembles a good deal the saltarello of the

Italian peasants in rhythm and character; and a young Irishman, servant

of some friends of mine, covered himself with glory by the manner in

which he joined a party of Neapolitan tarantella dancers, merely by dint

of his proficiency in his own native jig. A great many years after my

first acquaintance with Lady Morgan in Dublin, she renewed our

intercourse by calling on me in London, where she was spending the

season, and where I was then living with my father, who had become

almost entirely deaf and was suffering from a most painful complication

of maladies. My relations with the lively and amusing Irish authoress

consisted merely in an exchange of morning visits, during one of which,

after talking to me with voluble enthusiasm of Cardinal Gonsalvi and

Lord Byron, whose portraits hung in her room, and who, she assured me,

were her two pre-eminent heroes, she plied me with a breathless series

of pressing invitations to breakfasts, luncheons, dinners, evening

parties, to meet everybody in London that I did and did not know, and

upon my declining all these offers of hospitable entertainment (for I

had at that time withdrawn myself entirely from society, and went

nowhere), she exclaimed, "But what in the world do you _do_ with

yourself in the evening?" "Sit with my father, or remain alone," said I.

"Ah!" cried the society-loving little lady, with an exasperated Irish

accent, "come out of that _sphare_ of solitary self-sufficiency _ye_

live in, do! Come to me!" Which objurgation certainly presented in a

most ludicrous light my life of very sad seclusion, and sent us both

into fits of laughter.

I have alluded to a friendship which I formed soon after my appearance

on the stage with Miss E---- F----. She was the daughter of Mr. F----,

for many years member for Tiverton. Miss F---- and I perpetuated a close

attachment already traditional between our families, her mother having

been Mrs. Siddons's dearest friend. Indeed, for many years of her life,

Mrs. F---- seems to me to have postponed the claims even of her husband

and children upon her time and attention, to her absolute devotion to

her celebrated idol. Mr. F---- was a dutiful member of the House of

Commons, and I suppose his boy was at school and his girl too young to

demand her mother's constant care and superintendence, at the time when

she literally gave up the whole of her existence to Mrs. Siddons during

the London season, passing her days in her society and her evenings in

her dressing-room at the theater, whenever Mrs. Siddons acted. Miss

F---- and myself could not dedicate ourselves with any such absolute

exclusiveness to each other. Neither of our mothers would have consented

to any such absorbing arrangement, for which a certain independence of

family ties would have been indispensable; but within the limits which

our circumstances allowed we were as devoted to each other as my aunt

Siddons and Mrs. F---- had been, and our intercourse was as full and

frequent as possible. E---- F---- was not pretty, but her face was

expressive of both intelligence and sensibility; her figure wanted

height, but was slender and graceful; her head was too small for

powerful though not far keen and sagacious intellect, or for beauty. The

general impression she produced was that of well-born and well-bred

refinement, and she was as eager, light, and rapid in her movements as a

greyhound, of which elegant animal the whole character of her appearance

constantly reminded me.

Mr. F---- had a summer residence close to the picturesque town of

Southampton, called Bannisters, the name of which charming place calls

up the image of my friend swinging in her hammock under the fine trees

of her lawn, or dexterously managing her boat on its tiny lake, and

brings back delightful hours and days spent in happy intercourse with

her. Mr. F---- had himself planned the house, which was as peculiar as

it was comfortable and elegant. A small vestibule, full of fine casts

from the antique (among others a rare original one of the glorious

Neapolitan Psyche, given to his brother-in-law, Mr. William Hamilton, by

the King of Naples), formed the entrance. The oval drawing-room, painted

in fresco by Mr. F----, recalled by its Italian scenes their wanderings

in the south of Europe. In the adjoining room were some choice pictures,

among others a fine copy of one of Titian's Venuses, and in the

dining-room an equally good one of his Venus and Adonis. The place of

honor, however, in this room was reserved for a life-size, full-length

portrait of Mrs. Siddons, which Lawrence painted for Mrs. F---- and

which is now in the National Gallery,--a production so little to my

taste both as picture and portrait that I used to wonder how Mrs.

F---- could tolerate such a representation of her admirable friend. The

principal charm of Bannisters, however, was the garden and grounds,

which, though of inconsiderable extent, were so skillfully and

tastefully laid out, that their bounds were always invisible. The lawn

and shrubberies were picturesquely irregular, and still retained some

kindred, in their fine oaks and patches of heather, to the beautiful

wild common which lay immediately beyond their precincts. A pretty piece

of ornamental water was set in flowering bushes and well-contrived

rockery, and in a more remote part of the grounds a little dark pond

reflected wild-wood banks and fine overspreading elms and beeches. The

small park had some charming clumps and single trees, and there was a

twilight walk of gigantic overarching laurels, of a growth that dated

back to a time of considerable antiquity, when the place had been part

of an ancient monastery. Above all, I delighted in my friend E----'s

favorite flower-garden, where her fine eye for color reveled in grouping

the softest, gayest, and richest masses of bloom, and where in a bay of

mossy turf, screened round with evergreens, the ancient vision of love

and immortality, the antique Cupid and Psyche, watched over the

fragrant, flowery domain.

Sweet Bannisters! to me for ever a refuge of consolation and sympathy in

seasons of trial and sorrow, of unfailing kindly welcome and devoted

constant affection; haven of pleasant rest and calm repose whenever I

resorted to it! How sad was my last visit to that once lovely and

beloved place, now passed into the hands of strangers, deserted,

divided, desecrated, where it was painful even to call up the image of

her whose home it once was! The last time I saw Bannisters the grounds

were parceled out and let for grazing inclosures to various Southampton

townspeople. The house was turned into a boys' boarding-school, and, as

I hurried away, the shouts and acclamations of a roaring game of cricket

came to me from the inclosure that had been E---- F----'s flower-garden;

but though I was crying bitter tears the lads seemed very happy; the

fashion of this world passeth away.

Before leaving Dublin for Liverpool, I had the pleasure of visiting my

friend Miss S---- in her home, where I returned several times, and was

always welcomed with cordial kindness. My last visit there took place

during the Crimean war. My friend Mrs. T---- had become a widow, and her

second son, now General T----, was with his regiment in the very front

of the danger, and also surrounded by the first deadly outbreak of the

cholera, which swooped with such fatal fury upon our troops at the

opening of the campaign. I can never forget the pathetic earnestness and

solemnity of the prayers read aloud by that poor mother for the safety

of our army, nor the accent with which she implored God's protection

upon those exposed to such imminent peril in the noble discharge of

their duty. That son was preserved to that mother, having manfully done

his part in the face of the twofold death that threatened him.

There was a slight circumstance attending Mrs. T----'s household

devotions that charmed me greatly, and that I have never seen repeated

anywhere else where I have assisted at family prayers. The servants, as

they left the hall, bowed and courtesied to their mistress, who returned

their salutation with a fine, old-fashioned courtesy, full of a sweet,

kindly grace, that was delightful. This act of civility to her

dependents was to me a perfect expression of Mrs. T----'s real antique

toryism, as well as of her warm-hearted, motherly kindness of nature.

Ardgillan Castle (I think by courtesy, for it was eminently, peaceful in

character, in spite of the turret inhabited by my dear "moping owl,"

H----) was finely situated on an eminence from which the sea, with the

picturesque fishing village of Skerries stretching into it on one side,

and the Morne Mountains fading in purple distance beyond its blue waters

on the other, formed a beautiful prospect. A pine wood on one side of

the grounds led down to the foot of the grassy hill upon which the house

stood, and to a charming wilderness called the Dell: a sylvan recess

behind the rocky margin of the sea, from which it was completely

sheltered, whose hollow depth, carpeted with grass and curtained with

various growth of trees, was the especial domain of my dear H----. A

crystal spring of water rose in this "bosky dell," and answered with its

tiny tinkle the muffled voice of the ocean breaking on the shore beyond.

The place was perfectly lovely, and here we sat together and devised, as

the old word was, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things

above heaven, and things below earth, and things quite beyond ourselves,

till we were well-nigh beside ourselves; and it was not the fault of my

metaphysical friend, but of my utter inability to keep pace with her

mental processes, if our argument did not include every point of that

which Milton has assigned to the forlorn disputants of his infernal

regions. My departure from Dublin ended these happy hours of

companionship, and I exchanged that academe and my beloved Plato in

petticoats for my play-house work at Liverpool. The following letter was

in answer to one Mrs. Jameson wrote me upon the subject of a lady whom

she had recommended to my mother as a governess for my sister, who was

now in her sixteenth year.

LIVERPOOL, August 16, 1830.

MY DEAR MRS. JAMESON,

Were it not that I have a great opinion both of your kindness and

reasonableness, I should feel rather uncomfortable at the period

which has elapsed since I ought to have written to you; but I am

very sorry not to have been able sooner to reply to your last kind

letter. I shall begin by answering that which interested me most in

it, which you will easily believe was what regarded my dear A----

and the person into whose hands she is about to be committed. In

proportion to the value of the gem is the dread one feels of the

flaws and injuries it may receive in the process of cutting and

polishing; and this, of course, not in this case alone, but that of

every child who still is parent to the man (or woman). My mother

said in one of her letters, "I have engaged a lady to be A----'s

governess." Of course the _have_ must make the expression of regret

or anxiety undesirable, since both are unavailing. I hope it is the

lady you spoke of in your letter to me, for I like very much the

description you give of her, and in answer to the doubt you express

as to whether _I_ could be pleased with a person wanting in

superficial brilliancy and refinement of intellect, I can reply

unequivocally _yes_. I could be well pleased with such a person for

my own companion, if the absence of such qualities were atoned for

by sound judgment and sterling principle; and I am certain that

such a person is best calculated to undertake the task which she is

to perform in our house with good effect. The defect of our home

education is that from the mental tendencies of all of us, no less

than from our whole mode of life, the more imaginative and refined

intellectual qualities are fostered in us in preference to our

reasoning powers. We have all excitable natures, and, whether in

head or heart, that is a disadvantage. The unrestrained indulgence

of feeling is as injurious to moral strength as the undue excess of

fancy is to mental vigor. I think young people would always be the

better for the influence of persons of strong sense, rather than

strong sensibility, who, by fortifying their reason, correct any

tendency to that morbid excitability which is so dangerous to

happiness or usefulness.

I do not, of course, mean that one can eradicate any element of the

original character--that I believe to be impossible; nor is direct

opposition to natural tendencies of much use, for that is really

cultivating qualities by resistance; but by encouraging other

faculties, and by putting aside all that has a tendency to weaken

and enervate, the mind will assume a robust and healthy tone, and

the real feelings will acquire strength by being under reasonable

control and by the suppression of factitious ones. A----'s

education in point of accomplishments and general cultivation of

taste and intellect is already fairly advanced; and the lady who

is, I hope, now to be her companion and directress will be none the

worse for wanting the merely ornamental branches of culture,

provided she holds them at their due value, and neither _under_ nor

_over_ estimates them because she is without them. I hope she is

gentle and attractive in her manners, for it is essential that one

should like as well as respect one's teachers; and should these

qualities be added to the character you give of her, I am sure I

should like her for a governess very much myself. You see by the

room this subject has occupied in my letter how much it fills in my

mind; human souls, minds, and bodies are precious and wonderful

things, and to fit the whole creature for its proper aim here and

hereafter, a solemn and arduous work.

Now to other matters. You reproach me very justly for my stupid

oversight; I forgot to tell you which name appeared to me best for

your book; the fact is, I flew off into ecstasies about the work

itself, and gave you, I believe, a tirade about the "Tempest"

instead of the opinion you asked. I agree with you that there is

much in the name of a work; it is almost as desirable that a book

should be well called as that it should be well written; a

promising title-page is like an agreeable face, an inducement to

further acquaintance, and an earnest of future pleasure. For

myself, I prefer "Characters of Shakespeare's Women;" it is

shorter, and I think will look better than the other in print.

I have been spending a few happy days, previous to my departure

from Ireland, in a charming place and in the companionship of a

person I love dearly. All my powers of enjoyment have been

constantly occupied, and I have had a breathing-time of rest and

real pleasure before I recommence my work. Such seasons are like

angel's visits, but I suppose one ought to rejoice that they are

allowed us at all, rather than complain of their brevity and

infrequency. I am getting weary of wandering, and long to be once

more settled at home.

What say you to this French revolution? Have not they made good use

of their time, that in so few years from their last bloody national

convulsion men's minds should so have advanced and expanded in

France as to enable the people to overturn the government and

change the whole course of public affairs with such comparative

moderation and small loss of, life? I was still in Dublin when the

news of the recent events in France reached us, and I never

witnessed anything so like tipsiness as Lady Morgan's delight at

it. I believe she wished herself a Frenchwoman with all her heart,

and she declared she would go over as soon as her next work, which

is in the hands of the publisher, was out. Were I a man, I should

have been well pleased to have been in France some weeks ago; the

rising of the nation against oppression and abuse, and the creating

of a new and better state of things without any outbreak of popular

excess, must have been a fine thing to see. But as a woman,

incapable of mixing personally in such scenes, I would rather have

the report of them at a distance than witness them as a mere

inactive spectator; for though the loss of life has been

comparatively small, considering the great end that has been

achieved, it must be horrible to see bloodshed, even that of a

single individual. I believe I am a great coward. I shall not close

this to-night, but wait till to-morrow, to tell you how my first

appearance here goes off.

TUESDAY, August 17th.

We had a very fine house indeed last night, and everything went off

remarkably well. I had every reason to be satisfied with the

audience, who, though proverbially a cold one, were exceedingly

enthusiastic in their applause, which, I suppose, is the best

indication that they were satisfied with me. Good-by, my dear Mrs.

Jameson; believe me yours ever truly,

F. A. K.

The intention of engaging a governess for my sister was not carried out,

and she was taken to Paris and placed under the charge of Mrs. Foster,

wife of the chaplain of the British embassy, under whose care she

pursued her general education, while with the tuition of the celebrated

Bordogni, the first singing-master of the day, she cultivated her fine

voice and developed her musical genius.

The French Revolution of 1830, which placed Louis Philippe of Orleans on

the throne, and sent Charles X. to end his days in an obscure corner of

Germany, was the first of four revolutions which I have lived to

witness; and since then I have often thought of a lady who, during the

next political catastrophe, by which Louis Philippe was shaken out of

his seat, showing Mrs. Grote the conveniences of a charming apartment in

a central part of Paris, said, "Voici mon salon, voici ma salle à

manger, et voyez comme c'est commode! De cette fenêtre je vois mes

révolutions." The younger Bourbon of the Orleans branch had learned part

of the lesson of government (of which even the most intelligent of that

race seem destined never to learn the whole) in democratic America and

democratic Switzerland. Perhaps it was in these two essentially

_bourgeois_ countries that he learned the only virtues that

distinguished him as the _Roi Bourgeois, par excellence_.

HEATON PARK, September 18, 1830.

MY DEAR MRS. JAMESON,

Were it not that I should be ashamed to look you in the face when

we meet, which I hope will now be soon, I should be much tempted to

defer thanking you for your last kind letter until that period, for

I am at this moment in the bustle of three departures. My mother

arrived in Manchester this morning, whence my aunt Dall starts

to-night for Buckinghamshire, and my father to-morrow morning at

seven o'clock for London, and at eight my mother and myself start

for Liverpool. I am most anxious to be there for the opening of the

railroad, which takes place on Wednesday. I act in Manchester on

Friday, and after that we shall spend some days with Lord and Lady

W----, at their seat near there; and then I return to London to

begin my winter campaign, when I hope to see you less oppressed

with anxiety and vexation than you were when we parted there. And

now, what shall I say to you? My life for the last three weeks has

been so hurried and busy that, while I have matter for many long

letters, I have hardly time for condensation; you know what Madame

de Sévigné says, "Si j'avais eu plus de temps, je t'aurais écrit

moins longuement." I have been sight-seeing and acting for the last

month, and the first occupation is really the more exhausting of

the two. I will give you a _carte_, and when we meet you shall call

upon me for a detail of any or all of its contents.

I have seen the fine, picturesque old town of Chester; I have seen

Liverpool, its docks, its cemetery, its railway, on which I was

flown away with by a steam-engine, at the rate of five and thirty

miles an hour; I have seen Manchester, power-looms,

spinning-jennies, cotton factories, etc.; I have stayed at the

pleasant modern mansion of Heaton; I have visited Hopwood Hall,

built in the reign of Edward the First, and still retaining its

carved old oaken chimneys and paneled chambers and latticed

windows, and intricate ups and downs of internal architecture, to

present use apparently as purposeless and inconvenient as if one

was living in a cat's-cradle. I have seen a rush-bearing with its

classical morris dance, executed in honor of some antique

observance by the country folk of Lancashire, with whom this

commemoration, but no knowledge of its original significance,

remains. I have seen Birmingham, its button-making, pin-making,

plating, stamping, etc.; I have seen Aston Hall, an old house two

miles from the town, and two hundred from everything in it, where

Charles the First slept after the battle of Edge Hill, and whose

fine old staircase still retains the marks of Cromwell's

cannon,--which house, moreover, possesses an oaken gallery one

hundred and odd feet long, hung with old portraits, one of the most

delightful apartments imaginable. How I did sin in envy, and long

for that nice room to walk up and down and dream and poetize in;

but as I know of no earthly way of compassing this desirable

acquisition but offering myself in exchange for it to its present

possessor (who might not think well of the bargain), _il n'y faut

plus penser_. Moreover, as the grapes are sour, I conclude that

upon the whole it might not be an advantageous one for me. I am at

this moment writing in a drawing-room full of people, at Heaton

(Lord W----'s place), taking up my pen to talk to you and laying it

down to talk to others. I must now, however, close my double and

divided conversation, because I have not brains enough to play at

two games at once. I am ever yours, very sincerely,

F. A. K.

While we were acting at Liverpool an experimental trip was proposed upon

the line of railway which was being constructed between Liverpool and

Manchester, the first mesh of that amazing iron net which now covers the

whole surface of England and all the civilized portions of the earth.

The Liverpool merchants, whose far-sighted self-interest prompted them

to wise liberality, had accepted the risk of George Stephenson's

magnificent experiment, which the committee of inquiry of the House of

Commons had rejected for the government. These men, of less intellectual

culture than the Parliament members, had the adventurous imagination

proper to great speculators, which is the poetry of the counting-house

and wharf, and were better able to receive the enthusiastic infection of

the great projector's sanguine hope that the Westminster committee. They

were exultant and triumphant at the near completion of the work, though,

of course, not without some misgivings as to the eventual success of the

stupendous enterprise. My father knew several of the gentlemen most

deeply interested in the undertaking, and Stephenson having proposed a

trial trip as far as the fifteen-mile viaduct, they, with infinite

kindness, invited him and permitted me to accompany them; allowing me,

moreover, the place which I felt to be one of supreme honor, by the side

of Stephenson. All that wonderful history, as much more interesting than

a romance as truth is stranger than fiction, which Mr. Smiles's

biography of the projector has given in so attractive a form to the

world, I then heard from his own lips. He was a rather stern-featured

man, with a dark and deeply marked countenance; his speech was strongly

inflected with his native Northumbrian accent, but the fascination of

that story told by himself, while his tame dragon flew panting along his

iron pathway with us, passed the first reading of the "Arabian Nights,"

the incidents of which it almost seemed to recall. He was wonderfully

condescending and kind in answering all the questions of my eager

ignorance, and I listened to him with eyes brimful of warm tears of

sympathy and enthusiasm, as he told me of all his alternations of hope

and fear, of his many trials and disappointments, related with fine

scorn how the "Parliament men" had badgered and baffled him with their

book-knowledge, and how, when at last they thought they had smothered

the irrepressible prophecy of his genius in the quaking depths of

Chatmoss, he had exclaimed, "Did ye ever see a boat float on water? I

will make my road float upon Chatmoss!" The well-read Parliament men

(some of whom, perhaps, wished for no railways near their parks and

pleasure-grounds) could not believe the miracle, but the shrewd

Liverpool merchants, helped to their faith by a great vision of immense

gain, did; and so the railroad was made, and I took this memorable ride

by the side of its maker, and would not have exchanged the honor and

pleasure of it for one of the shares in the speculation.

LIVERPOOL, August 26th.

MY DEAR H----,

A common sheet of paper is enough for love, but a foolscap extra

can alone contain a railroad and my ecstasies. There was once a

man, who was born at Newcastle-upon-Tyne, who was a common

coal-digger; this man had an immense constructiveness, which

displayed itself in pulling his watch to pieces and putting it

together again; in making a pair of shoes when he happened to be

some days without occupation; finally--here there is a great gap in

my story--it brought him in the capacity of an engineer before a

committee of the House of Commons, with his head full of plans for

constructing a railroad from Liverpool to Manchester. It so

happened that to the quickest and most powerful perceptions and

conceptions, to the most indefatigable industry and perseverance,

and the most accurate knowledge of the phenomena of nature as they

affect his peculiar labors, this man joined an utter want of the

"gift of the gab;" he could no more explain to others what he meant

to do and how he meant to do it, than he could fly; and therefore

the members of the House of Commons, after saying, "There is rock

to be excavated to a depth of more than sixty feet, there are

embankments to be made nearly to the same height, there is a swamp

of five miles in length to be traversed, in which if you drop an

iron rod it sinks and disappears: how will you do all this?" and

receiving no answer but a broad Northumbrian "I can't tell you how

I'll do it, but I can tell you I _will_ do it," dismissed

Stephenson as a visionary. Having prevailed upon a company of

Liverpool gentlemen to be less incredulous, and having raised funds

for his great undertaking, in December of 1826 the first spade was

struck into the ground. And now I will give you an account of my

yesterday's excursion. A party of sixteen persons was ushered, into

a large court-yard, where, under cover, stood several carriages of

a peculiar construction, one of which was prepared for our

reception. It was a long-bodied vehicle with seats placed across

it, back to back; the one we were in had six of these benches, and

was a sort of uncovered _char à banc_. The wheels were placed upon

two iron bands, which formed the road, and to which they are

fitted, being so constructed as to slide along without any danger

of hitching or becoming displaced, on the same principle as a thing

sliding on a concave groove. The carriage was set in motion by a

mere push, and, having received, this impetus, rolled with us down

an inclined plane into a tunnel, which forms the entrance to the

railroad. This tunnel is four hundred yards long (I believe), and

will be lighted by gas. At the end of it we emerged from darkness,

and, the ground becoming level, we stopped. There is another tunnel

parallel with this, only much wider and longer, for it extends from

the place which we had now reached, and where the steam-carriages

start, and which is quite out of Liverpool, the whole way under the

town, to the docks. This tunnel is for wagons and other heavy

carriages; and as the engines which are to draw the trains along

the railroad do not enter these tunnels, there is a large building

at this entrance which is to be inhabited by steam-engines of a

stationary turn of mind, and different constitution from the

traveling ones, which are to propel the trains through the tunnels

to the terminus in the town, without going out of their houses

themselves. The length of the tunnel parallel to the one we passed

through is (I believe) two thousand two hundred yards. I wonder if

you are understanding one word I am saying all this while! We were

introduced to the little engine which was to drag us along the

rails. She (for they make these curious little fire-horses all

mares) consisted of a boiler, a stove, a small platform, a bench,

and behind the bench a barrel containing enough water to prevent

her being thirsty for fifteen miles,--the whole machine not bigger

than a common fire-engine. She goes upon two wheels, which are her

feet, and are moved by bright steel legs called pistons; these are

propelled by steam, and in proportion as more steam is applied to

the upper extremities (the hip-joints, I suppose) of these pistons,

the faster they move the wheels; and when it is desirable to

diminish the speed, the steam, which unless suffered to escape

would burst the boiler, evaporates through a safety-valve into the

air. The reins, bit, and bridle of this wonderful beast is a small

steel handle, which applies or withdraws the steam from its legs or

pistons, so that a child might manage it. The coals, which are its

oats, were under the bench, and there was a small glass tube

affixed to the boiler, with water in it, which indicates by its

fullness or emptiness when the creature wants water, which is

immediately conveyed to it from its reservoirs. There is a chimney

to the stove, but as they burn coke there is none of the dreadful

black smoke which accompanies the progress of a steam vessel. This

snorting little animal, which I felt rather inclined to pat, was

then harnessed to our carriage, and, Mr. Stephenson having taken me

on the bench of the engine with him, we started at about ten miles

an hour. The steam-horse being ill adapted for going up and down

hill, the road was kept at a certain level, and appeared sometimes

to sink below the surface of the earth, and sometimes to rise above

it. Almost at starting it was cut through the solid rock, which

formed a wall on either side of it, about sixty feet high. You

can't imagine how strange it seemed to be journeying on thus,

without any visible cause of progress other than the magical

machine, with its flying white breath and rhythmical, unvarying

pace, between these rocky walls, which are already clothed with

moss and ferns and grasses; and when I reflected that these great

masses of stone had been cut asunder to allow our passage thus far

below the surface of the earth, I felt as if no fairy tale was ever

half so wonderful as what I saw. Bridges were thrown from side to

side across the top of these cliffs, and the people looking down

upon us from them seemed like pigmies standing in the sky. I must

be more concise, though, or I shall want room. We were to go only

fifteen miles, that distance being sufficient to show the speed of

the engine, and to take us on to the most beautiful and wonderful

object on the road. After proceeding through this rocky defile, we

presently found ourselves raised upon embankments ten or twelve

feet high; we then came to a moss, or swamp, of considerable

extent, on which no human foot could tread without sinking, and yet

it bore the road which bore us. This had been the great

stumbling-block in the minds of the committee of the House of

Commons; but Mr. Stephenson has succeeded in overcoming it. A

foundation of hurdles, or, as he called it, basket-work, was thrown

over the morass, and the interstices were filled with moss and

other elastic matter. Upon this the clay and soil were laid down,

and the road does float, for we passed over it at the rate of five

and twenty miles an hour, and saw the stagnant swamp water

trembling on the surface of the soil on either side of us. I hope

you understand me. The embankment had gradually been rising higher

and higher, and in one place, where the soil was not settled enough

to form banks, Stephenson had constructed artificial ones of

wood-work, over which the mounds of earth were heaped, for he said

that though the wood-work would rot, before it did so the banks of

earth which covered it would have been sufficiently consolidated to

support the road.

We had now come fifteen miles, and stopped where the road traversed

a wide and deep valley. Stephenson made me alight and led me down

to the bottom of this ravine, over which, in order to keep his road

level, he has thrown a magnificent viaduct of nine arches, the

middle one of which is seventy feet high, through which we saw the

whole of this beautiful little valley. It was lovely and wonderful

beyond all words. He here told me many curious things respecting

this ravine: how he believed the Mersey had once rolled through it;

how the soil had proved so unfavorable for the foundation of his

bridge that it was built upon piles, which had been driven into the

earth to an enormous depth; how, while digging for a foundation, he

had come to a tree bedded in the earth fourteen feet below the

surface of the ground; how tides are caused, and how another flood

might be caused; all of which I have remembered and noted down at

much greater length than I can enter upon it here. He explained to

me the whole construction of the steam-engine, and said he could

soon make a famous engineer of me, which, considering the wonderful

things he has achieved, I dare not say is impossible. His way of

explaining himself is peculiar, but very striking, and I

understood, without difficulty, all that he said to me. We then

rejoined the rest of the party, and the engine having received its

supply of water, the carriage was placed behind it, for it cannot

turn, and was set off at its utmost speed, thirty-five miles an

hour, swifter than a bird flies (for they tried the experiment with

a snipe). You cannot conceive what that sensation of cutting the

air was; the motion is as smooth as possible, too. I could either

have read or written; and as it was, I stood up, and with my bonnet

off "drank the air before me." The wind, which was strong, or

perhaps the force of our own thrusting against it, absolutely

weighed my eyelids down. [I remember a similar experience to this,

the first time I attempted to go behind the sheet of the cataract

of Niagara; the wind coming from beneath the waterfall met me with

such direct force that it literally bore down my eyelids, and I had

to put off the attempt of penetrating behind the curtain of foam

till another day, when that peculiar accident; was less directly

hostile to me in its conditions.] When I closed my eyes this

sensation of flying was quite delightful, and strange beyond

description; yet, strange as it was, I had a perfect sense of

security, and not the slightest fear. At one time, to exhibit the

power of the engine, having met another steam-carriage which was

unsupplied with water, Mr. Stephenson caused it to be fastened in

front of ours; moreover, a wagon laden with timber was also chained

to us, and thus propelling the idle steam-engine, and dragging the

loaded wagon which was beside it, and our own carriage full of

people behind, this brave little she-dragon of ours flew on.

Farther on she met three carts, which, being fastened in front of

her, she pushed on before her without the slightest delay or

difficulty; when I add that this pretty little creature can run

with equal facility either backward or forward, I believe I have

given you an account of all her capacities.

Now for a word or two about the master of all these marvels, with

whom I am most horribly in love. He is a man of from fifty to

fifty-five years of age; his face is fine, though careworn, and

bears an expression of deep thoughtfulness; his mode of explaining

his ideas is peculiar and very original, striking, and forcible;

and although his accent indicates strongly his north-country birth,

his language has not the slightest touch of vulgarity or

coarseness. He has certainly turned my head.

Four years have sufficed to bring this great undertaking to an end.

The railroad will be opened upon the 15th of next month. The Duke

of Wellington is coming down to be present on the occasion, and, I

suppose, what with the thousands of spectators and the novelty of

the spectacle, there will never have been a scene of more striking

interest. The whole cost of the work (including the engines and

carriages) will have been eight hundred and thirty thousand pounds;

and it is already worth double that sum. The directors have kindly

offered us three places for the opening, which is a great favor,

for people are bidding almost anything for a place, I understand;

but I fear we shall be obliged to decline them, as my father is

most anxious to take Henry over to Heidelberg before our season of

work in London begins, which will take place on the first of

October. I think there is every probability of our having a very

prosperous season. London will be particularly gay this winter, and

the king and queen, it is said, are fond of dramatic

entertainments, so that I hope we shall get on well. You will be

glad to hear that our houses here have been very fine, and that

to-night, Friday, which was my benefit, the theater was crowded in

every corner. We do not play here any more, but on Monday we open

at Manchester. You will, I know, be happy to hear that, by way of

answer to the letter I told you I had written my mother, I received

a very delightful one from my dear little sister, the first I have

had from her since I left London. She is a little jewel, and it

will be a sin if she is marred in the cutting and polishing, or if

she is set in tawdry French pinchbeck, instead of fine, strong,

sterling gold. I am sorry to say that the lady Mrs. Jameson

recommended as her governess has not been thought sufficiently

accomplished to undertake the charge. I regret this the more, as in

a letter I have just received from Mrs. Jameson she speaks with

more detail of this lady's qualifications, which seem to me

peculiarly adapted to have a good effect upon such a mind and

character as A----'s.

I wish I had been with your girls at their ball, and come back from

it and found you holding communion with the skies. My dearest

H----, sublime and sweet and holy as are the feelings with which I

look up to the star-paved heavens, or to the glorious summer sun,

or listen to the music of the great waves, I do not for an instant

mistake the adoration of the almighty power manifested in these

works of God, for religion. You tell me to beware of mixing up

emotional or imaginative excitement with my devotion. And I think I

can truly answer that I do not do so. I told you that the cathedral

service was not prayer to me; nor do I ever confound a mere

emotional or imaginative enthusiasm, even when excited by the

highest of all objects of contemplation, with the daily and hourly

endeavor after righteousness--the humble trust, resignation,

obedience, and thankfulness, which I believe constitute the vital

part of religious faith. I humbly hope I keep the sacred ground of

my religion clear from whatever does not belong to the spirit of

its practice. As long as I can remember, I have endeavored to guard

against mistaking emotion for religion, and have even sometimes

been apprehensive lest the admiration I felt for certain passages

in the Psalms and the Hebrew prophets should make me forget the

more solemn and sacred purposes of the book of life, and the glad

tidings of our salvation. And though, when I look up as you did at

the worlds with which our midnight sky is studded, I feel inclined

to break out, "The heavens declare the glory of God," or, when I

stand upon the shore, can hardly refrain from crying aloud, "The

sea is His, and He made it," I do not in these moments of sublime

emotion forget that He is the God to whom all hearts be open; who,

from the moment I rise until I lie down to rest, witnesses my every

thought and feeling; to whom I look for support against the evil of

my own nature and the temptations which He allots me, who bestows

every blessing and inspires every good impulse, who will strengthen

me for every duty and trial: my Father, in whom I live and move and

have my being. I do not fear that my imagination will become

over-excited with thoughts such as these, but I often regret most

bitterly that my heart is not more deeply touched by them. Your

definition of the love of God seemed almost like a reproach to my

conscience. How miserably our practice halts behind our knowledge

of good, even when tried at the bar of our own lenient judgment,

and by our imperfect standard of right! how poorly does our life

answer to our profession! I should speak in the singular, for I am

only uttering my own self-condemnation. But as the excellence we

adore surpasses our comprehension, so does the mercy, and in that

lies our only trust and confidence.

I fear Miss W---- either has not received my letter or does not

mean to answer it, for I have received no reply, and I dare not try

again. Up to a certain point I am impudent enough, but not beyond

that. Why do you threaten me with dancing to me? Have I lately

given you cause to think I deserve to have such a punishment hung

_in terrorem_ over me? Besides, threatening me is injudicious, for

it rouses a spirit of resistance in me not easy to break down. I

assure you _o_ [in allusion to my mispronunciation of that vowel]

is really greatly improved. I take much pains with it, as also with

my deportment; they will, I hope, no longer annoy you when next we

meet. You must not call Mrs. J---- my friend, for I do not. I like

her much, and I see a great deal to esteem and admire in her, but I

do not _yet_ call her my friend. You are my friend, and Mrs. Harry

Siddons is my friend, and you are the only persons I call by that

name. I have read "Paul Clifford," according to your desire, and

like it very much; it is written with a good purpose, and very

powerfully. You asked me if I believed such selfishness as

Brandon's to be natural, and I said yes, not having read the book,

but merely from your report of him; and, having read the book, I

say so still.

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