CHAPTER XVI

Aus den Himmelsaugen droben

Fallen zitternd goldne Funken

Durch die Nacht, und meine Seele

Dehnt sich liebeweit und weiter.

O ihr Himmelsaugen droben,

Weint euch aus in meine Seele,

Dass von lichten Sternentranen

Uberfliesset meine Seele!

Heine.

They rose, fluttered a moment above the lilac bushes, and then shot

forward like the curve of a rainbow into the sleeping house. The next

second they stood beside the bed of the Widow Jequier.

She lay there, so like a bundle of untidy sticks that, but for the

sadness upon the weary face, they could have burst out laughing. The

perfume of the wistaria outside the open window came in sweetly, yet

could not lighten the air of heavy gloom that clothed her like a

garment. Her atmosphere was dull, all streaked with greys and black,

for her mind, steeped in anxiety even while she slept, gave forth

cloudy vapours of depression and disquietude that made impossible the

approach of--light. Starlight, certainly, could not force an entrance,

and even sunlight would spill half its radiance before it reached her

heart. The help she needed she thus deliberately shut out. Before

going to bed her mood had been one of anxious care and searching

worry. It continued, of course, in sleep.

'Now,' thought their leader briskly, 'we must deal with this at once';

and the children, understanding his unspoken message, approached

closer to the bed. How brilliant their little figures were--Jimbo, a

soft, pure blue, and Monkey tinged faintly here and there with

delicate clear orange. Thus do the little clouds of sunset gather

round to see the sun get into bed. And in utter silence; all their

intercourse was silent--thought, felt, but never spoken.

For a moment there was hesitation. Cousinenry was uncertain exactly

how to begin. Tante Jeanne's atmosphere was so very thick he hardly

knew the best way to penetrate it. Her mood had been so utterly black

and rayless. But his hesitation operated like a call for help that

flew instantly about the world and was communicated to the golden

threads that patterned the outside sky. They quivered, flashed the

message automatically; the enormous network repeated it as far as

England, and the answer came. For thought is instantaneous, and desire

is prayer. Quick as lightning came the telegram. Beside them stood a

burly figure of gleaming gold.

'I'll do it,' said the earthy voice. 'I'll show you 'ow. For she loves

'er garden. Her sympathy with trees and flowers lets me in. Always

send for _me_ when she's in a mess, or needs a bit of trimmin' and

cleanin' up.'

The Head Gardener pushed past them with his odour of soil and burning

leaves, his great sunburned face and his browned, stained hands. These

muscular, big hands he spread above her troubled face; he touched her

heart; he blew his windy breath of flowers upon her untidy hair; he

called the names of lilac, wistaria, roses, and laburnum....

The room filled with the little rushing music of wind in leaves; and,

as he said 'laburnum,' there came at last a sudden opening channel

through the fog that covered her so thickly. Starlight, that was like

a rivulet of laburnum blossoms melted into running dew, flowed down

it. The Widow Jequier stirred in her sleep and smiled. Other channels

opened. Light trickled down these, too, drawn in and absorbed from the

store the Gardener carried. Then, with a rush of scattering fire, he

was gone again. Out into the enormous sky he flew, trailing golden

flame behind him. They heard him singing as he dived into the Network

--singing of buttercups and cowslips, of primroses and marigolds and

dandelions, all yellow flowers that have stored up starlight.

And the atmosphere of Tante Jeanne first glowed, then shone; it

changed slowly from gloom to glory. Golden channels opened everywhere,

making a miniature network of their own. Light flashed and corruscated

through it, passing from the children and their leader along the tiny

pipes of sympathy the Gardener had cleared of rubbish and decay. Along

the very lines of her face ran tiny shining rivers; flooding across

her weary eyelids, gilding her untidy hair, and pouring down into her

heavy heart. She ceased fidgeting; she smiled in her sleep; peace

settled on her face; her fingers on the coverlet lost their touch of

strain. Finally she turned over, stretched her old fighting body into

a more comfortable position, sighed a moment, then settled down into a

deep and restful slumber. Her atmosphere was everywhere 'soft-shiny'

when they left her to shoot next into the attic chamber above, where

Miss Waghorn lay among her fragments of broken memory, and the litter

of disordered images that passed with her for 'thinking.'

And here, again, although their task was easier, they needed help to

show the right way to begin. Before they reached the room Jimbo had

wondered how they would 'get at' her. That wonder summoned help. The

tall, thin figure was already operating beside the bed as they

entered. His length seemed everywhere at once, and his slender pole, a

star hanging from the end, was busy touching articles on walls and

floor and furniture. The disorder everywhere was the expression of her

dishevelled mind, and though he could not build the ruins up again, at

least he could trace the outlines of an ordered plan that she might

use when she left her body finally and escaped from the rebellious

instrument in death. And now that escape was not so very far away.

Obviously she was already loose. She was breaking up, as the world

expresses it.

And the children, watching with happy delight, soon understood his

method. Each object that he touched emitted a tiny light. In her mind

he touched the jumble of wandering images as well. On waking she would

find both one and the other better assorted. Some of the lost things

her memory ever groped for she would find more readily. She would see

the starlight on them.

'See,' said their leader softly, as the long thin figure of the

Lamplighter shot away into the night, 'she sleeps so lightly because

she is so old--fastened so delicately to the brain and heart. The

fastenings are worn and loose now. Already she is partly out!'

'That's why she's so muddled in the daytime,' explained Jimbo, for his

sister's benefit.

'Exaccurately, I knew it already!' was the reply, turning a somersault

like a wheel of twirling meteors close to the old lady's nose.

'Carefully, now!' said their leader. 'And hurry up! There's not much

we can do here, and there's heaps to do elsewhere. We must remember

Mother and Daddy--before the Interfering Sun is up, you know.'

They flashed about the attic chamber, tipping everything with light,

from the bundle of clothes that strewed the floor to the confused

interior of the black basket-trunk where she kept her money and

papers. There were no shelves in this attic chamber; no room for

cupboards either; it was the cheapest room in the house. And the old

woman in the bed sometimes opened her eyes and peered curiously,

expectantly, about her. Even in her sleep she looked for things.

Almost, they felt, she seemed aware of their presence near her, she

knew that they were there; she smiled.

A moment later they were in mid-air on their way to the Citadelle,

singing as they went:--

He keeps that only

For the old and lonely,

Who sleep so little that they need the best.

The rest--

The common stuff--

Is good enough

For Fraulein, or for baby, or for mother,

Or any other

Who likes a bit of dust,

And yet can do without it--

If they must...

Already something of the Dawn's faint magic painting lay upon the

world. Roofs shone with dew. The woods were singing, and the flowers

were awake. Birds piped and whistled shrilly from the orchards. They

heard the Mer Dasson murmuring along her rocky bed. The rampart of the

Alps stood out more clearly against the sky.

'We must be _very_ quick,' Cousin Henry flashed across to them,

'quicker than an express train.'

'That's impossible,' cried Jimbo, who already felt the call of waking

into his daily world. 'Hark! There's whistling already....'

The next second, in a twinkling, he was gone. He had left them. His

body had been waked up by the birds that sang and whistled so loudly

in the plane tree outside his window. Monkey and her guide raced on

alone into the very room where he now sat up and rubbed his eyes in

the Citadelle. He was telling his mother that he had just been

'dreaming extraordinary.' But Mother, sleeping like a fossil monster

in the Tertiary strata, heard him not.

'He often goes like that,' whispered Monkey in a tone of proud

superiority. 'He's only a little boy really, you see.'

But the sight they then witnessed was not what they expected.

For Mademoiselle Lemaire herself was working over Mother like an

engine, and Mother was still sleeping like the dead. The radiance that

emanated from the night-body of this suffering woman, compared to

their own, was as sunlight is to candle-light. Its soft glory was

indescribable, its purity quite unearthly, and the patterns that it

wove lovely beyond all telling. Here they surprised her in the act,

busy with her ceaseless activities for others, working for the world

by _thinking_ beauty. While her pain-racked body lay asleep in the bed

it had not left for thirty years, nor would ever leave again this side

of death, she found her real life in loving sympathy for the pain of

others everywhere. For thought is prayer, and prayer is the only true

effective action that leaves no detail incomplete. She _thought_ light

and glory into others. Was it any wonder that she drew a special,

brilliant supply from the Starlight Cavern, when she had so much to

give? For giving-out involved drawing-in to fill the emptied spaces.

Her pure and endless sources of supply were all explained.

'I've been working on her for years,' she said gently, looking round

at their approach, 'for her life is so thickly overlaid with care, and

the care she never quite knows how to interpret. We were friends, you

see, in childhood.... You'd better hurry on to the carpenter's house.

You'll find Jinny there doing something for her father.' She did not

cease her working while she said it, this practical mind so familiar

with the methods of useful thinking, this loving heart so versed in

prayer while her broken body, deemed useless by the world, lay in the

bed that was its earthly prison-house. '_He_ can give me all the help

I need,' she added.

She pointed, and they saw the figure of the Sweep standing in the

corner of the room among a pile of brimming sacks. His dirty face was

beaming. They heard him singing quietly to himself under his breath,

while his feet and sooty hands marked time with a gesture of quaintest

dancing:--

_Such_ a tremendously busy Sweep,

Catching the world when it's all asleep,

And tossing the blacks on the Rubbish Heap

Over the edge of the world!

'Come,' whispered Cousin Henry, catching at Monkey's hair, 'we can do

something, but we can't do _that_. She needs no help from us!'

They sped across to the carpenter's house among the vineyards.

'What a splendour!' gasped the child as they went. 'My starlight seems

quite dim beside hers.'

'She's an old hand at the game,' he replied, noticing the tinge of

disappointment in her thought. 'With practice, you know----'

'And Mummy must be pretty tough,' she interrupted with a laugh, her

elastic nature recovering instantly.

'----with practice, I was going to say, your atmosphere will get

whiter too until it simply shines. That's why the saints have halos.'

But Monkey did not hear this last remark, she was already in her

father's bedroom, helping Jinny.

Here there were no complications, no need for assistance from a Sweep,

or Gardener, or Lamplighter. It was a case for pulling, pure and

simple. Daddy was wumbled, nothing more. Body, mind, and heart were

all up-jumbled. In making up the verse about the starlight he had

merely told the truth--about himself. The poem was instinctive and

inspirational confession. His atmosphere, as he lay there, gently

snoring in his beauty sleep, was clear and sweet and bright, no

darkness in it of grey or ugliness; but its pattern was a muddle, or

rather there were several patterns that scrambled among each other for

supremacy. Lovely patterns hovered just outside him, but none of them

got really in. And the result was chaos. Daddy was not clear-headed;

there was no concentration. Something of the perplexed confusion that

afflicted his elder daughter in the daytime mixed up the patterns

inextricably. There was no main pathway through his inner world.

And the picture proved it. It explained why Jinny pulled in vain. His

night-body came out easily as far as the head, then stuck hopelessly.

He looked like a knotted skein of coloured wools. Upon the paper where

he had been making notes before going to sleep--for personal

atmosphere is communicated to all its owner touches--lay the same

confusion. Scraps of muddle, odds and ends of different patterns,

hovered in thick blots of colour over the paragraphs and sentences.

His own uncertainty was thus imparted to what he wrote, and his

stories brought no conviction to his readers. He was too much the

Dreamer, or too much the Thinker, which of the two was not quite

clear. Harmony was lacking.

'That's probably what I'M like, too,' thought his friend, but so

softly that the children did not hear it. That Scheme of his passed

vaguely through his mind.

Then he cried louder--a definite thought:--

'There's no good tugging like that, my dears. Let him slip in again.

You'll only make him restless, and give him distorted dreams.'

'I've tugged like this every night for months,' said Jinny, 'but the

moment I let go he flies back like elastic.'

'Of course. We must first untie the knots and weave the patterns into

one. Let go!'

Daddy's night-body flashed back like a sword into its sheath. They

stood and watched him. He turned a little in his sleep, while above

him the lines twined and wriggled like phosphorus on moving water, yet

never shaped themselves into anything complete. They saw suggestions

of pure beauty in them here and there that yet never joined together

into a single outline; it was like watching the foam against a

steamer's sides in moonlight--just failing of coherent form.

'They want combing out,' declared Jane Anne with a brilliant touch of

truth. 'A rake would be best.'

'Assorting, sifting, separating,' added Cousinenry, 'but it's not

easy.' He thought deeply for a moment. 'Suppose you two attend to the

other things,' he said presently, 'while I take charge of the combing-

out.'

They knew at once his meaning; it was begun as soon as thought, only

they could never have thought of it alone; none but a leader with real

sympathy in his heart could have discovered the way.

Like Fairies, lit internally with shining lanterns, they flew about

their business. Monkey picked up his pencils and dipped their points

into her store of starlight, while Jinny drew the cork out of his ink-

pot and blew in soft-shiny radiance of her own. They soaked his books

in it, and smoothed his paper out with their fingers of clean gold.

His note-books, chair, and slippers, his smoking-coat and pipes and

tobacco-tins, his sponge, his tooth-brush and his soap--everything

from dressing-gown to dictionary, they spread thickly with their

starlight, and continued until the various objects had drunk in enough

to make them shine alone.

Then they attacked the walls and floor and ceiling, sheets and bed-

clothes. They filled the tin-bath full to the very brim, painted as

well the windows, door-handles, and the wicker chair in which they

knew he dozed after dejeuner. But with the pencils, pens, and ink-pots

they took most trouble, doing them very thoroughly indeed. And his

enormous mountain-boots received generous treatment too, for in these

he went for his long lonely walks when he thought out his stories

among the woods and valleys, coming home with joy upon his face--'I

got a splendid idea to-day--a magnificent story--if only I can get it

on to paper before it's gone...!' They understood his difficulty now:

the 'idea' was wumbled before he could fashion it. He could not get

the pattern through complete.

And his older friend, working among the disjointed patterns, saw his

trouble clearly too. It was not that he lacked this sympathy that

starlight brings, but that he applied it without discernment. The

receiving instrument was out of order, some parts moving faster than

others. Reason and imagination were not exaccurately adjusted. He

gathered plenty in, but no clear stream issued forth again; there was

confusion in delivery. The rays were twisted, the golden lines caught

into knots and tangles. Yet, ever just outside him, waiting to be

taken in, hovered these patterns of loveliness that might bring joy to

thousands. They floated in beauty round the edges of his atmosphere,

but the moment they sank in to reach his mind, there began the

distortion that tore their exquisite proportions and made designs mere

disarrangement. Inspiration, without steady thought to fashion it, was

of no value.

He worked with infinite pains to disentangle the mass of complicated

lines, and one knot after another yielded and slipped off into

rivulets of gold, all pouring inwards to reach heart and brain. It was

exhilarating, yet disappointing labour. New knots formed themselves so

easily, yet in the end much surely had been accomplished. Channels had

been cleared; repetition would at length establish habit.

But the line of light along the eastern horizon had been swiftly

growing broader meanwhile. It was brightening into delicate crimson.

Already the room was clearer, and the radiance of their bodies fading

into a paler glory. Jane Anne grew clumsier, tumbling over things, and

butting against her more agile sister. Her thoughts became more

muddled. She said things from time to time that showed it--hints that

waking was not far away.

'Daddy's a wumbled Laplander, you know, after all. Hurry up!' The

foolish daylight speech came closer.

'Give his ink-pot one more blow,' cried Monkey. Her body always slept

at least an hour longer than the others. She had more time for work.

Jane Anne bumped into the washhand-stand. She no longer saw quite

clearly.

'I'm a plenipotentiary, that's what I am. I'm afraid of nothing. But

the porridge has to be made. I must get back....'

She vanished like a flash, just as her brother had vanished half an

hour before.

'We'll go on with it to-morrow night,' signalled Cousin Henry to his

last remaining helper. 'Meet me here, remember, when...the moon...is

high enough to...cast...a...shadow....'

The opening and shutting of a door sounded through his sleep. He

turned over heavily. Surely it was not time to get up yet. That could

not be hot water coming! He had only just fallen asleep. He plunged

back again into slumber.

But Monkey had disappeared.

'What a spanking dream I've had...!' Her eyes opened, and she saw her

school-books on the chair beside the bed. Mother was gently shaking

her out of sleep. 'Six o'clock, darling. The bath is ready, and

Jinny's nearly got the porridge done. It's a lovely morning!'

'Oh, Mummy, I----'

But Mummy lifted her bodily out of bed, kissed her sleepy eyes awake,

and half carried her over to the bath. 'You can tell me all about that

later,' she said with practical decision; 'when the cold water's

cleared your head. You're always fuzzy when you wake.'

Another day had begun. The sun was blazing high above the Blumlisalp.

The birds sang in chorus. Dew shone still on the fields, but the men

were already busy in the vineyards.

And presently Cousin Henry woke too and stared lazily about his room.

He looked at his watch.

'By Jove,' he murmured. 'How one does sleep in this place! And what a

dream to be sure--I who never dream!'

He remembered nothing more. From the moment he closed his eyes, eight

hours before, until this second, all was a delicious blank. He felt

refreshed and wondrously light-hearted, at peace with all the world.

There was music in his head. He began to whistle as he lay among the

blankets for half an hour longer. And later, while he breakfasted

alone downstairs, he remembered that he ought to write to Minks. He

owed Minks a letter. And before going out into the woods he wrote it.

'I'm staying on a bit,' he mentioned at the end. 'I find so much to do

here, and it's such a rest. Meanwhile I can leave everything safely in

your hands. But as soon as I get a leisure moment I'll send you the

promised draft of my Scheme for Disabled, etc., etc.'

But the Scheme got no further somehow. New objections, for one thing,

kept cropping up in his mind. It would take so long to build the

place, and find the site, satisfy County Councils, and all the rest.

The Disabled, moreover, were everywhere; it was invidious to select

one group and leave the others out. Help the world, yes--but what was

'the world'? There were so many worlds. He touched a new one every day

and every hour. Which needed his help most? Bourcelles was quite as

important, quite as big and hungry as any of the others. 'That old

Vicar knew a thing or two,' he reflected later in the forest, while he

gathered a bunch of hepaticas and anemones to take to Mlle. Lemaire.

'There are "neighbours" everywhere, the world's simply chock full of

'em. But what a pity that we die just when we're getting fit and ready

to begin. Perhaps we go on afterwards, though. I wonder...!'

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