"SHE LOVES ME; SHE LOVES ME NOT"
Unkind as the Fates had proved to Brant earlier in the day, they
relented somewhat as the sun rose higher, and consented to lead him to
far happier scenes. There is a rare fortune which seems to pilot
lovers aright, even when they are most blind to the road, and the young
soldier was now most truly a lover groping through the mists of doubt
and despair.
It was no claim of military duty which compelled him to relinquish Miss
Spencer so promptly at the hotel door, but rather a desire to escape
her ceaseless chatter and gain retirement where he could reflect in
quiet over the revelations of Hampton. In this quest he rode slowly up
the valley of the Bear Water, through the bright sunshine, the rare
beauty of the scene scarcely leaving the slightest impress on his mind,
so busy was it, and so preoccupied. He no longer had any doubt that
Hampton had utilized his advantageous position, as well as his
remarkable powers of pleasing, to ensnare the susceptible heart of this
young, confiding girl. While the man had advanced no direct claim, he
had said enough to make perfectly clear the close intimacy of their
relation and the existence of a definite understanding between them.
With this recognized as a fact, was he justified in endeavoring to win
Naida Gillis for himself? That the girl would find continued happiness
with such a man as Hampton he did not for a moment believe possible;
that she had been deliberately deceived regarding his true character he
felt no doubt. The fellow had impressed her by means of his
picturesque personality, his cool, dominating manner, his veneer of
refinement; he had presumed on her natural gratitude, her girlish
susceptibility, her slight knowledge of the world, to worm his way into
her confidence, perhaps even to inspire love. These probabilities, as
Brant understood them, only served to render him more ardent in his
quest, more eager to test his strength in the contest for a prize so
well worth the winning. He acknowledged no right that such a man as
Hampton could justly hold over so innocent and trustful a heart. The
girl was morally so far above him as to make his very touch a
profanation, and at the unbidden thought of it, the soldier vowed to
oppose such an unholy consummation. Nor did he, even then, utterly
despair of winning, for he recalled afresh the intimacy of their few
past meetings, his face brightening in memory of this and that brief
word or shy glance. There is a voiceless language of love which a
lover alone can interpret, and Brant rode on slowly, deciphering its
messages, and attaining new courage with every step of his horse.
All the world loves a lover, and all the fairies guide him. As the
officer's eyes, already smiling in anticipated victory, glanced up from
the dusty road, he perceived just ahead the same steep bank down which
he had plunged in his effort at capturing his fleeing tormentor. With
the sight there came upon him a desire to loiter again in the little
glen where they had first met, and dream once more of her who had given
to the shaded nook both life and beauty. Amid the sunshine and the
shadow he could picture afresh that happy, piquant face, the dark coils
of hair, those tantalizing eyes. He swung himself from the saddle,
tied a loose rein to a scrub oak, and clambered up the bank.
With the noiseless step of a plainsman he pushed in through the
labyrinths of bush, only to halt petrified upon the very edge of that
inner barrier. No figment of imagination, but the glowing reality of
flesh and blood, awaited him. She had neither seen nor heard his
approach, and he stopped in perplexity. He had framed a dozen speeches
for her ears, yet now he could do no more than stand and gaze, his
heart in his eyes. And it was a vision to enchain, to hold lips
speechless. She was seated with unstudied grace on the edge of the
bank, her hands clasped about one knee, her sweet face sobered by
thought, her eyes downcast, the long lashes plainly outlined against
the clear cheeks. He marked the graceful sweep of her dark,
close-fitting dress, the white fringe of dainty underskirt, the small
foot, neatly booted, peeping from beneath, and the glimpse of round,
white throat, rendered even fairer by the creamy lace encircling it.
Against the darker background of green shrubs she resembled a picture
entitled "Dreaming," which he dimly recalled lingering before in some
famous Eastern gallery, and his heart beat faster in wonderment at what
the mystic dream might be. To draw back unobserved was impossible,
even had he possessed strength of will sufficient to make the attempt,
nor would words of easy greeting come to his relief. He could merely
worship silently as before a sacred shrine. It was thus she glanced up
and saw him with startled eyes, her hands unclasping, her cheeks
rose-colored.
"Lieutenant Brant, you here?" she exclaimed, speaking as if his
presence seemed unreal. "What strange miracles an idle thought can
work!"
"Thoughts, I have heard," he replied, coming toward her with head
uncovered, "will sometimes awaken answers through vast distances of
time and space. As my thought was with you I may be altogether to
blame for thus arousing your own. From the expression of your face I
supposed you dreaming."
She smiled, her eyes uplifted for a single instant to his own. "It was
rather thought just merging into dream, and there are few things in
life more sweet. I know not whether it is the common gift of all
minds, but my day-dreams are almost more to me than my realities."
"First it was moods, and now dreams." He seated himself comfortably at
her feet. "You would cause me to believe you a most impractical
person, Miss Naida."
She laughed frankly, that rippling peal of unaffected merriment which
sounded so like music to his ears. "If that were only true, I am sure
I should be most happy, for it has been my fortune so far to conjure up
only pleasure through day-dreaming--the things I like and long for
become my very own then. But if you mean, as I suspect, that I do not
enjoy the dirt and drudgery of life, then my plea will have to be
guilty. I, of course, grant their necessity, yet apparently there are
plenty who find them well worth while, and there should be other work
for those who aspire. Back of what you term practical some one has
said there is always a dream, a first conception. In that sense I
choose to be a dreamer."
"And not so unwise a choice, if your dreams only tend toward results."
He sat looking into her animated face, deeply puzzled by both words and
actions. "I cannot help noticing that you avoid all reference to my
meeting with Mr. Hampton. Is this another sign of your impractical
mind?"
"I should say rather the opposite, for I had not even supposed it
concerned me."
"Indeed! That presents a vastly different view from the one given us
an hour since. The distinct impression was then conveyed to both our
minds that you were greatly distressed regarding the matter. Is it
possible you can have been acting again?"
"I? Certainly not!" and she made no attempt to hide her indignation.
"What can you mean?"
He hesitated an instant in his reply, feeling that possibly he was
treading upon thin ice. But her eyes commanded a direct answer, and he
yielded to them.
"We were informed that you experienced great anxiety for fear we might
quarrel,--so great, indeed, that you had confided your troubles to
another."
"To whom?"
"Miss Spencer. She came to us ostensibly in your name, and as a
peacemaker."
A moment she sat gazing directly at him, then she laughed softly.
"Why, how supremely ridiculous; I can hardly believe it true, only your
face tells me you certainly are not in play. Lieutenant Brant, I have
never even dreamed of such a thing. You had informed me that your
mission was one of peace, and he pledged me his word not to permit any
quarrel. I had the utmost confidence in you both."
"How, then, did she even know of our meeting?"
"I am entirely in the dark, as mystified as you," she acknowledged,
frankly, "for it has certainly never been a habit with me to betray the
confidence of my friends, and I learned long since not to confide
secrets to Miss Spencer."
Apparently neither cared to discuss the problem longer, yet he remained
silent considering whether to venture the asking of those questions
which might decide his fate. He was uncertain of the ground he
occupied, while Miss Naida, with all her frankness, was not one to
approach thoughtlessly, nor was the sword of her tongue without sharp
point.
"You speak of your confidence in us both," he said, slowly. "To me the
complete trust you repose in Mr. Hampton is scarcely comprehensible.
Do you truly believe in his reform?"
"Certainly. Don't you?"
The direct return question served to nettle and confuse him. "It is,
perhaps, not my place to say, as my future happiness does not directly
depend on the permanence of his reformation. But if his word can be
depended upon, your happiness to a very large extent does."
She bowed. "I have no doubt you can safely repose confidence in
whatever he may have told you regarding me."
"You indorse, then, the claims he advances?"
"You are very insistent; yet I know of no good reason why I should not
answer. Without at all knowing the nature of those claims to which you
refer, I have no hesitancy in saying that I possess such complete
confidence in Bob Hampton as to reply unreservedly yes. But really,
Lieutenant Brant, I should prefer talking upon some other topic. It is
evident that you two gentlemen are not friendly, yet there is no reason
why any misunderstanding between you should interfere with our
friendship, is there?"
She asked this question with such perfect innocence that Brant believed
she failed to comprehend Hampton's claims.
"I have been informed that it must," he explained. "I have been told
that I was no longer to force my attentions upon Miss Gillis."
"By Bob Hampton?"
"Yes. Those were, I believe, his exact words. Can you wonder that I
hardly know how I stand in your sight?"
"I do not at all understand," she faltered. "Truly, Lieutenant Brant,
I do not. I feel that Mr. Hampton would not say that without a good
and sufficient reason. He is not a man to be swayed by prejudice; yet,
whatever the reason may be, I know nothing about it."
"But you do not answer my last query."
"Perhaps I did not hear it."
"It was, How do I stand in your sight? That is of far more importance
to me now than any unauthorized command from Mr. Hampton."
She glanced up into his serious face shyly, with a little dimple of
returning laughter. "Indeed; but perhaps he might not care to have me
say. However, as I once informed you that you were very far from being
my ideal, possibly it may now be my duty to qualify that harsh
statement somewhat."
"By confessing that I am your ideal?"
"Oh, indeed, no! We never realize our ideals, you know, or else they
would entirely cease to be ideals. My confession is limited to a mere
admission that I now consider you a very pleasant young man."
"You offer me a stone when I cry unto you for bread," he exclaimed.
"The world is filled with pleasant young men. They are a drug on the
market. I beg some special distinction, some different classification
in your eyes."
"You are becoming quite hard to please," her face turned partially
away, her look meditative, "and--and dictatorial; but I will try. You
are intelligent, a splendid dancer, fairly good-looking, rather bright
at times, and, no doubt, would prove venturesome if not held strictly
to your proper place. Take it all in all, you are even interesting,
and--I admit--I am inclined to like you."
The tantalizing tone and manner nerved him; he grasped the white hand
resting invitingly on the grass, and held it firmly within his own.
"You only make sport as you did once before. I must have the whole
truth."
"Oh, no; to make sport at such a time would be sheerest mockery, and I
would never dare to be so free. Why, remember we are scarcely more
than strangers. How rude you are! only our third time of meeting, and
you will not release my hand."
"Not unless I must, Naida," and the deep ringing soberness of his voice
startled the girl into suddenly uplifting her eyes to his face. What
she read there instantly changed her mood from playfulness to earnest
gravity.
"Oh, please do not--do not say what you are tempted to," her voice
almost pleading. "I cannot listen; truly I cannot; I must not. It
would make us both very unhappy, and you would be sure to regret such
hasty words."
"Regret!" and he yet clung to the hand which she scarcely endeavored to
release, bending forward, hoping to read in her hidden eyes the secret
her lips guarded. "Am I, then, not old enough to know my own mind?"
"Yes--yes; I hope so, yes; but it is not for me; it can never be for
me--I am no more than a child, a homeless waif, a nobody. You forget
that I do not even know who I am, or the name I ought rightfully to
bear. I will not have it so."
"Naida, sweetheart!" and he burst impetuously through all bonds of
restraint, her flushed cheeks the inspiration to his daring. "I will
speak, for I care nothing for all this. It is you I love--love
forever. Do you understand me, darling? I love you! I love you!"
For an instant,--one glad, weak, helpless, forgetful instant,--she did
not see him, did not even know herself; the very world was lost. Then
she awoke as if from a dream, his strong arms clasped about her, his
lips upon hers.
"You must not," she sobbed. "I tell you no! I will not consent; I
will not be false to myself. You have no right; I gave you no right."
He permitted her to draw away, and they stood facing each other, he
eager, mystified, thrilling with passion almost beyond mastery, she
trembling and unstrung, her cheeks crimson, her eyes filled with mute
appeal.
"I read it in your face," he insisted. "It told of love."
"Then my face must have lied," she answered, her soft voice tremulous,
"or else you read the message wrongly. It is from my lips you must
take the answer."
"And they kissed me."
"If so, I knew it not. It was by no volition of mine. Lieutenant
Brant, I have trusted you so completely; that was not right."
"My heart exonerates me."
"I cannot accept that guidance."
"Then you do not love me."
She paused, afraid of the impulse that swept her on. "Perhaps," the
low voice scarcely audible, "I may love you too well."
"You mean there is something--some person, perhaps--standing between?"
She looked frankly at him. "I do mean just that. I am not heartless,
and I sincerely wish we had never met; but this must be the end."
"The end? And with no explanation?"
"There is no other way." He could perceive tears in her eyes, although
she spoke bravely. "Nor can I explain, for all is not clear even to
me. But this I know, there is a barrier between us insurmountable; not
even the power of love can overcome it; and I appeal to you to ask me
no more."
It was impossible for him to doubt her sober earnestness, or the depth
of her feelings; the full truth in her words was pictured upon her
face, and in the pathetic appeal of her eyes. She extended both hands.
"You will forgive me? Truly, this barrier has not been raised by me."
He bowed low, until his lips pressed the white fingers, but before he
could master himself to utter a word in reply, a distant voice called
his name, and both glanced hastily around.
"That cry came from the valley," he said. "I left my horse tied there.
I will go and learn what it means."
She followed him part of the way through the labyrinth of underbrush,
hardly knowing why she did so. He stood alone upon the summit of the
high bluff whence he could look across the stream. Miss Spencer stood
below waving her parasol frantically, and even as he gazed at her, his
ears caught the sound of heavy firing down the valley.