COURAGE AND CANDOUR.
“The fear of man bringeth a snare; but whoso putteth his trust in the
Lord shall be safe.”—PROV. xxix. 25.
Jonas Colter was as gallant an old seaman as ever sailed on salt water.
He was kind and generous, also, and would have shared his last shilling
or his last crust with any poor creature who required it. Jonas loved
his Bible and loved his church, and might have been seen regularly every
Sunday morning with his book under his arm stumping along with his
wooden leg, on his way to the house of prayer. But Jonas had one sad
failing—rather should I call it one great sin, for _an angry man
stirreth up strife, and a furious man aboundeth in transgression_. He
had no sort of command over his temper, and that temper was an
uncommonly bad one.
“There are many excuses to be made for him,” his sister, Mrs. Morris,
would often say. “Just think what a rough life he has led, and how much
he has had to suffer. If his temper rises sometimes like a gale of wind,
like a gale of wind it is soon over!”
“But, like a gale of wind, it leaves its effects behind it!” observed a
neighbour, when this remark was repeated to him. “I shan’t care to call
often at Mrs. Morris’s house while her bear of a brother makes it his
den!”
There were perhaps none on earth whom Jonas loved better than Johnny and
Alie, the children of his sister; and yet none suffered more from his
fierce and ungoverned temper. They feared him more than they loved him;
and notwithstanding the many little presents which he made them, and the
many little kindnesses which he showed them, his absence, when he left
home, was always felt as a relief. It is impossible to regard with the
greatest affection one who puts you in perpetual fear, or to feel quite
happy with a companion whose smile may in a moment be changed to a
frown, whose pleasant talk to a passionate burst.
Johnny, though considered a courageous boy, was afraid of rousing his
uncle; and if to him Jonas was an object of fear, to Alie he was an
object of terror. Alie was one of the most timid little creatures in the
village. She would go a long way round to avoid passing a large dog, was
uneasy at the sight of a turkey-cock, and never dared so much as raise
her eyes if a stranger happened to address her. It was not only from the
temper of her uncle that poor little Alie now suffered; Johnny, while
himself annoyed at the roughness of Jonas, with the imitative
disposition of youth, began in a certain degree to copy it. He knew that
the old sailor was thought generous and brave, and therefore wished to
be like him; but made the very common mistake of imitators—followed him
rather in his defects than in those things which were worthy of
admiration. Perhaps Johnny also tried to hide from himself and others
how much he was cowed by his uncle, by assuming a blustering manner
himself. This is so often unconsciously done, that whenever I see a
bully I am inclined to suspect that I am looking at a coward.
Alie was fond of listening to her uncle’s sea-stories—“long yarns,” as
he called them—but only if she could listen unobserved. Her favourite
place was the window-seat, where she could draw the curtain before her
to screen her from observation. To be suddenly addressed by her uncle
was enough to make the timid child start.
Jonas had many curiosities from foreign parts, which it amused the
children to see—dried sea-weed, reptiles in bottles, odd specimens of
work done in straw by savages in some distant islands with
unpronounceable names. These treasures were never kept under lock and
key; it was quite enough that they belonged to the terrible Jonas; no
one was likely to meddle much with his goods, lest he should “give ’em a
bit of his mind.”
“Alie,” cried Johnny one morning, when the children happened to be alone
in their uncle’s little room, “where on earth have you put my ‘Robinson
Crusoe?’”
“I?” said the little girl, looking up innocently from her work; “I have
not so much as seen it.”
“Look for it, then!” cried the boy, in the loud coarse tone which he had
too faithfully copied from his uncle.
Little Alie was plying her needle diligently, and her brother had
nothing to do; but she was much too timid to remonstrate. She set down
her work, and moved quietly about the room, glancing behind this thing
and under that; while Johnny, stretched at full length on the floor,
amused himself with chucking up marbles.
“There it is!” cried Alie at last, glancing upwards at a high shelf, on
which were ranged divers of Jonas’s bottles.
“Get it down!” said the boy, who, to judge by his tone, thought himself
equal to an admiral, at the least.
“I don’t think that I can,” replied Alie; “I can’t reach the shelf, and
there’s another book and a heavy bottle too on the top of ‘Robinson
Crusoe.’”
“Goose! can’t you get a chair?” was the only reply vouchsafed.
Alie slowly dragged a heavy chair to the spot, while Johnny commenced
singing—
“Britons never, never shall be slaves!”
considering of course as exceptions to the rule all gentle, helpless,
little British girls, who happen to have strong, tyrannical brothers.
“There!—mind!—take care what you’re about!” he cried, as he watched
Alie’s efforts to accomplish the task for which she had hardly
sufficient strength or height. Scarcely were the words uttered when down
with a crash came the bottle and the books, almost upsetting poor Alie
herself!
Johnny jumped up from the ground in an instant.
“What is to be done!” he exclaimed, looking with dismay at the broken
bottle, whose green contents, escaping in all directions, was staining
the floor and also the book, which was one of Jonas’s greatest
treasures.
“Oh! what is to be done!” repeated poor Alie, in real distress.
Johnny felt so angry with himself, that he was much inclined, after his
usual fashion, to vent his anger upon his sister. Seeing, however, that
they were both in the same trouble, and that it had been occasioned by
his laziness in making the little girl do what he ought to have done
himself, he repressed his indignation, and turned his mind to the means
of remedying the evil.
“My uncle will be in a downright tempest!” he exclaimed; “what say you
to a good long walk right off to the farm, to get out of the way of its
fury?”
“It would be just as bad when we came back!” said Alie dolefully,
stooping to pick up the injured book.
“Don’t touch it!” cried Johnny authoritatively; “don’t get the stain on
your dress as well as on everything else. I have hit on a famous plan.
We’ll shut up the cat in the room, then go on our walk, and no one on
earth will guess that she did not do the mischief.”
“Oh! but, Johnny, would it be right?”
“Right! fiddlestick!” cried the boy. “Put on your bonnet and be quick,
while I look for Tabby in the kitchen.”
Alie had great doubts whether she ought to obey, but she was frightened
and confused, and accustomed to submit to the orders of her brother;
and, after all, her uncle was so fond of the cat, that it was likely to
suffer much less from his anger than any other creature would have done.
Tabby was soon caught, and placed on the floor near the broken bottle.
Johnny dipped one of her paws in the fluid, to serve as further evidence
against her, and then came out of the little room.
“I must get out my work—I left it there,” said Alie.
“Go in quickly, and get it then,” replied Johnny.
[Illustration: ALIE WATCHING THE CAT.]
Alie went in, and returned with the work, but stood hesitating before
she quitted the room, looking back with her hand on the lock.
“Oh, Johnny! Tabby is licking it up!”
“So much the better!” cried he; “her whiskers will tell tales of her
then!”
“But, Johnny—”
“Come quickly! I can’t stand waiting for you all the day!” exclaimed the
boy; “uncle may be back before we get off!”
These words quickened the movements of Alie: she closed the door with a
sigh.
Very grave and silent was the child during the whole of that long walk;
very grave and silent during her visit to the farm. Johnny first laughed
at her nonsense, as he called it, and then grew irritable and rude,
after the example of his uncle. The walk home was a very unpleasant one
to Alie.
[Illustration: “POOR TABBY!”]
But more unpleasant was the arrival at home. The first sight which met
the children’s eyes, on their return, was poor Tabby stretched out
lifeless on the floor of the kitchen, and their uncle bending over her
with a flushed face and knitted brow; while their mother, who stood
beside him, was vainly endeavouring to calm him.
“Accidents will occur, dear brother—”
“There has been gross carelessness somewhere,” growled the sailor; and
turning suddenly round toward the children, whom he now first perceived,
he thundered out to Johnny, “Was it you, sir, who shut the cat into my
room?”
“No,” answered Johnny very promptly: then he added, “Alie and I have
been out a long time; we have been all the way to the farm.”
“I may have shut the door myself,” said the mother, “without knowing of
the cat being in the place.” And, to turn the sailor’s mind from his
loss, she continued, “I’m going up to the village, Jonas, and I’ve a
very large basket to carry; Johnny’s just come off a long walk, or—”
“I’m your man!” cried the sailor; “I’ll help you with your load. Just
wait a few minutes till I’ve buried this poor thing in the garden. I
shouldn’t like the dogs to get at her—though she’s past feeling now,
poor Tabby!” And as the stern, rough man stooped, raised his dead
favourite, and carried it away, Alie thought that she saw something like
moisture trembling in his eye.
“Alie,” said her mother, “go into that room, and carefully collect the
broken pieces of the bottle which poor Tabby managed to knock off the
shelf; and wash that part of the floor which is stained by the liquid:
be attentive not to leave a drop of it anywhere; for the contents of the
bottle was deadly poison, and I cannot be too thankful that the cat was
the only sufferer.”
Alie obeyed with a very heavy heart. She was grieved at the death of
Tabby, grieved at the vexation of her uncle—most grieved of all at the
thought that she had not acted openly and conscientiously herself.
When she returned to the kitchen, she found Johnny its only occupant,
her mother and uncle having set off for the village.
“I say, Alie,” cried Johnny, “wasn’t it lucky that uncle asked me
instead of you about shutting the cat in? ’Twas you that closed the
door, you know.”
“Oh, Johnny!” said his sister, “I feel so unhappy about it! I wish that
I had told mother everything—I don’t think that I could have spoken to
uncle. It seems just as if I were deceiving them both!”
“Nonsense!” cried Johnny, in a very loud tone; “you ought to be too
happy that the storm has blown over!”
But the conscience of Alie would make itself heard, notwithstanding her
brother’s voice of scorn. She had been accustomed from the time when she
could first talk, to speak the simple truth, and the whole truth. She
knew that there may be falsehood even in _silence_, when that silence
tends to deceive. She felt that she had wronged her uncle, by destroying
his property, and, however unintentionally, causing the death of his
pet; and instead of frankly confessing the wrong, and asking pardon, she
was concealing the matter. Alie went slowly up to her own little room,
took down from its shelf her well-used Bible—that would be a safer
counsellor than her brother! She opened it, and the first verse upon
which her eyes rested was this, _The fear of man bringeth a snare: but
whoso putteth his trust in the Lord shall be safe._ Alie closed her
book, and resting her head upon her hand, sat and thought:—
“Mother has often told me that the language of heaven is truth, and that
whosoever _loveth or maketh a lie_ shall never be admitted to that happy
place! But why should my mind be so troubled?—I have not said a single
word that is not true. But I have concealed the truth. And why?—because
of _the fear of man_, which the Bible tells me _bringeth a snare_. What
then would be my straight course of duty? to confess that I threw down
the poison? Would not that bring my brother into trouble? No; for it was
I who climbed on the chair, I who knocked over the bottle, I who last
shut the door—all the mischief was done by me, though it was not done
for my own pleasure. I know what will be my best plan,” said Alie, with
a sigh of relief at coming to anything like a decision: “I’ll confess
all to mother when she comes back from the village; and she will choose
a good time, when my uncle is in a pleasant temper and I am out of the
way, and tell him that I killed poor Tabby, but am exceedingly sorry
that I did it.”
So Alie returned to the kitchen, and put on the water to boil for tea
and sat down to her unfinished work, awaiting her mother’s return. Her
heart beat faster than usual when she heard the clump, clump of her
uncle’s wooden leg, but still more when he entered the house alone.
“Where’s mother?” said Johnny.
“She’s gone to the vicarage,” replied Jonas. “She met a messenger to
tell her that the lady there is taken very ill, and wants some one to
nurse her; so she sheered off straight for Brampton, and desired me to
come back and tell you.”
“When will she return?” asked Alie with anxiety.
“That’s when the lady gets better, I s’pose. I suspect that she’s cast
anchor for a good while, from what I hear,” replied the sailor. “But
pluck up a good heart, little lass, and don’t look as though you were
about to set the water-works going; I’ve brought you something to cheer
you up a bit;” and slowly unfolding his red pocket-handkerchief, Jonas
displayed a large cake of gingerbread. “Here’s for you,” he said,
holding it out to his niece.
“Oh! uncle!” cried Alie, without attempting to touch it.
“Take it, will you,” said he sharply; “what are ye hanging back for?”
Alie took the cake, and thanked her uncle in a faltering voice. Jonas
stooped down, lighted his pipe, and as he glanced at the warm corner
which used to be his favourite’s chosen place, and missed her well-known
purr, the old sailor gave an unconscious sigh, and “Poor Tabby!” escaped
from his lips.
[Illustration: UNCLE JONAS.]
The sound of the sigh, and the words, gave pain to the heart of little
Alie. “Here am I receiving kindness from my uncle,” thought she, “and
knowing how little I deserve it; and yet I have not courage to confess
the truth! I am sure that fear is _a snare_ to me. Oh, that I had a
braver heart, so that I should dread nothing but doing wrong! Johnny is
as bold as a lion, yet I am sure that even he would be afraid to tell
the truth to my uncle!”
“What’s the matter with the lass?” cried Jonas with blunt kindness,
taking the pipe from his lips, and looking steadily at the child. “Ye’re
vexed at your mother biding away?”
“It is not that,” replied Alie, very softly.
“Ye’re fretting about the cat?”
“Partly,” murmured the child.
“Kind little soul!” exclaimed the sailor, heartily: “I’ll get a white
kitten, or a tortoise-shell for ye, if one’s to be had for love or
money! But maybe ye’re like the Jack-tar, and don’t think new friends
like the old!” and the rough hard hand of the seaman was laid
caressingly on the little girl’s shoulder.
“Uncle, you quite mistake me, you—you—would not be so kind if you knew
all!” said Alie rapidly. The first difficult step was taken, but poor
Alie’s cheek was crimson, and she would have felt it at that moment
impossible to have raised her eyes from the floor.
“What’s all this?” exclaimed Jonas roughly, while Johnny, afraid that
the whole truth was coming out, made a hasty retreat from the kitchen.
“What’s all this?” repeated the bluff sailor. Alie had now gone so far
that she had not power to retreat. Her little hands pressed tightly
together, her voice tremulous and indistinct with fear, she stammered
forth, “It was I who knocked down the bottle—and—and shut poor Tabby
into your room—and—”
“Shut her in on purpose?” thundered Jonas, starting up from his seat.
Alie bent her head as her only reply.
“Shut in the cat that the blame might be laid upon her!—took a long walk
that the mean trick might be successful!” At each sentence his voice
rose louder and louder, so that Johnny could hear it at the other side
of the road, while poor Alie bent like a reed beneath the storm.
“And was your brother with you, girl?” continued the angry sailor, after
a short but terrible pause.
Poor Alie was dreadfully perplexed; she squeezed her hands together
tighter than ever; she could not speak, but her silence spoke enough.
“Mean coward!” exclaimed Jonas, striking the table with his clenched
fist till it rang again; “and he has set all sail, and made off, and
left this little pinnace to brave the storm alone!” Alie burst into
tears; and whether it was the sight of these tears, or whether his own
words reminded the sailor that Alie at least had now acted an honest,
straight-forward part, his anger towards her was gone in a moment, and
he drew her kindly to his knee.
“Dry these eyes, and think no more about it,” said he; “you never
guessed that the liquid was poison, and accidents, as they say, will
happen even in the best-regulated families. But why did not you and your
sneak of a brother tell me honestly about breaking the bottle, instead
of playing such a cowardly trick as that of shutting up the poor cat in
the room?”
“Oh, uncle,” murmured Alie, at length finding her voice, “we knew that
you would be so dreadfully angry!”
“Humph!” said the sailor thoughtfully. “So the fear of me was a snare to
you. Well, you may go after your brother, if he’s not run away so far
that you cannot find him, and tell him that he may sneak back as soon as
he can muster enough of courage, for not a word, good or bad, shall he
hear from me about the bottle or the cat. And mind you, my honest little
lass,” continued Jonas, “I’ll not forget the white kitten for you;—for
though you’ve not a stout heart you’ve a brave conscience, and dare
speak the truth even to a crabbed old sailor, who you knew would be ‘so
dreadfully angry.’”
Alie flew off like a bird, her heart lightened of its load, and
rejoicing in the consciousness that a painful duty had been performed.
And whenever in future life she felt tempted to take a crooked course
from the dread of some peril in the straight one, the timid girl found
courage in remembering the verse which had struck her so much on that
day—_The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in
the Lord shall be safe._
The fear of God most high—
It is a holy fear;
It makes us pass through life as those
Who know their Judge is near.
The fear of sinful Man—
’Tis a debasing fear;
Shame will be theirs who dare not brave
A censure or a sneer!
It was the fear of God
Through which the Hebrews three
Undaunted met the tyrant’s frown,
Unmoved the flames could see!
It was the fear of Man
Weak Pilate’s breast within,
That stained his hands with guiltless blood,
His soul with blackest sin!
No courage is like that
Which steadfast faith bestows;
With God our friend, we would be safe
Were all the world our foes!
Faith but the duty sees,
Where doubt would danger scan:
’Tis through the fear of God alone
We crush the fear of Man!
[Illustration: [cattle at gate]]