A CASE OF CONSCIENCE.

The stars had not begun to pale in the morning twilight when Elizabeth

awakened. The dim outlines of houses and trees could be seen through the

window as she looked out against the sky. Within the room the furniture,

large and heavy, looked still larger in the darkness. She fixed her eyes

upon some point, and followed back the lines that flowed from it until

they were lost in the dimness, and this assured her that she was awake.

Her writing-table was in part sharply outlined against the window, and

part of it was lost in the shadow of the draperies. The bureau seemed

only a dark mass among the shadows in force in the corners of the room.

These and the tops of the heavy chairs, as she looked at one and another

of them, helped to calm her and give her a sense of reality. But they in

no way accounted for the startling suggestion, that whether dream or

waking thought had first filled her with fear and then set her heart

beating hard as she lay wide awake breathing unevenly and striving to

learn if she were still under the influence of a dream, or if the

unconscious conviction which had come upon her was the result of

dwelling upon what she knew. She could not recall her dreams, but they

seemed to her to have had no connection with the sudden sense of danger

that had startled her awake. She tried to throw it off, but it was like

the objects in the room that had seemed almost invisible at first, but

that grew every moment more distinct to her as she watched them. She

felt more and more sure that the danger was real, however the knowledge

of it had come; a terrible danger, but not to herself. It seemed strange

now that she had been blind so long, and yet, how could she have

suspected such a horror? Lord Bulchester felt it, too, only that he

would not allow himself to believe it. But it was he who had brought

conviction home; it would never have come, she thought, if she had not

seen him yesterday. But it had come, and it remained. It held her like a

vise, drawing her back toward it whenever she tried to escape, driving

off sleep forcibly when more than once that seemed about to seize her.

What was she to do with it? Plainly, something. It and rest could never

dwell together. But what? And how could she do it? A conviction which

pressed upon herself with the force of a certainty, and yet had no

proofs by which to establish itself, was not an easy thing to make felt

by another mind. And when it was a conviction of danger, and that other

had by nature and training a contempt of danger, the difficulties were

increased. Added to this were other difficulties which Elizabeth felt

keenly; but the fear was stronger than them all. The longer she studied

the matter the more she saw that the only thing for her to do was the

one thing that she shrank from most. All the freedom left her was to

find out the best way of doing it.

When the dimness of starlight began to grow into the dawn, she arose.

But she delayed at her toilet, standing so long in thought with her

brush in her hand, and her dark hair sweeping over her shoulders, that

it was six o'clock before she crossed the hall and knocked at her

father's door.

There was no answer. She knocked again, with the same result, and then

opening the door, found the room empty. Mr. Royal had gone down stairs.

But it was too early for Mrs. Eveleigh, and Elizabeth might still have

her talk with him without interruption. With a mixture of relief and

dread she went down the broad, low stairs and crossed the hall into the

library.

It had always been her favorite room. She had spent so many happy hours

here with the books, that the room with its handsome old furniture and

sunny windows was full of the memories and day dreams that her reading

had conjured up. But not only this; it was here that she had seen most

of her father; they had spent hours together here, while Mrs. Eveleigh

attended to her household duties, or amused herself with her friends,

or retired for her nap. And whether father and daughter talked, or

sat, he with his paper or his writing, she with her book, each felt a

companionship in the other. Elizabeth often spoke her thoughts freely to

any one who happened to be within hearing when the mood for speech came

over her; but as to her feelings, her father understood those best. This

was partly on account of his quickness of comprehension, which supplied

much that she did not utter, and partly because there came to her times

when her father seemed like a second self, and silence grew unnatural.

But that morning speech, evidently, was not easy to her. For, although

she had gone to him as a matter of course, her perplexity seemed to grow

greater as she sat down by the desk at which he was making up some

accounts. It seemed to her that her life was no longer free and simple;

a dreadful force had come into contact with it and, as she felt, made it

more unworthy. Had a mere jest ever before brought such a train of

miseries? Her fingers laid restless folds in a piece of paper she took

up, and her father after his greeting went on with the accounts. It was

his habit to give people time, and he had found that doing it gave him

the best opportunity to take his own bearings. His judgments were

usually so accurate, and his decisions so wise that a good many people

would have been thankful to find the scales by which he weighed the

anxiety or the satisfaction that came under his observation. On that

morning the rapid pen travelled several times up and down columns of

figures and noted down the results before Elizabeth began:

"Father." It was a small beginning, and followed by silence. But the

tone made Mr. Royal push his work aside, and look full into his

daughter's face. "Father," she repeated, "I want you to advise me."

"Am I not always ready for that?" returned Mr. Royal, his smile fading

before the gravity of her expression.

"There is something so hard to be done," she answered.

"Then, must it be done?"

"Oh, yes, that's the only thing about it I am quite sure of. It must be

done, and directly, too. It may be too late now, but we must try. What

troubles me is how it can be done so that we may be certain."

"Certain of what?"

"Certain that it reaches him," answered Elizabeth. Then she looked at

her father, and remembered that he could not understand her. "I must

tell you," she said. "It is like a nightmare. It oppresses me to think

of it. I feel guilty to believe it, and yet I don't dare to deny it to

myself, for fear of the consequences. It's about Mr. Edmonson, father."

"Oh!" said her listener in a tone far from pleased.

"And Mr. Archdale, added Elizabeth. Not that who the people are makes

any difference. Our duties would be just the same knowing the,--knowing

what I do." Her father sat watching her in silence with his keenest

gaze. "There is no love lost between the two men, as you know," she went

on. "Mr. Archdale is lofty, and wouldn't condescend to anything more

than a dislike that he hasn't tried to conceal, since Mr. Edmonson

ceased being his guest. But with Mr. Edmonson it's different; when he

feels, he acts; and once in a while there is an unrestraint about him

which is frightful; it makes me think of lava breaking through the crust

of a volcano. I believe there is something volcanic in his nature; you

can't go deep into it without danger. And there is danger now. Father,

there is danger now." As Elizabeth repeated her statement she leaned

forward a little and looked at her father, her eyes full of earnestness

and dread.

"In what way, and to whom?" asked Mr. Royal.

"To Mr. Archdale," she answered.

It was not Mr. Royal's way to protest or deny; he liked to get in his

evidence first of all. "What makes you think so?" he asked.

"A good many little things that have come back to me in confirmation,

but especially a speech of Mr. Edmonson's that I overheard one day at

Seascape. Stray shots," he said, "have taken off more superfluous kings

and men than the world has any idea of. I did not know at the time whom

he had been speaking about, and I forgot the speech; it seemed to me to

have no object. But now it does, and now I remember a word or two

besides that showed me that he had turned the conversation upon Mr.

Archdale."

"When was this?"

"One morning when I was coming up from the beach, I didn't feel like

talking to anyone, and when I heard voices the other side of the great

boulder--you remember it?--I waited a moment, to see if they would pass

on, so that I need not go back to the house by the longest way; and it

was then that he said it. He was with Lord Bulchester. He was speaking

of other things first, and then I missed a few words, and then he said

this."

"So far as he was concerned," answered Mr. Royal, "that might be as

innocent a speech as ever was uttered. Indeed, don't you see that a man

who meditated mischief wouldn't make such a speech at all?"

"If the man were Mr. Edmonson he might, and to Lord Bulchester who, he

knows, never would do anything against him. But Lord Bulchester is

uncomfortable. I saw it yesterday; and perhaps wondering over that was

what made me put everything together. I don't know how it was, but I

awoke in the night and saw it all. And now they have gone where the will

and the opportunity are sure to meet. Mr. Archdale must be warned."

"But, Elizabeth," said her father, "why should he want to do it? He

succeeded in his designs upon the Archdale property. What malice can he

have?" As he spoke, he looked earnestly at his daughter. He had not been

blind to things going on about him, and especially things concerning his

daughter, but in a case like this no suppositions of his own were to

take the place of evidence.

Elizabeth met his eyes for a moment, then her own drooped and she grew

pale. It was not that her father's eyes told her his thoughts, it was at

the humiliation of her own position in being the object of mercenary

scheming. "He has not enough money," she said at last distinctly, "and

he wants more. That's what it means. And he dares to think--." She

stopped short, and for a moment it seemed as if it would be impossible

for her to go on; a hot flush came to her face and an angry light into

her eyes. Then her courage returned, and although she uttered the words

with visible effort she went resolutely on. "I know it," she said, "he

dares to think someone else,--Mr. Archdale,--is somewhat like himself,

and that he will come to want more money too. He cares for nobody, he

would stop at nothing, and he thinks that I refused him because,--he

does not understand how I feel towards him. Oh, don't you know that

sometimes you know all about a thing, know it perfectly, and cannot make

it seem so to another? Don't let it be so with you, father. Only listen

to me." Mr. Royal did listen attentively as she went over the points of

her story again. Had she been talking of some matter of business, her

inexperience and a something about her that people were apt to call

unpracticalness, might have decided him against giving any unusual

weight to a speech like Edmonson's. But here the weight of her

character, and of impressions stronger than she could put into words

told. He saw, too, that she was looking at the matter with the accuracy

and judgment that it usually takes years of training to learn. This,

added to her own intensity, gave a convincing force to her words. He

admitted to himself that the affair had an ugly look.

At last Elizabeth paused. She drew a little nearer her father, and laid

her hand upon the table beside him. "I want you to advise me;" she said;

then, "What must I do?"

In the impossibility of any answer he felt a sudden rebound from the

force of her words. "I don't see that there is anything for you to do,

or for anybody," he said. "How can you act upon a thing that is purely

an assumption, and not only that, but a thing so wicked that it is a

cruelty to a man to imagine it about him? I can't believe that it's

necessary to do anything, for I can't bring myself to feel as you do.

Are you very sure that you have not fancied a part of this?"

"Father!" cried Elizabeth, "I wish I had, But look at it." And she went

again over the grounds of her suspicions, giving with a clearness that

he was proud of, the indications that she had seen of the bent of

Edmonson's will and the evidences of his headstrong character, linking

one trifling act or word to another, until she had welded a chain so

strong that Mr. Royal felt a thrill run through him as he listened, for

she awoke in him her own belief and something of her own anxiety to be

doing. So that when she had finished, instead of repeating that it was

not necessary to do anything, he asked whom she had thought of as the

person to give the warning to Archdale.

She was about to speak, then checked herself, hesitated, and at last

said, "I want you to advise me."

"Um!" said Mr. Royal, and was silent. He was somewhat disappointed that

she, so powerful in statement, should have no suggestion to offer in a

matter that puzzled him the more, the more he thought of it. Such a

warning would not be easy to give under the most favorable

circumstances. It would not be a pleasant task to tell a man that

another man had designs upon his life, and when such assertion had only

the proof of strong conviction and of evidence, trivial in its details,

strong only as a whole, it would be even hazardous to whisper a warning

to the person himself, liable to lead to complications and sure to be

met by incredulity and either ridicule or resentment. But here, where no

personal communication was to be had, the difficulties were a hundred

times greater. Circumstances made it especially awkward for either

Elizabeth or himself to put these suspicions into words. But to put them

upon paper with all the cumulative evidence needed to carry

conviction,--if conviction could indeed be conveyed without the

reiteration of words and the persuasiveness of the voice,--to do this

and send the paper adrift, to fall into Archdale's hands or not as the

fortunes of war should determine, perhaps to fall into other hands,--it

was impossible, for Elizabeth's sake it was impossible. "I don't see how

we can reach him," he said at last. "A letter wouldn't answer."

"No," she said, "he might never get it." Mr. Royal looked at her more

closely as she fixed her eyes upon him, flushing a little as she spoke

with the earnestness of her purpose.

"Well," he said musingly, "we certainly can't get at him in any other

way, and that one is uncertain and dangerous. Even the dispatches are

subject to the fortunes of war. I don't see what we can do, Elizabeth.

Do you?"

But even as he spoke, he refrained from what he was about to add,

turning his assertion into a question. For a change was coming over his

daughter; the power within her to rise to great occasions was in force

now. The conventionalities that were holding him in check were unfelt by

her; she had risen above them to that high ground where the intricacies

of life are resolved into absolute questions of right and wrong, and

where perfect simplicity of intention becomes a divine guide.

"Father, do you remember," she cried, "what I have cost him and Katie?

I must not be silent, and let them be separated more, a great deal, than

my foolish speech once seemed to do. He has gone where stray shots are

of everyday occurence, and nobody ever inquires into them. Apart from

this obligation, if we do nothing we shall be murderers." She locked her

fingers together as she spoke, not in nervous indecision, for her look

was full of resolution, but as if the necessity that she was facing

disturbed her. Mr. Royal suddenly perceived that his daughter had not

finished, that behind that expression there was, not a suggestion,

indeed, but a decision. She had come to him, not for advice, but for

approval; she knew what to do. Her plan would scarcely be one to meet

the approval of people like Mrs. Eveleigh. But he recognized that the

soul that was looking out from Elizabeth's fearless eyes had a high law

of its own. And when his daughter spoke in this mood, Mr. Royal was

reverent enough to listen.

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