The orchestra had paused, either through simple human pity, or, as
seemed more likely, to rest. Even a good orchestra must have time for
physical and mental refreshment, and the guests at the St. James would
gladly have accorded eternity to this one, had the management been
kindly disposed and permitted it.
A faint breath of the tropical night stirred the foliage in the
palm-room, where there was light and laughter and the crystalline
tinkle of glasses. The predatory lady from Memphis, clad resplendently
in white lace, and paste jewels, moved restlessly about the room. Her
blue eyes were cat-like in their quick intense scrutiny. They said, at
the St. James, that nothing under the roof escaped her knowledge.
Designedly she passed the two who sat at a glass-covered table in a
secluded corner, affecting not to notice them. When the rustle of her
garments and the clatter of her high heels died away, the man spoke.
"She must have spilled the peroxide," he said with a grating laugh. Her
hair was indeed more brilliant than usual.
The woman laughed too--a little hysterical laugh which sounded more
like a sob. She took her watch from the silver bag that hung at her
belt, opened it, and laid it before them.
"An hour more," she answered irrelevantly. "Like Cinderella, I must go
at twelve."
"Are you afraid your auto will turn into a pumpkin drawn by white rats
and your chauffeur into--let's see, who was Cinderella's footman?"
She shook her head. "I used to know, but it was long ago when I was a
child."
"You're only a child now," he returned quickly.
"No, I'm a woman, and I must meet whatever comes to me as a brave woman
should." She fixed her clear eyes on his and spoke steadily. "I mustn't
be a coward, I mustn't refuse to do anything just because it is hard.
I've got to be true to my best self, and you've got to help me."
The war correspondent's face whitened for an instant, then the colour
surged back in waves. "Come out on the balcony," he whispered, "it's
insufferable in here."
She followed him through the French window. Their two chairs were in
their own particular corner still, placed as they had been every night
for a week. He arranged the rose and green velvet cushion at her back
precisely as she liked it, and drew his own chair near hers--just close
enough not to touch.
A white-coated waiter whisked out of sight tactfully. He was needed
within where the lady from Memphis had cornered a hardware drummer
from Pittsburg and was coyly inquiring whether or not champagne was
intoxicating.
"A week ago to-night," said the war correspondent abruptly. "I believe
now that the world was made in seven days. Mine has been made and
shattered into atoms in an equal space of time."
"Don't say that! There's good in it--there's got to be good in it
somewhere! We'll have to find it together, past all the pain."
The late moon rose slowly above the grove of palms beyond them; the
Southern night breathed orange blossoms and roses. A tiny ray of blue
light shot from the solitaire on the third finger of her left hand. It
was the only ring she wore.
"I can't believe it's true," he said, somewhat roughly. "If you cared
as you say you do, you'd"--he choked on the word, and stopped abruptly,
but his eyes made his meaning clear.
They were unusual eyes--for a man. So she had thought a week ago, when
she went down the corridor to her room at midnight, humming gaily to
herself a little fragment of a love song. They were big and brown and
boyish, with laughter lurking in their depths--they met her own clearly
and honestly, always, and in their look there had never been that which
makes a woman ashamed. Yes, they were unusual eyes--for a man.
"Honour is an elastic word," she replied. "For most women, it means
only one thing. A woman may lie and steal and nag and break up homes,
and steam open other people's letters, and betray her friends, and yet,
if she is chaste, she is called honourable. I made up my mind early in
life, that I'd make my own personal honour include not only that, but
the things men are judged by, too. If a man broke his solemn pledge,
you'd call him a coward and a cur. So," she concluded with a pitiful
pride, "I'll not break mine."
Her voice was uneven and he felt, rather than saw, the suffering
plainly written on her face. "Tell me," he began gently, "of him. What
does he look like? What sort of man is he?"
"I came away in such a rush that I forgot his picture, else I'd show it
to you. I would have sent back for it, only I didn't want my people to
think I was silly, and besides, there is no need, I could remember how
he looked, and every tone of his voice until a week ago to-night."
"Is he tall?" The war correspondent himself was a trifle over six feet.
"No, not very,--only a little taller than I."
"Smooth-shaven?"
"Yes."
"Dark?"
"Very."
"What does he do?"
"Business in a stuffy office, from nine to six. He spends his evenings
with me."
"Every evening?"
"Yes, and all day Sunday. There are just two things in his life--the
office and me."
"Go on," he reminded her, after a pause.
"It's simple, and, in a way, commonplace. We met, and he
cared--terribly--from the first. I didn't, because it was difficult for
me to trust any man. I told him so, and he said he'd make me trust him.
He did, but it took him a long time. It's pathetically easy for a woman
to love a man she can trust. And so I wear his ring and have for two
years. When I go back, we're to be married."
"Do you call it honourable to marry one man while you love another?"
"He's been everything in the world to me," she continued, ignoring the
thrust. "I've never had a doubt nor a difficulty of any kind, since
I've known him, that he hasn't helped me through. Every thought that
came into my mind, I have felt perfectly free to tell him. We've never
quarrelled. On my side, the feeling has been of long slow growth, but
there are no hard words lying between us. It's all been sweet until
now. He's clean-minded and clean-hearted and true-souled. If he has
ever lied to me, I've never found it out. He has been absolutely
and unswervingly loyal in thought, word, and deed, and as for
jealousy--why, I don't believe he knows what the word means.
"You know there are two kinds of love. One is an infinite peace that
illumines all your life, so surely and so certainly that it's not to be
taken away. It's like daily bread to you. The other is like wine--swift
and terrible and full of fatal fascination. The one has come to me from
him--the other from you."
"Honey!" It was the shrill, high, bird-like voice of the lady from
Memphis swiftly rounding the corner of the balcony. "Is this your
watch? I've found it on the table and I've been looking all over for
you!"
"Thank you." Miss Ward took the trinket coldly and never turned her
head. The man, having small respect for the lady from Memphis, never
rose from his chair.
After a little hesitation she retreated, pausing in the background,
among the palms, to shake a warning finger with assumed coquetry.
"Naughty," she shrilled. "You mustn't flirt! If you do, I'll write to
your honey and tell him what you are doing. You see if I don't. And
then he'll come and catch you at it, and where will you be then?" With
a mirthless cackle, she vanished into the palm-room, where there was
light and the tinkle of glasses and the bubbling of champagne.
"Half-past eleven," said Miss Ward dully. "Thirty minutes more."
The war correspondent caught his breath as if he had been suddenly
hurt. "One little hour," he answered, his voice low and tense with
suppressed feeling. "Only one little hour to last us for all eternity,
and we're wasting it like this. I love you, I love you, I love you! I
love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my strength, and
with all my will. I love you so much that heaven would be hell without
you, and hell itself would be heaven if you were there. I love you with
a love that will not die, when I do. I love you, do you understand? God
knows I love you!"
She turned her face towards him thrilled to the depths of her soul.
"And I," she breathed, caught in the whirlwind of his emotion, "love
you--in just that way!"
His hands closed quickly over hers. "Then," he pleaded, "come. There
are no barriers between us--they are nothing but cobwebs. Sweep them
aside with one stroke of magnificent daring and come. We'll be married
in the morning and sail for New York immediately, then go abroad for a
year. Two telegrams will set you free, and explain everything! Come,"
he whispered, "only come! Youth and love, and the wide world before us!
We'll be together till death divides us! Come--promise me you'll come!"
In thought she surrendered for an instant, then broke away from him,
shuddering. "Don't," she gasped. "Don't make it so hard for me to do
what is right. I won't be dishonourable, I won't be disloyal, I won't
be untrue. Happiness that comes from wrong doing is always brief, but,
oh, dear lad, I love you with a love nobody ever had before, or ever
will have again. I'm not taking anything away from anybody else to give
to you, so it isn't dishonourable--it can't be. Tell me it isn't!" she
cried. "Oh, tell me."
"It isn't," he assured her. "You couldn't be dishonourable if you
tried. You're the bravest, finest woman I've ever known."
From within came the notes of a violin muted. The piano, mercifully
softened, followed the melody with the full rich accompaniment which
even miserable playing can never wholly spoil.
"The hours I spent with thee, dear heart,
Are as a string of pearls to me;
I count them o'er, every one apart--
My rosary! My rosary!"
"The pearls mean tears," she whispered brokenly. "Our rosary is made of
tears!"
The lady from Memphis clattered past them on the balcony, singing the
words apparently to herself, but really with an eye to dramatic--and
impertinent--effect.
* * * * *
For a week they had been together, the gayest of the gay crowd. That
day all plans had mysteriously fallen through. Miss Ward's chaperon had
been called home by a telegram. A letter had caused another unexpected
departure, a forgotten engagement loomed up before another, a sick
headache laid low a fourth, and only they two were left--the "tattered
remnant of the old guard," she laughingly said that morning when they
met in the palm-room after breakfast, as usual, to discuss the program
of the day.
"Then," he retorted, "the old guard will make the best of it!"
So they had spent the day together in public places, mindful of the
proprieties. A long talk in the afternoon, full of intimate and
searching details, had paved the way for the dazzling revelation made
by an accidental touching of hands. In an instant, the world was
changed.
"Suppose," she said, "that you had been obliged to go away this
afternoon, before everything was fully acknowledged between us? Oh,
don't you see what we have? We've got one whole day--a little laughter,
and a great deal of love and pain, crystallised by parting and denial,
into something sweet to keep in our hearts for always. Nothing can take
to-day away from us--it's ours beyond the reach of estrangement or
change. To-night we'll shut the door upon it and steal away, as from a
casket enshrining the dead."
"Not dead," he flashed bitterly, "but buried alive!"
"Oh, memories that bless and burn,
Oh, barren gain and bitter loss,
I kiss each bead and strive at last to learn
To kiss the cross, sweetheart! To kiss the cross."
The last echo died away, the violin rattled into its case, the piano
was closed. The musicians went home, and there was a general movement
toward the doors. A far clock chimed twelve and she rose wearily from
her chair. "Good night," she faltered, her hand fluttering toward his;
"I cannot say good-bye, but we must never see each other again."
How it happened they never knew, but he took her into his arms,
unresisting, and kissed her fully, passionately, upon the lips.
All the joy and pain of the world seemed crowded into the instant they
stood there, locked in each other's arms. Then the high, bird-like
voice of the lady from Memphis broke on their ears in a grating
staccato.
"She was out here, when I saw her last, flirting dreadfully with the
war correspondent. I guess she didn't know you were coming on that late
train."
Eagerly, happily, the Other Man rushed out on the balcony, crying
boyishly, "Mabel! Are you here?"
The words died on his lips. The man who held her in his arms kissed her
again, slowly, hungrily; then reluctantly released her. She steadied
herself against the railing of the balcony. In the moonlight her face
was ghastly. The scent of the orange blossoms seemed overpowering her
with deadly fragrance.
"Didn't I tell you?" asked the lady from Memphis gleefully. From the
open window she was enjoying the situation to the full.
The Other Man was bewildered.
"Mabel," he said enquiringly, "I don't quite understand. Didn't you get
my wire?"
The war correspondent stepped forward. He had faced the guns of the
enemy before and was not afraid now. A single commanding glance,
mingled with scorn, sent the lady from Memphis scurrying back into the
palm-room.
"I know who you are," he said to the Other Man, "and I owe you an
explanation. I love Miss Ward and I have been trying all day to induce
her to break her engagement with you and marry me instead."
The Other Man laughed. He went to the balcony rail, where the girl
stood, half fainting, and put his arm around her. "I don't doubt it,"
he said. "Isn't she the finest, sweetest, truest woman the Lord ever
made? Any man who doesn't love her is a chump. You and I will be good
friends--we have a great deal in common."
He offered his hand but the war correspondent bowed and swerved aside.
"Good night," he said thickly. "I have played and lost. I lay down my
hand." He went through the window hastily, leaving the two alone.
"Mabel, dear Mabel!" said the Other Man softly. "You've been through
something that is almost too much for you. Sit down and rest--you're
tired!"
The words, calm and tender, brought back to her tortured soul a hint of
the old peace. In a pitiless flash of insight she saw before her two
women, either of which she might become. One was serene and content,
deeply and faithfully loved, sheltered from everything love could
shield her from, watched, taken care of in all the countless little
ways that mean so much. The other was to know Life to its uttermost,
all its rage, jealousy and despair, to be shaken in body and soul by
fierce elemental passions, to face eclipsing miseries alone, and drain
the cup to the lees. The difference was precisely that between a
pleasure craft, anchored in a sunny harbour, and the toiling ship that
breasts the tempestuous seas.
She sat down and suffered him to take her hand. He stroked her wrist
silently, in the old comforting way he had when she was nervous or
tired. His face was troubled--hers was working piteously. The lights
had died down in the palm-room and the last of the revellers went away.
The house detective paced through the long rooms twice and made a
careful survey of the balcony.
"Darling," said the Other Man, "you don't have to tell me anything you
don't want to--you know that; but wouldn't it make you feel better?
You've always told me things, and I'm the best friend you've got.
Surely you're not afraid now?"
His voice failed at the end, and the girl drew a quick shuddering
breath but she did not answer.
"He was kissing you, wasn't he?" asked the Other Man, "when I came?"
"Yes," she said dully, "he was kissing me, but it was for good-bye.
He told me he loved me, and I had told him I loved him. I've known
him only a week. He never so much as touched my hand until to-day,
but it was only my own personal honour that kept me from marrying him
to-morrow, as he begged me to do. I've told you the worst now. Believe
what you like--do what you will."
The Other Man sighed. His mouth was boyish and for the moment
unsteady, but his eyes sought hers as honestly and clearly as the war
correspondent's, who had unusual eyes--for a man.
"I think I understand," he said brokenly. "I don't blame any man for
loving you, dear--I'm prepared for that--and we've been separated
so long, and the moonlight and the palms and the roses and all, and
you were used to being loved--I think that's why. You were lonesome,
wer'n't you, sweetheart? Didn't you want me?"
Infinite love and infinite pain surged together in her heart, blending
into unspeakable tenderness. "Yes, I wanted you," she whispered--"I
always want you. I'm--I'm a bit upset just now, but I haven't
taken anything away from you to give to anybody else. It's only an
undiscovered country--a big one, that he found to-day. I haven't been
intentionally dishonourable. I fought but it was no use--he simply
swept me off my feet. Forgive me if you can!"
[Illustration: "Good night," he said thickly. "I have played and lost.
I lay down my hand."
_From the Drawing by Dalton Stevens._]
"Hush! There'll never be any need of that word between you and me. I've
forgiven you long ago, for everything you've ever done or ever can do.
It's an unlimited fund to draw upon--that and my love. You know," he
went on in another tone, "that if it were for your happiness, I could
give you up, but I'm pretty sure it isn't. You'd never be as happy
with anybody you'd only known a week, as you would with me, because
I've loved you for years. You have my whole heart, Mabel,--there's
never been another woman with even a hint of a claim. I know all your
little moods and tenses and you don't have to explain things to me. I
know you can't ride backward and you don't like to walk when you have
high-heeled shoes on, and a thousand other things that are infinitely
dear just because they are you. I was thinking of them all the way down
here, and loving them--every one."
"I don't deserve it," she answered, and then broke into a wild sobbing.
The Other Man moved his chair closer and drew her head to his shoulder.
"There," he said, slipping a handkerchief into the hand that covered
her eyes; "cry if you want to. You're tired--my little girl is tired."
He held her so until the storm had spent itself. He kept his face
against her hair, soft and silky, and fragrant with orris--forgetting
himself utterly in his loving pity for her. At last she moved away from
him. Her tear-stained face in the moonlight, filled him with tenderness
so great that his love was pain.
"It's late," she said, "it must be after one o'clock. I must go
up-stairs." She started toward the open window, but still he held her
back gently. "Dear," he said softly, "we've been away from each other
four weeks and three days, and I've come two thousand miles to see you.
You haven't kissed me yet. Don't you want to? You don't need to if
you'd rather not, but if you could----"
His voice vibrated with passionate appeal. She lifted her white face to
his and kissed him mechanically. "To-morrow," she breathed, "I'll be
more like myself; I'll try to make up for to-night, but if you love
me, let me go now!"
He went with her to the elevator, and watched until she was lifted out
of his sight, smiling at her until the last--the old loving smile.
He went out to the balcony again, and sat down with his arms thrown
over the back of the chair that had so recently held her. His brow was
wrinkled with deep thought, but his boyish mouth still smiled.
Presently there was a step behind him and he turned--to look into the
face of the war correspondent who spoke first.
"I've come back," he said, "to shake hands with you, if you don't mind."
The Other Man's hand met his, more than half-way.
"And," continued the war correspondent, "I want to apologise. I've been
all kinds of a brute, but what I said was the truth. I love her as no
man ever before loved a woman. That's my only excuse."
"You're not to blame for loving her," returned the Other Man
generously; "nobody is. And as for her loving you, that's all right
too. She's got a lot of temperament and she's used to being loved, and
you're not a bad sort, you know--not at all." And he concluded fondly,
"my little girl was lonesome without me."
The war correspondent went away quietly. In the moonlight he could
see the boyish face of the Other Man, radiant with an all-believing,
all-forgiving love.
"Yes," said the Other Man again, after an interval, and not realising
that he was alone, "that was it. My little girl was lonesome without
me."