CHAPTER XXIX

ANGLO-RUSSIAN

At bedtime Catrina went to Maggie's room with her to see that she had

all that she could desire. A wood fire was burning brightly in the open

French stove; the room was lighted by lamps. It was warm and cheery. A

second door led to the little music-room which Catrina had made her own,

and beyond was her bedroom.

Maggie had assured her hostess that she had every thing that she could

wish, and that she did not desire the services of Catrina's maid. But

the Russian girl still lingered. She was slow to make friends--not shy,

but diffident and suspicious. Her friendship once secured was a thing

worth possessing. She was inclined to bestow it upon this quiet,

self-contained English girl. In such matters the length of an

acquaintance goes for nothing. A long acquaintanceship does not

necessarily mean friendship--one being the result of circumstance, the

other of selection.

"The princess knows Russian?" said Catrina suddenly.

She was standing near the dressing-table, where she had been absently

attending to the candles. She wheeled round and looked at Maggie, who

was hospitably sitting on a low chair near the fire. She was sorry for

the loneliness of this girl's life. She did not want her to go away just

yet. There was another chair by the fire, inviting Catrina to indulge in

those maiden confidences which attach themselves to slippers and

hair-brushings.

Maggie looked up with a smile which slowly ebbed away. Catrina's remark

was of the nature of a defiance. Her half-diffident rôle of hostess was

suddenly laid aside.

"No; she does not," answered the English girl.

Catrina came forward, standing over Maggie, looking down at her with

eyes full of antagonism.

"Excuse me. I saw her understand a remark I made to one of the servants.

She was not careful. I saw it distinctly."

"I think you must be mistaken," answered Maggie quietly. "She has been

in Russia before for a few weeks; but she did not learn the language.

She told me so herself. Why should she pretend not to know Russian, if

she does?"

Catrina made no answer. She sat heavily down in the vacant chair. Her

attitudes were uncouth and strong--a perpetual source of tribulation to

the countess. She sat with her elbow on her knee, staring into the fire.

"I did not mean to hate her; I did not want to," she said. "If it had

been you, I should not have hated you."

Maggie's clear eyes wavered for a moment. A faint color rose to her

face. She leaned back so that the firelight did not reach her. There was

a silence, during which Maggie unclasped a bracelet with a little snap

of the spring. Catrina did not hear the sound. She heard nothing. She

did not appear to be aware of her surroundings. Maggie unclasped another

bracelet noisily. She was probably regretting her former kindness of

manner. Catrina had come too near.

"Are you not judging rather hastily?" suggested Maggie, in a measured

voice which heightened the contrast between the two. "I find it takes

some time to discover whether one likes or dislikes new acquaintances."

"Yes; but you English are so cold and deliberate. You do not know what

it is to hate--or to care."

"Perhaps we do," said Maggie; "but we say less about it."

Catrina turned and looked at her with a queer smile.

"Less!" she laughed. "Nothing--you say nothing. Paul is the same. I have

seen. I know. You have said nothing since you came to Thors. You have

talked and laughed; you have given opinions; you have spoken of many

things, but you have said nothing. You are the same as Paul--one never

knows. I know nothing about you. But I like you. You are her cousin?"

"Yes."

"And I hate her!"

Maggie laughed. She was quite steady and loyal.

"When you get to know her you will change, perhaps," she said.

"Perhaps I know her now better than you do!"

Maggie laughed in her cheery, practical way.

"That seems hardly likely, considering that I have known her since we

were children."

Catrina shrugged her shoulders in an honest if somewhat mannerless

refusal to discuss the side issue. She returned to the main question

with characteristic stubbornness.

"I shall always hate her," she said. "I am sorry she is your cousin. I

shall always regret that, and I shall always hate her. There is

something wrong about her--something none of you know except Karl

Steinmetz. He knows every thing--Herr Steinmetz."

"He knows a great deal," admitted Maggie.

"Yes; and that is why he is sad. Is it not so?"

Catrina sat staring into the fire, her strange, earnest eyes almost

fierce in their concentration.

"Did she pretend that she loved him at first?" she asked suddenly.

Receiving no answer, she looked up and fixed her searching gaze on the

face of her companion. Maggie was looking straight in front of her in

the direction of the fire, but not with eyes focussed to see any thing

so near at hand. She bore the scrutiny without flinching. As soon as

Catrina's eyes were averted the mask-like stillness of her features

relaxed.

"She does not take that trouble now," added the Russian girl, in reply

to her own question. "Did you see her to-night when we were at the

piano? M. de Chauxville was talking to her. They were keeping two

conversations going at the same time. I could see by their faces. They

said different things when the music was loud. I hate her. She is not

true to Paul. M. de Chauxville knows something about her. They have

something in common which is not known to Paul or to any of us! Why do

you not speak? Why do you sit staring into the fire with your lips so

close together?"

"Because I do not think that we shall gain any thing by discussing Paul

and his wife. It is no business of ours."

Catrina laughed--a lamentable, mirthless laugh.

"That is because she is your cousin; and he--he is nothing to you. You

do not care whether he is happy or not!"

Catrina had turned upon her companion fiercely. Maggie swung round in

her chair to pick up her bracelets, which had slipped from her knees to

the floor.

"You exaggerate things," she said quietly. "I see no reason to suppose

that Paul is unhappy. It is because you have taken this unreasoning

dislike to her."

She took a long time to collect three bracelets. Then she rose and

placed them on the dressing-table.

"Do you want me to go?" asked Catrina, in her blunt way.

"No," answered Maggie, civilly enough; but she extracted a couple of

hair-pins rather obviously.

Catrina heeded the voice and not the action.

"You English are all alike," she said. "You hold one at arm's length. I

suppose there is some one in England for whom you care--who is out of

all this--away from all the troubles of Russia. This has nothing to do

with your life. It is only a passing incident--a few weeks to be

forgotten when you go back. I wonder what he is like--the man in

England. You need not tell me. I am not curious in that way. I am not

asking you to tell me. I am just wondering. For I know there is some

one. I knew it when I first saw you. You are so quiet, and settled, and

self-contained--like a person who has played a game and knows for

certain that it is lost or won, and does not want to play again. Your

hair is very pretty; you are very pretty, you quiet English girl. I

wonder what you think about behind your steady eyes."

"I?" said Maggie, with a little laugh. "Oh--I think about my dresses,

and the new fashions, and parties, and all the things that girls do

think of."

Catrina shook her head. She looked stubborn and unconvinced. Then

suddenly she changed the conversation.

"Do you like M. de Chauxville?" she asked.

"No."

"Does Paul like him?"

"I don't know."

Catrina looked up for a moment only. Then her eyes returned to the

contemplation of the burning pine-logs.

"I wonder why you will not talk of Paul," she said, in a voice requiring

no answer.

Maggie moved rather uneasily. She had her back turned toward Catrina.

"I am afraid I am rather a dull person," she answered. "I have not much

to say about any body."

"And nothing about Paul?" suggested Catrina.

"Nothing. We were talking of M. de Chauxville."

"Yes; I do not understand M. de Chauxville. He seems to me to be the

incarnation of insincerity. He poses--even to himself. He is always

watching for the effect. I wonder what the effect of himself upon

himself may be."

Maggie laughed.

"That is rather complicated," she said. "It requires working out. I

think he is deeply impressed with his own astuteness. If he were simpler

he would be cleverer."

Catrina was afraid of Claude de Chauxville, and, because this was so,

she stared in wonder at the English girl, who dismissed him from the

conversation and her thoughts with a few careless words of contempt.

Such minds as that of Miss Delafield were quite outside the field of De

Chauxville's influence, while that Frenchman had considerable power over

highly strung and imaginative natures.

Catrina Lanovitch had begun by tolerating him--had proceeded to make the

serious blunder of permitting him to be impertinently familiar, and was

now exaggerating in her own mind the hold that he had over her. She did

not actually dislike him. So few people had taken the trouble or found

the expediency of endeavoring to sympathize with her or understand her

nature, that she was unconsciously drawn toward this man whom she now

feared.

In exaggerating the power he exercised over herself she somewhat

naturally exaggerated also his importance in the world and in the lives

of those around him. She had imagined him all-powerful; and the first

person to whom she mentioned his name dismissed the subject

indifferently. Her own entire sincerity had enabled her to detect the

insincerity of her ally. She had purposely made mention of the weak spot

which she had discovered, in order that her observation might be

corroborated. And this Maggie had failed to do.

With the slightest encouragement, Catrina would have told her companion

all that had passed. The sympathy between women is so strong that there

is usually only one man who is safe from discussion. In Catrina's case

that one man was not Claude de Chauxville. But Maggie Delafield was of

different material from this impressionable, impulsive Russian girl. She

was essentially British in her capacity for steering a straight personal

course through the shoals and quicksands of her neighbors' affairs, as

also in the firm grip she held upon her own thoughts. She was by no

means prepared to open her mind to the first comer, and in her somewhat

slow-going English estimate of such matters Catrina was as yet little

more than the first comer.

She changed the subject, and they talked for some time on indifferent

topics--such topics as have an interest for girls; and who are we that

we may despise them? We jeer very grandly at girls' talk, and promptly

return to the discussion of our dogs and pipes and clothing.

But Catrina was not happy under this judicious treatment. She had no one

in the world to whom she could impart a thousand doubts and questions--a

hundred grievances and one great grief. And it was just this one great

grief of which Maggie dreaded the mention. She was quite well aware of

its existence--had been aware of it for some time. Karl Steinmetz had

thrown out one or two vague hints; everything pointed to it. Maggie

could hardly be ignorant of the fact that Catrina had grown to womanhood

loving Paul.

A score of times Catrina approached the subject, and with imperturbable

steadfastness Maggie held to her determination that Paul was not to be

discussed by them. She warded, she evaded, she ignored with a skill

which baffled the simple Russian. She had a hundred subterfuges--a

hundred skilful turns and twists. Where women learn these matters,

Heaven only knows! All our experience of the world, our falls and

stumbles on the broken road of life, never teach us some things that are

known to the veriest schoolgirl standing on the smoother footpath that

women tread.

At last Catrina rose to go. Maggie rose also. Women are relentless where

they fight for their own secrets. Maggie morally turned Catrina out of

the room. The two girls stood looking at each other for a moment. They

had nothing in common. The language in which they understood each other

best was the native tongue of neither. Born in different countries, each

of a mixed race with no one racial strain in common, neither creed, nor

education, nor similarity of thought had aught to draw them together.

They looked at each other, and God's hand touched them. They both loved

the same man. They did not hate each other.

"Have you every thing you want?" asked Catrina.

The question was startling. Catrina's speech was ever abrupt. At first

Maggie did not understand.

"Yes, thanks," she answered. "I am very tired. I suppose it is the

snow."

"Yes," said Catrina mechanically; "it is the snow."

She went toward the door, and there she paused.

"Does Paul love her?" she asked abruptly.

Maggie made no answer; and, as was her habit, Catrina replied to her own

question.

"You know he does not--you know he does not!" she said.

Then she went out, without waiting for an answer, closing the door

behind her. The closed door heard the reply.

"It will not matter much," said Maggie, "so long as he never finds it

out."

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