The next morning at eight o'clock, and again without breakfast, Loder
covered the distance between Grosvenor Square and Clifford's Inn. He
left Chilcote's house hastily--with a haste that only an urgent motive
could have driven him to adopt. His steps were quick and uneven as he
traversed the intervening streets; his shoulders lacked their
decisive pose, and his pale face was marked with shadows beneath the
eyes--shadows that bore witness to the sleepless night spent in pacing
Chilcote's vast and lonely room. By the curious effect of circumstances
the likeness between the two men had never been more significantly
marked than on that morning of April 19th, when Loder walked along
the pavements crowded with early workers and brisk with insistent
news-venders already alive to the value of last night's political
crisis.
The irony of this last element in the day's concerns came to him fully
when one newsboy, more energetic than his fellows, thrust a paper in
front of him.
“Sensation in the 'Ouse, sir! Speech by Mr. Chilcote! Government
defeat!”
For a moment Loder stopped and his face reddened. The tide of emotions
still ran strong. His hand went instinctively to his pocket; then his
lips set. He shook his head and walked on.
With the same hard expression about his mouth, he turned into Clifford's
Inn, passed through his own doorway, and mounted the stairs.
This time there was no milk-can on the threshold of his rooms and the
door yielded to his pressure without the need of a key. With a strange
sensation of reluctance he walked into the narrow passage and paused,
uncertain which room to enter first. As he stood hesitating a voice from
the sitting-room settled the question.
“Who's there?” it called, irritably. “What do you want?”
Without further ceremony the intruder pushed the door open and entered
the room. As he did so he drew a quick breath--whether of disappointment
or relief it was impossible to say. Whether he had hoped for or dreaded
it, Chilcote was conscious.
As Loder entered he was sitting by the cheerless grate, the ashes of
yesterday's fire showing charred and dreary where the sun touched them.
His back was to the light, and about his shoulders was an old plaid
rug. Behind him on the table stood a cup, a teapot, and the can of milk;
farther off a kettle was set to boil upon a tiny spirit-stove.
In all strong situations we are more or less commonplace. Loder's
first remark as he glanced round the disordered room seemed strangely
inefficient.
“Where's Robins?” he asked, in a brusque voice. His mind teemed with big
considerations, yet this was his first involuntary question.
Chilcote had started at the entrance of his visitor; now he sat staring
at him, his hands holding the arms of his chair.
“Where's Robins?” Loder asked again.
“I don't know. She--I--We didn't hit it off. She's gone--went
yesterday.” He shivered and drew the rug about him.
“Chilcote--” Loder began, sternly; then he paused. There was something
in the other's look and attitude that arrested him. A change of
expression passed over his own face; he turned about with an abrupt
gesture, pulled off his coat and threw it on a chair; then crossing
deliberately to the fireplace, he began to rake the ashes from the
grate.
Within a few minutes he had a fire crackling where the bed of dead
cinders had been, and, having finished the task, he rose slowly from
his knees, wiped his hands, and crossed to the table. On the small
spirit-stove the kettle had boiled and the cover was lifting and falling
with a tinkling sound. Blowing out the flame, Loder picked up the
teapot, and with hands that were evidently accustomed to the task set
about making the tea.
During the whole operation he never spoke, though all the while he was
fully conscious of Chilcote's puzzled gaze. The tea ready, he poured it
into the cup and carried it across the room.
“Drink this!” he said, laconically. “The fire will be up presently.”
Chilcote extended a cold and shaky hand. “You see--” he began.
But Loder checked him almost savagely. “I do--as well as though I had
followed you from Piccadilly last night! You've been hanging about,
God knows where, till the small hours of the morning; then you've come
back--slunk back, starving for your damned poison and shivering with
cold. You've settled the first part of the business, but the cold has
still to be reckoned with. Drink the tea. I've something to say to you.”
He mastered his vehemence, and, walking to the window, stood looking
down into the court. His eyes were blank, his face hard; his ears heard
nothing but the faint sound of Chilcote's swallowing, the click of the
cup against his teeth.
For a time that seemed interminable he stood motionless; then, when he
judged the tea finished, he turned slowly. Chilcote had drawn closer
to the fire. He was obviously braced by the warmth; and the apathy that
hung about him was to some extent dispelled. Still moving slowly, Loder
went towards him, and, relieving him of the empty cup, stood looking
down at him.
“Chilcote,” he said, very quietly, “I've come to fell you that the thing
must end.”
After he spoke there was a prolonged pause; then, as if shaken with
sudden consciousness, Chilcote rose. The rug dropped from one shoulder
and hung down ludicrously; his hand caught the back of the chair for
support; his unshaven face looked absurd and repulsive in its sudden
expression of scared inquiry. Loder involuntarily turned away.
“I mean it,” he said, slowly. “It's over; we've come to the end.”
“But why?” Chilcote articulated, blankly. “Why? Why?” In his confusion
he could think of no better word.
“Because I throw it up. My side of the bargain's off!”
Again Chilcote's lips parted stammeringly. The apathy caused by physical
exhaustion and his recently administered drug was passing from him; the
hopelessly shattered condition of mind and body was showing through it
like a skeleton through a thin covering of flesh.
“But why?” he said again. “Why?”
Still Loder avoided the frightened surprise of his, eyes. “Because I
withdraw,” he answered, doggedly.
Then suddenly Chilcote's tongue was loosened. “Loder,” he cried,
excitedly, “you can't do it! God! man, you can't do it!” To reassure
himself he laughed--a painfully thin echo of his old, sarcastic laugh.
“If it's a matter of greater opportunity--” he began, “of more money--”
But Loder turned upon him.
“Be quiet!” he said, so menacingly that the other stopped. Then by an
effort he conquered himself, “It's not a matter of money, Chilcote,”
he said, quietly; “it's a matter of necessity.” He brought the word out
with difficulty.
Chilcote glanced up. “Necessity?” he repeated. “How? Why?”
The reiteration roused Loder. “Because there was a great scene in the
House last night,” he began, hurriedly; “because when you go back
you'll find that Sefborough has smashed up over the assassination of Sir
William Brice-Field at Meshed, and that you have made your mark in a
big speech; and because--” Abruptly he stopped. The thing he had come to
say--the thing he had meant to say--would not be said. Either his tongue
or his resolution failed him, and for the instant he stood as silent
and almost as ill at ease as his companion. Then all at once inspiration
came to him, in the suggestion of a wellnigh forgotten argument by which
he might influence Chilcote and save his own self-respect. “It's all
over, Chilcote,” he said, more quietly; “it has run itself out.” And
in a dozen sentences he sketched the story of Lillian Astrupp--her past
relations with himself, her present suspicions. It was not what he had
meant to say; it was not what he had come to say; but it served the
purpose--it saved him humiliation.
Chilcote listened to the last word; then, as the other finished, he
dropped nervously back into his chair. “Good heavens! man,” he said,
“why didn't you tell me--why didn't you warn me, instead of filling my
mind with your political position? Your political position!” He laughed
unsteadily. The long spells of indulgence that had weakened his already
maimed faculties showed in the laugh, in the sudden breaking of his
voice. “You must do something, Loder!” he added, nervously, checking his
amusement; “you must do something!”
Loder looked down at him. “No,” he said, decisively. “It's your turn
now. It's you who've got to do something.”
Chilcote's face turned a shade grayer. “I can't,” he said, below his
breath.
“Can't? Oh yes, you can. We can all do--anything. It's not too late;
there's just sufficient time. Chilcote,” he added, suddenly, “don't you
see that the thing has been madness all along--has been like playing
with the most infernal explosives? You may thank whatever you have
faith in that nobody has been smashed up! You are going back. Do you
understand me? You are going back--now, to-day, before it's too late.”
There was a great change in Loder; his strong, imperturbable face was
stirred; he was moved in both voice and manner. Time after time he
repeated his injunction--reasoning, expostulating, insisting. It almost
seemed that he fought some strenuous invisible force rather than the
shattered man before him.
Chilcote moved nervously in his seat. It was the first real clash of
personalities. He felt it--recognized it by instinct. The sense of
domination had fallen on him; he knew himself impotent in the other's
hands. Whatever he might attempt in moments of solitude, he possessed
no voice in presence of this invincible second self. For a while he
struggled--he did not fight, he struggled to resist--then, lifting his
eyes, he met Loder's. “And what will you do?” he said, weakly.
Loder returned his questioning gaze; but almost immediately he turned
aside. “I?” he said. “Oh, I shall leave London.”