There was a silence--an uneasy break--after Loder spoke. The episode
of the telegram was, to all appearances, ordinary enough, calling forth
Eve's question and his own reply as a natural sequence; yet in the pause
that followed it each was conscious of a jar, each was aware that in
some subtle way the thread of sympathy had been dropped, though to one
the cause was inexplicable and to the other only too plain.
Loder watched the ghost of his message grow whiter and thinner, then
dissolve into airy fragments and flutter up the chimney. As the last
morsel wavered out of sight, he turned and looked at his companion.
“You almost made me commit myself,” he said. In the desire to hide his
feelings his tone was short.
Eve returned his glance with a quiet regard, but he scarcely saw it.
He had a stupefied sense of disaster; a feeling of bitter
self-commiseration that for the moment outweighed all other
considerations. Almost at the moment of justification the good of life
had crumbled in his fingers, the soil given beneath his feet, and with
an absence of logic, a lack of justice unusual in him, he let resentment
against Chilcote sweep suddenly over his mind.
Eve, still watching him, saw the darkening of his expression, and with a
quiet movement rose from her chair.
“Lady Sarah has a theatre-party to-night, and I am dining with her,” she
said. “It is an early dinner, so I must think about dressing. I'm sorry
you think I tried to draw you into anything. I must have explained
myself badly.” She laughed a little, to cover the slight discomfiture
that her tone betrayed, and as she laughed she moved across the room
towards the door.
Loder, engrossed in the check to his own schemes, incensed at the
suddenness of Chilcote's recall, and still more incensed at his own
folly in not having anticipated it, was oblivious for the moment of
both her movement and her words. Then, quite abruptly, they obtruded
themselves upon him, breaking through his egotism with something of the
sharpness of pain following a blow. Turning quickly from the
fireplace, he faced the shadowy room across which she had passed, but
simultaneously with his turning she gained the door.
The knowledge that she was gone struck him with a sense of double
loss. “Wait!” he called, suddenly moving forward. But almost at once he
paused, chilled by the solitude of the room.
“Eve!” he said, using her name unconsciously for the first time.
But the corridor, as well as the room, was empty; he was too late.
He stood irresolute; then he laughed shortly, turned, and passed back
towards the fireplace.
The blow had fallen, the inevitable come to pass, and nothing remained
but to take the fact with as good a grace as possible. Chilcote's
telegram had summoned him to Clifford's Inn at seven o'clock, and it was
now well on towards six. He pulled out his watch--Chilcote's watch he
realized, with a touch of grim humor as he stooped to examine the dial
by the light of the fire; then, as if the humor had verged to another
feeling, he stood straight again and felt for the electric button in the
wall. His fingers touched it, and simultaneously the room was lighted.
The abrupt alteration from shadow to light came almost as a shock. The
feminine arrangement of the tea-table seemed incongruous beside the
sober books and the desk laden with papers--incongruous as his own
presence in the place. The thought was unpleasant, and he turned aside
as if to avoid it; but at the movement his eyes fell on Chilcote's
cigarette-box with its gleaming monogram, and the whimsical suggestion
of his first morning rose again. The idea that the inanimate objects in
the room knew him for what he was--recognized the interloper where human
eyes saw the rightful possessor--returned to his mind. Through all his
disgust and chagrin a smile forced itself to his lips, and, crossing the
room for the second time, he passed into Chilcote's bedroom.
There the massive furniture and sombre atmosphere fitted better with
his mood than the energy and action which the study always suggested.
Walking directly to the great bed, he sat on its side and for several
minutes stared straight in front of him, apparently seeing nothing;
then at last the apathy passed from him, as his previous anger against
Chilcote had passed. He stood up slowly, drawing his long limbs
together, and recrossed the room, passing along the corridor and through
the door communicating with the rest of the house. Five minutes later he
was in the open air and walking steadily eastward, his hat drawn forward
and his overcoat buttoned up.
As he traversed the streets he allowed himself no thought, Once, as he
waited in Trafalgar Square to find a passage between the vehicles, the
remembrance of Chilcote's voice coming out of the fog on their first
night made itself prominent, but he rejected it quickly, guarding
himself from even an involuntary glance at the place of their meeting.
The Strand, with its unceasing life, came to him as something almost
unfamiliar. Since his identification with the new life no business had
drawn him east of Charing Cross, and his first sight of the narrower
stream of traffic struck him as garish and unpleasant. As the impression
came he accelerated his steps, moved by the wish to make regret and
retrospection alike impossible by a contact with actual forces.
Still walking hastily, he entered Clifford's Inn, but there almost
unconsciously his feet halted. There was something in the quiet
immutability of the place that sobered energy, both mental and physical.
A sense of changelessness--the changelessness of inanimate things, that
rises in such solemn contrast to the variableness of mere human nature,
which a new environment, a new outlook, sometimes even a new presence,
has power to upheave and remould. He paused; then with slower and
steadier steps crossed the little court and mounted the familiar stairs
of his own house.
As he turned the handle of his own door some one stirred inside the
sitting-room. Still under the influence of the stones and trees that he
had just left, he moved directly towards the sound, and, without waiting
for permission, entered the room. After the darkness of the passage it
seemed well alight, for, besides the lamp with its green shade, a large
fire burned in the grate and helped to dispel the shadows.
As he entered the room Chilcote rose and came forward, his figure thrown
into strong relief by the double light. He was dressed in a shabby tweed
suit; his face looked pale and set with a slightly nervous tension, but
besides the look and a certain added restlessness of glance there was no
visible change. Reaching Loder, he held out his hand.
“Well?” he said, quickly.
The other looked at him questioningly.
“Well? Well? How has it gone?”
“The scheme? Oh, excellently!” Loder's manner was abrupt. Turning from
the restless curiosity in Chilcote's eyes, he moved a little way across
the room and began to draw off his coat. Then, as if struck by the
incivility of the action, he looked back again. “The scheme has gone
extraordinarily,” he said. “I could almost say absurdly. There are some
things, Chilcote, that fairly bowl a man over.”
A great relief tinged Chilcote's face. “Good!” he exclaimed. “Tell me
all about it.”
But Loder was reticent. The moment was not propitious. It was as if
a hungry man had dreamed a great banquet and had awakened to his
starvation. He was chary of imparting his visions.
“There's nothing to tell,” he said, shortly. “All that you'll want
to know is here in black and white. I don't think you'll find I have
slipped anything; it's a clear business record.” From an inner pocket
he drew out a bulky note-book, and, recrossing the room, laid it open on
the table. It was a correct, even a minute, record of every action that
had been accomplished in Chilcote's name. “I don't think you'll find any
loose ends,” he said, as he turned back the pages. “I had you and your
position in my mind all through.” He paused and glanced up from the
book. “You have a position that absolutely insists upon attention,” he
added, in a different voice.
At the new tone Chilcote looked up as well. “No moral lectures!” he
said, with a nervous laugh. “I was anxious to know if you had pulled
it off--and you have reassured me. That's enough. I was in a funk
this afternoon to know how things were going-one of those sudden,
unreasonable funks. But now that I see you”--he cut himself short and
laughed once more “now that I see you, I'm hanged if I don't want to--to
prolong your engagement.”
Loder glanced at him, then glanced away. He felt a quick shame at
the eagerness that rose at the words--a surprised contempt at his own
readiness to anticipate the man's weakness. But almost as speedily as he
had turned away he looked back again.
“Tush, man!” he said, with his old, intolerant manner. “You're dreaming.
You've had your holiday and school's begun again. You must remember you
are dining with the Charringtons to-night. Young Charrington's coming of
age--quite a big business. Come along! I want my clothes.” He laughed,
and, moving closer to Chilcote, slapped him on the shoulder.
Chilcote started; then, suddenly becoming imbued with the other's
manner, he echoed the laugh.
“By Jove!” he said, “you're right! You're quite right! A man must keep
his feet in their own groove.” Raising his hand, he began to fumble with
his tie.
But Loder kept the same position. “You'll find the check-book in its
usual drawer,” he said. “I've made one entry of a hundred pounds--pay
for the first week. The rest can stand over until--” He paused abruptly.
Chilcote shifted his position. “Don't talk about that. It upsets me to
anticipate. I can make out a check to-morrow payable to John Loder.”
“No. That can wait. The name of Loder is better out of the book. We
can't be too careful.” Loder spoke with unusual impetuosity. Already
a slight, unreasonable jealousy was coloring his thoughts. Already
he grudged the idea of Chilcote with his unstable glance and restless
fingers opening the drawers and sorting the papers that for one
stupendous fortnight had been his without question. Turning aside, he
changed the subject brusquely.
“Come into the bedroom,” he said. “It's half-past seven if it's a
minute, and the Charringtons' show is at nine.” Without waiting for a
reply, he walked across the room and held the door open.
There was no silence while they exchanged clothes. Loder talked
continuously, sometimes in short, curt sentences, sometimes with ironic
touches of humor; he talked until Chilcote, strangely affected by
contact with another personality after his weeks of solitude, fell under
his influence--his excitement rising, his imagination stirring at the
novelty of change. At last, garbed once more in the clothes of his own
world, he passed from the bedroom back into the sitting-room, and there
halted, waiting for his companion.
Almost directly Loder followed. He came into the room quietly, and,
moving at once to the table, picked up the note-book.
“I'm not going to preach,” he began, “so you needn't shut me up. But
I'll say just one thing--a thing that will get said. Try and keep your
hold! Remember your responsibilities--and keep your hold!” He spoke
energetically, looking earnestly into Chilcote's eyes. He did not
realize it, but he was pleading for his own career.
Chilcote paled a little, as he always did in face of a reality. Then he
extended his hand.
“My dear fellow,” he said, with a touch of hauteur, “a man can generally
be trusted to look after his own life.”
Extricating his hand almost immediately, he turned towards the door and
without a word of farewell passed into the little hall, leaving Loder
alone in the sitting-room.