CHAPTER XXII.

Lady Markham’s story was one which was very well known to Society--to

which everything is known--though it had remained so long a secret, and

was still a mystery to one of her children. Waring had been able to lose

himself in distance, and keep his position concealed from every one; but

it was clear that his wife could not do so, remaining as she did in the

world which was fully acquainted with her, and which required an

explanation of everything that happened. Perhaps it is more essential to

a woman than to a man that her position should be fully explained,

though it is one of the drawbacks of an established place and sphere,

which is seldom spoken of, yet is very real, and one of the greatest

embarrassments of life. So long as existence is without complications,

this matters little; but when these arise, those difficulties which so

often distract the career of a family, the inevitable explanations that

have to be made to the little interested ring of spectators, is often

the worst part of domestic trouble. Waring, whose temperament was what

is called sensitive--that is, impatient, self-willed, and

unenduring--would not submit to such a necessity. But a woman cannot

fly; she must stand in her place, if she has any regard for that place,

and for the reputation which it is common to say is more delicate and

easily injured than is that of a man--and make her excuse to the world.

Perhaps, as, sooner or later, excuses and explanations must be afforded,

it is the wiser plan to get over them publicly and at once; for even

Waring, as has been seen, though he escaped, and had a dozen years of

tranquillity, had at the last to submit himself to the questions of Mr

Durant. All that was over for these dozen years with Lady Markham.

Everybody knew exactly what her position was. Scandal had never

breathed upon her, either at the moment of the separation or afterwards.

It had been a foolish, romantic love-marriage between a woman of Society

and a man who was half rustic, half scholar. They had found after a time

that they could not endure each other--as anybody with a head on his

shoulders could have told them from the beginning, Society said. And

then he had taken the really sensible though wild and romantic step of

banishing himself and leaving her free. There were some who had supposed

this a piece of _bizarre_ generosity, peculiar to the man, and some who

thought it only a natural return to the kind of life that suited him

best.

Lady Markham had, of course, been censured for this, her second

marriage; and equally, of course, was censured for the breach of it--for

the separation, which, indeed, was none of her doing; for retaining her

own place when her husband left her; and, in short, for every step she

had taken in the matter from first to last. But that was twelve years

ago, which is a long time in all circumstances, and which counts for

about a century in Society: and nobody thought of blaming her any

longer, or of remarking at all upon the matter. The present lords and

ladies of fashionable life had always known her as she was, and there

was no further question about her history. When, in the previous season,

Miss Waring had made her _début_ in Society, and achieved the success

which had been so remarkable, there was indeed a little languid question

as to who was her father among those who remembered that Waring was not

the name of the Markham family; but this was not interesting enough to

cause any excitement. And Frances, still thrilling with the discovery of

the other life, of which she had never suspected the existence, and

ignorant even now of everything except the mere fact of it, suddenly

found herself embraced and swallowed up in a perfectly understood and

arranged routine in which there was no mystery at all.

“The first thing you must do is to make acquaintance with your

relations,” said Lady Markham next morning at breakfast. “Fortunately,

we have this quiet time before Easter to get over all these

preliminaries. Your aunt Clarendon will expect to see you at once.”

Frances was greatly disturbed by this new discovery. She gave a covert

glance at Markham, who, though it was not his habit to appear so early,

had actually produced himself at breakfast to see how the little one was

getting on. Markham looked back again, elevating his eyebrows, and not

understanding at first what the question meant.

“And there are all the cousins,” said the mother, with that plaintive

tone in her voice. “My dear, I hope you are not in the way of forming

friendships, for there are so many of them! I think the best thing will

be to get over all these duty introductions at once. I must ask the

Clarendons--don’t you think, Markham?--to dinner, and perhaps the

Peytons,--quite a family party.”

“Certainly, by all means,” said Markham; “but first of all, don’t you

think she wants to be dressed?”

Lady Markham looked at Frances critically from her smooth little head to

her neat little shoes. The girl was standing by the fire, with her head

reclined against the mantelpiece of carved oak, which, as a

“reproduction,” was very much thought of in Eaton Square. Frances felt

that the blush with which she met her mother’s look must be seen, though

she turned her head away, through the criticised clothes.

“Her dress is very simple; but there is nothing in bad taste. Don’t you

think I might take her anywhere as she is? I did not notice her hat,”

said Lady Markham, with gravity; “but if that is right---- Simplicity is

quite the right thing at eighteen----”

“And in Lent,” said Markham.

“It is quite true; in Lent, it is better than the right thing--it is the

best thing. My dear, you must have had a very good maid. Foreign women

have certainly better taste than the class we get our servants from.

What a pity you did not bring her with you! One can always find room for

a clever maid.”

“I don’t believe she had any maid; it is all out of her own little

head,” said Markham. “I told you not to let yourself be taken in. She

has a deal in her, that little thing.”

Lady Markham smiled, and gave Frances a kiss, enfolding her once more in

that soft atmosphere which had been such a revelation to her last

night. “I am sure she is a dear little girl, and is going to be a great

comfort to me. You will want to write your letters this morning, my

love, which you must do before lunch. And after lunch, we will go and

see your aunt. You know that is a matter of--what shall we call it,

Markham?--conscience with me.”

“Pride,” Markham said, coming and standing by them in front of the fire.

“Perhaps a little,” she answered with a smile; “but conscience too. I

would not have her say that I had kept the child from her for a single

day.”

“That is how conscience speaks, Fan,” said Markham. “You will know next

time you hear it. And after the Clarendons?”

“Well--of course, there must be a hundred things the child wants. We

must look at your evening dresses together, darling. Tell Josephine to

lay them out and let me see them. We are going to have some people at

the Priory for Easter; and when we come back, there will be no time.

Yes, I think on our way home from Portland Place we must just look

into--a shop or two.”

“Now my mind is relieved,” Markham said. “I thought you were going to

change the course of nature, Fan.”

“The child is quite bewildered by your nonsense, Markham,” the mother

said.

And this was quite true. Frances had never been on such terms with her

father as would have entitled her to venture to laugh at him. She was

confused with this new phase, as well as with her many other

discoveries: and it appeared to her that Markham looked just as old as

his mother. Lady Markham was fresh and fair, her complexion as clear as

a girl’s, and her hair still brown and glossy. If art in any way added

to this perfection, Frances had no suspicion of such a possibility. And

when she looked from her mother’s round and soft contour to the wrinkles

of Markham, and his no-colour and indefinite age, and heard him address

her with that half-caressing, half-bantering equality, the girl’s mind

grew more and more hopelessly confused. She withdrew, as was expected of

her, to write her letters, though without knowing how to fulfil that

duty. She could write (of course) to her father. It was of course, and

so was what she told him. “We arrived about six o’clock. I was

dreadfully confused with the noise and the crowds of people. Mamma was

very kind. She bids me send you her love. The house is very fine, and

full of furniture, and fires in all the rooms; but one wants that, for

it is much colder here. We are going out after luncheon to call on my

aunt Clarendon. I wish very much I knew who she was, or who my other

relations are; but I suppose I shall find out in time.” This was the

scope of Frances’ letter. And she did not feel warranted, somehow, in

writing to Constance. She knew so little of Constance: and was she not

in some respects a supplanter, taking Constance’s place? When she had

finished her short letter to her father, which was all fact, with very

few reflections, Frances paused and looked round her, and felt no

further inspiration. Should she write to Mariuccia? But that would

require time--there was so much to be said to Mariuccia. Facts were not

what _she_ would want--at least, the facts would have to be of a

different kind; and Frances felt that daylight and all the arrangements

of the new life, the necessity to be ready for luncheon and to go out

after, were not conditions under which she could begin to pour out her

heart to her old nurse, the attendant of her childhood. She must put off

till the evening, when she should be alone and undisturbed, with time

and leisure to collect all her thoughts and first impressions. She put

down her pen, which was not, indeed, an instrument she was much

accustomed to wield, and began to think instead; but all her thinking

would not tell her who the relatives were to whom she was about to be

presented; and she reflected with horror that her ignorance must betray

the secret which she had so carefully kept, and expose her father to

further and further criticism.

There was only one way of avoiding this danger, and that was through

Markham, who alone could help her, who was the only individual in whom

she could feel a confidence that he would give her what information he

could, and understand why she asked. If she could but find Markham! She

went down-stairs, timidly flitting along the wide staircase through the

great drawing-room, which was vacant, and found no trace of him. She

lingered, peeping out from between the curtains of the windows upon the

leafless gardens outside in the spring sunshine, the passing carriages

which she could see through their bare boughs, the broad pavement close

at hand with so few passengers, the clatter now and then of a hansom,

which amused her even in the midst of her perplexity, or the drawing up

of a brougham at some neighbouring door. After a minute’s distraction

thus, she returned again to make further investigations from the

drawing-room door, and peep over the balusters to watch for her brother.

At last she had the good luck to perceive him coming out of one of the

rooms on the lower floor. She darted down as swift as a bird, and

touched him on the sleeve. He had his hat in his hand, as if preparing

to go out. “Oh,” she said in a breathless whisper, “I want to speak to

you; I want to ask you something,”--holding up her hand with a warning

hush.

“What is it?” returned Markham, chiefly with his eyebrows, with a comic

affectation of silence and secrecy which tempted her to laugh in spite

of herself. Then he nodded his head, took her hand in his, and led her

up-stairs to the drawing-room again. “What is it you want to ask me? Is

it a state secret? The palace is full of spies, and the walls of ears,”

said Markham with mock solemnity, “and I may risk my head by following

you. Fair conspirator, what do you want to ask?”

“Oh, Markham, don’t laugh at me--it is serious. Please, who is my aunt

Clarendon?”

“You little Spartan!” he said; “you are a plucky little girl, Fan. You

won’t betray the daddy, come what may. You are quite right, my dear; but

he ought to have told you. I don’t approve of him, though I approve of

you.”

“Papa has a right to do as he pleases,” said Frances steadily; “that is

not what I asked you, please.”

He stood and smiled at her, patting her on the shoulder. “I wonder if

you will stand by me like that, when you hear me get my due? Who is

your aunt Clarendon? She is your father’s sister, Fan; I think the only

one who is left.”

“Papa’s sister! I thought it must be--on the other side.”

“My mother,” said Markham, “has few relations--which is a misfortune

that I bear with equanimity. Mrs Clarendon married a lawyer a great many

years ago, Fan, when he was poor; and now he is very rich, and they will

make him a judge one of these days.”

“A judge,” said Frances. “Then he must be very good and wise. And my

aunt----”

“My dear, the wife’s qualities are not as yet taken into account. She is

very good, I don’t doubt; but they don’t mean to raise her to the Bench.

You must remember when you go there, Fan, that they are _the other

side_.”

“What do you mean by ‘the other side’?” inquired Frances anxiously,

fixing her eyes upon the kind, queer, insignificant personage, who yet

was so important in this house.

Markham gave forth that little chuckle of a laugh which was his special

note of merriment. “You will soon find it out for yourself,” he

replied; “but the dear old mammy can hold her own. Is that all? for I’m

running off; I have an engagement.”

“Oh, not all--not half. I want you to tell me--I want to know--I--I

don’t know where to begin,” said Frances, with her hand on the sleeve of

his coat.

“Nor I,” he retorted with a laugh. “Let me go now; we’ll find an

opportunity. Keep your eyes, or rather your ears, open; but don’t take

all you hear for gospel. Good-bye till to-night. I’m coming to dinner

to-night.”

“Don’t you live here?” said Frances, accompanying him to the door.

“Not such a fool, thank you,” replied Markham, stopping her gently, and

closing the door of the room with care after him as he went away.

Frances was much discouraged by finding nothing but that closed door in

front of her where she had been gazing into his ugly but expressive

face. It made a sort of dead stop, an emphatic punctuation, marking the

end. Why should he say he was not such a fool as to live at home with

his mother? Why should he be so _nice_ and yet so odd? Why had

Constance warned her not to put herself in Markham’s hands? All this

confused the mind of Frances whenever she began to think. And she did

not know what to do with herself. She stole to the window and watched

through the white curtains, and saw him go away in the hansom which

stood waiting at the door. She felt a vacancy in the house after his

departure, the loss of a support, an additional silence and sense of

solitude; even something like a panic took possession of her soul. Her

impulse was to rush up-stairs again and shut herself up in her room. She

had never yet been alone with her mother except for a moment. She

dreaded the (quite unnecessary, to her thinking) meal which was coming,

at which she must sit down opposite to Lady Markham, with that solemn

old gentleman, dressed like Mr Durant, and that gorgeous theatrical

figure of a footman, serving the two ladies. Ah, how different from

Domenico--poor Domenico, who had called her _carina_ from her childhood,

and who wept over her hand as he kissed it, when she was coming away.

Oh, when should she see these faithful friends again?

“I want you to be quite at your ease with your aunt Clarendon,” said

Lady Markham at luncheon, when the servants had left the room. “She will

naturally want to know all about your father and your way of living. We

have not talked very much on that subject, my dear, because, for one

thing, we have not had much time; and because---- But she will want to

know all the little details. And, my darling, I want just to tell you,

to warn you. Poor Caroline is not very fond of me. Perhaps it is

natural. She may say things to you about your mother----”

“Oh no, mamma,” said Frances, looking up in her mother’s face.

“You don’t know, my dear. Some people have a great deal of prejudice.

Your aunt Caroline, as is quite natural, takes a different view. I

wonder if I can make you understand what I mean without using words

which I don’t want to use?”

“Yes,” said Frances; “you may trust me, mamma; I think I understand.”

Lady Markham rose and came to where her child sat, and kissed her

tenderly. “My dear, I think you will be a great comfort to me,” she

said. “Constance was always hot-headed. She would not make friends, when

I wished her to make friends. The Clarendons are very rich; they have no

children, Frances. Naturally, I wish you to stand well with them.

Besides, I would not allow her to suppose for a moment that I would keep

you from her--that is what I call conscience, and Markham pride.”

Frances did not know what to reply. She did not understand what the

wealth of the Clarendons had to do with it; everything else she could

understand. She was very willing, nay, eager to see her father’s sister,

yet very determined that no one should say a word to her to the

detriment of her mother. So far as that went, in her own mind all was

clear.

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