CHAPTER XIII

Gregory went down to Cornwall again only nine days after he had left it.

He and Karen met as if under an arch of infinite blessings. He had his

cable to show her and she hers to show him, and, although Gregory did

not see them as the exquisite documents that Karen felt them to be, they

did for him all that he asked Madame von Marwitz to do.

"I give her to you. Be worthy of my trust. Mercedes von Marwitz"--his

read. And Karen's: "I could only yield you to a greater joy than you can

find with me--but it could not be to a greater love. Do not forget me in

your happiness. You are mine, my beloved child, not less but more than

ever.--Tante."

Karen's joy was unshadowed. It made him think of primroses and crystal

springs. She was not shy; he was shyer than she, made a little dumb, a

little helpless, by his man's reverence, his man's awed sense of the

beloved's dawn-like wonder. She was not changed; any change in Karen

would come as quiet growth, not as transformation. Gregory's gladness

had not this simplicity. It revealed to him a new world, a world newly

beautiful but newly perilous, and a changed self,--the self of boyhood,

renewed yet transformed, through whose joy ran the reactionary

melancholy that, in a happiness attained, glances at fear, and at a

climax of life, is aware of gulfs of sorrow as yet unsounded. More than

his lover's passion was a tenderness for her and for her unquestioning

acceptances that seemed near tears. Karen was in character so wrought

and in nature so simple. Her subtleties were all objective, subtleties

of sympathy, of recognition, of adaptation to the requirements of

devoted action; her simplicity was that of a whole-heartedness unaware

at high moments of all but the essential.

She had to tell him fully, holding his hand and looking into his eyes,

all about her side of it; what she had thought when she saw him at the

concert--certain assumptions there gave Gregory his stir of

uneasiness--"You were caring just as much as I was--in the same way--for

her music"; what she had thought at Mrs. Forrester's, and at the railway

station, and when the letters went on and on. She had of course seen

what was coming that evening after they had been to the Lavington's;

"When you didn't understand about me and Tante, you know; and I made you

understand." And then he had made her understand how much he cared for

her and she for him; only it had all come so quietly; "I did not think a

great deal about it, or wonder; it sank into me--like stars one sees in

a still lake, so that next day it was no surprise at all, when you told

me; it was like looking up and seeing all the real stars in the sky.

Afterwards it was dreadful for a little while, wasn't it?" Karen held

his hand for a moment to her cheek.

When all the past had been looked at together, Gregory asked her if she

would not marry him quite soon; he hoped, indeed, that it might be

within the month. "You see, why not?" he said. "I miss you so dreadfully

and I can't be here; and why should you be? Let me come down and marry

you in that nice little church on the other side of the village as soon

as our banns can be called."

But, for the first time, a slight anxiety showed in her eyes. "I miss

you dreadfully, too," she said. "But you forget, Tante will not be back

till July. We must wait for Tante, Gregory. We are in May now, it is not

so far to July. You will not mind too much?"

He felt, sitting under the arch of blessings as he was, that it would be

most ungrateful and inappropriate to mind. But then, he said, if they

must put it off like that, Karen would have to come to London. She must

come and stay with Betty. "And get your trousseau"; this was a brilliant

idea. "You'll have to get your trousseau, you know, and Betty is an

authority on clothes."

"Oh, but clothes. I never have clothes in that sense," said Karen. "A

little seamstress down here makes most of them and Louise helps her

sometimes if she has time. Tante gave me twenty pounds before she went

away; would twenty pounds do for a trousseau?"

"Betty would think twenty pounds just about enough for your gloves and

stockings, I imagine," said Gregory.

"And will you expect me to be so luxurious? You are not rich? We shall

not live richly?"

"I'm not at all rich; but I want you to have pretty things--layers and

layers of the nice, white, soft things brides always have, and a great

many new hats and dresses. Couldn't I give you a little tip--to begin

the trousseau?"

"Ah, it can wait, can't it?" said Karen easily. "No; you can't give me a

tip. Tante, I am sure, will see that I have a nice trousseau. She may

even give me a little _dot_ when I marry. I have no money at all; not

one penny, you know. Do you mind?"

"I'd far rather have you without a penny because I want to give you

everything. If Tante doesn't give you the little _dot_, I shall."

Karen was pondering a little seriously. "I don't know what Tante will

feel since you have enough for us both. It was when she wished me to

marry Franz that she spoke of a _dot_. And Franz is of course very poor

and has a great family of brothers and sisters to help support. You will

know Franz one day. You did not speak very nicely of Franz that time,

you know; that was another reason why I thought you were so angry. And

it made me angry, too," said Karen, smiling at him.

"Wasn't I nice? I am sure Franz is."

"Oh, so good and kind and true. And very talented. And his mother would

be a wonderful musician if she had not so many children to take care of;

that has harmed her music. And she, too, is a golden-hearted person; she

used often to help me with my dresses. Do you remember that little white

silk dress of mine? perhaps so; I wore it at the concert, such a pretty

dress, I think. Frau Lippheim helped me with that--she and a little

German seamstress in Leipsig. I see us now, all bending over the

rustling silk, round the table with the lamp on it. We had to make it so

quickly. Tante had sent for me to come to her in Vienna and I had

nothing to wear at the great concert she was to give. We sat up till

twelve to finish it. Franz and Lotta cooked our supper for us and we

only stopped long enough to eat. Dear Frau Lippheim. Some day you will

know all the Lippheims."

He listened to her with dreamy, amused delight, seeing her bending in

the ugly German room over the little white silk dress and only vaguely

aware of the queer figures she put before him. He had no inclination to

know Franz and his mother, and no curiosity about them. But Karen

continued. "That is the one, the only thing I can give you," she said,

reflecting. "You know so few artists, don't you; so few people of

talent. As to people, your life is narrow, isn't it so? I have met so

many great people in my life, first through my father and then through

Tante. Painters, poets, musicians. You will probably know them now, too;

some of them certainly, for some are also friends of mine. Strepoff, for

example; oh--how I shall like you to meet him. You have read him, of

course, and about his escape from Siberia and his long exile."

"Strepoff? Yes, I think so. A dismal sort of fellow, isn't he?"

Gregory's delight was merging now in a more definite amusement, tinged,

it may be confessed, with alarm. He remembered to have seen a photograph

of this celebrity, very turbulently haired and very fixed and fiery of

eye. He remembered a large bare throat and a defiant neck-tie. He had no

wish to make Strepoff's acquaintance. It was quite enough to read about

him in the magazines and admire his exploits from a distance.

"Dismal?" Karen had repeated, with a touch of severity. "Who would not

be after such a life? Yes, he is a sad man, and the thought of Russia

never leaves him. But he is full of gaiety, too. He spent some months

with us two years ago at the Italian lakes and I grew so fond of him. We

had great jokes together, he and I. And he sometimes writes to me now,

such teasing, funny letters. The last was from San Francisco. He is

giving lectures out there, raising money; for he never ceases the

struggle. He calls me Liebchen. He is very fond of me."

"What do you call him?" Gregory inquired.

"Just Strepoff; everybody calls him that. Dear Belot, too," Karen

pursued. "He could not fail to interest you. Perhaps you have already

met him. He has been in London."

"Belot? Does he write poetry?"

"Poetry? No. Belot is a painter; a great painter. Surely you have heard

of Belot?"

"Well, I'm afraid that if I have I've forgotten. You see, as you say, I

live so out of the world of art."

"Did you not see his portrait of Susanne Mauret--the great French

actress? It has been exhibited through all the world."

"Of course I have. Belot of course. The impressionist painter. It looked

to me, I confess, awfully queer; but I could see that it was very

clever."

"Impressionist? No; Belot would not rank himself among the

impressionists. And he would not like to hear his work called clever; I

warn you of that. He has a horror of cleverness. It was not a clever

picture, but sober, strange, beautiful. Well, I know Belot and his wife

quite intimately. They are great friends of the Lippheims, too, and call

themselves the Franco-Prussian alliance. Madame Belot is a dear little

woman. You must have often seen his pictures of her and the children. He

has numbers of children and adores them. _La petite_ Margot is my

special pet and she always sends me a little present on my birthday.

Madame Belot was once his model," Karen added, "and is quite _du

peuple_, and I believe that some of his friends were sorry that he

married her; but she makes him very happy. That beautiful nude in the

Luxembourg by Chantefoy is of her--long before she married, of course.

She does not sit for the _ensemble_ now, and indeed I fear it has lost

all its beauty, for she is very fat. It would be nice to go to Paris on

our wedding-tour and see the Belots," said Karen.

Gregory made an evasive answer. He reflected that once he had married

her it would probably be easy to detach Karen from these most

undesirable associates. He hoped that she would take to Betty. Betty

would be an excellent antidote. "And you think your sister-in-law will

want me?" said Karen, when he brought her from the Belots back to Betty.

"She doesn't know me."

"She must begin to know you as soon as possible. You will have Mrs.

Forrester at hand, you see, if my family should oppress you too much.

Barring Betty, who hardly counts as one of them, they aren't

interesting, I warn you."

"I may oppress them," said Karen, with the shrewdness that often

surprised him. "Who will they take refuge with?"

"Oh, they have all London to fall back upon. They do nothing when

they're up but go out. That's my plan; that they should leave you a good

deal when they go out, and leave you to me."

"That will be nice," said Karen. "But Mrs. Forrester, you know," she

went on, "is not exactly an intimate of mine that I could fall back

upon. I am, in her eyes, only a little appendage of Tante's."

"Ah, but you have ceased, now, to be an appendage of Tante's. And Mrs.

Forrester is an intimate, an old one, of mine."

"She'll take me in as your appendage," Karen smiled.

"Not at all. It's you, now, who are the person to whom the appendage

belongs. I'm your appendage. That quite alters the situation. You will

have to stand in the foreground and do all the conventional things."

"Shall I?" smiled Karen, unperturbed. She was, as he knew, not to be

disconcerted by any novel social situation. She had witnessed so many

situations and such complicated ones that the merely conventional were,

in her eyes, relatively insignificant and irrevelant. There would be for

her none of the débutante's sense of awkwardness or insufficiency. Again

she reminded him of the rustic little princess, unaware of alien

customs, and ready to learn and to laugh at her own blunders.

It was arranged, Mrs. Talcott's appearance helping to decisions, that as

soon as Karen heard from her guardian, who might have plans to suggest,

she should come up to London and stay with Lady Jardine.

Mrs. Talcott, on entering, had grasped Gregory's hand and shaken it

vigorously, remarking: "I'm very pleased to see you back again."

"I didn't tell Mrs. Talcott anything, Gregory," said Karen. "But I am

sure she guessed."

"Mrs. Talcott and I had our understandings," said Gregory, "but I'm sure

she guessed from the moment she saw me down here. She was much quicker

than you, Karen."

"I've seen a good many young folks in my time," Mrs. Talcott conceded.

Gregory's sense of the deepened significance in all things lent a

special pathos to his conjectures to-day about Mrs. Talcott. He did not

know how far her affection for Karen went and whether it were more than

the mere kindly solicitude of the aged for the young; but the girl's

presence in her life must give at least interest and colour, and after

Mrs. Talcott had spoken her congratulations and declared that she

believed they'd be real happy together, he said, the idea striking him

as an apt one, "And Mrs. Talcott, you must come up and stay with us in

London sometimes, won't you?"

"Oh, Mrs. Talcott--yes, yes;" said Karen, delighted. He had never seen

her kiss Mrs. Talcott, but she now clasped her arm, standing beside her.

Mrs. Talcott did not smile; but, after a moment, the aspect of her face

changed; it always took some moments for Mrs. Talcott's expression to

change. Now it was like seeing the briny old piece of shipwrecked oak

mildly illuminated with sunlight on its lonely beach.

"That's real kind of you; real kind," said Mrs. Talcott reflectively. "I

don't expect I'll get up there. I'm not much of a traveller these days.

But it's real kind of you to have thought of it."

"But it must be," Karen declared. "Only think; I should pour out your

coffee for you in the morning, after all these years when you've poured

out mine; and we would walk in the park--Gregory's flat overlooks the

park you know--and we would drive in hansoms--don't you like

hansoms--and go to the play in the evening. But yes, indeed, you shall

come."

Mrs. Talcott listened to these projects, still with her mild

illumination, remarking when Karen had done, "I guess not, Karen; I

guess I'll stay here. I've been moving round considerable all my life

long and now I expect I'll just stay put. There's no one to look after

things here but me and they'd get pretty muddled if I was away, I

expect. Mitchell isn't a very bright man."

"The real difficulty is," said Karen, holding Mrs. Talcott's arm and

looking at her with affectionate exasperation, "that she doesn't like to

leave Les Solitudes lest she should miss a moment of Tante. Tante

sometimes turns up almost at a moment's notice. We shall have to get

Tante safely away to Russia, or America again, before we can ask you;

isn't that the truth, Mrs. Talcott?"

"Well, I don't know. Perhaps there's something in it," Mrs. Talcott

admitted. "Mercedes likes to know I'm here seeing to things. She

mightn't feel easy in her mind if I was away."

"We'll lay it before her, then," said Karen. "I know she will say that

you must come."

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