THE CONFESSIONAL

When I was a young man I thought a great deal of local color. At that

time it was still a pigment of recent discovery, and supposed to have

a peculiarly stimulating effect on the mental eye. As an aid to the

imagination its value was perhaps overrated; but as an object of pursuit

to that vagrant faculty, it had all the merits claimed for it. I certainly

never hunted any game better worth my powder; and to a young man with rare

holidays and long working hours, its value was enhanced by the fact that

one might bring it down at any turn, if only one kept one’s eye alert and

one’s hand on the trigger.

Even the large manufacturing city where, for some years, my young

enthusiasms were chained to an accountant’s desk, was not without its

romantic opportunities. Many of the mill-hands at Dunstable were Italians,

and a foreign settlement had formed itself in that unsavory and unsanitary

portion of the town known as the Point. The Point, like more aristocratic

communities, had its residential and commercial districts, its church, its

theatre and its restaurant. When the craving for local color was on me it

was my habit to resort to the restaurant, a low-browed wooden building with

the appetizing announcement:

“_Aristiù di montone_”

pasted in one of its fly-blown window-panes. Here the consumption of tough

macaroni or of an ambiguous _frittura_ sufficed to transport me to the

Cappello d’Oro in Venice, while my cup of coffee and a wasp-waisted cigar

with a straw in it turned my greasy table-cloth into the marble top of

one of the little round tables under the arcade of the Caffè Pedrotti at

Padua. This feat of the imagination was materially aided by Agostino, the

hollow-eyed and low-collared waiter, whose slimy napkin never lost its

Latin flourish and whose zeal for my comfort was not infrequently displayed

by his testing the warmth of my soup with his finger. Through Agostino I

became acquainted with the inner history of the colony, heard the details

of its feuds and vendettas, and learned to know by sight the leading

characters in these domestic dramas.

The restaurant was frequented by the chief personages of the community:

the overseer of the Italian hands at the Meriton Mills, the doctor, his

wife the _levatrice_ (a plump Neapolitan with greasy ringlets, a plush

picture-hat, and a charm against the evil-eye hanging in a crease of her

neck) and lastly by Don Egidio, the _parocco_ of the little church

across the street. The doctor and his wife came only on feast days, but

the overseer and Don Egidio were regular patrons. The former was a quiet

saturnine-looking man, of accomplished manners but reluctant speech, and I

depended for my diversion chiefly on Don Egidio, whose large loosely-hung

lips were always ajar for conversation. The remarks issuing from them

were richly tinged by the gutturals of the Bergamasque dialect, and it

needed but a slight acquaintance with Italian types to detect the Lombard

peasant under the priest’s rusty cassock. This inference was confirmed

by Don Egidio’s telling me that he came from a village of Val Camonica,

the radiant valley which extends northward from the lake of Iseo to

the Adamello glaciers. His step-father had been a laborer on one of

the fruit-farms of a Milanese count who owned large estates in the Val

Camonica; and that gentleman, taking a fancy to the lad, whom he had seen

at work in his orchards, had removed him to his villa on the lake of Iseo

and had subsequently educated him for the Church.

It was doubtless to this picturesque accident that Don Egidio owed the

mingling of ease and simplicity that gave an inimitable charm to his

stout shabby presence. It was as though some wild mountain-fruit had been

transplanted to the Count’s orchards and had mellowed under cultivation

without losing its sylvan flavor. I have never seen the social art carried

farther without suggestion of artifice. The fact that Don Egidio’s

amenities were mainly exercised on the mill-hands composing his parish

proved the genuineness of his gift. It is easier to simulate gentility

among gentlemen than among navvies; and the plain man is a touchstone who

draws out all the alloy in the gold.

Among his parishioners Don Egidio ruled with the cheerful despotism of the

good priest. On cardinal points he was inflexible, but in minor matters he

had that elasticity of judgment which enables the Catholic discipline to

fit itself to every inequality of the human conscience. There was no appeal

from his verdict; but his judgment-seat was a revolving chair from which he

could view the same act at various angles. His influence was acknowledged

not only by his flock, but by the policeman at the corner, the “bar-keep’”

in the dive, the ward politician in the corner grocery. The general verdict

of Dunstable was that the Point would have been hell without the priest.

It was perhaps not precisely heaven with him; but such light of the upper

sky as pierced its murky atmosphere was reflected from Don Egidio’s

countenance. It is hardly possible for any one to exercise such influence

without taking pleasure in it; and on the whole the priest was probably

a contented man; though it does not follow that he was a happy one. On

this point the first stages of our acquaintance yielded much food for

conjecture. At first sight Don Egidio was the image of cheerfulness. He had

all the physical indications of a mind at ease: the leisurely rolling gait,

the ready laugh, the hospitable eye of the man whose sympathies are always

on the latch. It took me some time to discover under his surface garrulity

the impenetrable reticence of his profession, and under his enjoyment of

trifles a levelling melancholy which made all enjoyment trifling. Don

Egidio’s aspect and conversation were so unsuggestive of psychological

complexities that I set down this trait to poverty or home-sickness. There

are few classes of men more frugal in tastes and habit than the village

priest in Italy; but Don Egidio, by his own account, had been introduced,

at an impressionable age, to a way of living that must have surpassed his

wildest dreams of self-indulgence. To whatever privations his parochial

work had since accustomed him, the influences of that earlier life were

too perceptible in his talk not to have made a profound impression on his

tastes; and he remained, for all his apostolic simplicity, the image of the

family priest who has his seat at the rich man’s table.

It chanced that I had used one of my short European holidays to explore

afoot the romantic passes connecting the Valtelline with the lake of Iseo;

and my remembrance of that enchanting region made it seem impossible

that Don Egidio should ever look without a reminiscent pang on the grimy

perspective of his parochial streets. The transition was too complete, too

ironical, from those rich glades and Titianesque acclivities to the brick

hovels and fissured sidewalks of the Point.

This impression was confirmed when Don Egidio, in response to my urgent

invitation, paid his first visit to my modest lodgings. He called one

winter evening, when a wood-fire in its happiest humor was giving a

factitious lustre to my book-shelves and bringing out the values of the one

or two old prints and Chinese porcelains that accounted for the perennial

shabbiness of my wardrobe.

“Ah,” said he with a murmur of satisfaction, as he laid aside his shiny hat

and bulging umbrella, “it is a long time since I have been in a _casa

signorile_.”

My remembrance of his own room (he lodged with the doctor and the

_levatrice_) saved this epithet from the suggestion of irony and kept

me silent while he sank into my arm-chair with the deliberation of a tired

traveller lowering himself gently into a warm bath.

“Good! good!” he repeated, looking about him. “Books, porcelains, objects

of _virtù_--I am glad to see that there are still such things in the

world!” And he turned a genial eye on the glass of Marsala that I had

poured out for him.

Don Egidio was the most temperate of men and never exceeded his one glass;

but he liked to sit by the hour puffing at my Cabañas, which I suspected

him of preferring to the black weed of his native country. Under the

influence of my tobacco he became even more blandly garrulous, and I

sometimes fancied that of all the obligations of his calling none could

have placed such a strain on him as that of preserving the secrets of the

confessional. He often talked of his early life at the Count’s villa, where

he had been educated with his patron’s two sons till he was of age to be

sent to the seminary; and I could see that the years spent in simple and

familiar intercourse with his benefactors had been the most vivid chapter

in his experience. The Italian peasant’s inarticulate tenderness for the

beauty of his birthplace had been specialized in him by contact with

cultivated tastes, and he could tell me not only that the Count had a

“stupendous” collection of pictures, but that the chapel of the villa

contained a sepulchral monument by Bambaja, and that the art-critics were

divided as to the authenticity of the Leonardo in the family palace at

Milan.

On all these subjects he was inexhaustibly voluble; but there was one point

which he always avoided, and that was his reason for coming to America. I

remember the round turn with which he brought me up when I questioned him.

“A priest,” said he, “is a soldier and must obey orders like a soldier.”

He set down his glass of Marsala and strolled across the room. “I had not

observed,” he went on, “that you have here a photograph of the Sposalizio

of the Brera. What a picture! _È stupendo_!” and he turned back to his

seat and smilingly lit a fresh cigar.

I saw at once that I had hit on a point where his native garrulity was

protected by the chain-mail of religious discipline that every Catholic

priest wears beneath his cassock. I had too much respect for my friend

to wish to penetrate his armor, and now and then I almost fancied he was

grateful to me for not putting his reticence to the test.

Don Egidio must have been past sixty when I made his acquaintance; but it

was not till the close of an exceptionally harsh winter, some five or six

years after our first meeting, that I began to think of him as an old man.

It was as though the long-continued cold had cracked and shrivelled him. He

had grown bent and hollow-chested and his lower lip shook like an unhinged

door. The summer heat did little to revive him, and in September, when I

came home from my vacation, I found him just recovering from an attack of

pneumonia. That autumn he did not care to venture often into the night air,

and now and then I used to go and sit with him in his little room, to which

I had contributed the unheard-of luxuries of an easy-chair and a gas-stove.

My engagements, however, made these visits infrequent, and several weeks

had elapsed without my seeing the _parocco_ when, one snowy November

morning, I ran across him in the railway-station. I was on my way to New

York for the day and had just time to wave a greeting to him as I jumped

into the railway-carriage; but a moment later, to my surprise, I saw him

stiffly clambering into the same train. I found him seated in the common

car, with his umbrella between his knees and a bundle done up in a red

cotton handkerchief on the seat at his side. The caution with which, at my

approach, he transferred this bundle to his arms caused me to glance at it

in surprise; and he answered my look by saying with a smile:

“They are flowers for the dead--the most exquisite flowers--from the

greenhouses of Mr. Meriton--_si figuri_!” And he waved a descriptive

hand. “One of my lads, Gianpietro, is employed by the gardener there, and

every year on this day he brings me a beautiful bunch of flowers--for such

a purpose it is no sin,” he added, with the charming Italian pliancy of

judgment.

“And why are you travelling in this snowy weather, _signor parocco_?”

I asked, as he ended with a cough.

He fixed me gravely with his simple shallow eye. “Because it is the day of

the dead, my son,” he said, “and I go to place these on the grave of the

noblest man that ever lived.”

“You are going to New York?”

“To Brooklyn--“

I hesitated a moment, wishing to question him, yet uncertain whether his

replies were curtailed by the persistency of his cough or by the desire to

avoid interrogation.

“This is no weather to be travelling with such a cough,” I said at length.

He made a deprecating gesture.

“I have never missed the day--not once in eighteen years. But for me he

would have no one!” He folded his hands on his umbrella and looked away

from me to hide the trembling of his lip.

I resolved on a last attempt to storm his confidence. “Your friend is

buried in Calvary cemetery?”

He signed an assent.

“That is a long way for you to go alone, _signor parocco_. The streets

are sure to be slippery and there is an icy wind blowing. Give me your

flowers and let me send them to the cemetery by a messenger. I give you my

word they shall reach their destination safely.”

He turned a quiet look on me. “My son, you are young,” he said, “and you

don’t know how the dead need us.” He drew his breviary from his pocket and

opened it with a smile. “_Mi scusi?_” he murmured.

The business which had called me to town obliged me to part from him as

soon as the train entered the station, and in my dash for the street I

left his unwieldy figure laboring far behind me through the crowd on the

platform. Before we separated, however, I had learned that he was returning

to Dunstable by the four o’clock train, and had resolved to despatch my

business in time to travel home with him. When I reached Wall Street I was

received with the news that the man I had appointed to meet was ill and

detained in the country. My business was “off” and I found myself with

the rest of the day at my disposal. I had no difficulty in deciding how

to employ my time. I was at an age when, in such contingencies, there is

always a feminine alternative; and even now I don’t know how it was that,

on my way to a certain hospitable luncheon-table, I suddenly found myself

in a cab which was carrying me at full-speed to the Twenty-third Street

ferry. It was not till I had bought my ticket and seated myself in the

varnished tunnel of the ferry-boat that I was aware of having been diverted

from my purpose by an overmastering anxiety for Don Egidio. I rapidly

calculated that he had not more than an hour’s advance on me, and that,

allowing for my greater agility and for the fact that I had a cab at my

call, I was likely to reach the cemetery in time to see him under shelter

before the gusts of sleet that were already sweeping across the river had

thickened to a snow-storm.

At the gates of the cemetery I began to take a less sanguine view of my

attempt. The commemorative anniversary had filled the silent avenues

with visitors, and I felt the futility of my quest as I tried to fix the

gatekeeper’s attention on my delineation of a stout Italian priest with a

bad cough and a bunch of flowers tied up in a red cotton handkerchief. The

gate-keeper showed that delusive desire to oblige that is certain to send

its victims in the wrong direction; but I had the presence of mind to go

exactly contrary to his indication, and thanks to this precaution I came,

after half an hour’s search, on the figure of my poor _parocco_,

kneeling on the wet ground in one of the humblest by-ways of the great

necropolis. The mound before which he knelt was strewn with the spoils of

Mr. Meriton’s conservatories, and on the weather-worn tablet at its head I

read the inscription:

IL CONTE SIVIANO

DA MILANO.

_Super flumina Babylonis, illic sedimus et flevimus._

So engrossed was Don Egidio that for some moments I stood behind him

unobserved; and when he rose and faced me, grief had left so little room

for any minor emotion that he looked at me almost without surprise.

“Don Egidio,” I said, “I have a carriage waiting for you at the gate. You

must come home with me.”

He nodded quietly and I drew his hand through my arm.

He turned back to the grave. “One moment, my son,” he said. “It may be for

the last time.” He stood motionless, his eyes on the heaped-up flowers

which were already bruised and blackened by the cold. “To leave him

alone--after sixty years! But God is everywhere--“ he murmured as I led him

away.

On the journey home he did not care to talk, and my chief concern was to

keep him wrapped in my greatcoat and to see that his bed was made ready as

soon as I had restored him to his lodgings. The _levatrice_ brought a

quilted coverlet from her own room and hovered over him as gently as though

he had been of the sex to require her services; while Agostino, at my

summons, appeared with a bowl of hot soup that was heralded down the

street by a reviving waft of garlic. To these ministrations I left the

_parocco_, intending to call for news of him the next evening; but an

unexpected pressure of work kept me late at my desk, and the following day

some fresh obstacle delayed me.

On the third afternoon, as I was leaving the office, an agate-eyed infant

from the Point hailed me with a message from the doctor. The _parocco_

was worse and had asked for me. I jumped into the nearest car and ten

minutes later was running up the doctor’s greasy stairs.

To my dismay I found Don Egidio’s room cold and untenanted; but I was

reassured a moment later by the appearance of the _levatrice_, who

announced that she had transferred the blessed man to her own apartment,

where he could have the sunlight and a good bed to lie in. There in fact

he lay, weak but smiling, in a setting which contrasted oddly enough with

his own monastic surroundings: a cheerful grimy room, hung with anecdotic

chromos, photographs of lady-patients proudly presenting their offspring

to the camera, and innumerable Neapolitan _santolini_ decked out with

shrivelled palm-leaves.

The _levatrice_ whispered that the good man had the pleurisy, and

that, as she phrased it, he was nearing his last mile-stone. I saw that he

was in fact in a bad way, but his condition did not indicate any pressing

danger, and I had the presentiment that he would still, as the saying is,

put up a good fight. It was clear, however, that he knew what turn the

conflict must take, and the solemnity with which he welcomed me showed that

my summons was a part of that spiritual strategy with which the Catholic

opposes the surprise of death.

“My son,” he said, when the _levatrice_ had left us, “I have a favor

to ask you. You found me yesterday bidding good-bye to my best friend.”

His cough interrupted him. “I have never told you,” he went on, “the name

of the family in which I was brought up. It was Siviano, and that was

the grave of the Count’s eldest son, with whom I grew up as a brother.

For eighteen years he has lain in that strange ground--_in terra

aliena_--and when I die, there will be no one to care for his grave.”

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