CHAPTER IV

MONICA’S MAJORITY

In the drapery establishment where Monica Madden worked and lived it

was not (as is sometimes the case) positively forbidden to the resident

employees to remain at home on Sunday; but they were strongly

recommended to make the utmost possible use of that weekly vacation.

Herein, no doubt, appeared a laudable regard for their health. Young

people, especially young women, who are laboriously engaged in a shop

for thirteen hours and a half every weekday, and on Saturday for an

average of sixteen, may be supposed to need a Sabbath of open air.

Messrs. Scotcher and Co. acted like conscientious men in driving them

forth immediately after breakfast, and enjoining upon them not to

return until bedtime. By way of well-meaning constraint, it was

directed that only the very scantiest meals (plain bread and cheese, in

fact) should be supplied to those who did not take advantage of the

holiday.

Messrs. Scotcher and Co. were large-minded men. Not only did they

insist that the Sunday ought to be used for bodily recreation, but they

had no objection whatever to their young friends taking a stroll after

closing-time each evening. Nay, so generous and confiding were they,

that to each young person they allowed a latchkey. The air of Walworth

Road is pure and invigorating about midnight; why should the reposeful

ramble be hurried by consideration for weary domestics?

Monica always felt too tired to walk after ten o’clock; moreover, the

usual conversation in the dormitory which she shared with five other

young women was so little to her taste that she wished to be asleep

when the talkers came up to bed. But on Sunday she gladly followed the

counsel of her employers. If the weather were bad, the little room at

Lavender Hill offered her a retreat; when the sun shone, she liked to

spend a part of the day in free wandering about London, which even yet

had not quite disillusioned her.

And to-day it shone brightly. This was her birthday, the completion of

her one-and-twentieth year. Alice and Virginia of course expected her

early in the morning, and of course they were all to dine together—at

the table measuring three feet by one and a half; but the afternoon and

evening she must have to herself. The afternoon, because a few hours of

her sisters’ talk invariably depressed her; and the evening, because

she had an appointment to keep. As she left the big ugly

“establishment” her heart beat cheerfully, and a smile fluttered about

her lips. She did not feel very well, but that was a matter of course;

the ride in an omnibus would perhaps make her head clearer.

Monica’s face was of a recognized type of prettiness; a pure oval; from

the smooth forehead to the dimpled little chin all its lines were soft

and graceful. Her lack of colour, by heightening the effect of black

eyebrows and darkly lustrous eyes, gave her at present a more spiritual

cast than her character justified; but a thoughtful firmness was native

to her lips, and no possibility of smirk or simper lurked in the

attractive features. The slim figure was well fitted in a costume of

pale blue, cheap but becoming; a modest little hat rested on her black

hair; her gloves and her sunshade completed the dainty picture.

An omnibus would be met in Kennington Park Road. On her way thither, in

a quiet cross-street, she was overtaken by a young man who had left the

house of business a moment after her, and had followed at a short

distance timidly. A young man of unhealthy countenance, with a red

pimple on the side of his nose, but not otherwise ill-looking. He was

clad with propriety—stove-pipe hat, diagonal frockcoat, grey trousers,

and he walked with a springy gait.

“Miss Madden—”

He had ventured, with perturbation in his face, to overtake Monica.

She stopped.

“What is it, Mr. Bullivant?”

Her tone was far from encouraging, but the young man smiled upon her

with timorous tenderness.

“What a beautiful morning! Are you going far?”

He had the Cockney accent, but not in an offensive degree; his manners

were not flagrantly of the shop.

“Yes; some distance.” Monica walked slowly on.

“Will you allow me to walk a little way with you?” he pleaded, bending

towards her.

“I shall take the omnibus at the end of this street.”

They went forward together. Monica no longer smiled, but neither did

she look angry. Her expression was one of trouble.

“Where shall _you_ spend the day, Mr. Bullivant?” she asked at length,

with an effort to seem unconcerned.

“I really don’t know.”

“I should think it would be very nice up the river.” And she added

diffidently, “Miss Eade is going to Richmond.”

“Is she?” he replied vaguely.

“At least she wished to go—if she could find a companion.”

“I hope she will enjoy herself,” said Mr. Bullivant, with careful

civility.

“But of course she won’t enjoy it very much if she has to go alone. As

you have no particular engagement, Mr. Bullivant, wouldn’t it be kind

to—?”

The suggestion was incomplete, but intelligible.

“I couldn’t ask Miss Eade to let me accompany her,” said the young man

gravely.

“Oh, I think you could. She would like it.”

Monica looked rather frightened at her boldness, and quickly added—

“Now I must say good-bye. There comes the bus.”

Bullivant turned desperately in that direction. He saw there was as yet

no inside passenger.

“Do allow me to go a short way with you?” burst from his lips. “I

positively don’t know how I shall spend the morning.”

Monica had signalled to the driver, and was hurrying forward. Bullivant

followed, reckless of consequences. In a minute both were seated within.

“You will forgive me?” pleaded the young fellow, remarking a look of

serious irritation on his companion’s face. “I must be with you a few

minutes longer.”

“I think when I have begged you not to—”

“I know how bad my behaviour must seem. But, Miss Madden, may I not be

on terms of friendship with you?”

“Of course you may—but you are not content with that.”

“Yes—indeed—I _will_ be content—”

“It’s foolish to say so. Haven’t you broken the understanding three or

four times?”

The bus stopped for a passenger, a man, who mounted to the top.

“I am so sorry,” murmured Bullivant, as the starting horses jolted them

together. “I try not to worry you. Think of my position. You have told

me that there is no one else who—whose rights I ought to respect.

Feeling as I do, it isn’t in human nature to give up hope!”

“Then will you let me ask you a rude question?”

“Ask me _any_ question, Miss Madden.”

“How would it be possible for you to support a wife?”

She flushed and smiled. Bullivant, dreadfully discomposed, did not move

his eyes from her.

“It wouldn’t be possible for some time,” he answered in a thick voice.

“I have nothing but my wretched salary. But every one hopes.”

“What reasonable hope have you?” Monica urged, forcing herself to be

cruel, because it seemed the only way of putting an end to this

situation.

“Oh, there are so many opportunities in our business. I could point to

half a dozen successful men who were at the counter a few years ago. I

may become a walker, and get at least three pounds a week. If I were

lucky enough to be taken on as a buyer, I might make—why, some make

many hundreds a year—many hundreds.”

“And you would ask me to wait on and on for one of these wonderful

chances?”

“If I could move your feelings, Miss Madden,” he began, with a certain

dolorous dignity; but there his voice broke. He saw too plainly that

the girl had neither faith in him nor liking for him.

“Mr. Bullivant, I think you ought to wait until you really have

prospects. If you were encouraged by some person, it would be a

different thing. And indeed you haven’t to look far. But where there

has never been the slightest encouragement, you are really wrong to act

in this way. A long engagement, where everything remains doubtful for

years, is so wretched that—oh, if I were a man, I would _never_ try to

persuade a girl into that! I think it wrong and cruel.”

The stroke was effectual. Bullivant averted his face, naturally

woebegone, and sat for some minutes without speaking. The bus again

drew up; four or five people were about to ascend.

“I will say good-morning, Miss Madden,” he whispered hurriedly.

She gave her hand, glanced at him with embarrassment, and so let him

depart.

Ten minutes restored the mood in which she had set out. Once more she

smiled to herself. Indeed, her head was better for the fresh air and

the movement. If only the sisters would allow her to get away soon

after dinner!

It was Virginia who opened the door to her, and embraced and kissed her

with wonted fondness.

“You are nice and early! Poor Alice has been in bed since the day

before yesterday; a dreadful cold and one of her very worst headaches.

But I think she is a little better this morning.”

Alice—a sad spectacle—was propped up on pillows.

“Don’t kiss me, darling,” she said, in a voice barely audible. “You

mustn’t risk getting a sore throat. How well you look!”

“I’m afraid she doesn’t look _well_,” corrected Virginia; “but perhaps

she has a little more colour than of late. Monica, dear, as Alice can

hardly use her voice, I will speak for both of us, and wish you many,

many happy returns of the day. And we ask you to accept this little

book from us. It may be a comfort to you from time to time.”

“You are good, kind dears!” replied Monica, kissing the one on the lips

and the other on her thinly-tressed head. “It’s no use saying you

oughtn’t to have spent money on me; you _will_ always do it. What a

nice “Christian Year”! I’ll do my best to read some of it now and then.”

With a half-guilty air, Virginia then brought from some corner of the

room a very small but delicate currant cake. Monica must eat a mouthful

of this; she always had such a wretched breakfast, and the journey from

Walworth Road was enough to give an appetite.

“But you are ruining yourselves, foolish people!”

The others exchanged a look, and smiled with such a strange air that

Monica could not but notice it.

“I know!” she cried. “There’s good news. You have found something, and

better than usual Virgie.”

“Perhaps so. Who knows? Eat your slice of cake like a good child, and

then I shall have something to tell you.”

Obviously the two were excited. Virginia moved about with the recovered

step of girlhood, held herself upright, and could not steady her hands.

“You would never guess whom I have seen,” she began, when Monica was

quite ready to listen. “We had a letter the other morning which did

puzzle us so—I mean the writing before we opened it. And it was

from—Miss Nunn!”

This name did not greatly stir Monica.

“You had quite lost sight of her, hadn’t you?” she remarked.

“Quite. I didn’t suppose we should ever hear of her again. But nothing

more fortunate could have happened. My dear, she is wonderful!”

At considerable length Virginia detailed all she had learnt of Miss

Nunn’s career, and described her present position.

“She will be the most valuable friend to us. Oh, her strength, her

resolution! The way in which she discovers the right thing to do! You

are to call upon her as soon as possible. This very after noon you had

better go. She will relieve you from all your troubles darling. Her

friend, Miss Barfoot, will teach you typewriting, and put you in the

way of earning an easy and pleasant livelihood. She will, indeed!”

“But how long does it take?” asked the astonished girl.

“Oh, quite a short time, I should think. We didn’t speak of details;

they were postponed. You will hear everything yourself. And she

suggested all sorts of ways,” pursued Virginia, with quite

unintentional exaggeration, “in which we could make better use of our

invested money. She is _full_ of practical expedients. The most

wonderful person! She is quite like a _man_ in energy and resources. I

never imagined that one of our sex could resolve and plan and act as

she does!”

Monica inquired anxiously what the projects for improving their income

might be.

“Nothing is decided yet,” was the reply, given with a confident smile.

“Let us first of all put _you_ in comfort and security; that is the

immediate need.”

The listener was interested, but did not show any eagerness for the

change proposed. Presently she stood at the window and lost herself in

thought. Alice gave signs of an inclination to doze; she had had a

sleepless night, in spite of soporifics. Though no sun entered the

room, it was very hot, and the presence of a third person made the air

oppressive.

“Don’t you think we might go out for half an hour?” Monica whispered,

when Virginia had pointed to the invalid’s closed eves. “I’m sure it’s

very unhealthy for us all to be in this little place.”

“I don’t like to leave her,” the other whispered back. “But I certainly

think it would be better for you to have fresh air. Wouldn’t you like

to go to church, dear? The bells haven’t stopped yet.”

The elder sisters were not quite regular in their church-going. When

weather or lassitude kept them at home on Sunday morning they read the

service aloud. Monica found the duty of listening rather grievous.

During the months that she was alone in London she had fallen into

neglect of public worship; not from any conscious emancipation, but

because her companions at the house of business never dreamt of

entering a church, and their example by degrees affected her with

carelessness. At present she was glad of the pretext for escaping until

dinner-time.

She went forth with the intention of deceiving her sisters, of walking

to Clapham Common, and on her return inventing some sermon at a church

the others never visited. But before she had gone many yards conscience

overcame her. Was she not getting to be a very lax-minded girl? And it

was shameful to impose upon the two after their loving-kindness to her.

As usual, her little prayer-book was in her pocket. She walked quickly

to the familiar church, and reached it just as the doors were being

closed.

Of all the congregation she probably was the one who went through the

service most mechanically. Not a word reached her understanding.

Sitting, standing, or on her knees, she wore the same preoccupied look,

with ever and again a slight smile or a movement of the lips, as if she

were recalling some conversation of special interest.

Last Sunday she had had an adventure, the first of any real moment that

had befallen her in London. She had arranged to go with Miss Eade on a

steamboat up the river. They were to meet at the Battersea Park

landing-stage at half-past two. But Miss Eade did not keep her

appointment, and Monica, unwilling to lose the trip, started alone.

She disembarked at Richmond and strayed about for an hour or two, then

had a cup of tea and a bun. As it was still far too early to return,

she went down to the riverside and seated herself on one of the

benches. Many boats were going by, a majority of them containing only

two persons—a young man who pulled, and a girl who held the strings of

the tiller. Some of these couples Monica disregarded; but occasionally

there passed a skiff from which she could not take her eyes. To lie

back like that on the cushions and converse with a companion who had

nothing of the _shop_ about him!

It seemed hard that she must be alone. Poor Mr. Bullivant would gladly

have taken her on the river; but Mr. Bullivant—

She thought of her sisters. Their loneliness was for life, poor things.

Already they were old; and they would grow older, sadder, perpetually

struggling to supplement that dividend from the precious capital—and

merely that they might keep alive. Oh!—her heart ached at the misery

of such a prospect. How much better if the poor girls had never been

born.

Her own future was more hopeful than theirs had ever been. She knew

herself good-looking. Men had followed her in the street and tried to

make her acquaintance. Some of the girls with whom she lived regarded

her enviously, spitefully. But had she really the least chance of

marrying a man whom she could respect—not to say love?

One-and-twenty a week hence. At Weston she had kept tolerable health,

but certainly her constitution was not strong, and the slavery of

Walworth Road threatened her with premature decay. Her sisters

counselled wisely. Coming to London was a mistake. She would have had

better chances at Weston, notwithstanding the extreme discretion with

which she was obliged to conduct herself.

While she mused thus, a profound discouragement settling on her sweet

face, some one took a seat by her—on the same bench, that is to say.

Glancing aside, she saw that it was an oldish man, with grizzled

whiskers and rather a stern visage. Monica sighed.

Was it possible that he had heard her? He looked this way, and with

curiosity. Ashamed of herself, she kept her eyes averted for a long

time. Presently, following the movement of a boat, her face turned

unconsciously towards the silent companion; again he was looking at

her, and he spoke. The gravity of his appearance and manner, the

good-natured commonplace that fell from his lips, could not alarm her;

a dialogue began, and went on for about half an hour.

How old might he be? After all, he was probably not fifty—perchance

not much more than forty. His utterance fell short of perfect

refinement, but seemed that of an educated man. And certainly his

clothes were such as a gentleman wears. He had thin, hairy hands,

unmarked by any effect of labour; the nails could not have been better

cared for. Was it a bad sign that he carried neither gloves nor

walking-stick?

His talk aimed at nothing but sober friendliness; it was perfectly

inoffensive—indeed, respectful. Now and then—not too often—he fixed

his eyes upon her for an instant. After the introductory phrases, he

mentioned that he had had a long drive, alone; his horse was baiting in

preparation for the journey back to London. He often took such drives

in the summer, though generally on a weekday; the magnificent sky had

tempted him out this morning. He lived at Herne Hill.

At length he ventured a question. Monica affected no reluctance to tell

him that she was in a house of business, that she had relatives in

London, that only by chance she found herself alone to-day.

“I should be sorry if I never saw you again.”

These words he uttered with embarrassment, his eyes on the ground.

Monica could only keep silence. Half an hour ago she would not have

thought it possible for any remark of this man’s seriously to occupy

her mind, yet now she waited for the next sentence in discomposure

which was quite free from resentment.

“We meet in this casual way, and talk, and then say good-bye. Why

mayn’t I tell you that you interest me very much, and that I am afraid

to trust only to chance for another meeting? If you were a man”—he

smiled—“I should give you my card, and ask you to my house. The card I

may at all events offer.”

Whilst speaking, he drew out a little case, and laid a visiting-card on

the bench within Monica’s reach. Murmuring her “thank you,” she took

the bit of pasteboard, but did not look at it.

“You are on my side of the river,” he continued, still with scrupulous

modesty of tone. “May I not hope to see you some day, when you are

walking? All days and times are the same to me; but I am afraid it is

only on Sunday that you are at leisure?”

“Yes, only on a Sunday.”

It took a long time, and many circumlocutions, but in the end an

appointment was made. Monica would see her acquaintance next Sunday

evening on the river front of Battersea Park; if it rained, then the

Sunday after. She was ashamed and confused. Other girls were constantly

doing this kind of thing—other girls in business; but it seemed to put

her on the level of a servant. And why had she consented? The man could

never be anything to her; he was too old, too hard-featured, too grave.

Well, on that very account there would be no harm in meeting him. In

truth, she had not felt the courage to refuse; in a manner he had

overawed her.

And perhaps she would not keep the engagement. Nothing compelled her.

She had not told him her name, nor the house where she was employed.

There was a week to think it over.

All days and times were the same to him—he said. And he drove about

the country for his pleasure. A man of means. His name, according to

the card, was Edmund Widdowson.

He was upright in his walk, and strongly built. She noticed this as he

moved away from her. Fearful lest he should turn round, her eyes

glanced at his figure from moment to moment. But he did not once look

back.

* * * * * * * * * *

“And now to God the Father.” The bustle throughout the church wakened

her from reverie so complete that she knew not a syllable of the

sermon. After all she must deceive her sisters by inventing a text, and

perhaps a comment.

By an arrangement with Mrs. Conisbee, dinner was down in the parlour

to-day. A luxurious meal, moreover; for in her excitement Virginia had

resolved to make a feast of Monica’s birthday. There was a tiny piece

of salmon, a dainty cutlet, and a cold blackcurrant tart. Virginia, at

home a constant vegetarian, took no share of the fish and meat—which

was only enough for one person. Alice, alone upstairs, made a dinner of

gruel.

Monica was to be at Queen’s Road, Chelsea, by three o’clock. The

sisters hoped she would return to Lavender Hill with her news, but that

was left uncertain—by Monica herself purposely. As an amusement, she

had decided to keep her promise to Mr. Edmund Widdowson. She was

curious to see him again, and receive a new impression of his

personality. If he behaved as inoffensively as at Richmond,

acquaintance with him might be continued for the variety it brought

into her life. If anything unpleasant happened, she had only to walk

away. The slight, very slight, tremor of anticipation was reasonably to

be prized by a shop-girl at Messrs. Scotcher’s.

Drawing near to Queen’s Road—the wrapped-up Keble in her hand—she

began to wonder whether Miss Nunn would have any serious proposal to

offer. Virginia’s report and ecstatic forecasts were, she knew, not

completely trustworthy; though more than ten years her sister’s junior,

Monica saw the world with eyes much less disposed to magnify and colour

ordinary facts.

Miss Barfoot was still from home. Rhoda Nunn received the visitor in a

pleasant, old-fashioned drawing-room, where there was nothing costly,

nothing luxurious; yet to Monica it appeared richly furnished. A sense

of strangeness amid such surroundings had more to do with her

constrained silence for the first few minutes than the difficulty with

which she recognized in this lady before her the Miss Nunn whom she had

known years ago.

“I should never have known you,” said Rhoda, equally surprised. “For

one thing, you look like a fever patient just recovering. What can be

expected? Your sister gave me a shocking account of how you live.”

“The work is very hard.”

“Preposterous. Why do you stay at such a place, Monica?”

“I am getting experience.”

“To be used in the next world?”

They laughed.

“Miss Madden is better to-day, I hope?”

“Alice? Not much, I’m sorry to say.”

“Will you tell me something more about the “experience” you are

getting? For instance, what time is given you for meals?”

Rhoda Nunn was not the person to manufacture light gossip when a matter

of the gravest interest waited for discussion. With a face that

expressed thoughtful sympathy, she encouraged the girl to speak and

confide in her.

“There’s twenty minutes for each meal,” Monica explained; “but at

dinner and tea one is very likely to be called into the shop before

finishing. If you are long away you find the table cleared.”

“Charming arrangement! No sitting down behind the counter, I suppose?”

“Oh, of course not. We suffer a great deal from that. Some of us get

diseases. A girl has just gone to the hospital with varicose veins, and

two or three others have the same thing in a less troublesome form.

Sometimes, on Saturday night, I lose all feeling in my feet; I have to

stamp on the floor to be sure it’s still under me.”

“Ah, that Saturday night!”

“Yes, it’s bad enough now; but at Christmas! There was a week or more

of Saturday night—going on to one o’clock in the morning. A girl by me

was twice carried out fainting, one night after another. They gave her

brandy, and she came back again.”

“They compelled her to?”

“Well, no, it was her own wish. Her “book of takings” wasn’t very good,

poor thing, and if it didn’t come up to a certain figure at the end of

the week she would lose her place. She lost it after all. They told her

she was too weak. After Christmas she was lucky enough to get a place

as a lady’s-maid at twenty-five pounds a year—at Scotcher’s she had

fifteen. But we heard that she burst a blood-vessel, and now she’s in

the hospital at Brompton.”

“Delightful story! Haven’t you an early-closing day?”

“They had before I went there; but only for about three months. Then

the agreement broke down.”

“Like the assistants. A pity the establishment doesn’t follow suit.”

“But you wouldn’t say so, Miss Nunn, if you knew how terribly hard it

is for many girls to find a place, even now.”

“I know it perfectly well. And I wish it were harder. I wish girls fell

down and died of hunger in the streets, instead of creeping to their

garrets and the hospitals. I should like to see their dead bodies

collected together in some open place for the crowd to stare at.”

Monica gazed at her with wide eyes.

“You mean, I suppose, that people would try to reform things.”

“Who knows? Perhaps they might only congratulate each other that a few

of the superfluous females had been struck off. Do they give you any

summer holiday?”

“A week, with salary continued.”

“Really? With salary continued? That takes one’s breath away.—Are many

of the girls ladies?”

“None, at Scotcher’s. They nearly all come from the country. Several

are daughters of small farmers and those are dreadfully ignorant. One

of them asked me the other day in what country Africa was.”

“You don’t find them very pleasant company?”

“One or two are nice quiet girls.”

Rhoda drew a deep sigh, and moved with impatience.

“Well, don’t you think you’ve had about enough of it—experience and

all?”

“I might go into a country business: it would be easier.”

“But you don’t care for the thought?”

“I wish now they had brought me up to something different. Alice and

Virginia were afraid of having me trained for a school; you remember

that one of our sisters who went through it died of overwork. And I’m

not clever, Miss Nunn. I never did much at school.”

Rhoda regarded her, smiling gently.

“You have no inclination to study now?”

“I’m afraid not,” replied the other, looking away. “Certainly I should

like to be better educated, but I don’t think I could study seriously,

to earn my living by it. The time for that has gone by.”

“Perhaps so. But there are things you might manage. No doubt your

sister told you how I get my living. There’s a good deal of employment

for women who learn to use a typewriter. Did you ever have piano

lessons?”

“No.”

“No more did I, and I was sorry for it when I went to typewriting. The

fingers have to be light and supple and quick. Come with me, and I’ll

show you one of the machines.”

They went to a room downstairs—a bare little room by the library. Here

were two Remingtons, and Rhoda patiently explained their use.

“One must practise until one can do fifty words a minute at least. I

know one or two people who have reached almost twice that speed. It

takes a good six months’ work to learn for any profitable use. Miss

Barfoot takes pupils.”

Monica, at first very attentive, was growing absent. Her eyes wandered

about the room. The other observed her closely, and, it seemed,

doubtfully.

“Do you feel any impulse to try for it?”

“I should have to live for six months without earning anything.”

“That is by no means impossible for you, I think?”

“Not really impossible,” Monica replied with hesitation.

Something like dissatisfaction passed over Miss Nunn’s face, though she

did not allow Monica to see it. Her lips moved in a way that perhaps

signified disdain for such timidity. Tolerance was not one of the

virtues expressed in her physiognomy.

“Let us go back to the drawing-room and have some tea.”

Monica could not become quite at ease. This energetic woman had little

attraction for her. She saw the characteristics which made Virginia

enthusiastic, but feared rather than admired them. To put herself in

Miss Nunn’s hands might possibly result in a worse form of bondage than

she suffered at the shop; she would never be able to please such a

person, and failure, she imagined, would result in more or less

contemptuous dismissal.

Then of a sudden, as it she had divined these thoughts, Rhoda assumed

an air of gaiety of frank kindness.

“So it is your birthday? I no longer keep count of mine, and couldn’t

tell you without a calculation what I am exactly. It doesn’t matter,

you see. Thirty-one or fifty-one is much the same for a woman who has

made up her mind to live alone and work steadily for a definite object.

But you are still a young girl, Monica. My best wishes!”

Monica emboldened herself to ask what the object was for which her

friend worked.

“How shall I put it?” replied the other, smiling. “To make women

hard-hearted.”

“Hard-hearted? I think I understand.”

“Do you?”

“You mean that you like to see them live unmarried.”

Rhoda laughed merrily.

“You say that almost with resentment.”

“No—indeed—I didn’t intend it.”

Monica reddened a little.

“Nothing more natural if you have done. At your age, I should have

resented it.”

“But—” the girl hesitated—“don’t you approve of any one marrying?”

“Oh, I’m not so severe! But do you know that there are half a million

more women than men in this happy country of ours?”

“Half a million!”

Her naive alarm again excited Rhoda to laughter.

“Something like that, they say. So many _odd_ women—no making a pair

with them. The pessimists call them useless, lost, futile lives. I,

naturally—being one of them myself—take another view. I look upon

them as a great reserve. When one woman vanishes in matrimony, the

reserve offers a substitute for the world’s work. True, they are not

all trained yet—far from it. I want to help in that—to train the

reserve.”

“But married woman are not idle,” protested Monica earnestly.

“Not all of them. Some cook and rock cradles.”

Again Miss Nunn’s mood changed. She laughed the subject away, and

abruptly began to talk of old days down in Somerset, of rambles about

Cheddar Cliffs, or at Glastonbury, or on the Quantocks. Monica,

however, could not listen, and with difficulty commanded her face to a

pleasant smile.

“Will you come and see Miss Barfoot?” Rhoda asked, when it had become

clear to her that the girl would gladly get away. “I am only her

subordinate, but I know she will wish to be of all the use to you she

can.”

Monica expressed her thanks, and promised to act as soon as possible on

any invitation that was sent her. She took leave just as the servant

announced another caller.

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