The Bench of Desolation

“THE VELVET GLOVE”

I

HE thought he had already, poor John Berridge, tasted in their fulness

the sweets of success; but nothing yet had been more charming to him

than when the young Lord, as he irresistibly and, for greater certitude,

quite correctly figured him, fairly sought out, in Paris, the new

literary star that had begun to hang, with a fresh red light, over

the vast, even though rather confused, Anglo-Saxon horizon; positively

approaching that celebrity with a shy and artless appeal. The young Lord

invoked on this occasion the celebrity’s prized judgment of a special

literary case; and Berridge could take the whole manner of it for one of

the “quaintest” little acts displayed to his amused eyes, up to now, on

the stage of European society--albeit these eyes were quite aware, in

general, of missing everywhere no more of the human scene than possible,

and of having of late been particularly awake to the large extensions of

it spread before him (since so he could but fondly read his fate) under

the omen of his prodigious “hit.” It was because of his hit that he

was having rare opportunities--of which he was so honestly and humbly

proposing, as he would have said, to make the most: it was because every

one in the world (so far had the thing gone) was reading “The Heart of

Gold” as just a slightly too fat volume, or sitting out the same as just

a fifth-act too long play, that he found himself floated on a tide he

would scarce have dared to show his favourite hero sustained by, found

a hundred agreeable and interesting things happen to him which were all,

one way or another, affluents of the golden stream.

The great renewed resonance--renewed by the incredible luck of the

play--was always in his ears without so much as a conscious turn of his

head to listen; so that the queer world of his fame was not the mere

usual field of the Anglo-Saxon boom, but positively the bottom of the

whole theatric sea, unplumbed source of the wave that had borne him

in the course of a year or two over German, French, Italian, Russian,

Scandinavian foot-lights. Paris itself really appeared for the hour the

centre of his cyclone, with reports and “returns,” to say nothing of

agents and emissaries, converging from the minor capitals; though his

impatience was scarce the less keen to get back to London, where his

work had had no such critical excoriation to survive, no such lesson of

anguish to learn, as it had received at the hand of supreme authority,

of that French authority which was in such a matter the only one to be

artistically reckoned with. If his spirit indeed had had to reckon with

it his fourth act practically hadn’t: it continued to make him blush

every night for the public more even than the inimitable _feuilleton_

had made him blush for himself.

This had figured, however, after all, the one bad drop in his cup;

so that, for the rest, his high-water mark might well have been, that

evening at Gloriani’s studio, the approach of his odd and charming

applicant, vaguely introduced at the latter’s very own request by their

hostess, who, with an honest, helpless, genial gesture, washed her fat

begemmed hands of the name and identity of either, but left the fresh,

fair, ever so habitually assured, yet ever so easily awkward Englishman

with his plea to put forth. There was that in this pleasant personage

which could still make Berridge wonder what conception of profit from

him might have, all incalculably, taken form in such a head--these being

truly the last intrenchments of our hero’s modesty. He wondered,

the splendid young man, he wondered awfully, he wondered (it was

unmistakable) quite nervously, he wondered, to John’s ardent and acute

imagination, quite beautifully, if the author of “The Heart of Gold”

would mind just looking at a book by a friend of his, a great friend,

which he himself believed rather clever, and had in fact found very

charming, but as to which--if it really wouldn’t bore Mr. Berridge--he

should so like the verdict of some one who knew. His friend was awfully

ambitious, and he thought there was something in it--with all of which

might he send the book to any address?

Berridge thought of many things while the young Lord thus charged upon

him, and it was odd that no one of them was any question of the possible

worth of the offered achievement--which, for that matter, was certain to

be of the quality of _all_ the books, to say nothing of the plays, and

the projects for plays, with which, for some time past, he had seen his

daily post-bag distended. He had made out, on looking at these things,

no difference at all from one to the other. Here, however, was something

more--something that made his fellow-guest’s overture _independently_

interesting and, as he might imagine, important. He smiled, he was

friendly and vague; said “A work of fiction, I suppose?” and that he

didn’t pretend ever to pronounce, that he in fact quite hated, always,

to have to, not “knowing,” as he felt, any better than any one else; but

would gladly look at anything, under that demur, if it would give any

pleasure. Perhaps the very brightest and most diamond-like twinkle he

had yet seen the star of his renown emit was just the light brought into

his young Lord’s eyes by this so easy consent to oblige. It was easy

because the presence before him was from moment to moment, referring

itself back to some recent observation or memory; something caught

somewhere, within a few weeks or months, as he had moved about, and that

seemed to flutter forth at this stir of the folded leaves of his recent

experience very much as a gathered, faded flower, placed there for

“pressing,” might drop from between the pages of a volume opened at

hazard.

He had seen him before, this splendid and sympathetic person--whose

flattering appeal was by no means _all_ that made him sympathetic;

he had met him, had noted, had wondered about him, had in fact

imaginatively, intellectually, so to speak, quite yearned over him, in

some conjunction lately, though ever so fleet-ingly, apprehended: which

circumstance constituted precisely an association as tormenting, for

the few minutes, as it was vague, and set him to sounding, intensely

and vainly, the face that itself figured everything agreeable except

recognition. He couldn’t remember, and the young man didn’t; distinctly,

yes, they had been in presence, during the previous winter, by some

chance of travel, through Sicily, through Italy, through the south of

France, but his _Seigneurie_--so Berridge liked exotically to phrase

it--had then (in ignorance of the present reasons) not noticed _him_. It

was positive for the man of established identity, all the while too,

and through the perfect lucidity of his sense of achievement in an air

“conducting” nothing but the loudest bang, that this was fundamentally

much less remarkable than the fact of his being made up to in such a

quarter now. That was the disservice, in a manner, of one’s having so

much imagination: the mysterious values of other types kept looming

larger before you than the doubtless often higher but comparatively

familiar ones of your own, and if you had anything of the artist’s

real feeling for life the attraction and amusement of possibilities so

projected were worth more to you, in nineteen moods out of twenty, than

the sufficiency, the serenity, the felicity, whatever it might be,

of your stale personal certitudes. You were intellectually, you were

“artistically” rather abject, in fine, if your curiosity (in the grand

sense of the term) wasn’t worth more to you than your dignity. What was

your dignity, “anyway,” but just the consistency of your curiosity, and

what moments were ever so ignoble for you as, under the blighting breath

of the false gods, stupid conventions, traditions, examples, your lapses

from that consistency? His _Seigneurie_, at all events, delightfully,

hadn’t the least real idea of what any John Berridge was talking about,

and the latter felt that if he had been less beautifully witless, and

thereby less true to his right figure, it might scarce have been

forgiven him.

His right figure was that of life in irreflective joy and at the highest

thinkable level of prepared security and unconscious insolence. What was

the pale page of fiction compared with the intimately personal adventure

that, in almost any direction, he would have been all so stupidly,

all so gallantly, all so instinctively and, by every presumption,

so prevailingly ready for? Berridge would have given six months’

“royalties” for even an hour of his looser dormant consciousness--since

one was oneself, after all, no worm, but an heir of all the ages

too--and yet without being able to supply chapter and verse for the

felt, the huge difference. His _Seigneurie_ was tall and straight, but

so, thank goodness, was the author of “The Heart of Gold,” who had no

such vulgar “mug” either; and there was no intrinsic inferiority in

being a bit inordinately, and so it might have seemed a bit strikingly,

black-browed instead of being fair as the morning. Again while his new

friend delivered himself our own tried in vain to place him; he

indulged in plenty of pleasant, if rather restlessly headlong sound, the

confessed incoherence of a happy mortal who had always many things “on,”

and who, while waiting at any moment for connections and consummations,

had fallen into the way of talking, as they said, all artlessly, and

a trifle more betrayingly, against time. He would always be having

appointments, and somehow of a high “romantic” order, to keep, and the

imperfect punctualities of others to wait for--though who would be of

a quality to make such a pampered personage wait very much our young

analyst could only enjoy asking himself. There were women who might be

of a quality--half a dozen of those perhaps, of those alone, about the

world; our friend was as sure of this, by the end of four minutes, as if

he knew all about it.

After saying he would send him the book the young Lord indeed dropped

that subject; he had asked where he might send it, and had had an “Oh,

I shall remember!” on John’s mention of an hotel; but he had made no

further dash into literature, and it was ten to one that this would be

the last the distinguished author might hear of the volume. Such again

was a note of these high existences--that made one content to ask

of them no whit of other consistency than that of carrying off the

particular occasion, whatever it might be, in a dazzle of amiability

and felicity and leaving _that_ as a sufficient trace of their passage.

Sought and achieved consistency was but an angular, a secondary motion;

compared with the air of complete freedom it might have an effect

of deformity. There was no placing this figure of radiant ease, for

Berridge, in any relation that didn’t appear not good enough--that is

among the relations that hadn’t been too good for Berridge himself. He

was all right where he was; the great Gloriani somehow made that law;

his house, with his supreme artistic position, was good enough for any

one, and to-night in especial there were charming people, more charming

than our friend could recall from any other scene, as the natural

train or circle, as he might say, of such a presence. For an instant he

thought he had got the face as a specimen of imperturbability watched,

with wonder, across the hushed rattle of roulette at Monte-Carlo; but

this quickly became as improbable as any question of a vulgar

_table d’hote_, or a steam-boat deck, or a herd of fellow-pilgrims

cicerone-led, or even an opera-box serving, during a performance, for

frame of a type observed from the stalls. One placed young gods and

goddesses only when one placed them on Olympus, and it met the case,

always, that they were of Olympian race, and that they glimmered

for one, at the best, through their silver cloud, like the visiting

apparitions in an epic.

This was brief and beautiful indeed till something happened that gave

it, for Berridge, on the spot, a prodigious extension--an extension

really as prodigious, after a little, as if he had suddenly seen the

silver clouds multiply and then the whole of Olympus presently open.

Music, breaking upon the large air, enjoined immediate attention, and in

a moment he was listening, with the rest of the company, to an eminent

tenor, who stood by the piano; and was aware, with it, that his

Englishman had turned away and that in the vast, rich, tapestried room

where, in spite of figures and objects so numerous, clear spaces, wide

vistas, and, as they might be called, becoming situations abounded,

there had been from elsewhere, at the signal of unmistakable song, a

rapid accession of guests. At first he but took this in, and the way

that several young women, for whom seats had been found, looked charming

in the rapt attitude; while even the men, mostly standing and grouped,

“composed,” in their stillness, scarce less impressively, under the sway

of the divine voice. It ruled the scene, to the last intensity, and yet

our young man’s fine sense found still a resource in the range of the

eyes, without sound or motion, while all the rest of consciousness was

held down as by a hand mailed in silver. It was better, in this way,

than the opera--John alertly thought of that: the composition sung might

be Wagnerian, but no Tristram, no Iseult, no Parsifal and, no Kundry of

them all could ever show, could ever “act” to the music, as our friend

had thus the power of seeing his dear contemporaries of either sex

(armoured _they_ so otherwise than in cheap Teutonic tinsel!) just

continuously and inscrutably sit to it.

It made, the whole thing together, an enchantment amid which he had in

truth, at a given moment, ceased to distinguish parts--so that he was

himself certainly at last soaring as high as the singer’s voice and

forgetting, in a lost gaze at the splendid ceiling, everything of the

occasion but what his intelligence poured into it. This, as happened,

was a flight so sublime that by the time he had dropped his eyes again

a cluster of persons near the main door had just parted to give way to a

belated lady who slipped in, through the gap made for her, and stood for

some minutes full in his view. It was a proof of the perfect hush that

no one stirred to offer her a seat, and her entrance, in her high

grace, had yet been so noiseless that she could remain at once immensely

exposed and completely unabashed. For Berridge, once more, if the scenic

show before him so melted into the music, here precisely might have

been the heroine herself advancing to the foot-lights at her cue. The

interest deepened to a thrill, and everything, at the touch of his

recognition of this personage, absolutely the most beautiful woman now

present, fell exquisitely together and gave him what he had been wanting

from the moment of his taking in his young Englishman.

It was there, the missing connection: her arrival had on the instant

lighted it by a flash. Olympian herself, supremely, divinely Olympian,

she had arrived, could _only_ have arrived, for the one person present

of really equal race, our young man’s late converser, whose flattering

demonstration might now stand for one of the odd extravagant forms taken

by nervous impatience. This charming, this dazzling woman had been one

member of the couple disturbed, to his intimate conviction, the autumn

previous, on his being pushed by the officials, at the last moment,

into a compartment of the train that was to take him from Cremona to

Mantua--where, failing a stop, he had had to keep his place. The other

member, by whose felt but unseized identity he had been haunted, was

the unconsciously insolent form of guaranteed happiness he had just been

engaged with. The sense of the admirable intimacy that, having taken

its precautions, had not reckoned with his irruption--this image had

remained with him; to say nothing of the interest of aspect of the

associated figures, so stamped somehow with rarity, so beautifully

distinct from the common occupants of padded corners, and yet on the

subject of whom, for the romantic structure he was immediately to raise,

he had not had a scrap of evidence.

If he had imputed to them conditions it was all his own doing: it came

from his inveterate habit of abysmal imputation, the snatching of the

ell wherever the inch peeped out, without which where would have been

the tolerability of life? It didn’t matter now what he had imputed--and

he always held that his expenses of imputation were, at the worst, a

compliment to those inspiring them. It only mattered that each of the

pair had been then what he really saw each now--full, that is, of the

pride of their youth and beauty and fortune and freedom, though at

the same time particularly preoccupied: preoccupied, that is, with the

affairs, and above all with the passions, of Olympus. Who had they been,

and what? Whence had they come, whither were they bound, what tie united

them, what adventure engaged, what felicity, tempered by what peril,

magnificently, dramatically attended? These had been his questions, all

so inevitable and so impertinent, at the time, and to the exclusion of

any scruples over his not postulating an inane honeymoon, his not taking

the “tie,” as he should doubtless properly have done, for the mere blest

matrimonial; and he now retracted not one of them, flushing as they did

before him again with their old momentary life. To feel his two friends

renewedly in presence--friends of the fleeting hour though they had but

been, and with whom he had exchanged no sign save the vaguest of salutes

on finally relieving them of his company--was only to be conscious that

he hadn’t, on the spot, done them, so to speak, half justice, and that,

for his superior entertainment, there would be ever so much more of them

to come.

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