Nothing stops when we stop for a time, or for all time, except
ourselves. Everything else goes on--not in the same way; but it does go
on. Life did not stop at St. Saviour’s after Jean Jacques made his exit.
Slowly the ruined mill rose up again, and very slowly indeed the widow
of Palass Poucette recovered her spirits, though she remained a widow
in spite of all appeals; but M. Fille and his sister never were the same
after they lost their friend. They had great comfort in the dog
which Jean Jacques had given to them, and they roused themselves to a
malicious pleasure when Bobon, as he had been called by Zoe, rushed out
at the heels of an importunate local creditor who had greatly worried
Jean Jacques at the last. They waited in vain for a letter from Jean
Jacques, but none came; nor did they hear anything from him, or of him,
for a long, long time.
Jean Jacques did not mean that they should. When he went away with his
book of philosophy and his canary he had but one thing in his mind, and
that was to find Zoe and make her understand that he knew he had been
in the wrong. He had illusions about starting life again, in which he
probably did not believe; but the make-believe was good for him. Long
before the crash came, in Zoe’s name--not his own--he had bought from
the Government three hundred and twenty acres of land out near the
Rockies and had spent five hundred dollars in improvements on it.
There it was in the West, one remaining asset still his own--or rather
Zoe’s--but worth little if he or she did not develop it. As he left St.
Saviour’s, however, he kept fixing his mind on that “last domain,” as he
called it to himself. If this was done intentionally, that he might be
saved from distraction and despair, it was well done; if it was a real
illusion--the old self-deception which had been his bane so often in the
past--it still could only do him good at the present. It prevented him
from noticing the attention he attracted on the railway journey from St.
Saviour’s to Montreal, cherishing his canary and his book as he went.
He was not so self-conscious now as in the days when he was surprised
that Paris did not stop to say, “Bless us, here is that fine fellow,
Jean Jacques Barbille of St. Saviour’s!” He could concentrate himself
more now on things that did not concern the impression he was making on
the world. At present he could only think of Zoe and of her future.
When a patronizing and aggressive commercial traveller in the little
hotel on a side-street where he had taken a room in Montreal said to
him, “Bien, mon vieux” (which is to say, “Well, old cock”), “aren’t
you a long way from home?” something of a new dignity came into Jean
Jacques’ bearing, very different from the assurance of the old days, and
in reply he said:
“Not so far that I need be careless about my company.” This made the
landlady of the little hotel laugh quite hard, for she did not like the
braggart “drummer” who had treated her with great condescension for a
number of years. Also Madame Glozel liked Jean Jacques because of his
canary. She thought there must be some sentimental reason for a man of
fifty or more carrying a bird about with him; and she did not rest
until she had drawn from Jean Jacques that he was taking the bird to his
daughter in the West. There, however, madame was stayed in her search
for information. Jean Jacques closed up, and did but smile when she
adroitly set traps for him, and at last asked him outright where his
daughter was.
Why he waited in Montreal it would be hard to say, save that it was a
kind of middle place between the old life and the new, and also because
he must decide what was to be his plan of search. First the West--first
Winnipeg, but where after that? He had at last secured information of
where Zoe and Gerard Fynes had stayed while in Montreal; and now he
followed clues which would bring him in touch with folk who knew them.
He came to know one or two people who were with Zoe and Gerard in the
last days they spent in the metropolis, and he turned over and over in
his mind every word said about his girl, as a child turns a sweetmeat in
its mouth. This made him eager to be off; but on the very day he decided
to start at once for the West, something strange happened.
It was towards the late afternoon of a Saturday, when the streets were
full of people going to and from the shops in a marketing quarter, that
Madame Glozel came to him and said:
“M’sieu’, I have an idea, and you will not think it strange, for you
have a kind heart. There is a woman--look you, it is a sad, sad story
hers. She is ill and dying in a room a little way down the street. But
yes, I am sure she is dying--of heart disease it is. She came here first
when the illness took her, but she could not afford to stay. She went to
those cheaper lodgings down the street. She used to be on the stage over
in the States, and then she came back here, and there was a man--married
to him or not I do not know, and I will not think. Well, the man--the
brute--he left her when she got ill--but yes, forsook her absolutely! He
was a land-agent or something like that, and all very fine to your face,
to promise and to pretend--just make-believe. When her sickness got
worse, off he went with ‘Au revoir, my dear--I will be back to supper.’
Supper! If she’d waited for her supper till he came back, she’d have
waited as long as I’ve done for the fortune the gipsy promised me forty
years ago. Away he went, the rogue, without a thought of her, and with
another woman. That’s what hurt her most of all. Straight from her that
could hardly drag herself about--ah, yes, and has been as handsome a
woman as ever was!--straight from her he went to a slut. She was a slut,
m’sieu’--did I not know her? Did Ma’m’selle Slut not wait at table in
this house and lead the men a dance here night and day-day and night
till I found it out! Well, off he went with the slut, and left the lady
behind.... You men, you treat women so.”
Jean Jacques put out a hand as though to argue with her. “Sometimes it
is the other way,” he retorted. “Most of us have seen it like that.”
“Well, for sure, you’re right enough there, m’sieu’,” was the response.
“I’ve got nothing to say to that, except that it’s a man that runs away
with a woman, or that gets her to leave her husband when she does go.
There’s always a man that says, ‘Come along, I’m the better chap for
you.’”
Jean Jacques wearily turned his head away towards the cage where his
canary was beginning to pipe its evening lay.
“It all comes to the same thing in the end,” he said pensively; and then
he who had been so quiet since he came to the little hotel--Glozel’s, it
was called--began to move about the room excitedly, running his fingers
through his still bushy hair, which, to his credit, was always as clean
as could be, burnished and shiny even at his mid-century period. He
began murmuring to himself, and a frown settled on his fore head. Mme.
Glozel saw that she had perturbed him, and that no doubt she had roused
some memories which made sombre the sunny little room where the canary
sang; where, to ravish the eyes of the pessimist, was a picture of Louis
XVI. going to heaven in the arms of St. Peter.
When started, however, the good woman could no more “slow down” than her
French pony would stop when its head was turned homewards from market.
So she kept on with the history of the woman down the street.
“Heart disease,” she said, nodding with assurance and finality; “and we
know what that is--a start, a shock, a fall, a strain, and pht! off the
poor thing goes. Yes, heart disease, and sometimes with such awful pain.
But so; and yesterday she told me she had only a hundred dollars left.
‘Enough to last me through,’ she said to me. Poor thing, she lifted up
her eyes with a way she has, as if looking for something she couldn’t
find, and she says, as simple as though she was asking about the price
of a bed-tick, ‘It won’t cost more than fifty dollars to bury me, I
s’pose?’ Well, that made me squeamish, for the poor dear’s plight came
home to me so clear, and she young enough yet to get plenty out of life,
if she had the chance. So I asked her again about her people--whether I
couldn’t send for someone belonging to her. ‘There’s none that belongs
to me,’ she says, ‘and there’s no one I belong to.’
“I thought very likely she didn’t want to tell me about herself; perhaps
because she had done wrong, and her family had not been good to her.
Yet it was right I should try and get her folks to come, if she had any
folks. So I said to her, ‘Where was your home?’ And now, what do you
think she answered, m’sieu’?’ ‘Look there,’ she said to me, with her
big eyes standing out of her head almost--for that’s what comes to her
sometimes when she is in pain, and she looks more handsome then than at
any other time--‘Look there,’ she said to me, ‘it was in heaven, that’s
where--my home was; but I didn’t know it. I hadn’t been taught to know
the place when I saw it.’
“Well, I felt my skin go goosey, for I saw what was going on in her
mind, and how she was remembering what had happened to her some time,
somewhere; but there wasn’t a tear in her eyes, and I never saw her
cry-never once, m’sieu’--well, but as brave as brave. Her eyes are
always dry--burning. They’re like two furnaces scorching up her face. So
I never found out her history, and she won’t have the priest. I believe
that’s because she wants to die unknown, and doesn’t want to confess. I
never saw a woman I was sorrier for, though I think she wasn’t married
to the man that left her. But whatever she was, there’s good in her--I
haven’t known hundreds of women and had seven sisters for nothing. Well,
there she is--not a friend near her at the last; for it’s coming soon,
the end--no one to speak to her, except the woman she pays to come in
and look after her and nurse her a bit. Of course there’s the landlady
too, Madame Popincourt, a kind enough little cricket of a woman, but
with no sense and no head for business. And so the poor sick thing has
not a single pleasure in the world. She can’t read, because it makes her
head ache, she says; and she never writes to any one. One day she tried
to sing a little, but it seemed to hurt her, and she stopped before she
had begun almost. Yes, m’sieu’, there she is without a single pleasure
in the long hours when she doesn’t sleep.”
“There’s my canary--that would cheer her up,” eagerly said Jean Jacques,
who, as the story of the chirruping landlady continued, became master of
his agitation, and listened as though to the tale of some life for which
he had concern. “Yes, take my canary to her, madame. It picked me up
when I was down. It’ll help her--such a bird it is! It’s the best singer
in the world. It’s got in its throat the music of Malibran and Jenny
Lind and Grisi, and all the stars in heaven that sang together. Also,
to be sure, it doesn’t charge anything, but just as long as there’s
daylight it sings and sings, as you know.”
“M’sieu’--oh, m’sieu’, it was what I wanted to ask you, and I didn’t
dare!” gushingly declared madame. “I never heard a bird sing like
that--just as if it knew how much good it was doing, and with all the
airs of a grand seigneur. It’s a prince of birds, that. If you mean it,
m’sieu’, you’ll do as good a thing as you have ever done.”
“It would have to be much better, or it wouldn’t be any use,” remarked
Jean Jacques.
The woman made a motion of friendliness with both hands. “I don’t
believe that. You may be queer, but you’ve got a kind eye. It won’t be
for long she’ll need the canary, and it will cheer her. There certainly
was never a bird so little tied to one note. Now this note, now that,
and so amusing. At times it’s as though he was laughing at you.”
“That’s because, with me for his master, he has had good reason to
laugh,” remarked Jean Jacques, who had come at last to take a despondent
view of himself.
“That’s bosh,” rejoined Mme. Glozel; “I’ve seen several people odder
than you.”
She went over to the cage eagerly, and was about to take it away.
“Excuse me,” interposed Jean Jacques, “I will carry the cage to the
house. Then you will go in with the bird, and I’ll wait outside and see
if the little rascal sings.”
“This minute?” asked madame.
“For sure, this very minute. Why should the poor lady wait? It’s a
lonely time of day, this, the evening, when the long night’s ahead.”
A moment later the two were walking along the street to the door of
Mme. Popincourt’s lodgings, and people turned to look at the pair, one
carrying something covered with a white cloth, evidently a savoury dish
of some kind--the other with a cage in which a handsome canary hopped
about, well pleased with the world.
At Mme. Popincourt’s door Mme. Glozel took the cage and went upstairs.
Jean Jacques, left behind, paced backwards and forwards in front of the
house waiting and looking up, for Mme. Glozel had said that behind the
front window on the third floor was where the sick woman lived. He had
not long to wait. The setting sun shining full on the window had roused
the bird, and he began to pour out a flood of delicious melody which
flowed on and on, causing the people in the street to stay their steps
and look up. Jean Jacques’ face, as he listened, had something very like
a smile. There was that in the smile belonging to the old pride, which
in days gone by had made him say when he looked at his domains at the
Manor Cartier--his houses, his mills, his store, his buildings and his
lands--“It is all mine. It all belongs to Jean Jacques Barbille.”
Suddenly, however, there came a sharp pause in the singing, and after
that a cry--a faint, startled cry. Then Mme. Glozel’s head was thrust
out of the window three floors up, and she called to Jean Jacques to
come quickly. As she bade him come, some strange premonition flashed
to Jean Jacques, and with thumping heart he hastened up the staircase.
Outside a bedroom door, Mme. Glozel met him. She was so excited she
could only whisper.
“Be very quiet,” she said. “There is something strange. When the bird
sang as it did--you heard it--she sat like one in a trance. Then her
face took on a look glad and frightened too, and she stared hard at the
cage. ‘Bring that cage to me,’ she said. I brought it. She looked sharp
at it, then she gave a cry and fell back. As I took the cage away I saw
what she had been looking at--a writing at the bottom of the cage. It
was the name Carmen.”
With a stifled cry Jean Jacques pushed her aside and entered the
room. As he did so, the sick woman in the big armchair, so pale yet
so splendid in her death-beauty, raised herself up. With eyes that
Francesca might have turned to the vision of her fate, she looked at the
opening door, as though to learn if he who came was one she had wished
to see through long, relentless days.
“Jean Jacques--ah, my beautiful Jean Jacques!” she cried out presently
in a voice like a wisp of sound, for she had little breath; and then
with a smile she sank back, too late to hear, but not too late to know,
what Jean Jacques said to her.