Out in the woods the leaves that rustled so bravely when we shuffled
our feet through them last fall are sodden and matted. It is warm in the
woods, for the sun strikes down through the bare branches, and the cold
wind is fended off. The fleshy lances of the spring beauty have stabbed
upward through the mulch, and a tiny cup, delicately veined with pink,
hangs its head bashfully. Anemones on brown wire stems aspire without
a leaf, and in moist patches are May pinks, the trailing arbutus of the
grown-ups. As we carry home a bunch, the heads all lopping every way
like the heads of strangled babies, we can almost hear behind us in the
echoing forests a long, heart-broken moan, as of Rachel mourning for
her children, and will not be comforted because they are not. The wild
flowers don't look so pretty in the tin cups of water as they did back
in the woods. There is something cheap and common about them. Throw 'em
out. The poor plants that planned through all the ages how to attract
the first smart insects of the season, and trick them into setting
the seeds for next years' flowers did not reckon that these very means
whereby they hoped to rear a family would prove their undoing at the
hands of those who plume themselves a little on their refinement, they
“are so fond of flowers.”
Old Winter hates to give up that he is beaten. It's a funny thing, but
when you hear a person sing, “Good-a-by, Summer, good-a-by, good-a-by,”
you always feel kind of sad and sorry. It's going, the time of year when
you can stay out of doors most of the time, when you can go in swimming,
and the Sunday-school picnic, and the circus, and play base-ball and
camp out, and there's no school, and everything nice, and watermelons,
and all like that. Good-by, good-by, and you begin to sniff a little.
The departure of summer is dignified and even splendid, but the earth
looks so sordid and draggle-trailed when winter goes, that onions could
not bring a tear. Old winter likes to tease. Aha! You thought I
was gone, did you? “Not yet, my child, not yet!” And he sends us
huckleberry-colored clouds from the northwest, from which snow-flakes
big as copper cents solemnly waggle down, as if they really expected
the schoolboy to shout: “It snows! Hurrah!” and makes his shout heard
through parlor and hall. But they only leave a few dark freckles on the
garden beds. Alas, yes! There is no light without its shadow, no joy
without its sorrow tagging after. It isn't all marbles and play in the
gladsome springtide. Bub has not only to spade up the garden--there is
some sense in that--but he has to dig up the flower beds, and help his
mother set out her footy, trifling plants.
The robins have come back, our robins that nest each spring in the old
seek-no-further. To the boy grunting over the spading-fork presents
himself Cock Robin. “How about it? Hey? All right? Hey?” he seems
to ask, cocking his head, and flipping out the curt inquiries
with tail-jerks. Glad of any excuse to stop work, the boy stands
statue-still, while Mr. Robin drags from the upturned clods the long,
elastic fish-worms, and then with a brief “Chip!” flashes out of sight.
Be right still now. Don't move. Here he comes again, and his wife with
him. They fly down, he all eager and alert to wait upon her, she whining
and scolding. She doesn't think it's much of a place for worms. And
there's that boy yonder. He's up to some devilment or other, she just
knows. She oughtn't to have come away and left those eggs. They'll get
cold now, she just knows they will. Anything might happen to them when
she 's away, and then he 'll be to blame, for he coaxed her. He knows
she told him she didn't want to come. But he would have it. For half a
cent she'd go back right now. And, Heavens above! Is he going to be all
'day picking up a few little worms?
She cannot finish her sentences for her gulps, for he is tamping down
in her insides the reluctant angleworms that do not want to die, two
or three writhing in his bill at once, until he looks like Jove's
eagle with its mouth full of thunderbolts. And all the time he is
chip-chipping and flirting his tail, and saying: “How's that? All right?
Hey? Here's another. How's that? All right? Hey? Open now. Like that?
Here's one. Oh, a beaut! Here's two fat ones? Great? Hey? Here y' go.
Touch the spot? Hey? More? Sure Mike. Lots of 'em. Wide now. Boss. Hey?
Wait a second--yes, honey. In a second.... I got him. Here's the kind
you like. Oh, yes, do. Do take one more. Oh, you better.”
“D' ye think I'm made o' rubber?” she snaps at him. “I know I'll have
indigestion, and you'll be to bla--Mercy land! Them eggs!” and she
gathers up her skirts and flits. He escorts her gallantly, but returns
to pick a few for himself, and to cock his head knowingly at the boy,
as much as to say: “Man of family, by Ned. Or--or soon will be. Oh, yes,
any minute now, any minute.”
And if I remember rightly, he even winks at the boy with a wink whose
full significance the boy does not learn till many years after when
it dawns upon him that it meant: “You got to make allowances for 'em.
Especially at such a time. All upset, you know, and worried. Oh, yes.
You got to; you got to make allowances for 'em.”
Day by day the air grows balmier and softer on the cheek. Out in the
garden, ranks of yellow-green pikes stand stiffly at “Present.
Hump!” and rosettes of the same color crumple through the warm soil,
unconsciously preparing for a soul tragedy. For an evening will come
when a covered dish will be upon the supper-table, and when the cover is
taken off, a subtle fragrance will betray, if the sense of sight do not,
that the chopped-up lettuces and onions are in a marsh of cider vinegar,
demanding to be eaten. And your big sister will squall out in comic
distress: “Oh, ma! You are too mean for anything! Why did you have 'em
tonight? I told you Mr. Dellabaugh was going to call, and you know how I
love spring onions! Well, I don't care. I'm just going to, anyhow.”
Things come with such a rush now, it is hard to tell what happens in
its proper order. The apple-trees blossom out like pop-corn over the hot
coals. The Japan quince repeats its farfamed imitation of the Burning
Bush of Moses; the flowering currants are strung with knobs of vivid
yellow fringe; the dead grass from the front yard, the sticks and stalks
and old tomato vines, the bits of rag and the old bones that Guess has
gnawed upon are burning in the alley, and the tormented smoke is darting
this way and that, trying to get out from under the wind that seeks to
flatten it to the ground. All this is spring, and--and yet it isn't. The
word is not yet spoken that sets us free to live the outdoor life; we
are yet prisoners and captives of the house.
But, one day in school, the heat that yesterday was nice and cozy
becomes too dry and baking for endurance. The young ones come in from
recess red, not with the brilliant glow of winter, but a sort of scalded
red. They juke their heads forward to escape their collars' moist
embrace; they reach their hands back of them to pull their clinging
winter underwear away. They fan themselves with joggerfies, and puff
out: “Phew!” and look pleadingly at the shut windows. One boy, bolder
than his fellows, moans with a suffering lament: “Miss Daniels, cain't
we have the windows open? It's awful hot!” Frightful dangers lurk in
draughts. Fresh air will kill folks. So, not until the afternoon is the
prayer answered. Then the outer world, so long excluded, enters once
more the school-room life. The mellifluous crowing of distant roosters,
the rhythmic creaking of a thirsty pump, the rumble of a loaded wagon,
the clinking of hammers at the blacksmith shop, the whistle of No. 3
away below town, all blend together in the soft spring air into one
lulling harmony.
Winter's alert activity is gone. Who cares for grades and standings now?
The girls, that always are so smart, gape lazily, and stare at vacancy
wishing.... They don't know what they wish, but if He had a lot of
money, why, then they could help the poor, and all like that, and have a
new dress every day.
James Sackett--his real name is Jim Bag, but teacher calls him James
Sackett--has his face set toward: “A farmer sold 16 2-3 bu. wheat for
66 7-8 c. per bu.; 19 2-9 bu. oats for,” etc., etc., but his soul is
far away in Cummins's woods, where there is a robbers' cave that he, and
Chuck Higgins, and Bunt Rogers, and Turkey-egg McLaughlin are going
to dig Saturday afternoons when the chores are done. They are going
to--Here Miss Daniels should slip up behind him and snap his ear, but
she, too, is far away in spirit. Her beau is coming after supper to take
her buggy-riding. She wonders.... She wonders.... Will she have to teach
again next fall? She wonders....
Wait. Wait but a moment. A subtle change is coming.
The rim of the revolving year has a brighter and a darker half, a joyous
and a somber half, Autumnal splendors cannot cheer the melancholy that
we feel when summer goes from us, but when summer comes again the heart
leaps up in glee to meet it. Wait but a moment now. Wait.
The distant woodland swims in an amethystine haze. A long and fluting
note, honey-sweet as it were blown upon a bottle, comes to us from far.
It is the turtle-dove. The blood beats in our ears. Arise, my love, my
fair one, and come away.
So gentle it can scarce be felt, a waft of air blows over us, the first
sweet breath of summer. A veil of faint and subtle perfume drifts around
us. The vines with the tender grape give a good smell. And evermore as
its enchantment is cast about us we are as once we were when first we
came beneath its spell; we are by the smokehouse at the old home place;
we stand in shoes whose copper toes wink and glitter in the sunlight,
a gingham apron sways in the soft breeze, and on the green, upspringing
turf dances the shadow of a tasseled cap. Life was all before us then.
Please God, it is not all behind us now. Please God, our best and wisest
days are yet to come the days when we shall do the work that is worthy
of us. Dear one, mother of my children here and Yonder--and Yonder--the
best and wisest days are yet to come. Arise, my love, my fair one, and
come away.