HALTING BETWEEN TWO OPINIONS.

There was no mistaking the doctor's meaning this time. Sharpe's had had

a long rope, but had come to the end of it at last. I would not for the

world have confessed it at the time, but I was half glad a crisis had

come. My conscience had smitten me more than once about my work. I had

fooled away the good chance with which I had entered Low Heath. Fellows

far below me in scholarship had got ahead of me by force of steady

plodding, while I was wasting my time. The good resolutions which I had

brought up with me had one by one fallen overboard, and I had been

content enough to take my place among the rowdies without an effort.

I had counted all through on Tempest's backing up. If he had been keen

on the credit of the house, I felt I could have been so too. If he had

been down on me for my neglect of work, I felt I should have stuck to

it. As it was, slackness reigned supreme. Tempest was slack because he

was out of humour. Pridgin was slack because he was lazy. Wales was

slack because he wanted to be in the fashion. And all of us were slack

because our betters set us the example. It needs no little courage for

a single boy to attempt to stem the drift of slackness in a school

house. A dull, dogged boy like Dicky Brown might have done it; but I

could not afford to be peculiar, and therefore succumbed, against my

judgment, to the prevalent dry rot.

Now that a crisis had come I hoped Tempest might, if not for his own

sake, for ours, pull up, and take his house in hand, as he well could do

if he chose. A short conversation I overheard as I was fagging in his

study that morning, however, was not encouraging.

"What's it to be," said Wales, "a lecture or a row?"

"A row, I hope," said Tempest wearily.

"What's wrong, old chap?" asked Pridgin.

"Nothing. Out of curl, that's all," said Tempest, trying to assume a

laugh.

"You're not going to cave in to Jarman at this time of day," said Wales,

"are you?"

"Do you think it likely?" said Tempest.

"I tell you what I don't like," said Pridgin presently; "that's the way

Crofter's lately taken to do the virtuous."

"That's not the worst of him," said Wales; "but he's been chumming up

with Jarman. I've met them twice lately walking together."

"I suppose he's got his eye on the headship of the house," said Tempest,

"when I get kicked out."

"Look here, old chap," responded Pridgin, looking really anxious, "it's

not to come to that, surely. It would be intolerable to have him over

us. Come what will, you must stick to us."

"All very well," said Tempest dismally; "that's England's affair more

than mine. If knuckling under to Jarman is a condition, I'm out of it,

and Crofter is welcome to it."

This was all; and it was bad enough. When the summons to assemble in

hall came, I went there in a state of dejection, feeling that the fates

were all against me, and that the new leaf I hoped for was several pages

further on yet.

My fellow-Philosophers, I regret to say, neither shared in nor

appreciated my forebodings.

"Look at that ass Sarah, trying to look virtuous," said Trimble. "Just

like him, when there's a row on."

"I'm not trying to look virtuous," said I; "I'm sick of all these rows,

though."

"Pity you aren't sick when you're getting us into them, instead of

after. You know you've been at the bottom of every row there's been on

this term."

This sweeping statement was not calculated to allay my discomfort.

"Don't tell lies," said I.

"No more we are. Who got us into that mess at Camp Hill Bottom? Sarah

did. Who landed us in the row about Jarman's guy? Old Sarah. Who

played the fool with that barge and got us all licked? Cad Sarah. Who

started the shindy last night that's fetched us all in here? Lout

Sarah. Who's going to be expelled? Howling Sarah. And who'll be a

jolly good riddance of bad rubbish? Chimpanzee Sarah. There you are.

Make what you like of it, and don't talk to us."

This tirade took my breath away. I knew it said more than it meant.

Still, it wasn't flattering, and it taxed my affection sorely to sit

quietly and hear it out. But, somehow, to-day I was too anxious and

worried to care much what anybody said.

Fortunately the entrance of the doctor, Mr Sharpe, and Mr Jarman, made

further discussion for the time being unnecessary--and a gloomy silence

fell over the assembly.

Dr England was evidently worried. Secretly, I believe, he was bored

by the whole affair, and wished Mr Sharpe and his prefects could manage

the affairs of their own house. Perhaps, too, the fact that Mr Jarman

was once more the complainant had something to do with his lack of

humour.

"Now, boys," said he, "this is an unusual and unpleasant interview, and

I heartily wish it were not necessary. When a whole house is reported

for rowdiness, it shows, I'm afraid, that the sense of duty to the

school is in a bad way. This is not the first occasion this term on

which this house has been reported, but I have previously refrained from

interfering, in the hope that the good feeling of the boys themselves

would assert itself and make any action of mine unnecessary. I am sorry

it has not been so. As to the scrimmage in the quadrangle yesterday, I

am not disposed to make too much of that; at any rate, that weighs less

with me than what I understand to have been a deliberate act of

disobedience to the master, who quite properly interfered to restore

order; disobedience, I am sorry to say, encouraged, if not instigated,

by the head boy of the house. I hope there may be some mistake about

this. Will the boys who were engaged in the fight stand up?"

The Philosophers rose to a man, with a promptitude which was almost

aggressive. Bother it all, why should we be backward in admitting that

we had gone for those day boys, and "put them to bed" for once?

"I ask you boys to say whether you heard Mr Jarman tell you to wait

till he spoke to you?"

"I did, sir," said Langrish.

"So did I," said Trimble.

"We all did," said I.

"And why did you not obey?"

"Tempest told us to come in, so we did," said I.

"That's right, sir," said Coxhead.

And the others assented.

"Very well," said the doctor. "Tempest, I ask you to say whether you

heard Mr Jarman tell the boys to wait?"

"Yes, sir."

"And did you tell them, in spite of that, to come in?"

"Yes, sir."

"Why?"

"Because I'm head of the house, and I'm responsible for the order of my

house."

"I am glad to hear you think so," said the doctor drily. "Have you

always been equally jealous for the order of your house this term,

Tempest?"

This was a "facer," as we all felt. Tempest flushed and glanced up at

the head master.

"No, sir, I have not," he said.

The doctor was a chivalrous man, and did not try to rub in a sore.

Tempest had made a damaging admission against himself, and might be left

alone to his own sense of discomfort.

Unluckily, however, Mr Jarman stood by, and the matter could hardly be

allowed to drop.

"As regards the incident last night," said the doctor, "you know quite

well, all of you, that no boy, even the head of his house, has the right

to set his authority against that of a master. Your conduct was an

insult to him, and requires an apology. These small boys may have

considered they were not doing wrong in obeying you. Tempest, but you

can plead no such ignorance. I expect you to apologise to Mr Jarman."

A struggle evidently passed through Tempest's mind. His conscience had

been roused by what the doctor had said, and his manner of saying it.

Had the apology been demanded for any one else but Mr Jarman, he could

have given it, and in one word have put himself on the side of duty.

But apologise to Jarman! "If Mr Jarman wants me to tell a lie," said

he, slowly, "I'll say I'm sorry. I can't apologise to him."

"Come, Tempest," said the doctor, evidently disconcerted at this

threatened difficulty, "you must be aware of the consequences, if you

refuse to do this."

"I know, sir, but I can't help it. I can't apologise to Mr Jarman."

Dead silence followed, broken only by the hard breathing of the

Philosophers. The doctor twirled the tassel of his cap restlessly. Mr

Sharpe looked straight before him through his glasses. Mr Jarman

stroked his moustache and smiled. Tempest stood pale and determined,

with his eyes on the floor.

"I shall not prolong this scene," said the doctor at last. "For the

remaining week of this term the boys concerned in yesterday's

disturbance are forbidden to appear in the playing fields. You,

Tempest, will have a day to think over your determination. Come to me

in my house this time to-morrow."

"I'd sooner it were settled now," said Tempest respectfully and

dismally. "I cannot apologise."

"Come to me this time to-morrow," repeated the doctor. "As to the other

boys of the house, I want you to understand that you are all concerned

in the wellbeing of your house. If, as I fear, a spirit of

insubordination is on foot, and your own proper spirit and loyalty to

the school is not enough to stamp it out, I must use methods which I

have never had to use yet in Low Heath. It may need courage and self-

sacrifice in a boy to stand up against the prevailing tone, but I trust

there is some of that left even in this misguided house. Now dismiss."

It had been a memorable interview. The doctor might have stormed and

raged, and done nothing. As it was, he had talked like a quiet

gentleman, and made us all thoroughly ashamed of ourselves.

And yet, as we all of us felt, everything now depended on Tempest. If

he surrendered he might count on us to fall in line and make up to him

for all he had sacrificed on our behalf. If he held out, and refused

his chance, we _too_ refused ours and went out with him! If only any

one could have brought home to him how much depended on him!

Yet who could blame him for finding it impossible to apologise to

Jarman, who had persecuted him all the term with a petty rancour which,

so far from deserving apology, had to thank Tempest's moderation that it

did not receive much rougher treatment than it had? He might go through

the words of apology, but it would be a farce, and Tempest was too

honest to be a hypocrite.

There was unwonted quiet in Sharpe's house that afternoon. Fellows were

too eagerly speculating as to the fate in store for them to venture on a

riot. The Philosophers, of course, stoutly advocated a policy of "no

surrender"; but one or two of us, I happened to know, would have been

unfeignedly glad to hear that Tempest had squared matters with his

pride, and left himself free to take our reform in hand.

Tempest himself preserved a glum silence until after afternoon chapel,

when he said to me,--

"Isn't this one of Redwood's evenings, youngster? I'll go with you if

you're going."

The Redwoods had given me an open invitation to drop in any Thursday

evening to tea and bring a friend. I had been several times with Dicky,

and once, in great triumph, had taken Tempest as my guest. It had been

a most successful experiment. Not only had Tempest taken the two little

girls (and therefore their mother) by storm, but between him and Redwood

had sprung up an unexpected friendship, born of mutual admiration and

confidence. Since then he had once repeated the visit, and to-night, to

my great satisfaction, proposed to go again.

To me it was a miniature triumph to carry off the hero of Sharpe's from

under the eyes of his house, and on an occasion like the present, to a

destination of which he and I alone knew the secret.

I flattered myself that, in spite of their mocking comments, the

Philosophers were bursting with envy. It is always a rare luxury to be

envied by a Philosopher; and I think I duly appreciated my blessings,

and showed it in the swagger with which I marched my man under the

faggery window.

Tempest was depressingly gloomy as we walked along, and my gentle

reminder that we could not take the short cut across the playing fields,

after the doctor's prohibition, but should have to walk round, did not

tend to cheer him up. I half feared he would propose to walk over, in

defiance of all consequences. Possibly, if he had been alone, he would

have done so, but on my account he made a grudging concession to law and

order.

At the Redwoods', however, he cheered up at once. He received a royal

welcome from the little girls--in marked contrast to Miss Mamie's sulky

reception of me as the destroyer of her nice sash. Redwood himself was

delighted to see him, and the family tea was quite a merry one.

When we adjourned to the captain's "den" afterwards I was decidedly out

of it. Indeed, it was broadly hinted to me that the little girls

downstairs were anxious for some one to teach them "consequences"; would

I mind?

Considering there was no game I detested more than "consequences," and

no young ladies less open to instruction than the Misses Redwood, I did

not jump at the offer. It was evident, however, Tempest and Redwood

wanted to talk, and with a vague sense that by leaving them to do so I

was somehow acting for the benefit of Low Heath, I sacrificed myself,

and sat down to assist in the usual composite stories; how, for

instance, the square Dr England met the mealy-faced Sarah (the little

girls knew my nickname as well as the Philosophers) up a tree. He said

to her, "We must part for ever;" she (that is I) said to him, "My ma

shall know of this;" the consequence was that there was a row, and the

world said, "It's all up."

In present circumstances these occult narratives were full of serious

meaning for me, and my thoughts were far more with the two seniors above

than with the two exacting female juniors below. However, the time

passed, and presently Tempest's "Come along, youngster," apprised me

that the hour of release had come.

Redwood walked back with us, and from certain fragments of conversation

which fell on my ears I was able to gather something of the result of

the conference.

"If it were only yourself, you know," said Redwood, "I'd say stick out."

"But," said Tempest, "he knows I'm not sorry, even if I say so."

"It's a choice between humble pie and Low Heath losing you," said the

captain.

"Not much loss."

"That's all you know. There's not a fellow we could spare less."

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