A CONSULTATION WITH LOTTIE.
Directly after she was gone, Lottie came back, and, closing the door,
bolted it inside and stole up to my bed on tiptoe. She looked pale and
frightened, but her eyes shone through the shadows that had suddenly
settled around them, and she moved like a hound doubling on its prey.
"Miss Hyde," she said, "just listen while you have time; that red
Babylon has gone and done it. I've had my hands full all day scooting
about among the wet bushes, and holding my breath behind
window-shutters. Now, would you believe it? I've been two hull hours
squinched up in that big rosewood book-case with the green silk lining;
for them new painted winders in the tower library are the most
aggravating things to one as wants to keep her eyes open. Thanks be to
goodness! the new books haven't arrived, and I should have had lots of
room if human beings had been built flat. As it was, I got along by
holding in my breath and bowing the doors a trifle."
"But what did you go into the book-case for, Lottie?" I inquired,
anxious to bring her to some point in her communication.
"What did I go into the book-case for? Why, only to hear what was going
on in that room, to be sure. Wasn't that Mr. Lawrence and Mrs. Babylon
there, sitting on the sofa together two hull hours?"
"And you listened to the conversation?"
"In course I did."
She seemed waiting for me to ask more questions, but I could not force
myself thus indirectly to partake in a dishonorable act.
"You won't ask what they said, and yet are a-dying to know, any fool can
see that. Well, thanks be to goodness! I ain't a lady, and if I was, for
_her_ sake I'd do worse things than that; my ears were made to hear
with, and I ain't going to fight agin nature."
"But you came to see me for something, Lottie?"
"Certainly I did. But how is one to tell things without talking right
out? Well, if you won't ask what I heard in the book-case, I must tell
you promiscuous. This she-sarpent has about done up your business for
you, as she means to for me and the rest of 'em before long."
"Done my business for me, Lottie! What does that mean? I do not
understand."
"Likely enough; but I'll tell you; Babylon is in love with Mr.
Lawrence."
"I wish from my heart he'd marry her," I thought.
"But she won't have him," said Lottie, as if answering my thought. "At
any rate, not yet."
"Well, well, Lottie, tell me what brings you here? My head aches."
"So does mine," said Lottie, lifting a hand to her head, and pressing
her forehead hard with the palm. "Well, Miss Hyde, a little while ago,
Mr. Lee and Mrs. Babylon were sitting on the platform under this very
window. It was just after the rain, and they happened to meet as he was
coming out to enjoy the sunshine. I happened in the same way to be
dusting the sofa close by the window, and it took me a good while. Don't
put up your hand, Miss Hyde, you'd 'a' listened yourself. She was
talking about you."
"About me?"
"Yes. I can't give the words; but she was saying, in her silky way, that
Miss Jessie was so much altered since she met her at the sea-shore, so
obstinate and demonstrative, vulgarized, as one might say, if anything
so very beautiful could be vulgarized. But didn't Mr. Lee think that a
companion who followed her pupil into society was rather a drawback, and
apt to get a predominating influence over that of the parents? Was he
certain of Miss Jessie's friend,--of her prudence and disinterestedness?
Of course, she had no right to give an opinion: but when the time came
for a young lady to enter society, was there no reason to think that a
household companion, like Miss Hyde, might become a dangerous
counsellor? Of course, Mr. Lee knew best, his wisdom was never at fault;
but would not a companion, perfectly dependent, and who had some
experience in society, produce a better result?
"I wish you could 'a' seen Mr. Lee's face, Miss Hyde. He looked up all
of a sudden, and his eyes flashed fire; Babylon saw it, and looked down
as if butter wouldn't melt in her mouth; and then he took her hand in
his,--it wasn't the first time, Miss Hyde, I'd bet my head on that, for
it all came too easy--and I've seen what I have seen;--then he said how
difficult it was to find such a person,--one who was an ornament to
society, and yet willing to live in a place like that which Mrs. Lee's
illness made, in some sort, like a prison.
"She left her hand in his, and lifted her eyes to his face sideways--you
know how--and said a few words almost in a whisper. I couldn't catch the
first word, but he turned red as fire and lifted her hand to his lips,
almost; then he dropped it again and begged her pardon."
I had no power to stop Lottie's narrative. The import of this
conversation struck me with a sudden pang. It seemed as if sentence of
death had been pronounced upon me. What could I do? Where on earth was a
home like that to be found? What would Jessie and Mrs. Lee do without
me? That woman in my place! The thought was anguish. I almost hated her.
Lottie stood by the bed, looking at me, with trouble in her face.
"I knew that it would be a blow; but this is worse than I expected," she
said. "How white you are--how your lips quiver! But don't take on so.
Let them try it; let Babylon do her worst--she'll find her match. I've
learned a thing or two, since she came, that I didn't know
before,--especially how to droop your eyelids and look meek, then open
'em quick and flash out fire. It's taking, I've tried it with--with--"
"With whom, Lottie?"
"With--but no matter; when the birds sing, chickens have a right to
peep. Babylon isn't the only person who can turn a feller's head, and
good looks is according to one's taste. Then there's a difference in
flirting, when the object is a good one; don't you think so, Miss Hyde?"
"I don't know, Lottie," was my dreary answer; "you must ask about these
matters of some one who has had more experience."
"Oh! I don't care about asking; it all comes natural enough after the
first lesson. But you won't let them drive you away--it would break her
heart, I know it would."
Lottie's eyes were full of tears. Poor girl! she had a good heart.
This sympathy touched me deeply. I was so desolate and felt so wronged,
that a kind word filled me with gratitude, even from Lottie.
"Oh! ma'am, don't mind it! Babylon sha'n't hurt you while I can help it.
Only be firm, and don't go off in a fit of pride. Stand your ground to
the last, and when the worst comes to the worst, depend on me."
The girl took my hand and kissed it; then, kneeling down by the bed,
laid her face close to mine.
"Miss Hyde--"
"Well, my good girl."
"I have something to say, something that worries me dreadfully; are you
listening?"
"Yes, child."
"It is about mistress. Don't you see how dreadfully thin she is getting?
You can almost look through her hand."
"Yes, Lottie, it makes my heart ache to think of it. Have you any idea
of the cause?"
"_He_ don't visit her much now."
"You have noticed it, you--"
"I count the minutes every day."
"This might vex her, but not to the extent that seems so visible."
"No, there is something else. I cannot understand it; but wait awhile,
Miss Hyde, I'm on hand."
I hardly heard this. The idea that my presence in that house had become
a burden, that I might be at any moment desired to leave my place in the
family for that woman to fill, absorbed my faculties, and in the
selfishness of my distress, I gave less heed than the subject claimed to
what the girl was saying.
She saw this, I suppose; for, with renewed entreaties that I should hold
firmly to my position and trust to her for the rest, she crept from the
room, almost crying.