[171] See f. 37.
[Sidenote: 29 July 1746]
HONOURED SIR,--Before you receive this I hope to be in Paradise. Not
that I have the least right to expect it from any merits of my own,
or the goodness of my past life, but merely through the intercession
of my Saviour and Redeemer, a sincere and hearty repentance of all
my sins, and the variety of punishments I have suffered since I saw
you, and the death which I shall die to-morrow, and which I trust in
God will be some small atonement for my transgressions; and to which
I think I am almost confident I shall submit with all the resignation
and chearfulness a truly pious Christian and a brave souldier can
wish.
I hope you will do my character so much justice (and, if you
[Sidenote: _fol._ 382.] think proper, make use of this) as absolutely
to contradict the false and malicious reports, spread only by your
enemies, in hopes it might be of prejudice to you and your family,
that I was persuaded and compelled by you to engage, contrary to my
own inclinations. I send my tenderest love to all the dear children,
and beg Almighty God to bless you and them in this world, and grant
us all a happy meeting in that to come. I shall leave directions
with Charles to send them some trifle whereby to remember me. Pray my
excuse naming any particular friends, for there is no end. But give
my hearty service and best wishes to all in general.
Mr. Syddal is very well, and sends his sincere compliments, but does
not chuse to write. He behaves as well as his best friends can wish.
My uncle has behaved to me in such a manner as cannot be paralell'd
but by yourself. I know I shall have your prayers, which I am
satisfied will be of infinite service to, dear father, your dying but
contented and truly affectionate son,