MESSENGERS.
In Cornwall, they say, the cuckoo brings a gale of wind with him; and of
all gales in the year this is the one most dreaded by gardeners and
cidermen, for it catches the fruit trees in the height of their blossoming
season, and in its short rage wrecks a whole year's promise.
Such a gale overtook the _Virtuous Lady_, homeward bound, in mid-Atlantic.
For two days and a night she ran before it; but this of course is a
seaman's phrase, and actually, fast as the wind hurled her forward, she
lagged back against it until she wallowed in its wake, and her crew gave
thanks and crept below to their bunks, too dog-weary to put off their
sodden clothes.
The gale passed on and struck our south-western coast, devastating the
orchards of Cornwall and Devon and carpeting them with unborn fruit--
_dulcis vitae ex-sortes_. Amid this unthrifty waste and hard by, off Berry
Head, the schooner _One-and-All_ foundered and went down, not prematurely.
Foreseeing the end, her master had given orders to lower the whale-boat.
The schooner might be apple-rotten, as her crew declared, but she carried
a whale-boat which had inspired confidence for years and induced many a
hesitating hand to sign articles; a seaworthy boat, to begin with, and by
her owner's and master's care made as nearly unsinkable as might be,
cork-fendered, fitted bow and stern with air tanks, well found in all her
gear. Woe betide the seaman who abstracted an inch of rope from her to
patch up the schooner's crazy rigging, or who left a life-belt lying loose
around the deck or a rowlock unrestored to its due place after the weekly
scrub-down!
The crew, then, launched the boat--half filling her in the process--and,
tumbling in, pulled for the lee of the high land between Berry Head and
Brixham. The master took the helm. He was steering without one backward
look at the abandoned ship, when the oarsmen ceased pulling, all together,
with a cry of dismay.
On the schooner's deck stood a child, waving his arms despairingly.
How he came there they could not tell, nor who he was. The master, not
understanding their outcry, cursed and shouted to them to pull on.
But already the starboard oars were holding water and the bowman bringing
her around head-to-sea.
"Good Lord deliver us!"
The master carried a pair of binoculars, slung in a leathern case about
his shoulders inside his oilskin coat.
They had been given to him by public subscription many years before, with
a purse of gold, as a reward for saving life at sea. Since then he had
forgotten in whisky-drinking and money-getting all the generous courage of
his youth. His business for many years had been to play with human life
for his own and his owner's profit, with no care but to keep on the right
side of the law. The noble impulse which had earned him this testimonial
was dead within him; to recover it he must have been born again.
He might even, by keeping his pumps going and facing out the peril for
another couple of hours, have run the _One-and-All_ into Torbay and saved
her; but he had not wanted to save her. Nevertheless, when he had run
down to collect his few treasures from the cabin, these binoculars were
his first and chiefest thought, for they attached him to something in his
base career which had been noble. So careful was he, so fearful of facing
eternity and judgment--if drown he must--without them, that, although the
time was short and the danger instant, and the man by this time a coward,
he had stripped off oilskin coat and pea-jacket to indue them again and
button them over his treasure.
Yet either his hands were numb or the sea-water had penetrated these wraps
and damped the tag of the leathern case, making it difficult to open.
When at length he tugged the binoculars free and sighted them, it was to
catch one glimpse, and the last, of the child waving from the bulwarks.
"Good Lord deliver us!"
A high-crested wave blotted out the schooner's hull. She seemed to sink
behind it, almost to midway of her main shrouds. She would lift again
into sight as that terrible wave went by--
But she did not. The wave went by, but no portion of her hull appeared.
With a slow lurch forward she was gone, and the seas ran over her as
though she and her iniquity had never been.
In that one glimpse through his binoculars the master, and he alone of the
crew, had recognised the child--Calvin Rosewarne, his owner's son.
To their credit, the men pulled back for the spot where the _One-and-All_
had gone down. Not till an hour's battling had taught them the
hopelessness of a search hopeless from the first did they turn the boat
and head again for Brixham.
The news, telegraphed from Brixham, began to spread through Troy soon
after midday. Since the law allowed it, over-insurance was accepted by
public opinion in the port almost as a matter of ordinary business;
almost, but not quite. In his heart every citizen knew it to be damnable,
and voices had been raised in public calling it damnable. Men and women
who would have risked nothing to amend the law so far felt the public
conscience agreeing with their own that they talked freely of Rosewarne's
punishment as a judgment of God. Folks in the street canvassed the news,
insensibly sinking their voices as they stared across the water at the elm
trees of Hall. Behind those elms lay a house, and within that house would
be sitting a man overwhelmed by God's vengeance.
In the late afternoon a messenger knocked at Hester's door with a letter.
It was brought to her where she sat, with Mrs. Trevarthen, by Aunt
Butson's bedside, and it said--
"I wish to speak with you this evening, if you are willing."
"--S. Rosewarne."
She rose at once, silently, with a glance at her two companions. They had
not spoken since close upon an hour. When first the news came the old
woman on the bed had raised herself upon her elbow, struggled a moment for
utterance, and burst into a paean of triumphant hatred, horrible to hear.
Mrs. Trevarthen sat like one stunned. "Hush 'ee, Sarah! Hush 'ee, that's
a good soul!" she murmured once and again in feeble protest. At length
Hester, unable to endure it longer, had risen, taken the invalid by one
shoulder and forced her gently back upon the pillow.
"Tell me to go," she said, "and I will leave you and not return. But to
more of this I will not listen. I believed you an ill-used woman; but you
are far less wronged than wicked if you can rejoice in the death of a
child."
Since then the invalid had lain quiet, staring up at the ceiling. She did
not know--nor did Mrs. Trevarthen know--whose letter Hester held in her
hand. But now, as Hester moved towards the door, a weak voice from the
bed entreated her--
"You won't leave me! I didn't mean that about the child--I didn't,
really!"
"She didn't mean it," echoed Mrs. Trevarthen.
"I know--I know," said Hester, and stretched out both arms in sudden
weariness, almost despair. "But oh! why in this world of burdens can we
not cast away hate, the worst and wilfullest?"
It seemed to her that in her own mind during these few weeks a light had
been steadily growing, illuminating many things she had been wont to
puzzle over or habitually to pass by as teasing and obscure. She saw the
whole world constructed on one purpose, that all living creatures should
love and help one another to be happy. Even such a man as Rosewarne found
a place in it, as one to be pitied because he erred against this light.
Yes, and even the death of this child had a place in the scheme, since,
calling for pity, it called for one of the divinest exercises of love.
She marvelled, as she crossed in the ferry-boat, why the passengers, one
and all, discussed it as a direct visitation upon Rosewarne, as though
Rosewarne had offended against some agreement in which they and God
Almighty stood together, and they had left the fellow in God's hands with
a confidence which yet allowed them room to admire the dramatic neatness
of His methods. She longed to tell them that they were all mistaken, and
her eyes sought old Daddo's, who alone took no part in this talk.
But old Daddo pulled his stroke without seeming to listen, his brow
puckered a little, his eyes bent on the boat's wake abstractedly as though
he communed with an inward vision.
At the front door of Hall Susannah met her, white and tearful.
"I heard that he'd sent for you." Susannah sank her voice almost to a
whisper. "He's in the counting-house. You be'n't afeard?"
"Why should I be afraid?"
"I don't know. He's that strange. For months now he've a-been strange;
but for two days he've a-sat there, wi'out food or drink, and the door
locked most of the time. Not for worlds would I step into that room
alone."
"For two days?"
"Ever since he opened the poor child's letter; for a letter there was,
though the Lord knows what was in it. You're sure you be'n't afeard?"
Hester stepped past her and through the great parlour, and tapped gently
on the counting-house door. Her knock was answered by the sound of a key
turning in the lock, and Rosewarne opened to her.
At the moment she could not see his face, for a lamp on the writing-table
behind silhouetted him in black shadow. Her eyes wandered over the room's
disarray, and all her senses quailed together in its exhausted atmosphere.
He closed the door, but did not lock it again, motioned her to a chair,
and dropped heavily into his accustomed seat by the writing-table,
where for a while his fingers played nervously with the scattered papers.
Now by the lamplight she noted the extreme greyness of his face and the
hard brilliance of his eyes, usually so dull and fish-like.
"I am much obliged to you for coming," he began in a level, almost
business-like tone, but without looking up. "There are some questions I
want to ask. You have heard the news, of course?"
"Everyone has heard. I am sorry--so sorry! It is terrible."
"Thank you," said he, with a slight inclination of the head, as though
acknowledging some remark of small and ordinary politeness. "Perhaps you
would like to see this?" He picked up a crumpled sheet of notepaper,
smoothed out the creases, and handed it to her. Taking it, she read this,
written in a childish, ill-formed hand--
"Dear Father,--When this reaches you I shall be at sea. I hope you
won't mind very much, as it runs in the family, and some of those
that done it have turned out best. I don't get any good staying at
home. I love you and you love me, but nobody else does, and nobody
understands. I thought Miss Marvin understood, but she went away and
forgot. Never mind, it will be all right when I am a man.
I will come back, for you mustn't think I don't love you."
"--Your affect. son,"
"C. Rosewarne."
As Hester looked up she found Mr. Samuel's eyes fixed on her for the first
time, and fixed on her curiously.
"You don't approve, perhaps, of cousins marrying?" he asked slowly.
Was the man mad, as Susannah had hinted?
"I--I don't understand you, Mr. Rosewarne."
"Your mother had an only sister--an elder sister--who went out to
Dominica, and there married a common soldier. Did you know this?"
"I knew that my mother had a sister, and that there had been some
disgrace. My father never spoke of it, and my mother died when I was very
young; but in some way--as children do--I came to know."
"I thought you might know more, but it does not matter now. My father was
that common soldier, and the disgrace did not lie in her marrying him.
Before the marriage--I have a copy here of the entry in the register--a
child was born. Yes, stare at me well, Cousin Hester, stare at me, your
cousin, though born in bastardy!"
His eyes seemed to force her backward, and she leaned back, clasping the
arms of her chair.
"I learnt this a short while before my father died. I had only his word
for it--he gave me no particulars; but I have hunted them up, and he told
me the truth. Knowing them, I concealed them for the sake of the child
that was drowned to-day; otherwise, the estate being entailed, his
inheritance would have passed to Clem, and he and I were interlopers.
Are you one of those who believe that God has punished me by drowning my
son? You have better grounds than the rest for believing it."
"No," said Hester, after a long pause, remembering what thoughts had been
in her mind as she crossed the ferry.
"Why not?"
"The child had done no evil. God is just, or God does not exist. He must
have had some other purpose than to punish you."
"You are right. He may have used that purpose to afflict me yet the
more--though I don't believe it; but my true punishment--my worse
punishment--began long before. Cousin, cousin, you see clearly!
How often might you have helped me during these months I have been in
hell! Can you think how a man feels who is afraid of himself?
No, you cannot; but I say to you there is no worse hell, and through that
hell I have been walking since the day I went near to killing Clem.
You saved me that once, and then you turned and left me. I wanted you--
no, not to marry me! When a man fears himself he thinks no more of
affection. I wanted you, I craved for you, to save me--to save me again
and again, and as often as the madness mastered me. A word from you would
have made me docile as a child. I should have done you no hurt.
On your walks and about your lodging at night I have dogged you for that
word, afraid to show myself, afraid to knock and demand it. By this time
I had discovered you were my cousin. 'Blood is thicker than water'--over
and over I told myself this. 'Sooner or later,' I said, 'the voice in our
blood will whisper to her, and she will turn and help my need.' But you
never turned, and why? Because you were in love, and if fear is selfish,
love is selfish too!"
He paused for breath, eyeing her with a gloomy, bitter smile.
"Oh, there's no harm in my knowing your secret," he went on. "I'm past
hating Tom Trevarthen, and past all jealousy. All I ever asked was that
he should spare you to help me--a cup of cold water for a tongue in hell;
I didn't want your love. But that's where the selfishness of love comes
in. It can't spare even what it doesn't need for itself. It wants the
whole world to be happy; but when the unhappy cry to it, it doesn't hear."
Hester stood up, her eyes brimming. "You are right," she said, "I did not
hear. I never guessed at all. Tell me now that I can help."
"It is too late," he answered. "I no longer want your help."
"Surely to-day, if ever, you need your neighbours' pity and their
prayers?"
He laughed aloud. "That shows how little you understand! You and my
precious neighbours think of me as brooding here, mourning for my lost
boy. I tell you I am glad--yes, glad! _This_ is no part of God's
punishment! It was the future I feared: He has taken it from me.
I can suffer at ease now, knowing the end. See now, I have confessed to
you the wrong I did that blind child, and the confession has eased me.
I could not have confessed it yesterday--the burden of living grows
lighter, you perceive. I don't repent; it doesn't seem to me that I have
any use for repentance. If what I have done deserves punishment in
another world, I must suffer it; but I know it cannot be half what I have
suffered of late. No, cousin, I need you no longer. There is no sting to
rankle, now that hope--hope for my boy--has gone. I can rest quiet now,
with my own damnation."
She put out a hand, protesting, but he turned from her--they were standing
face to face--and opening the door, stood aside to let her pass.
"I thank you for coming," he said gravely. "What I have told you--about
the inheritance, I mean--will be no secret after the next few days."
She halted and looked at him inquiringly. "It will be a secret safe with
me," she said. Her eyes still searched his.
For the second time he laughed. "The children will be home in a few days;
I wait here till then. That is all I meant."
In the dusk by the ferry-slip old Daddo stood ready to push off.
Hester was the only passenger, for it was Saturday, and on Saturdays, at
this hour, all the traffic flowed away from the town, returning from
market to the country.
Her eyes were red, and it may be that old Daddo noted this, for midway
across, and without any warning, he rested on his oars, scanning her
earnestly.
"You have been calling on Rosewarne, miss?--making so bold."
She nodded.
"I see'd you looking t'ards me just now as we crossed. I see'd you glance
up as _they_, in their foolishness, was reckoning they knew the mind o'
God. Tell me, miss, how he bears it?"
"He bears it; but without hope, for his trouble goes deeper."