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Lee slid off the examining table and began buttoning his shirt. He had

had a medical examination every six months of his adult life, and it

always seemed strange to him that, despite the banks of machines the

doctor had which could practically map a man from a single cell

outward, each examination always entailed the cold end of a

stethoscope against his chest.

He tucked his shirt into his pants and turned to the examining doctor

who was writing on a chart.

"Well?" Lee asked him.

"Sound as a dollar," replied the doctor. "Of course Dr. Flotman or Dr.

Roberts might turn up something on their electronic monsters, but I

see no reason why we can't go ahead on schedule."

Lee felt relieved. Even while being examined by technicians, M.D.'s

and biologists, he had been conscious of the hundreds of little dull

pains which had nibbled like mice in every corner of his brain.

Sometimes he felt like a piece of his brain was being completely

smothered, a horrible sensation of having a part of his head severed

from him. This would go away, but would appear again in a different

area, usually in about fifteen to thirty minutes. Well, the doctor

said he was fit for surgery. That would end this nagging pain, just as

it always had in the past.

"... If you're ready now." Lee became aware the doctor was speaking to

him.

"Oh," Lee said. He had no idea what the doctor was talking about. "I'm

sorry, I guess I didn't hear what you said--"

The doctor smiled tolerantly. "I said you can see Dr. Letzmiller this

afternoon to get the final O.K."

"Letzmiller? Who's he? I thought you said I was ready to go." Lee knew

he sounded a little petulant, but he was tired from all these

examinations, and besides, his head hurt.

The doctor, Gorss, Lee thought his name was, was rather young but

seemed used to this kind of thing. He turned on his tolerant smile

again. "Dr. Letzmiller is chief of the Familiarization and

Post-Operative Adjustment Section. He can explain himself better when

you see him."

"Is he the last one?" Lee asked. He was already following Dr. Gorss

out the door and down a corridor.

Dr. Gorss stopped before a door marked "Dr. C. L. Letzmiller," and

opened it. "The last one. You take these," he handed Lee a thick

manila folder, "and tell the girl Dr. Gorss sent you for your

interview." He waited until Lee had entered, then closed the door and

left.

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Evidently Dr. Letzmiller had been expecting him, for very shortly Lee

found himself sitting at the doctor's desk, comfortably seated in a

brown leather armchair. He was facing a rather pudgy man, who was

leafing through the manila folder Lee had given him. Finally Dr.

Letzmiller looked up.

"Well. Well now, Mr. Lee, suppose you first tell me about yourself,

and then I'll tell you about me."

"Tell you about me?" Lee asked.

Dr. Letzmiller smiled. It was another tolerant smile, but it seemed

more sincere than Gorss'. "I suppose the best way would be for me to

review these facts on your medical history. You are Vincent Bonard

Lee?"

"Yes, sir."

"Date of birth?"

"August 11, 1934."

"That would make you four hundred nine years old."

Lee hesitated. He never really thought of his age. It had long ago

ceased to be of any importance to him. Of course he remembered his

birth date. It was one of those facts that always appears on your

records, like your social security number. He did some calculation in

his head, as rapidly as the constantly shifting blank spots in his

thinking would allow him.

"Yes, sir."

"It shows here that you first underwent replacive surgery in 1991.

Correct?"

"Yes."

"Remember what it was for?"

"Yes, I had heart trouble. They fixed me up with one of those big jobs

requiring my carrying batteries under my armpit."

"One of those early models. And this shows that at various times since

then you have undergone replacive surgery some eighty-seven times,

including three replacements of a pulmonary nature."

Again Lee hesitated. The number of times he had had a worn organ or

tissue repaired or replaced was more than a little hazy. After the

novelty of the first few times when he found himself with a new

stomach, or liver, or muscle, he had started to take these things as a

matter of course. He gave a little nervous laugh. "If that paper says

so, I suppose so, doctor."

"Yes. Well, everything seems to be functioning properly now, doesn't

it? With the exception of your head, of course."

"Yes, yes I feel fine otherwise." Lee was feeling uncomfortable.

"Doctor, could you tell me what this is all about? I must have

answered these questions half a dozen times before to those other

people."

"In just a moment. First I need to know you a little better. Your

medical history lists your occupation as 'cabinet maker'."

"That's right." Lee was becoming more and more uncomfortable. The

extensive examinations had tired him, and repetition of the answers to

all these questions was making him edgy.

"Doctor, can't you at least tell me what type operation I'm going to

have?"

"What do you think it will be?"

"I don't know. Some sort of repair on my head, I guess."

"Mr. Lee, this isn't going to be a matter of repair. We have found it

necessary to replace the entirety of what could roughly be called

your 'brain', as well as part of the spinal cord."

"My whole brain?" Lee sat, stunned, comprehension slowly filtering

into him. He voiced the only coherent thought which materialized. "Why

that will mean there won't be anything left of me at all."

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