Chapter 3.V.

‘My wife,’ said Colonel Innes, ‘is looking extremely well.’

‘She seems so, indeed,’ Madeline replied.

‘She is delighted with “Two Gables”. Likes it better, she says, than any

other house we could have got.’

‘What a good thing!’

‘It was a record trip for the Caledonia, thirteen days from Brindisi to

Bombay. Was she telling you about the voyage?’

‘No,’ said Madeline impatiently, ‘she didn’t mention it. How shall I

tell the men to put down the hood, please? A rickshaw is detestable with

the hood up--stifling! Thanks. I beg your pardon. The Caledonia made a

good run?’

‘Thirteen days. Wonderful weather, of course, which was luck for Violet.

She is an atrocious sailor.’

Madeline fancied she heard repose and reassurance in his voice.

Her thought cried, ‘It is not so bad as he expected!’ We can not be

surprised that she failed to see in herself the alleviation of that

first evening.

‘She has brought quantities of things for the house with her,’ Innes

went on, ‘as well as three dachshund puppies,’ and he laughed. ‘Wouldn’t

you like one? What can we do with three--and the terrier, and Brutus?’

‘Oh, thank you, no.’

How could he laugh? How could he speak pleasantly of these intimate

details of his bondage? How could he conceive that she would accept--

‘Already she has arranged four dinner-parties! It will be a relief not

to have to think of that sort of thing--to be able to leave it to her.’

‘Mrs. Innes must have great energy. To drive all the way up from Kalka

by noon and appear at a dinner-party at night--wonderful!’

‘Oh, great energy,’ Horace said.

‘She will take you everywhere--to all the functions. She will insist on

your duty to society.’

Madeline felt that she must get him somehow back into his slough of

despond. His freedom paralyzed her. And he returned with a pathetic

change of tone.

‘I suppose there is no alternative. Violet is very good about being

willing to go alone, or with somebody else; but I never think it quite

fair on one’s wife to impose on her the necessity of going about with

other men.’

‘Mrs. Worsley introduced us after dinner,’ said Madeline.

She kept disparagement out of her mind, but he could not help perceiving

aloofness.

‘Yes?’

The monosyllable told her sensitive ear that while he admitted her

consideration in going on with the subject, he was willing to recognize

that there was no more to say, and have done with it. She gathered up

her scruples and repugnances in a firm grasp. She would not let him

throw his own shadow, as an effectual obstacle, between himself and

liberty.

‘I am going to ask you something,’ she said; it might come naturally

enough from another man with whom your friendship was as candid as it

is with me; but there is an awkwardness in it from a woman. You must

believe I have a good reason. Will you tell me about your first meeting

with Mrs. Innes, when--when you became engaged?’

She knew she was daring a good deal; but when a man’s prison is to be

brought down about his ears, one might as well begin, she thought, at

the foundation.

For a moment Innes did not speak, and then his words came slowly.

I find it difficult,’ he said, ‘to answer you. How can it matter--it is

impossible. I suppose you have heard some story, and it is like you to

want to be in a position to negative it. Ignore it instead. She has very

successfully championed herself. Believe nothing to her disadvantage

that may be said about that--that time. I was pleased to marry her, and

she was pleased to marry me. But for God’s sake don’t let us talk about

it!’

As he spoke Madeline saw the vivid clearness of the situation grow

blurred and confused. It was as if her point of view had suddenly

changed and her eyes failed her. Her eager impulse had beat less and

less strongly from the Worsley’s door; now it seemed to shrink away in

fetters. Her eyes filled with vaguely resentful tears, which sprang,

if she could have traced them, from the fact that the man she loved was

loyal to his own mistake, and the formless premonition that he might

continue to be. She contorted her lip to keep her emotion back, and

deliberately turned away from a matter in which she was not mistress,

and which contained ugly possibilities of buffeting. She would wait a

little, and though consideration for Violet Prendergast had nothing to

do with it, she would not tell him tonight.

‘I am sorry,’ she said; and, after a moment, ‘Did I tell you that I have

changed my plans?’

‘You are not going so soon?’ she took all the comfort there was in his

eagerness.

‘I am not going at all for the present. I have abandoned my intentions

and my dates. I mean to drift for a little while. I have been too--too

conscientious.’

‘Are you quite serious--do you mean it?’

‘Indeed I do.’

‘And in less than a fortnight you will not go out of one’s life. You

will stay on--you summer day! It’s hard to believe in luck like that. I

sent a poor devil of a sepoy a reprieve last week--one knows now how he

must have felt about it.’

‘Does it make all that difference?’ Madeline asked, softly.

‘It makes a difference,’ he answered, controlling his words, ‘that I am

glad you can not conceive, since that would mean that your life has been

as barren as mine.’ He seemed to refrain from saying more, and then he

added, ‘You must be careful when you plant your friendship that you mean

it to stay, and blossom. It will not come easily up by the roots, and it

will leave an ugly hole.’

He was helping her out of her rickshaw, and as they followed the servant

who carried her wraps the few yards to the door, she left her hand

lightly on his arm. It was the seal, he thought, of her unwritten bond

that there should be no uprooting of the single flower he cherished; and

he went back almost buoyantly because of it to the woman who had been

sitting in the sackcloth and ashes of misfortune, turning over the

expedients for which his step might make occasion.

By the time the monkeys began to scramble about the roof in the early

creeping of the dawn among the deodars, Madeline had groped her way to

a tolerably clear conception of what might happen. The impeding

circumstance everywhere, it must be acknowledged, was Frederick

Prendergast’s coffin. The case, had convict No. 1596 been still alive

and working out his debt to society, would have been transcendentally

simple, she told herself. Even a convict has a right--a prospective

right--to his wife, and no honest man should be compelled to retain a

criminal’s property. This was an odd reflection, perhaps, to be made by

Madeline Anderson, but the situation as a whole might be described as

curious. And there was no doubt about the coffin.

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