TUESDAY
It is Tuesday now. At seven o'clock in the morning old sad-eyed Maria
knocks at my door.
"Good news, Madame! Malines has been retaken!"
That is cheering. And old Maria and myself, like everyone else, are
eager to believe the best.
The grey day, however, is indescribably sombre.
From a high, grassy terrace at the top of the hotel I look out across
the city towards the points where the Germans are attacking us. Great
black clouds that yet are full of garish light float across the city,
and through the clouds one, two, three, four aeroplanes can be seen,
black as birds, and moving continually hither and thither, while far
below the old town lies, with its towers and gilded Gothic beauty, and
its dark red roofs, and its wide river running to meet the sea.
I go down to the War Office and see Commandant Chabeau. He looks pale
and haggard. His handsome grey eyes are full of infinite sadness.
"To-day it would be wiser, Madame, that you don't go out of the city,"
he says in his gentle, chivalrous voice. "C'est trop dangereux!"
I want to ask him a thousand questions.
I ask him nothing, I go away, back to the hotel. One o'clock, and we
learn that the fighting outside is terribly hot.
Two o'clock.
Cars come flying in.
They tell us that shells are falling about five miles out, on Vieux
Dieux.
Three o'clock.
A man rushes in and says that all is over; the last train leaves Antwerp
to-night; the Government is going; it is our last chance to escape.
"How far is Holland?" asks someone.
"About half an hour away," he answers.
I listen dreamily. Holland sounds very near. I wonder what I am going to
do. Am I going to stay and see the Germans enter? But maybe they will
never enter. The unexpected will happen. We shall be saved at the
eleventh hour. It is impossible that Antwerp can fall.
"They will be shelling the town before twenty-four hours," says one
young man, and he calls for another drink. When he has had it he says he
wishes he hadn't.
"They will never shell the town," says a choleric old Englishman. And he
adds in the best English manner, "It could never be permitted!"
Outside, the day dies down.
The sound of cannon has entirely ceased.
One can hear nothing now, nothing at all, but the loud and shrill cries
of the newsboys and women selling _Le Matin d'Anvers_ and _Le
Métropole_ in the streets.
A strange hushed silence hangs over the besieged city, and through the
silence the clocks strike six, and almost immediately the _maître
d'hôtel_ comes along and informs us that we ought to come in to dinner
soon, as to-day the lights must go out at nightfall!
But I go into the streets instead.
It seems to me that the population of Antwerp has suddenly turned into
peasants.
Peasants everywhere, in crowds, in groups, in isolated numbers.
Bareheaded women, hollow-cheeked men, little girls and boys, and all
with bundles, some pathetically small, done up in white or blue cloths,
and some huge and grotesque, under which the peasants stagger along
through the streets that were fashionable streets only just now, and now
have turned into a sort of sad travesty of the streets of some distant
village.
A curious rosy hue falls over the faces in the streets, the shop-windows
glow like rubies, the gold on the Gothic buildings burns like crimson
fire.
Overhead a magnificent sunset is spreading its banners out over the
deserted city.
Then night falls; the red fades; Antwerp turns grey and sombre.
But the memory of that rose in the west remains, and in hope we wait, we
are still waiting, knowing not what the morrow may bring forth.