A MAN AND TWO WOMEN.
Soon after their return, Percy was called to Centerville, a large
village a few hours' ride from New York. He had established a Mr.
Griffith there in business, some months previous to his South American
trip, and now their affairs needed overhauling and examining.
Being detained over Sunday, Percy strolled out for a walk after his late
breakfast. Centerville was not well provided with schools or other
public buildings; but like the majority of large villages, it boasted
several imposing church edifices.
The day was warm, and crowned with an Indian summer haze. As he strolled
by a costly stone temple of worship, out through the open windows
floated a voice so pure, so beautiful, so magnetic, that he paused
involuntarily to listen. It was a woman's voice, singing the old
familiar hymn, but it held a new meaning for him as he listened:
"Guide me, oh, thou Great Jehovah,
Pilgrim through a barren land!
I am weak, but thou art mighty,
Lead me with thy powerful hand."
Never in his life had Percy so realized his own finiteness, never had he
so reverenced the Supreme Majesty of the Creator, as while he listened
to that voice, singing the familiar words with indescribable pathos and
passion.
Percy's fearless criticisms of creeds and dogmas had won for him, among
people of illiberal thought, the undeserved reputation of an atheist.
The world is full of good-hearted, but short-sighted people, who brand
any man as an infidel or lunatic, whose ideas of divine worship differ
from their own.
Percy's whole nature was deeply reverential; but his conceptions of
religion were too high and broad for the ordinary mind, accustomed to
the well-worn ruts of thought to understand or even grasp. In his early
boyhood, he had believed in every thing; church, woman, home, happiness.
But one woman had wrecked him in mid-ocean; and he had thrown overboard
all his old faiths in things human and divine, barely saving his life
and reason.
Then, as time passed on, and his hurts healed, his inborn reverence for
_Something_ over and beyond himself returned. His belief in a future
life was as fixed and firm as it was vague and undefined. But oftentimes
he felt conscious of the near presence of his mother--the mother who had
died when he was a youth and most needed her. And he _knew_ that she
lived, and loved him, and watched over him. It was her occasional
presence, which convinced him, beyond the possibility of doubt, that
death was only the gateway to a new life.
Always, when he was untrue to himself or his principles, her spirit fled
away from him, and again she came so near, he could almost _hear_ the
rustle of her wings.
It was long months now, since she had come to him. Never in his dreams,
never in his waking hours; and the sense of loneliness and longing was
sometimes overwhelming.
But now, while he listened to that unseen singer's voice, his mother
came back to him; there, in the golden haze of that Indian-summer
morning, he felt as conscious of her near presence as if his eyes beheld
her.
"Bread of heaven, Bread of heaven,
Feed me till I want no more,"
sang the voice, and it seemed to ring up to the very courts of heaven
with a great cry of hunger and longing.
Never had Percy so felt the craving in his own soul for heavenly manna,
and for something beyond and greater than himself on which to lean, as
at this moment.
It seemed to him, that he could not rest until he had looked upon the
face of the singer.
He entered the church, and sat down in an unoccupied pew near the door.
The singing had ceased, and from his position the choir was entirely
hidden from view by a curtain.
Percy sat through the long and tedious sermon, and listened with
impatience to the dreary, uncomforting discourse.
"No wonder," thought he, "that the singer put so much pleading into her
cry for 'Bread of heaven,' if she derives her spiritual sustenance from
the droppings of this sanctuary. The weary soul would faint by the
wayside, who depended upon such food."
The sermon seemed interminable, but it ended at last, to the
gratification of the tired congregation. Again Percy heard that voice of
heavenly beauty, soaring up to the very Throne in song; but, strive as
he might, he could catch no glimpse of the singer.
He left the church, soothed, uplifted, but disappointed.
As he sat in his room at the hotel, late in the afternoon, writing
letters, Mr. Griffith called.
"I saw you at church this morning," he said, "and my wife sent me around
to bring you home to tea. She thought it might be dull for you here at
the hotel, and though we are plain folks, we shall be glad to have you
come and take common fare with us."
"You are very kind," Percy answered, "but I ought to finish these
letters"--
"Never mind the letters," insisted Mr. Griffith. "My wife will feel hurt
if you don't come; and we can promise you some good music, at least.
Maybe you noticed our soprano singer in the choir this morning. She
boards with us, and we think she's about as good as any of your city
singers. There is no service to-night at the church, and when there is
not, she always sings for us at home. People fairly hang on the gates to
listen. I hope you'll come."
"Thank you!" said Percy, with alacrity, rising and pushing aside his
writing materials. "I will."
When he stood face to face with Helena Maxon--for it was our old friend,
whom we greet again after more than five years--Percy felt a slight
disappointment. It had seemed to him, that such a voice must belong to a
creature as fair as the morning--an ethereal being, all gold and blue
and white, like Aurora herself.
Instead, he saw a shapely form, inclined to be voluptuous in its curves,
and a face absolutely without tints; a dusky head, and sombre eyes, and
a skin like the brown side of a peach, and perfectly devoid of color,
save in the full red lips of the rather large mouth.
"Her face is too round for beauty," he said, in his swift mental
analysis, "and her mouth and nose are not classic. But what exquisite
care she bestows upon her person; what perfectly-kept hands and teeth
and hair! She radiates purity and cleanliness like a water-lily. And
where did she learn her matchless charm and manner?"
As the conversation progressed, Percy's wonder grew. Miss Maxon's ready
flow of words, her simple dignity and her animation, rendered her
positively charming. He soon forgot her absence of tints; for as she
talked, the light of her spirit seemed to shine through and brighten her
face like sunlight shining through an autumn leaf. And the strange
peculiarity of her eyes presently attracted him, and fascinated him with
their mesmeric spell. So soon as Helena became interested in any
subject on which she conversed, or in her music, or in the personality
of her listeners, a delicate film, which had almost the appearance of
smoke seen rising over the face of the heavens at night, completely
enveloped her dark eyes. It seemed to shut out all material objects from
her vision as if her soul drew a curtain before her sight, that it might
better contemplate the wonders visible only to spiritual eyes. Yet
through this curtain you felt conscious that her soul looked into yours.
It is a peculiarity seen only in the eyes of those possessed of
clairvoyant powers; and it riveted Percy's gaze upon Helena's face, and
fascinated him as no mere physical beauty had ever fascinated him.
By and by she sang, and again Percy felt himself lifted up into a new,
rarified atmosphere, while he listened.
It was as if his soul projected itself out of his body, and floated up
on the waves of her voice close to the spirit world.
Percy never knew quite how the conversation began: but after she had
resumed her seat, he suddenly found himself telling her how peculiarly
her singing had affected him.
"No doubt you will think me a sort of a lunatic!" he said. "But while
you sang this morning, it seemed to me that my mother, who has been dead
since my early manhood, came near to me. The impression lasted
throughout the day: and it has brought me an inexpressible happiness."
A sudden light transfigured Helena's face, rendering it absolutely
beautiful. She leaned slightly forward, with her hands clasped before
her.
"Then you are susceptible to these impressions?" she said. "I am always
pleased and interested in meeting any one who is. There are so few
people in the world who realize how thin the veil is which divides us
from our dear ones. Why, Mr. Durand, often when I am singing, I not only
feel, I _know_ that my father and my mother are close beside me,
enveloping me with their love and sympathy. And then I sing, as I never
sing at other times. The exhilaration of their presence fills me with a
strength and ecstacy that is indescribable. I feel almost more than
human."
She ceased speaking suddenly, and her face was luminous with a divine
light. A subtle warmth and fragrance seemed to emanate from her; Percy
felt thrilled and magnetized, with an influence as mysterious as it was
powerful.
"Then your parents are not living?" he said, gently.
"Not here," she answered, with a sad smile. "They died in one year. My
father was the victim of a violent fever which devastated our town: my
mother grieved herself into the grave a few months later. It had been a
perfect union; they were mental comrades, spiritual affinities, physical
mates. They could not exist apart. It was better that she joined him so
soon."
"It left you very much alone?" Percy spoke softly, scarcely knowing what
to say in presence of such a bereavement.
"Yes, and no," she answered. "If I had believed they were lying in the
earth waiting the Judgment Day, scores, thousands or millions of years
hence, I should have been crazed with my desolation. But my faith was
so comforting to me, however unorthodox, that I have found strength and
happiness in it."
"Tell me what it is?" urged Percy, earnestly, almost eagerly. "These
subjects interest and fascinate me. Long ago, my intellect rejected old
dogmas. Yet I find it difficult to know what to believe. The worn out
creeds insult my intelligence. The liberal teachers of the day shock me
with their irreverence, and leave my soul hungry: and in Spiritualism I
find so much trickery, fraud, and immorality, mixed up with a few
mysterious and unsatisfactory truths, that I am again in despair."
"But you must not be in despair," Helena said, with one of her beautiful
smiles. "You have not looked at Spiritualism from the right standpoint.
So long as you seek its truths through professional mediums, you will be
dissatisfied and confused."
"Then you think they are all humbugs?"
"Certainly not:" Helena replied, with emphasis. "There are people
endowed with the gift of divination, beyond doubt. There are peculiarly
organized beings who can read the future and the past--beings who see
through and beyond this thin veil of mortality, into the spiritual
realms which lie very close to us. But we must not look to those people
for our enlightenment upon this subject. If we do, we soon lose our
individuality; we grow dependent and unpractical and visionary. God
placed us here to carve out our own destinies--to work and wait for
events, not to tear aside the curtain and read the cypher which is
understood by a few."
"But how, then, can I obtain the benefits you mention from this belief?"
questioned Percy.
"You must look to the development of your own spiritual nature, and to
the consequent crucifying of your baser self, in order to obtain the
comfort and benefit of this belief. In this you will have the help of
your departed friends."
"You think they retain their interest in and love for us, the same there
as here?"
"Oh, yes, assuredly. Yet often our sorrows seem, to their enlarged
vision, as the sorrows of children over broken toys seem to us; yet they
strive to comfort us."
"If that is true," interposed Percy, "why was it, that after my mother
died, and I used to lie awake at night, and plead with Heaven to let me
feel her touch, or see her face, if only for a second, why did she not
come to me?"
"Because," Helena answered gently, "there are restrictions upon their
liberty, there are limits to their powers, even as there are to our own.
They live higher, freer, more exalted lives, but they are not gods. I
remember when I was first sent from home to boarding-school, how bitter
was my homesickness and sorrow. I used to write tear-blotted letters to
my mother, begging her to come to me. She did not come; other and more
important duties detained her at home. She knew it was better for me to
remain and overcome my loneliness. So your mother in the spirit world
may have been detained by the wonderful tasks given her to do. Yet on
other occasions she no doubt comes to you, as she came this morning. I
think we can not expect frequent companionship from these pure spirits,
however, unless we cultivate the better part of our natures. They will
not linger near us if we are wholly earthly in our aims and ambitions,
and immoral in our lives."
"I believe that--I am certain of it in my own experience," Percy said,
in a low voice. "Whenever I violate a principle, my mother flies from me
as in fear. She has been absent many months, Miss Maxon, until your
voice wooed her back."
"Therein lies the great religious lesson in this belief;" continued
Helena. "I find that even my petty tempers, my uncharitable feelings, or
thoughtless criticisms of other people, frighten away this holy company.
I have to set a constant watch upon my mind and heart, to let no evil or
selfish thought enter, if I would retain their helpful and loving
influences. It is no easy task, Mr. Durand. It is constant warfare,
between the material and the spiritual nature. But the results are
glorious. Often when I have put to rout evil feelings, and selfish
thoughts, back to my soul, like a flock of white doves, the spirits of
comforting friends fly, lifting me into an atmosphere so heavenly and
beautiful, that I seem scarcely to belong to earth. Oh surely, God could
not give better employment to his angels, than to let them sometimes
comfort us, like this. Surely, there is nothing irreverent or wrong in
this belief."
"No, it is the sweetest of all beliefs," Percy answered. "It robs death
of all its horrors, and it is a belief which is gaining ground. Do you
not think so?"
"Yes, indeed, with the more intellectual classes. There was a time, when
it was considered an evidence of ignorance to profess any faith in
spirit aid. Now it is considered an evidence of ignorance to declare
positively that there is nothing in it. But sensible believers do not
waste their time in seeking after crude miracles--miracles which can
help no human soul, and only serve to confuse and puzzle the intellect.
They turn their attention rather to the development of their own higher
natures, which enables them to understand and enjoy these beautiful
truths."
"Do you believe that the spirits of our dear ones ever reveal
themselves to us?" asked Percy, growing more and more interested. "Have
you ever been blessed by such a vision?"
"Never, though I have longed for it. Yet I believe others have been so
blessed. You know the Bible overflows with such occurrences. We have,
there, the inspired record of the re-appearance upon earth after
death--of Samuel, Moses, Elijah, and Christ himself. If we believe the
Bible, we must believe these things occurred. And I think God loves his
people now as dearly as He loved them then. But I have no belief in, and
no patience with, the miserable artifice and wicked pretense of the
so-called materializing mediums. I do not believe the lovely spirit of
my dear mother could be shown to me through any cabinet--like a
jack-in-a-box. The idea that the spirits of the intellectual dead have
nothing better to do than move furniture or rap on ceilings and floors,
is disgusting and nonsensical in my view. I am a good deal of a
Swedenborgian: I think with him, that the body--the eye--is merely a
telescope, through which the soul gazes. What the soul sees, and how
far it sees, depends upon many conditions, just as a clear or a murky
atmosphere, and the mechanism of his instrument, influences the
observations of the astronomer. When the soul, and the body, and the
spiritual atmosphere are all in perfect condition, I believe we can
_see_ the spirit forms about us. You know St. Paul says: 'Run your race
in patience, _for you are surrounded by a cloud of witnesses_.' But in
our gross material lives, these conditions seldom occur. As for myself,
I am satisfied with the comfort and strength I receive through unseen
presences. I do not ask, or seek anything more."
A spiteful-voiced clock on the mantel counted off eleven strokes.
Percy arose in sudden confusion.
"How inexcusably late I have remained," he said, "how can I ever obtain
pardon--"
"No excuse is necessary!" interposed Mrs. Griffith. "We all thank you
for causing Miss Maxon to talk so freely. It is seldom she does, and we
love to hear her conversation as well as her singing. Be sure and come
again, Mr. Durand."
As he walked back to his hotel, in upon his strangely enlarged and
enlightened vision, a sudden thought of Dolores darted. He stopped in
the street and put his hand to his brow. "My God!" he cried, "how can I
go back to her?"