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COLLECTION
OF
BRITISH AUTHORS
TAUCHNITZ EDITION.
VOL. 1811.
VIXEN BY M. E. BRADDON
IN THREE VOLUMES.
VOL. III.
VIXEN
A NOVEL
BY
M. E. BRADDON,
AUTHOR OF "LADY AUDLEY'S SECRET," ETC. ETC.
_COPYRIGHT EDITION_.
IN THREE VOLUMES.
VOL. III.
LEIPZIG
BERNHARD TAUCHNITZ
1879.
_The Right of Translation is reserved_.
CONTENTS
OF VOLUME III.
CHAPTER I. Going into Exile
CHAPTER II. Chiefly Financial
CHAPTER III. "With weary Days thou shalt be clothed and fed"
CHAPTER IV. Love and AEsthetics
CHAPTER V. Crumpled Rose-Leaves
CHAPTER VI. A Fool's Paradise
CHAPTER VII. "It might have been"
CHAPTER VIII. Wedding Bells
CHAPTER IX. The nearest Way to Norway
CHAPTER X. "All the Rivers run into the Sea"
CHAPTER XI. The Bluebeard Chamber
Epilogue
VIXEN.
CHAPTER I.
Going into Exile.
After a long sleepless night of tossing to and fro, Vixen rose with the
first stir of life in the old house, and made herself ready to face the
bleak hard world. Her meditations of the night had brought no new light
to her mind. It was very clear to her that she must go away--as far as
possible--from her old home. Her banishment was necessary for
everybody's sake. For the sake of Rorie, who must behave like a man of
honour, and keep his engagement with Lady Mabel, and shut his old
playfellow out of his heart. For the sake of Mrs. Winstanley, who could
never be happy while there was discord in her home; and last of all,
for Violet herself, who felt that joy and peace had fled from the Abbey
House for ever, and that it would be better to be anywhere, in the
coldest strangest region of this wide earth, verily friendless and
alone among strange faces, than here among friends who were but friends
in name, and among scenes that were haunted with the ghosts of dead
joys.
She went round the gardens and shrubberies in the early morning,
looking sadly at everything, as if she were bidding the trees and
flowers a long farewell. The rhododendron thickets were shining with
dew, the grassy tracks in that wilderness of verdure were wet and cold
under Vixen's feet. She wandered in and out among the groups of wild
growing shrubs, rising one above another to the height of forest trees,
and then she went out by the old five-barred gate which Titmouse used
to jump so merrily, and rambled in the plantation till the sun was
high, and the pines began to breathe forth their incense as the day-god
warmed them into life.
It was half-past eight. Nine was the hour for breakfast, a meal at
which, during the Squire's time, the fragile Pamela had rarely
appeared, but which, under the present _régime_, she generally graced
with her presence. Captain Winstanley was an early riser, and was not
sparing in his contempt for sluggish habits.
Vixen had made up her mind never again to sit at meat with her
stepfather; so she went straight to her own den, and told Phoebe to
bring her a cup of tea.
"I don't want anything else," she said wearily when the girl suggested
a more substantial breakfast; "I should like to see mamma presently. Do
you know if she has gone down?"
"No, miss. Mrs. Winstanley is not very well this morning. Pauline has
taken her up a cup of tea."
Vixen sat idly by the open window, sipping her tea, and caressing
Argus's big head with a listless hand, waiting for the next stroke of
fate. She was sorry for her mother, but had no wish to see her. What
could they say to each other--they, whose thoughts and feelings were so
wide apart? Presently Phoebe came in with a little three-cornered note,
written in pencil.
"Pauline asked me to give you this from your ma, miss."
The note was brief, written in short gasps, with dashes between them.
"I feel too crushed and ill to see you--I have told Conrad what you
wish--he is all goodness--he will tell you what we have decided--try to
be worthier of his kindness--poor misguided child--he will see you in
his study, directly after breakfast--pray control your unhappy temper."
"His study, indeed!" ejaculated Vixen, tearing up the little note and
scattering its perfumed fragments on the breeze; "my father's room,
which he has usurped. I think I hate him just a little worse in that
room than anywhere else--though that would seem hardly possible, when I
hate him so cordially everywhere."
She went to the looking-glass, and surveyed herself proudly as she
smoothed her shining hair, resolved that he should see no indication of
trouble or contrition in her face. She was very pale, but her tears of
last night had left no traces. There was a steadiness in her look that
befitted an encounter with an enemy. A message came from the Captain,
while she was standing before her glass, tying a crimson ribbon under
the collar of her white morning-dress.
Would she please to go to Captain Winstanley in the study? She went
without an instant's delay, walked quietly into the room, and stood
before him silently as he sat at his desk writing.
"Good-morning, Miss Tempest," he said, looking up at her with his
blandest air; "sit down, if you please. I want to have a chat with you."
Vixen seated herself in her father's large crimson morocco chair. She
was looking round the room absently, dreamily, quite disregarding the
Captain. The dear old room was full of sadly sweet associations. For
the moment she forgot the existence of her foe. His cold level tones
recalled her thoughts from the lamented past to the bitter present.
"Your mother informs me that you wish to leave the Abbey House," he
began; "and she has empowered me to arrange a suitable home for you
elsewhere. I entirely concur in your opinion that your absence from
Hampshire for the next year or so will be advantageous to yourself and
others. You and Mr. Vawdrey have contrived to get yourselves
unpleasantly talked about in the neighbourhood. Any further scandal may
possibly be prevented by your departure."
"It is not on that account I wish to leave home," said Vixen proudly.
"I am not afraid of scandal. If the people hereabouts are so wicked
that they cannot see me riding by the side of an old friend for two or
three days running without thinking evil of him and me, I am sorry for
them, but I certainly should not regulate my life to please them. The
reason I wish to leave the Abbey House is that I am miserable here, and
have been ever since you entered it as its master. We may as well deal
frankly with each other in this matter. You confessed last night that
you hated me. I acknowledge to-day that I have hated you ever since I
first saw you. It was an instinct."
"We need not discuss that," answered the Captain calmly. He had let
passion master him last night, but he had himself well in hand to-day.
She might be as provoking as she pleased, but she should not provoke
him to betray himself as he had done last night. He detested himself
for that weak outbreak of passion.
"Have you arranged with my mother for my leaving home?" inquired Vixen.
"Yes, it is all settled."
"Then I'll write at once to Miss McCroke. I know she will leave the
people she is with to travel with me."
"Miss McCroke has nothing to do with the question. You roaming about
the world with a superannuated governess would be too preposterous. I
am going to take you to Jersey by this evening's boat. I have an aunt
living there who has a fine old manor house, and who will be happy to
take charge of you. She is a maiden lady, a woman of superior
cultivation, who devotes herself wholly to intellectual pursuits. Her
refining influence will be valuable to you. The island is lovely, the
climate delicious. You could not be better off than you will be at Les
Tourelles."
"I am not going to Jersey, and I am not going to your intellectual
aunt," said Vixen resolutely.
"I beg your pardon, you are going, and immediately. Your mother and I
have settled the matter between us. You have expressed a wish to leave
home, and you will be pleased to go where we think proper. You had
better tell Phoebe to pack your trunks. We shall leave here at ten
o'clock in the evening. The boat starts from Southampton at midnight."
Vixen felt herself conquered. She had stated her wish, and it was
granted; not in the mode and manner she had desired; but perhaps she
ought to be grateful for release from a home that had become loathsome
to her, and not take objection to details in the scheme of her exile.
To go away, quite away, and immediately, was the grand point. To fly
before she saw Rorie again.
"Heaven knows how weak I might be if he were to talk to me again as he
talked last night!" she said to herself. "I might not be able to bear
it a second time. Oh Rorie, if you knew what it cost me to counsel you
wisely, to bid you do your duty; when the vision of a happy life with
you was smiling at me all the time, when the warm grasp of your dear
hand made my heart thrill with joy, what a heroine you would think me!
And yet nobody will ever give me credit for heroism; and I shall be
remembered only as a self-willed young woman, who was troublesome to
her relations, and had to be sent away from home."
She was thinking this while she sat in her father's chair, deliberating
upon the Captain's last speech. She decided presently to yield, and
obey her mother and stepfather. After all, what did it matter where she
went? That scheme of being happy in Sweden with Miss McCroke was but an
idle fancy. In the depths of her inner consciousness Violet Tempest
knew that she could be happy nowhere away from Rorie and the Forest.
What did it matter, then, whether she went to Jersey or Kamtchatka, the
sandy desert of Gobi or the Mountains of the Moon? In either case exile
meant moral death, the complete renunciation of all that had been sweet
and precious in her uneventful young life--the shadowy beech-groves;
the wandering streams; the heathery upland plains; the deep ferny
hollows, where the footsteps of humanity were almost unknown; the
cluster of tall trees on the hill tops, where the herons came sailing
home from their flight across Southampton Water; her childhood's
companion; her horse; her old servants. Banishment meant a long
farewell to all these.
"I suppose I may take my dog with me?" she asked, after a long pause,
during which she had wavered between submission and revolt, "and my
maid?"
"I see no objection to your taking your dog; though I doubt whether my
aunt will care to have a dog of that size prowling about her house. He
can have a kennel somewhere, I daresay. You must learn to do without a
maid. Feminine helplessness is going out of fashion; and one would
expect an Amazon like you to be independent of lady's-maids and
milliners."
"Why don't you state the case in plain English?" cried Vixen
scornfully. "If I took Phoebe with me she would cost money. There would
be her wages and maintenance to be provided. If I leave her behind, you
can dismiss her. You have a fancy for dismissing old servants."
"Had you not better see to the packing of your trunks?" asked Captain
Winstanley, ignoring this shaft.
"What is to become of my horse?"
"I think you must resign yourself to leave him to fate and me," replied
the Captain coolly; "my aunt may submit to the infliction of your dog,
but that she should tolerate a young lady's roaming about the island on
a thoroughbred horse would be rather too much to expect from her
old-fashioned notions of propriety."
"Besides, even Arion would cost something to keep," retorted Vixen,
"and strict economy is the rule of your life. If you sell him--and, of
course, you will do so--please let Lord Mallow have the refusal of him.
I think he would buy him and treat him kindly, for my sake."
"Wouldn't you rather Mr. Vawdrey had him?"
"Yes, if I were free to give him away; but I suppose you would deny my
right of property even in the horse my father gave me."
"Well, as the horse was not specified in your father's will, and as all
his horses and carriages were left to your mother, I think there cannot
be any doubt that Arion is my wife's property."
"Why not say your property? Why give unnatural prominence to a cipher?
Do you think I hold my poor mother to blame for any wrong that is done
to me, or to others, in this house? No, Captain Winstanley, I have no
resentment against my mother. She is a blameless nullity, dressed in
the latest fashion."
"Go and pack your boxes!" cried the Captain angrily. "Do you want to
raise the devil that was raised last night? Do you want another
conflagration? It might be a worse one this time. I have had a night of
fever and unrest."
"Am I to blame for that?'
"Yes--you beautiful fury. It was your image kept me awake. I shall
sleep sounder when you are out of this house."
"I shall be ready to start at ten o'clock," said Vixen, in a
business-like tone which curiously contrasted this sudden gust of
passion on the part of her foe, and humiliated him to the dust. He
loathed himself for having let her see her power to hurt him.
She left him, and went straight upstairs to her room, and gave Phoebe
directions about the packing of her portmanteaux, with no more outward
semblance of emotion than she might have shown had she been starting on
a round of pleasant visits under the happiest circumstances. The
faithful Phoebe began to cry when she heard that Miss Tempest was going
away for a long time, and that she was not to go with her; and poor
Vixen had to console her maid instead of brooding upon her own griefs.
"Never mind, Phoebe," she said; "it is as hard for me to lose you as it
is for you to lose me. I shall never forget what a devoted little thing
you have been, and all the muddy habits you have brushed without a
murmur. A few years hence I shall be my own mistress, and have plenty
of money, and then, wherever I may be, you shall come to me. If you are
married you shall be my housekeeper, and your husband shall be my
butler, and your children shall run wild about the place, and be made
as much of as the litter of young foxes Bates reared in a corner of the
stable-yard, when Mr. Vawdrey was at Eton."
"Oh, miss, I don't want no husband nor no children, I only want you for
my missus. And when you come of age, will you live here, miss?"
"No, Phoebe. The Abbey House will belong to mamma all her life. Poor
mamma! may it be long before the dear old house comes to me. But when I
am of age, and my own mistress I shall find a place somewhere in the
Forest, you may be sure of that, Phoebe."
Phoebe dried her honest tears, and made haste with the packing,
believing that Miss Tempest was leaving home for her own pleasure, and
that she, Phoebe, was the only victim of adverse fate.
The day wore on quickly, though it was laden with sorrow. Vixen had a
great deal to do in her den; papers to look over, old letters,
pen-and-ink sketches, and scribblings of all kinds to destroy, books
and photographs to pack. There were certain things she could not leave
behind her. Then there was a melancholy hour to spend in the stable,
feeding, caressing, and weeping over Arion, who snorted his tenderest
snorts, and licked her hands with abject devotion--almost as if he knew
they were going to part, Vixen thought.
Last of all came the parting with her mother. Vixen had postponed this
with an aching dread of a scene, in which she might perchance lose her
temper, and be betrayed into bitter utterances that she would
afterwards repent with useless tears. She had spoken the truth to her
stepfather when she told him that she held her mother blameless; yet
the fact that she had but the smallest share in that mother's heart was
cruelly patent to her.
It was nearly four o'clock in the afternoon when Pauline came to
Violet's room with a message from Mrs. Winstanley. She had been very
ill all the morning, Pauline informed Miss Tempest, suffering severely
from nervous headache, and obliged to lie in a darkened room. Even now
she was barely equal to seeing anyone.
"Then she had better not see me," said Vixen icily; "I can write her a
little note to say good-bye. Perhaps it would be just as well. Tell
mamma that I will write, Pauline."
Pauline departed with this message, and returned in five minutes with a
distressed visage.
"Oh, miss!" she exclaimed, "your message quite upset your poor mamma.
She said, 'How could she?' and began to get almost hysterical. And
those hysterical fits end in such fearful headaches."
"I will come at once," said Vixen.
Mrs. Winstanley was lying on a sofa near an open window, the Spanish
blinds lowered to exclude the afternoon sunshine, the perfume of the
gardens floating in upon the soft summer air. A tiny teapot and cup and
saucer on a Japanese tray showed that the invalid had been luxuriating
in her favourite stimulant. There were vases of flowers about the room,
and an all-pervading perfume and coolness--a charm half sensuous, half
aesthetic.
"Violet, how could you send me such a message?" remonstrated the
invalid fretfully.
"Dear mamma, I did not want to trouble you. I know how you shrink from
all painful things; and you and I could hardly part without pain, as we
are parting to-day. Would it not have been better to avoid any
farewell?"
"If you had any natural affection, you would never have suggested such
a thing."
"Then perhaps I have never had any natural affection," answered Vixen,
with subdued bitterness; "or only so small a stock that it ran out
early in my life, and left me cold and hard and unloving. I am sorry we
are parting like this, mamma. I am still more sorry that you could not
spare me a little of the regard which you have bestowed so lavishly
upon a stranger."
"Violet, how can you?" sobbed her mother. "To accuse me of withholding
my affection from you, when I have taken such pains with you from your
very cradle! I am sure your frocks, from the day you were short-coated,
were my constant care; and when you grew a big, lanky girl, who would
have looked odious in commonplace clothes, it was my delight to invent
picturesque and becoming costumes for you. I have spent hours poring
over books of prints, studying Vandyke and Sir Peter Lely, and I have
let you wear some of my most valuable lace; and as for indulgence of
your whims! Pray when have I ever thwarted you in anything?"
"Forgive me, mamma!" cried Vixen penitently. She divined dimly--even in
the midst of that flood of bitter feeling in which her young soul was
overwhelmed--that Mrs. Winstanley had been a good mother, according to
her lights. The tree had borne such fruit as was natural to its kind.
"Pray forgive me! You have been good and kind and indulgent, and we
should have gone on happily together to the end of the chapter, if fate
had been kinder."
"It's no use your talking of fate in that way, Violet," retorted her
mother captiously. "I know you mean Conrad."
"Perhaps I do, mamma; but don't let us talk of him any more. We should
never agree about him. You and he can be quite happy when I am gone.
Poor, dear, trusting, innocent-minded mamma!" cried Vixen, kneeling by
her mother's chair, and putting her arms round her ever so tenderly.
"May your path of life be smooth and strewn with flowers when I am
gone. If Captain Winstanley does not always treat you kindly, he will
be a greater scoundrel than I think him. But he has always been kind to
you, has he not, mamma? You are not hiding any sorrow of yours from
me?' asked Vixen, fixing her great brown eyes on her mother's face with
earnest inquiry. She had assumed the maternal part. She seemed an
anxious mother questioning her daughter.
"Kind to me," echoed Mrs. Winstanley. "He has been all goodness. We
have never had a difference of opinion since we were married."
"No, mamma, because you always defer to his opinion."
"Is not that my duty, when I know how clever and far-seeing he is?"
"Frankly, dear mother, are you as happy with this new husband of
yours--so wise and far-seeing, and determined to have his own way in
everything--as you were with my dear, indulgent, easy-tempered father?"
Pamela Winstanley burst into a passion of tears.
"How can you be so cruel?" she exclaimed. "Who can give back the past,
or the freshness and brightness of one's youth? Of course I was happier
with your dear father than I can ever be again. It is not in nature
that it should be otherwise. How could you be so heartless as to ask me
such a question?"
She dried her tears slowly, and was not easily comforted. It seemed as
if that speech of Violet's had touched a spring that opened a fountain
of grief.
"This means that mamma is not happy with her second husband, in spite
of her praises of him," thought Vixen.
She remained kneeling by her mother's side comforting her as best she
could, until Mrs. Winstanley had recovered from the wound her
daughter's heedless words had inflicted, and then Violet began to say
good-bye.
"You will write to me sometimes, won't you, mamma, and tell me how the
dear old place is going on, and about the old people who die--dear
familiar white heads that I shall never see again--and the young people
who get married, and the babies that are born? You will write often,
won't you, mamma?"
"Yes, dear, as often as my strength will allow."
"You might even get Pauline to write to me sometimes, to tell me how
you are and what you are doing; that would be better than nothing."
"Pauline shall write when I am not equal to holding a pen," sighed Mrs.
Winstanley.
"And, dear mamma, if you can prevent it, don't let any more of the old
servants be sent away. If they drop off one by one home will seem like
a strange place at last. Remember how they loved my dear father, how
attached and faithful they have been to us. They are like our own flesh
and blood."
"I should never willingly part with servants who know my ways, Violet.
But as to Bates's dismissal--there are some things I had rather not
discuss with you--I am sure that Conrad acted for the best, and from
the highest motives."
"Do you know anything about this place to which I am going, mamma?"
asked Vixen, letting her mother's last speech pass without comment; "or
the lady who is to be my duenna?"
"Your future has been fully discussed between Conrad and me, Violet. He
tells me that the old Jersey manor house--Les Tourelles it is
called--is a delightful place, one of the oldest seats in Jersey, and
Miss Skipwith, to whom it belongs, is a well-informed conscientious old
lady, very religious, I believe, so you will have to guard against your
sad habit of speaking lightly about sacred things, my dear Violet."
"Do you intend me to live there for ever, mamma?"
"For ever! What a foolish question. In six years you will be of age,
and your own mistress."
"Six years--six years in a Jersey manor house--with a pious old lady.
Don't you think that would seem very much like for ever, mamma?" asked
Vixen gravely.
"My dear Violet, neither Conrad nor I want to banish you from your
natural home. We only want you to learn wisdom. When Mr. Vawdrey is
married, and when you have learnt to think more kindly of my dear
husband----"
"That last change will never happen to me, mamma. I should have to die
and be born again first, and, even then, I think my dislike of Captain
Winstanley is so strong that purgatorial fires would hardly burn it
out. No, mamma, we had better say good-bye without any forecast of the
future. Let us forget all that is sad in our parting, and think we are
only going to part for a little while."
Many a time in after days did Violet Tempest remember those last
serious words of hers. The rest of her conversation with her mother was
about trifles, the trunks and bonnet-boxes she was to carry with
her--the dresses she was to wear in her exile.
"Of course in a retired old house in Jersey, with an elderly maiden
lady, you will not see much society," said Mrs. Winstanley; "but Miss
Skipwith must know people--no doubt the best people in the island--and
I should not like you to be shabby. Are you really positive that you
have dresses enough to carry you over next winter?"
This last question was asked with deepest solemnity.
"More than enough, mamma."
"And do you think your last winter's jacket will do?"
"Excellently."
"I'm very glad of that," said her mother, with a sigh of relief, "for I
have an awful bill of Theodore's hanging over my head. I have been
paying her sums on account ever since your poor papa's death; and you
know that is never quite satisfactory. All that one has paid hardly
seems to make any difference in the amount due at the end."
"Don't worry yourself about your bill, mamma. Let it stand over till I
come of age, and then I can help you to pay it."
"You are very generous, dear; but Theodore would not wait so long, even
for me. Be sure you take plenty of wraps for the steamer. Summer nights
are often chilly."
Vixen thought of last night, and the long straight ride through the
pine wood, the soft scented air, the young moon shining down at her,
and Rorie by her side. Ah, when should she ever know such a summer
night as that again?
"Sit down in this low chair by me, and have a cup of tea, dear," said
Mrs. Winstanley, growing more affectionate as the hour of parting drew
nearer. "Let us have kettledrum together for the last time, till you
come back to us."
"For the last time, mamma!" echoed Violet sadly.
She could not imagine any possible phase of circumstances that would
favour her return. Could she come back to see Roderick Vawdrey happy
with his wife? Assuredly not. Could she school herself to endure life
under the roof that sheltered Conrad Winstanley? A thousand times no.
Coming home was something to be dreamt about when she lay asleep in a
distant land; but it was a dream that never could be realised. She must
make herself a new life, somehow, among new people. The old life died
to-day.
She sat and sipped her tea, and listened while her mother talked
cheerfully of the future, and even pretended to agree; but her heart
was heavy as lead.
An hour was dawdled away thus, and then, when Mrs. Winstanley began to
think about dressing for dinner, Vixen went off to finish her packing.
She excused herself from going down to dinner on the plea or having so
much to do.
"You could send me up something, please, mamma," she said. "I am sure
you and Captain Winstanley will dine more pleasantly without me. I
shall see you for a minute in the hall, before I start."
"You must do as you please, dear," replied her mother. "I hardly feel
equal to going down to dinner myself; but it would not be fair to let
Conrad eat a second meal in solitude, especially when we are to be
parted for two or three days and he is going across the sea. I shall
not have a minute's rest to-night, thinking of you both."
"Sleep happily, dear mother, and leave us to Providence. The voyage
cannot be perilous in such weather as this," said Vixen, with assumed
cheerfulness.
Two hours later the carriage was at the door, and Violet Tempest was
ready to start. Her trunks were on the roof of the brougham, her
dressing-bag, and travelling-desk, and wraps were stowed away inside;
Argus was by her side, his collar provided with a leather strap, by
which she could hold him when necessary. Captain Winstanley was smoking
a cigar on the porch.
Mrs. Winstanley came weeping out of the drawing-room, and hugged her
daughter silently. Violet returned the embrace, but said not a word
till just at the last.
"Dear mother," she whispered earnestly, "never be unhappy about me. Let
me bear the blame of all that has gone amiss between us."
"You had better be quick, Miss Tempest, if you want to be in time for
the boat," said the Captain from the porch.
"I am quite ready," answered Vixen calmly.
Phoebe was at the carriage-door, tearful, and in everybody's way, but
pretending to help. Argus was sent up to the box, where he sat beside
the coachman with much gravity of demeanour, having first assured
himself that his mistress was inside the carriage. Mrs. Winstanley
stood in the porch, kissing her hand; and so the strong big horses bore
the carriage away, through the dark shrubberies, between banks of
shadowy foliage, out into the forest-road, which was full of ghosts at
this late hour, and would have struck terror to the hearts of any
horses unaccustomed to its sylvan mysteries.
They drove through Lyndhurst, where the twinkling little lights in the
shop-windows were being extinguished by envious shutters, and where the
shop-keepers paused in their work of extinction to stare amazedly at
the passing carriage; not that a carriage was a strange apparition in
Lyndhurst, but because the inhabitants had so little to do except stare.
Anon they came to Bolton's Bench, beneath a cluster of pine-trees on a
hilly bit of common, and then the long straight road to Southampton lay
before them in the faint moonshine, with boggy levels, black
furze-bushes, and a background of wood on either side. Violet sat
looking steadily out of the window, watching every bit of the road. How
could she tell when she would see it again--or if ever, save in sad
regretful dreams?
They mounted the hill, from whose crest Vixen took one last backwards
look at the wide wild land that lay behind them--a look of ineffable
love and longing. And then she threw herself back in the carriage, and
gave herself up to gloomy thought. There was nothing more that she
cared to see. They had entered the tame dull world of civilisation.
They drove through the village of Eling, where lights burned dimly here
and there in upper windows; they crossed the slow meandering river at
Redbridge. Already the low line of lights in Southampton city began to
shine faintly in the distance. Violet shut her eyes and let the
landscape go by. Suburban villas, suburban gardens on a straight road
beside a broad river with very little water in it. There was nothing
here to regret.
It was past eleven when they drove under the old bar, and through the
high street of Southampton. The town seemed strange to Vixen at this
unusual hour. The church clocks were striking the quarter. Down by the
docks everything had a gray and misty look, sky and water
indistinguishable. There lay the Jersey boat, snorting and puffing,
amidst the dim grayness. Captain Winstanley conducted his charge to the
ladies' cabin, with no more words than were positively necessary. They
had not spoken once during the drive from the Abbey House to
Southampton.
"I think you had better stay down here till the vessel has started, at
any rate," said the Captain, "there will be so much bustle and
confusion on deck. I'll take care of your dog."
"Thanks," answered Vixen meekly. "Yes, I'll stay here--you need not
trouble yourself about me."
"Shall I send you something? A cup of tea, the wing of a chicken, a
little wine and water?"
"No, thanks, I don't care about anything."
The Captain withdrew after this to look after the luggage, and to
secure his own berth. The stewardess received Violet as if she had
known her all her life, showed her the couch allotted to her, and to
secure which the Captain had telegraphed that morning from Lyndhurst.
"It was lucky your good gentleman took the precaution to telegraph,
mum," said the cordial stewardess; "the boats are always crowded at
this time of the year, and the _Fanny_ is such a favourite."
The cabin was wide and lofty and airy, quite an exceptional thing in
ladies' cabins; but presently there came a troop of stout matrons with
their olive-branches, all cross and sleepy, and dazed at finding
themselves in a strange place at an unearthly hour. There was the usual
sprinkling of babies, and most of the babies cried. One baby was
afflicted with unmistakable whooping cough, and was a source of terror
to the mothers of all the other babies. There was a general opening of
hand-bags and distribution of buns, biscuits, and sweeties for the
comfort and solace of this small fry. Milk was imbibed noisily out of
mysterious bottles, some of them provided with gutta-percha tubes,
which made the process of refreshment look like laying on gas. Vixen
turned her back upon the turmoil, and listened to the sad sea waves
plashing lazily against the side of the boat.
She wondered what Rorie was doing at this midnight hour? Did he know
yet that she was gone--vanished out of his life for ever? No; he could
hardly have heard of her departure yet awhile, swiftly as all tidings
travelled in that rustic world of the Forest. Had he made up his mind
to keep faith with Lady Mabel? Had he forgiven Vixen for refusing to
abet him in treachery against his affianced?
"Poor Rorie," sighed the girl; "I think we might have been happy
together."
And then she remembered the days of old, when Mr. Vawdrey was free, and
when it had never dawned upon his slow intelligence that his old
playfellow, Violet Tempest, was the one woman in all this wide world
who had the power to make his life happy.
"I think he thought lightly of me because of all our foolishness when
he was a boy," mused Vixen. "I seemed to him less than other
women--because of those old sweet memories--instead of more."
It was a dreary voyage for Violet Tempest--a kind of maritime
purgatory. The monotonous thud of the engine, the tramping of feet
overhead, the creaking and groaning of the vessel, the squalling
babies, the fussy mothers, the dreadful people who could not travel
from Southampton to Jersey on a calm summer night without exhibiting
all the horrors of seasickness. Vixen thought of the sufferings of poor
black human creatures in the middle passage, of the ghastly terrors of
a mutiny, of a ship on fire, of the Ancient Mariner on his slimy sea,
when
The very deep did rot; O Christ,
That ever this should be;
Yea, slimy things did crawl with legs
Upon the slimy sea!
She wondered in her weary soul whether these horrors, which literature
had made familiar to her, were much worse than the smart white and gold
cabin of the good ship _Fanny_, filled to overflowing with the contents
of half-a-dozen nurseries.
Towards daybreak there came a lull. The crossest of the babies had
exhausted its capacity for making its fellow-creatures miserable. The
sea-sick mothers and nurses had left off groaning, and starting
convulsively from their pillows, with wild shrieks for the stewardess,
and had sunk into troubled slumbers. Vixen turned her back upon the
dreadful scene--dimly lighted by flickering oil-lamps, like those that
burn before saintly shrines in an old French cathedral--and shut her
eyes and tried to lose herself in the tangled wilderness of sleep. But
to-night that blessed refuge of the unhappy was closed against her. The
calm angel of sleep would have nothing to do with a soul so troubled.
She could only lie staring at the port-hole, which stared back at her
like a giant's dark angry eye, and waiting for morning.
Morning came at last, with the skirmishing toilets of the children,
fearful struggles for brushes and combs, towel fights, perpetual
clamour for missing pieces of soap, a great deal of talk about strings
and buttons, and a chorus of crying babies. Then stole through the
stuffy atmosphere savoury odours of breakfast, the fumes of coffee,
fried bacon, grilled fish. Sloppy looking cups of tea were administered
to the sufferers of last night. The yellow sunshine filled the cabin.
Vixen made a hasty toilet, and hurried up to the deck. Here all was
glorious. A vast world of sunlit water. No sign yet of rock-bound
island above the white-crested waves. The steamer might have been in
the midst of the Atlantic. Captain Winstanley was on the bridge,
smoking his morning cigar. He gave Violet a cool nod, which she
returned as coolly. She found a quiet corner where she could sit and
watch the waves slowly rising and falling, the white foam-crests slowly
gathering, the light spray dashing against the side of the boat, the
cataract of white roaring water leaping from the swift paddle-wheel and
melting into a long track of foam. By-and-by they came to Guernsey,
which looked grim and military, and not particularly inviting, even in
the morning sunlight. That picturesque island hides her beauties from
those who only behold her from the sea. Here there was an exodus of
passengers, and of luggage, and an invasion of natives with baskets of
fruit. Vixen bought some grapes and peaches of a female native in a
cap, whose patois was the funniest perversion of French and English
imaginable. And then a bell rang clamorously, and there was a general
stampede, and the gangway was pulled up and the vessel was steaming
gaily towards Jersey; while Vixen sat eating grapes and looking
dreamily skyward, and wondering whether her mother was sleeping
peacefully under the dear old Abbey House roof, undisturbed by any pang
of remorse for having parted with an only child so lightly.
An hour or so and Jersey was in sight, all rocky peaks and
promontories. Anon the steamer swept round a sudden curve, and lo,
Vixen beheld a bristling range of fortifications, a rather untidy
harbour, and the usual accompaniments of a landing-place, the midsummer
sun shining vividly upon the all pervading whiteness.
"Is this the bay that some people have compared to Naples?" Violet
asked her conductor, with a contemptuous curl of her mobile lip, as she
and Captain Winstanley took their seats in a roomy old fly, upon which
the luggage was being piled in the usual mountainous and
insecure-looking style.
"You have not seen it yet from the Neapolitan point of view," said the
Captain. "This quay is not the prettiest bit of Jersey."
"I am glad of that, very glad," answered Vixen acidly; "for if it were,
the Jersey notion of the beautiful would be my idea of ugliness. Oh
what an utterly too horrid street!" she cried, as the fly drove through
the squalid approach to the town, past dirty gutter-bred children, and
women with babies, who looked to the last degree Irish, and the dead
high wall of the fortifications. "Does your aunt live hereabouts, _par
exemple_, Captain Winstanley?"
"My aunt lives six good miles from here, Miss Tempest, in one of the
loveliest spots in the island, amidst scenery that is almost as fine as
the Pyrenees."
"I have heard people say that of anything respectable in the shape of a
hill," answered Vixen, with a dubious air.
She was in a humour to take objection to everything, and had a flippant
air curiously at variance with the dull aching of her heart. She was
determined to take the situation lightly. Not for worlds would she have
let Captain Winstanley see her wounds, or guess how deep they were. She
set her face steadily towards the hills in which her place of exile was
hidden, and bore herself bravely. Conrad Winstanley gave her many a
furtive glance as he sat opposite her in the fly, while they drove
slowly up the steep green country lanes, leaving the white town in the
valley below them.
"The place is not so bad, after all," said Vixen, looking back at the
conglomeration of white walls and slate roofs, of docks and shipping,
and barracks, on the edge of a world of blue water, "not nearly so
odious as it looked when we landed. But it is a little disappointing at
best, like all places that people praise ridiculously. I had pictured
Jersey as a tropical island, with cactuses and Cape jasmine growing in
the hedges, orchards of peaches and apricots, and melons running wild."
"To my mind the island is a pocket edition of Devonshire with a dash of
Brittany," answered the Captain. "There's a fig-tree for you!" he
cried, pointing to a great spreading mass of five-fingered leaves
lolloping over a pink plastered garden-wall--an old untidy tree that
had swallowed up the whole extent of a cottager's garden. "You don't
see anything like that in the Forest."
"No," answered Vixen, tightening her lips; "we have only oaks and
beeches that have been growing since the Heptarchy."
And now they entered a long lane, where the interlaced tree-tops made
an arcade of foliage--a lane whose beauty even Vixen could not gainsay.
Ah, there were the Hampshire ferns on the steep green banks! She gave a
little choking sob at sight of them, as if they had been living things.
Hart's-tongue, and lady-fern, and the whole family of osmundas. Yes;
they were all there. It was like home--with a difference.
Here and there they passed a modern villa, in its park-like grounds,
and the Captain, who evidently wished to be pleasant, tried to expound
to Violet the conditions of Jersey leases, and the difficulties which
attend the purchase of land or tenements in that feudal settlement. But
Vixen did not even endeavour to understand him. She listened with an
air of polite vacancy which was not encouraging.
They passed various humbler homesteads, painted a lively pink, or a
refreshing lavender, with gardens where the fuchsias were trees covered
with crimson bloom, and where gigantic hydrangeas bloomed in palest
pink and brightest azure in wildest abundance. Here Vixen beheld for
the first time those preposterous cabbages from whose hyper-natural
growth the islanders seem to derive a loftier pride than from any other
productions of the island, not excepting its grapes and its lobsters.
"I don't suppose you ever saw cabbages growing six feet high before,"
said the Captain.
"No," answered Vixen; "they are too preposterous to be met with in a
civilised country. Poor Charles the Second! I don't wonder that he was
wild and riotous when he came to be king."
"Why not?"
"Because he had spent several months of exile among his loyal subjects
in Jersey. A man who had been buried alive in such a fragmentary bit of
the world must have required some compensation in after life."
They had mounted a long hill which seemed the pinnacle of the island,
and from whose fertile summit the view was full of beauty--a green
undulating garden-world, ringed with yellow sands and bright blue sea;
and now they began to descend gently by a winding lane where again the
topmost elm-branches were interwoven, and where the glowing June day
was softened to a tender twilight. A curve in the lane brought them
suddenly to an old gateway, with a crumbling stone bench in a nook
beside it--a bench where the wayfarer used to sit and wait for alms,
when the site of Les Tourelles was occupied by a monastery.
The old manor house rose up behind the dilapidated wall--a goodly old
house as to size and form--overlooking a noble sweep of hillside and
valley; a house with a gallery on the roof for purposes of observation,
but with as dreary and abandoned a look about its blank curtainless
windows as if mansion and estate had been in Chancery for the last
half-century.
"A fine old place, is it not?" asked the Captain, while a cracked bell
was jingling in remote distance, amidst the drowsy summer stillness,
without eliciting so much as the bark of a house-dog.
"It looks very big," Violet answered dubiously, "and very empty."
"My aunt has no relatives residing with her."
"If she had started in life with a large family of brothers and
sisters, I should think they would all be dead by this time," said the
girl, with a stifled yawn that was half a sigh.
"How do you mean?"
"They would have died of the stillness and solitude and all-pervading
desolation of Les Tourelles."
"Strange houses are apt to look desolate."
"Yes. Particularly when the windows have neither blinds nor curtains,
and the walls have not been painted for a century."
After this conversation flagged. The jingling bell was once more set
going in the unknown distance; Vixen sat looking sleepily at the arched
roof of foliage chequered with blue sky. Argus lolled against the
carriage-door with his tongue out.
They waited five minutes or so, languidly expectant. Vixen began to
wonder whether the gates would ever open--whether there were really any
living human creatures in that blank dead-looking house--whether they
would not have to give up all idea of entering, and drive back to the
harbour, and return to Hampshire by the way they had come.
While she sat idly wondering thus, with the sleepy buzz of summer
insects and melodious twittering of birds soothing her senses like a
lullaby, the old gate groaned upon its rusty hinges, and a middle-aged
woman in a black gown and a white cap appeared--a female who recognised
Captain Winstanley with a curtsey, and came out to receive the smaller
packages from the flyman.
"Antony will take the portmanteaux," she said; "the boat must have come
in earlier than usual. We did not expect you so soon."
"This is one of Miss Skipwith's servants," thought Vixen; "rather a
vinegary personage. I hope the other maids are nicer."
The person spoken of as Antony now appeared, and began to hale about
Violet's portmanteaux. He was a middle-aged man, with a bald head and a
melancholy aspect. His raiment was shabby; his costume something
between that of a lawyer's clerk and an agricultural labourer. Argus
saluted this individual with a suppressed growl.
"Sh!" cried the female vindictively, flapping her apron at the dog,
"whose dog is this, sir? He doesn't belong to you, surely?"
"He belongs to Miss Tempest. You must find a corner for him somewhere
in the outbuildings, Hannah," said the Captain. "The dog is harmless
enough, and friendly enough when he is used to people."
"That won't be much good if he bites us before he gets used to us, and
we die of hydrophobia in the meantime," retorted Hannah; "I believe he
has taken a dislike to Antony already."
"Argus won't bite anyone," said Vixen, laying her hand upon the dog's
collar, "I'll answer for his good conduct. Please try and find him a
nice snug nest somewhere--if I mustn't have him in the house."
"In the house!" cried Hannah. "Miss Skipwith would faint at the mention
of such a thing. I don't know how she'll ever put up with a huge beast
like that anywhere about the place. He must be kept as much out of her
sight as possible."
"I'm sorry Argus isn't welcome," said Vixen proudly.
She was thinking that her own welcome at Les Tourelles could hardly be
more cordial than that accorded to Argus. She had left home because
nobody wanted her there. How could she expect that anyone wanted her
here, where she was a stranger, preceded, perhaps, by the reputation of
her vices? The woman in the rusty mourning-gown, the man in the shabby
raiment and clod-hopper boots, gave her no smile of greeting. Over this
new home of hers there hung an unspeakable melancholy. Her heart sank
as she crossed the threshold.
Oh, what a neglected, poverty-stricken air the garden had, after the
gardens Violet Tempest had been accustomed to look upon! Ragged trees,
rank grass, empty flower-beds, weeds in abundance. A narrow paved
colonnade ran along one side of the house. They went by this paved way
to a dingy little door--not the hall-door, that was never opened--and
entered the house by a lobby, which opened into a small parlour, dark
and shabby, with one window looking into a court-yard. There were a
good many books upon the green baize table-cover; pious books mostly,
Vixen saw, with a strange revulsion of feeling; as if that were the
culmination of her misery. There was an old-fashioned work-table, with
a faded red silk well, beside the open window. A spectacle-case on the
work-table, and an armchair before it, indicated that the room had been
lately occupied. It was altogether one of the shabbiest rooms Vixen had
ever seen--the furniture belonging to the most odious period of
cabinet-making, the carpet unutterably dingy, the walls mildewed and
mouldy, the sole decorations some pale engravings of naval battles,
which might be the victories or defeats of any maritime hero, from
Drake to Nelson.
"Come and see the house," said the Captain, reading the disgust in his
stepdaughter's pale face.
He opened a door leading into the hall, a large and lofty apartment,
with a fine old staircase ascending to a square gallery. The heavy oak
balusters had been painted white, so had the panelling in the hall.
Time had converted both to a dusky gray. Some rusty odds and ends of
armour, and a few dingy family portraits decorated the walls; but of
furniture there was not a vestige.
Opening out of the hall there was a large long room with four windows
looking into a small wilderness that had once been a garden, and
commanding a fine view of land and sea. This the Captain called the
drawing-room. It was sparsely furnished with a spindle-legged table,
half-a-dozen armchairs covered with faded tapestry, an antique
walnut-wood cabinet, another of ebony, a small oasis of carpet in the
middle of the bare oak floor.
"This and the parlour you have seen are all the sitting-rooms my aunt
occupies," said Captain Winstanley; "the rest of the rooms on this
floor are empty, or only used for storehouses. It is a fine old house.
I believe the finest in the island."
"Is there a history hanging to it?" asked Vixen, looking drearily round
the spacious desolate chamber. "Has it been used as a prison, or a
madhouse, or what? I never saw a house that filled me with such
nameless horrors."
"You are fanciful," said the Captain. "The house has no story except
the common history of fallen fortunes. It has been in the Skipwith
family ever since it was built. They were Leicestershire people, and
came to Jersey after the civil war--came here to be near their prince
in his exile--settled here and built Les Tourelles. I believe they
expected Charles would do something handsome for them when he came into
his own, but he didn't do anything. Sir John Skipwith stayed in the
island and became a large landowner, and died at an advanced age--there
is nothing to kill people here, you see--and the Skipwiths have been
Jersey people ever since. They were once the richest family in the
island. They are now one of the poorest. When I say they, I mean my
aunt. She is the last of her race. The Skipwiths have crystallised into
one maiden lady, my mother's only sister."
"Then your mother was a Skipwith?" asked Violet.
"Yes."
"And she was born and brought up here?"
"Yes. She never left Jersey till my father married her. He was here
with his regiment when they met at the governor's ball. Oh, here is my
aunt," said the Captain, as a rustling of silk sounded in the empty
hall.
Vixen drew herself up stiffly, as if preparing to meet a foe. She had
made up her mind to detest Miss Skipwith.
The lady of the manor entered. She shook hands with her nephew, and
presented him with a pale and shrivelled cheek, which he respectfully
saluted.
She was an elderly and faded person, very tall and painfully thin, but
aristocratic to the highest degree. There was the indication of race in
her aquiline nose, high narrow brow and neatly cut chin, her tapering
hand and small slender foot. She was dressed in black silk, rustier and
older than any silk Vixen had ever seen before: not even excepting Mrs.
Scobel's black silk dresses, when they had been degraded from their
original rank to the scrubbery of early services and daily wear. Her
thin gray hair was shaded by a black lace cap, decorated with bugles
and black weedy grasses. She wore black mittens, and jet jewellery, and
was altogether as deeply sable as if she had been in mourning for the
whole of the Skipwith race.
She received Miss Tempest with a formal politeness which was not
encouraging.
"I hope you will be able to make yourself happy here," she said; "and
that you have resources within yourself that will suffice for the
employment of your time and thoughts. I receive no company, and I never
go out. The class of people who now occupy the island are a class with
which I should not care to associate, and which, I daresay, would not
appreciate me. I have my own resources, and my life is fully employed.
My only complaint is that the days are not long enough. A quiet
existence like mine offers vast opportunities for culture and
self-improvement. I hope you will take advantage of them, Miss Tempest."
Poor Violet faltered something vaguely civil, looking sorely bewildered
all the time. Miss Skipwith's speech sounded so like the address of a
schoolmistress that Vixen began to think she had been trapped unawares
in a school, as people are sometimes trapped in a madhouse.
"I don't think Miss Tempest is given much to study," said the Captain
graciously, as if he and Violet were on the friendliest terms; "but she
is very fond of the country, and I am sure the scenery of Jersey will
delight her. By-the-way, we ventured to bring her big dog. He will be a
companion and protector for her in her walks. I have asked Doddery to
find him a kennel somewhere among your capacious outbuildings."
"He must not come into the house," said Miss Skipwith grimly; "I
couldn't have a dog inside my doors. I have a Persian that has been my
attached companion for the last ten years. What would that dear
creature's feelings be if he saw himself exposed to the attacks of a
savage dog?"
"My dog is not savage, to Persians or anyone else," cried Vixen,
wondering what inauspicious star had led the footsteps of an oriental
wanderer to so dreary a refuge as Les Tourelles.
"You would like to see your bedroom, perhaps?" suggested Miss Skipwith,
and on Violet's assenting, she was handed over to Hannah Doddery, the
woman who had opened the gate.
Hannah led the way up the broad old staircase, all bare and carpetless,
and opened one of the doors in the gallery. The room into which she
ushered Violet was large and airy, with windows commanding the fair
garden-like island, and the wide blue sea. But there was the same bare,
poverty-stricken look in this room as in every other part of the manor
house. The bed was a tall melancholy four-poster, with scantiest
draperies of faded drab damask. Save for one little islet of threadbare
Brussels beside the bed, the room was carpetless. There was an ancient
wainscot wardrobe with brass handles. There was a modern deal
dressing-table skimpily draped with muslin, and surmounted by the
smallest of looking-glasses. There were a couple of chairs and a
three-cornered washhand-stand. There was neither sofa nor
writing-table. There was not an ornament on the high wooden
mantelshelf, or a picture on the panelled walls. Vixen shivered as she
surveyed the big barren room.
"I think you will find everything comfortable," said Mrs. Doddery, with
a formal air, which seemed to say, "and whether you do or do not
matters nothing to me."
"Thank you, yes, I daresay it is all right," Vixen answered absently,
standing at one of the windows, gazing out over the green hills and
valleys to the fair summer sea, and wondering whether she would be able
to take comfort from the fertile beauty of the island.
"The bed has been well aired," continued Mrs. Doddery, "and I can
answer for the cleanliness of everything."
"Thanks! Will you kindly send one of the maids to help me unpack my
portmanteau?"
"I can assist you," Mrs. Doddery answered. "We have no maid-servant. My
husband and I are able to do all that Miss Skipwith requires. She is a
lady who gives so little trouble."
"Do you mean to say there are no other servants in this great house--no
housemaids, no cooks?"
"I have cooked for Miss Skipwith for the last thirty years. The house
is large, but there are very few rooms in occupation."
"I ought to have brought my maid," cried Vixen. "It will be quite
dreadful. I don't want much waiting upon; but still, I'm afraid I shall
give some trouble until I learn to do everything for myself. Just as if
I were cast on a desert island," she said to herself in conclusion; and
then she thought of Helen Rolleston, the petted beauty in Charles
Reade's "Foul Play," cast with her faithful lover on an unknown island
of the fair southern sea. But in this island of Jersey there was no
faithful lover to give romance and interest to the situation. There was
nothing but dull dreary reality.
"I daresay I shall be able to do all you require, without feeling it
any extra trouble, unless you are very helpless," said Mrs. Doddery,
who was on her knees unstrapping one of the portmanteaux.
"I am not helpless," replied Vixen, "though I daresay I have been
waited on much more than was good for me."
And then she knelt down before the other portmanteau, and undid the
buckles of the thick leather straps, in which operation she broke more
than one of her nails, and wounded her rosy finger-tips.
"Oh dear, what a useless creature I am," she thought; "and why do
people strap portmanteaux so tightly? Never mind, after a month's
residence at Les Tourelles I shall be a Spartan."
"Would you like me to unpack your trunks for you?" inquired Mrs.
Doddery, with an accent which sounded slightly ironical.
"Oh no, thanks, I can get on very well now," answered Vixen quickly;
whereupon the housekeeper opened the drawers and cupboards in the big
wainscot wardrobe, and left Miss Tempest to her own devices.
The shelves and drawers were neatly lined with white paper, and strewed
with dried lavender. This was luxury which Vixen had not expected. She
laid her pretty dresses on the shelves, smiling scornfully as she
looked at them. Of what use could pretty dresses be in a desert island?
And here were her riding-habit and her collection of whips--useless
lumber where there was no hope of a horse. She was obliged to put her
books in the wardrobe, as there was no other place for them. Her desk
and workbox she was fain to place on the floor, for the small
dressing-table would accommodate no more than her dressing-case,
devotional books, brushes and combs, pomatum-pots, and pinboxes.
"Oh dear," she sighed. "I have a great deal too much property for a
desert island. I wonder whether in some odd corner of Les Tourelles I
could find such a thing as a spare table?"
When she had finished her unpacking she went down to the hall. Not
seeing anyone about, and desiring rather to avoid Captain Winstanley
and his aunt than to rejoin them, she wandered out of the hall into one
of the many passages of the old manor house, and began a voyage of
discovery on her own account.
"If they ask me what I have been doing I can say I lost myself," she
thought.
She found the most curious rooms--or rather rooms that had once been
stately and handsome, now applied to the most curious purposes--a
dining-hall with carved stone chimney-piece and painted ceiling, used
as a storehouse for apples; another fine apartment in which a heap of
potatoes reposed snugly in a corner, packed in straw; there was a
spacious kitchen with a fire-place as large as a moderate-sized room--a
kitchen that had been abandoned altogether to spiders, beetles, rats,
and mice. A whole army of four-footed vermin scampered off as Vixen
crossed the threshold. She could see them scuttling and scurrying along
by the wall, with a whisking of slender tails as they vanished into
their holes. The beetles were disporting themselves on the desolate
hearth, the spiders had woven draperies for the dim dirty windows. The
rustling leaves of a fig-tree, that had grown close to this side of the
house, flapped against the window-panes with a noise of exceeding
ghostliness.
From the kitchen Vixen wandered to the out-houses, and found Argus
howling dismally in a grass-grown court-yard, evidently believing
himself abandoned by the world. His rapture at beholding his mistress
was boundless.
"You darling, I would give the world to let you loose," cried Vixen,
after she had been nearly knocked down by the dog's affectionate
greeting; "but I mustn't just yet. I'll come by-and-by and take you for
a walk. Yes, dear old boy, we'll have a long ramble together, just as
we used to do at home."
Home, now she had left it, seemed so sweet a word that her lips
trembled a little as she pronounced it.
Everything without the house was as dreary as it was within. Poverty
had set its mark on all things, like a blight. Decay was visible
everywhere--in the wood-work, in the stone-work, in hinges and handles,
thresholds and lintels, ceilings and plastered walls. It would have
cost a thousand pounds to put the manor house in decent habitable
order. To have restored it to its original dignity and comeliness would
have cost at least five thousand. Miss Skipwith could afford to spend
nothing upon the house she lived in; indeed she could barely afford the
necessaries of life. So for the last thirty years Les Tourelles had
been gradually decaying, until the good old house had arrived at a
stage in which decay could hardly go farther without lapsing into
destruction.
A door opened out of the court-yard into the weedy garden. This was not
without a kind of beauty that had survived long neglect. The spreading
fig-trees, the bushes of bright red fuchsia, and the unpruned roses
made a fertile wilderness of flowers and foliage. There was a terrace
in front of the drawing-room windows, and from this a flight of
crumbling moss-grown stone steps led down to the garden, which was on
the slope of the hill, and lay considerably below the level of the
house.
While Vixen was perambulating the garden, a bell rang in a cupola on
the roof; and as this sounded like the summons to a meal, she felt that
politeness, if not appetite, demanded her return to the house.
"Three o'clock," she said, looking at her watch. "What a late hour for
luncheon!"
She made her way back to the small side-door at which she had entered
with Captain Winstanley, and went into the parlour, where she found the
Captain and his aunt. The table was laid, but they had not seated
themselves.
"I hope I have not kept you waiting," Vixen said apologetically.
"My aunt has been waiting five minutes or so; but I'm sure she will
forgive you, as you don't yet know the ways of the house," replied the
Captain amiably.
"We have early habits at Les Tourelles, Miss Tempest," said the lady of
the manor: "we breakfast at half-past seven and dine at three; that
arrangement gives me a long morning for study. At six we drink tea,
and, if you care for supper, it can be served for you on a tray at
half-past nine. The house is shut, and all lamps put out, at ten."
"As regularly as on board ship," said the Captain. "I know the customs
of the manor of old."
"You have never favoured me with a long visit, Conrad," remarked Miss
Skipwith reproachfully.
"My life has been too busy for making long visits anywhere, my dear
aunt."
They took their places at the small square table, and Miss Skipwith
said grace. Antony Doddery was in attendance, clad in rusty black, and
looking as like a butler as a man who cleaned windows, scrubbed floors,
and hewed wood could be fairly expected to look. He removed the cover
of a modest dish of fish with a grand air, and performed all the
services of the table with as much dignity as if he had never been
anything less than a butler. He poured out a glass of ale for the
Captain and a glass of water for his mistress. Miss Skipwith seemed
relieved when Violet said she preferred water to ale, and did not
particularly care about wine.
"I used to drink wine at home very often, just because it was put in my
glass, but I like water quite as well," said Vixen.
After the fish there came a small joint of lamb, and a couple of dishes
of vegetables; then a small custard pudding, and some cheese cut up in
very minute pieces in a glass dish, some raw garden-stuff which Doddery
called salad, and three of last year's pears in an old Derby
dessert-dish. The dinner could hardly have been smaller, but it was
eminently genteel.
The conversation was entirely between Captain Winstanley and his aunt.
Vixen sat and listened wonderingly, save at odd times, when her
thoughts strayed back to the old life which she had done with for ever.
"You still continue your literary labours, I suppose, aunt," said the
Captain.
"They are the chief object of my existence. When I abandon them I shall
have done with life," replied Miss Skipwith gravely.
"But you have not yet published your book."
"No; I hope when I do that even you will hear of it."
"I have no doubt it will make a sensation."
"If it does not I have lived and laboured in vain. But my book may make
a sensation, and yet fall far short of the result which I have toiled
and hoped for."
"And that is----"
"The establishment of a universal religion."
"That is a large idea!"
"Would a small idea be worth the devotion of a life? For thirty years I
have devoted myself to this one scheme. I have striven to focus all the
creeds of mankind in one brilliant centre--eliminating all that is base
and superstitious in each several religion, crystallising all that is
good and true. The Buddhist, the Brahmin, the Mohamedan, the
Sun-worshipper, the Romanist, the Calvinist, the Lutheran, the
Wesleyan, the Swedenborgian--each and all will find the best and
noblest characteristics of his faith resolved and concentred in my
universal religion. Here all creeds will meet. Gentler and wiser than
the theology of Buddha; more humanitarian than the laws of Brahma; more
temperate than the Moslem's code of morality; with a wider grasp of
power than the Romanist's authoritative Church; severely self-denying
as Calvin's ascetic rule; simple and pious as Wesley's scheme of man's
redemption; spiritual as Swedenborg's vast idea of heaven;--my faith
will open its arms wide enough to embrace all. There need be no more
dissent. The mighty circle of my free church will enclose all creeds
and all divisions of man, and spread from the northern hemisphere to
the southern seas. Heathenism shall perish before it. The limited view
of Christianity which missionaries have hitherto offered to the heathen
may fail; but my universal church will open its doors to all the
world--and, mark my words, Conrad, all the world will enter in. I may
not live to see the day. My span of life has not long to run--but that
day will come."
"No doubt," replied Captain Winstanley gravely. "There is a
slovenliness, so to speak, about the present arrangement of things, and
a great deal of useless expense; every small town with its half-a-dozen
churches and chapels of different denominations--Episcopalians,
Wesleyans, Baptists, Roman Catholics, Primitive Methodists. Now on your
plan one large building would do for all, like the town hall, or the
general post office. There would be a wonderful economy."
"I fear you contemplate the question from an entirely temporal point of
view," said Miss Skipwith, flattered but yet reproachful. "It is its
spiritual aspect that is grandest."
"Naturally. But a man of the world is apt to consider the
practicability of a scheme. And yours seems to me eminently practical.
If you can only get the Mohamedans and the Brahmins to come in! The
Roman Catholics might of course be easily won, though it would involve
doing away with the Pope. There was a prophecy, by-the-way, that after
the ninth Pius there would be only eleven more Popes. No doubt that
prophecy pointed at your universal religion. But I fear you may have
some difficulty about the Buddhists. I fancy they are rather a bigoted
sect."
"The greatest bigots have but to be convinced," said Miss Skipwith.
"St. Paul was a bigot."
"True. Is your book nearly finished?"
"No. There are still some years of labour before me. I am now working
at the Swedenborgian portion, striving to demonstrate how that great
man's scheme of religion, though commonly supposed to be a new and
original emanation of one mind, is in reality a reproduction of
spiritual views involved in other and older religions. The Buddhists
were Swedenborgians without knowing it, just as Swedenborg
unconsciously was a Buddhist."
"I begin to understand. The process which you are engaged in is a kind
of spiritual chemistry, in which you resolve each particular faith into
its primary elements: with a view to prove that those elements are
actually the same in all creeds; and that the differences which
heretofore have kept mankind apart are mere divergencies of detail."
"That, crudely and imperfectly stated, is my aim," replied Miss
Skipwith graciously.
This kind of conversation continued all through dinner. Miss Skipwith
talked of Buddha, and Confucius, and Mahomet, and Zuinglius, and
Calvin, and Luther, as familiarly as if they had been her most intimate
friends; and the Captain led her on and played her as he would have
played a trout in one of the winding Hampshire streams. His gravity was
imperturbable. Vixen sat and wondered whether she was to hear this kind
of thing every day of her life, and whether she would be expected to
ask Miss Skipwith leading questions, as the Captain was doing. It was
all very well for him, who was to spend only one day at Les Tourelles;
but Vixen made up her mind that she would boldly avow her indifference
to all creeds and all theologians, from Confucius to Swedenborg. She
might consent to live for a time amidst the dullness and desolation of
Les Tourelles, but she would not be weighed down and crushed by Miss
Skipwith's appalling hobby. The mere idea of the horror of having every
day to discuss a subject that was in its very nature inexhaustible,
filled her with terror.
"I would sooner take my meals in that abandoned kitchen, in the company
of the rats and beetles, than have to listen every day to this kind of
thing," she thought.
When dinner was over the Captain went off to smoke his cigar in the
garden, and this Vixen thought a good time for making her escape.
"I should like to take a walk with my dog, if you will excuse me, Miss
Skipwith," she said politely.
"My dear, you must consider yourself at liberty to employ and amuse
yourself as you please, of course always keeping strictly within the
bounds of propriety," solemnly replied the lady of the manor. "I shall
not interfere with your freedom. My own studies are of so grave a
nature that they in a measure isolate me from my fellow-creatures, but
when you require and ask for sympathy and advice, I shall be ready to
give both. My library is at your service, and I hope ere long you will
have found yourself some serious aim for your studies. Life without
purpose is a life hardly worth living. If girls of your age could only
find that out, and seek their vocation early, how much grander and
nobler would be woman's place in the universe. But, alas! my dear, the
common aim of girlhood seems to be to look pretty and to get married."
"I have made up my mind never to marry," said Violet, with a smile that
was half sad half cynical; "so there at least you may approve of me,
Miss Skipwith."
"My nephew tells me that you refused an excellent offer from an Irish
peer."
"I would not have done the Irish peer so great a wrong as to have
married him without loving him."
"I admire your honourable feeling," said Miss Skipwith, with solemn
approval; "I, too, might have married, but the man towards whom my
heart most inclined was a man of no family. I could not marry a man
without family. I am weak enough to be prouder of my pedigree than
other women are of beauty and fortune. I am the last of the Skipwiths,
and I have done nothing to degrade my race. The family name and the
family pride will die with me. There was a time when a Skipwith owned a
third of the island. Our estate has dwindled to the garden and meadows
that surround this old house; our family has shrunk into one old woman;
but if I can make the name of Skipwith famous before I go down to my
grave, I shall not have lived and laboured in vain."
Vixen felt a thrill of pity as she listened to this brief confession of
a self-deluded solitary soul, which had built its house upon sand, as
hopefully as if the foundations were solidest rock. The line of
demarcation between such fanaticism as Miss Skipwith's and the
hallucination of an old lady in Bedlam, who fancies herself Queen
Victoria, seemed to Vixen but a hair's breadth. But, after all, if the
old lady and Miss Skipwith were both happy in their harmless
self-deceptions, why should one pity them? The creature to be pitied is
the man or woman who keenly sees and feels the hard realities of life,
and cannot take pleasure in phantoms.
Vixen ran off to her room to get her hat and gloves, delighted to find
herself free. Miss Skipwith was not such a very bad sort of person,
after all, perhaps. Liberty to roam about the island with her dog Vixen
esteemed a great boon. She would be able to think about her troubles,
unmolested by inquisitive looks or unwelcome sympathy.
She went down to the court-yard, untied the faithful Argus, and they
set out together to explore the unknown, the dog in such wild spirits
that it was almost impossible for Vixen to be sad. The afternoon sun
was shining in all his glory, birds were singing, flickering lights and
shadows playing on the grassy banks. Argus scampered up and down the
lanes, and burst tumultuously through gaps in the hedges, like a dog
possessed of demons.
It was a pretty little island, after all; Vixen was fain to admit as
much. There was some justification for the people who sang its praises
with such enthusiasm. One might have fancied it a fertile corner of
Devonshire that had slipped its moorings and drifted westward on a
summer sea.
"If I had Arion here, and--Rorie, I think I could be almost happy,"
Vixen said to herself with a dreamy smile.
"And Rorie!"
Alas, poor child! faintly, feebly steadfast in the barren path of
honour: where could she not have been happy with the companion of her
childhood, the one only love of her youth? Was there ever a spot of
land or sea, from Hudson's Bay to the unmapped archipelago or
hypothetical continent of the Southern Pole, where she could not have
been happy with Roderick Vawdrey? She thought again of Helen Rolleston
and her lover on the South Sea island. Ah what a happy fate was that of
the consumptive heroine! Alone, protected, cherished, and saved from
death by her devoted lover.
Poor Rorie! She knew how well she loved him, now that the wide sea
rolled between them, now that she had said him nay, denied her love,
and parted from him for ever.
She thought of that scene in the pine-wood, dimly lit by the young
moon. She lived again those marvellous moments--the concentrated bliss
and pain of a lifetime. She felt again the strong grasp of his hands,
his breath upon her cheek, as he bent over her shoulder. Again she
heard him pleading for the life-long union her soul desired as the most
exquisite happiness life could give.
"I had not loved thee, dear, so well
Loved I not honour more."
Those two familiar lines flashed into her mind as she thought of her
lover. To have degraded herself, to have dishonoured him; no, it would
have been too dreadful. Were he to plead again she must answer again as
she had answered before.
"His mother despised me," she thought. "If people in a better world are
really _au courant_ as to the affairs of this, I should like Lady Jane
Vawdrey to know that I am not utterly without the instincts of a
gentlewoman."
She wandered on, following the winding of the lanes, careless where she
went, and determined to take advantage of her liberty. She met few
people, and of those she did not trouble herself to ask her way.
"If I lose myself on my desert island it can't much matter," she
thought. "There is no one to be anxious about me. Miss Skipwith will be
deep in her universal creed, and Captain Winstanley would be very glad
for me to be lost. My death would leave him master for life of the
Abbey House and all belonging to it."
She roamed on till she came to the open seashore; a pretty little
harbour surrounded with quaint-looking houses; two or three white
villas in fertile gardens, on a raised road; and, dominating all the
scene, a fine old feudal castle, with keep, battlements, drawbridge,
portcullis, and all that becomes a fortress.
This was Mount Orgueil, the castle in which Charles Stuart spent a
short period of his life, while Cromwell was ruling by land and sea,
and kingly hopes were at their lowest ebb. The good old fortress had
suffered for its loyalty, for the Parliament sent Admiral Blake, with a
fleet, to reduce the rebellious island to submission, and Mount Orgueil
had not been strong enough to hold out against its assailants.
Violet went up the sloping path that led to the grim old gateway under
the gloomy arch, and still upward till she came to a sunny battlemented
wall above the shining sea. The prospect was more than worth the
trouble. Yonder, in the dim distance, were the towers of Coutance
Cathedral; far away, mere spots in the blue water, were the smaller fry
of the Channel Islands; below her, the yellow sands were smiling in the
sun, the placid wavelets reflecting all the colour and glory of the
changeful sky.
"This would not be a bad place to live in, Argus, if----"
She paused with her arm round her dog's neck, as he stood on end,
looking over the parapet, with a deep interest in possible rats or
rabbits lurking in some cavity of the craggy cliff below. If! Ah, what
a big "if" that was! It meant love and dear familiar companionship. It
meant all Vixen's little world.
She lingered long. The scene was beautiful, and there was nothing to
lure her home. Then, at last, feeling that she was treating poor Miss
Skipwith badly, and that her prolonged absence might give alarm in that
dreary household, she retraced her steps, and at the foot of the craggy
mount asked the nearest way to Les Tourelles.
The nearest way was altogether different from the track by which she
had come, and brought her back to the old monastic gate in a little
more than an hour. She opened the gate and went in. There was nothing
for the most burglarious invader to steal at Les Tourelles, and bolts
and locks were rarely used. Miss Skipwith was reading in her parlour, a
white Persian cat dozing on a cushioned arm-chair beside her, some cups
and saucers and a black teapot on a tray before her, and the rest of
the table piled with books. There was no sign of Captain Winstanley.
"I'm afraid I'm rather late," Vixen said apologetically.
She felt a kind of half-pitying respect for Miss Skipwith, as a
harmless lunatic.
"My dear, I daresay that as an absolute fact you are late," answered
the lady of the manor, without looking up from her book, "but as time
is never too long for me, I have been hardly conscious of the delay.
Your stepfather has gone down to the club at St. Helier's to see some
of his old acquaintances. Perhaps you would like a cup of tea?"
Vixen replied that she would very much like some tea, whereupon Miss
Skipwith poured out a weak and tepid infusion, against which the girl
inwardly protested.
"If I am to exist at Les Tourelles, I must at least have decent tea,"
she said to herself. "I must buy an occasional pound for my own
consumption, make friends with Mrs. Doddery, and get her to brew it for
me."
And then Vixen knelt down by the arm-chair and tried to get upon
intimate terms with the Persian. He was a serious-minded animal, and
seemed inclined to resent her advances, so she left him in peace on his
patchwork cushion, a relic of those earlier days when Miss Skipwith had
squandered her precious hours on the feminine inanity of needle-work.
Vixen thought of the German _Volkslied_, as she looked at the old lady
in the black cap, bending over a ponderous volume, with the
solemn-visaged cat coiled on the chair beside her.
"Minerva's Vogel war ein Kauz."
The Persian cat seemed as much an attribute of the female theologian as
the bird of the goddess.
Vixen went to her room soon after dark, and thus avoided the Captain,
who did not return till ten. She was worn out with the fatigue of the
voyage, her long ramble, the painful thoughts and manifold agitations
of the last two days. She set her candle on the dressing-table, and
looked round the bare empty room, feeling as if she were in a dream. It
was all strange, and unhomely, and comfortless; like one of those wild
dream-pictures which seem so appallingly real in their hideous
unreality.
"And I am to live here indefinitely--for the next six years, perhaps,
until I come of age and am my own mistress. It is too dreadful!"
She went to bed and slept a deep and comforting sleep, for very
weariness: and she dreamt that she was walking on the battlements of
Mount Orgueil, in the drowsy afternoon sunlight, with Charles Stuart;
and the face of the royal exile was the face of Roderick Vawdrey, and
the hand that held hers as they two stood side by side in the sunshine
was the broad strong hand of her girlhood's friend.
When she went downstairs between eight and nine next morning she found
Miss Skipwith pacing slowly to and fro the terrace in front of the
drawing-room windows, conning over the pencil notes of her yesterday's
studies.
"Your stepfather has been gone half-an-hour, my dear," said the lady of
the manor. "He was very sorry to have to go without wishing you
good-bye."