CHAPTER IV.

Everard Austin remained at Whiteladies for the rest of the afternoon--he

was like one of the children of the house. The old servants took him

aside and asked him to mention things to Miss Susan with which they did

not like to worry her in her trouble, though indeed most of these

delicacies were very much after date, and concerned matters on which

Miss Susan had already been sufficiently worried. The gardener came and

told him of trees that wanted cutting, and the bailiff on the farm

consulted him about the laborers for the approaching harvest. “Miss

Susan don’t like tramps, and I don’t want to go against her, just when

things is at its worst. I shouldn’t wonder, sir,” said the man, looking

curiously in Everard’s face, “if things was in other hands this time

next year?” Everard answered him with something of the bitterness which

he himself had condemned so much a little while before. That

Farrel-Austin should succeed was natural; but thus to look forward to

the changing of masters gave him, too, a pang. He went indoors somewhat

disturbed, and fell into the hands of Martha and Jane fresh from the

almshouse. Martha, who was Miss Susan’s maid and half-housekeeper, had

taken charge of him often enough in his boyish days, and called him

Master Everard still, so that she was entitled to speak; while the

younger maid looked on, and concurred--“It will break _my_ lady’s

heart,” said Martha, “leaving this old house; not but what we might be a

deal more comfortable in a nice handy place, in good repair like yours

is, Master Everard; where the floors is straight and the roofs likewise,

and you don’t catch a rheumatism round every corner; but _my_ lady ain’t

of my way of thinking. I tell her as it would have been just as bad if

Mr. Herbert had got well, poor dear young gentleman, and got married;

but she won’t listen to me. Miss Augustine, she don’t take on about the

house; but she’s got plenty to bother her, poor soul; and the way she do

carry on about them almshouses! It’s like born natural, that’s what it

is, and nothing else. Oh me! I know as I didn’t ought to say it; but

what can you do, I ask you, Master Everard, when you have got the like

of that under your very nose? She’ll soon have nothing but paupers in

the parish if she has her way.”

“She’s very feeling-hearted,” said Jane, who stood behind her elder

companion and put in a word now and then over Martha’s shoulder. She had

been enjoying the delights of patronage, the happiness of recommending

her friends in the village to Miss Augustine’s consideration; and this

was too pleasant a privilege to be consistent with criticism. The

profusion of her mistress’s alms made Jane feel herself to be

“feeling-hearted” too.

“And great thanks she gets for it all,” said Martha. “They call her the

crazy one down in the village. Miss Susan, she’s the hard one; and Miss

Augustine’s the crazy one. That’s gratitude! trailing about in her gray

gown for all the world like a Papist nun. But, poor soul, I didn’t ought

to grudge her gray, Master Everard. We’ll soon be black and black enough

in our mourning, from all that I hear.”

Again Everard was conscious of a shiver. He made a hasty answer and

withdrew from the women who had come up to him in one of the airy

corridors upstairs, half glass, like the passages below, and full of

corners. Everard was on his way from a pilgrimage to the room, in which,

when Herbert and he were children, they had been allowed to accumulate

their playthings and possessions. It had a bit of corridor, like a

glazed gallery, leading to it--and a door opened from it to the

musicians’ gallery of the hall. The impulse which led him to this place

was not like his usual care to avoid unpleasant sensations, for the very

sight of the long bare room, with its windows half choked with ivy, the

traces of old delights on the walls--bows hung on one side, whips on the

other--a heap of cricket-bats and pads in a corner; and old books,

pictures, and rubbish heaped upon the old creaky piano on which Reine

used to play to them, had gone to his heart. How often the old walls had

rung with their voices, the old floor creaked under them! He had given

one look into the haunted solitude, and then had fled, feeling himself

unable to bear it. “As if I could do them any good thinking!” Everard

had said to himself, with a rush of tears to his eyes--and it was in the

gallery leading to this room--the west gallery as everybody called

it--that the women stopped him. The rooms at Whiteladies had almost

every one a gallery, or an ante-room, or a little separate staircase to

itself. The dinner-bell pealed out as he emerged from thence and hurried

to the room which had been always called his, to prepare for dinner. How

full of memories the old place was! The dinner-bell was very solemn,

like the bell of a cathedral, and had never been known to be silent,

except when the family were absent, for more years than any one could

reckon. How well he recollected the stir it made among them all as

children, and how they would steal into the musicians’ gallery and watch

in the centre of the great room below, in the speck of light which shone

amid its dimness, the two ladies sitting at table, like people in a book

or in a dream, the servants moving softly about, and no one aware of the

unseen spectators, till the irrepressible whispering and rustling of the

children betrayed them! how sometimes they were sent away ignominiously,

and sometimes Aunt Susan, in a cheery mood, would throw up oranges to

them, which Reine, with her tiny hands, could never catch! How she used

to cry when the oranges fell round her and were snapped up by the

boys--not for the fruit, for Reine never had anything without sharing it

or giving it away, but for the failure which made them laugh at her!

Everard laughed unawares as the scene came up before him, and then felt

that sudden compression, constriction of his heart--_serrement du

cœur_, which forces out the bitterest tears. And then he hurried down

to dinner and took his seat with the ladies, in the cool of the Summer

evening, in the same historical spot, having now become one of them, and

no longer a spectator. But he looked up at the gallery with a wistful

sense of the little scuffle that used to be there, the scrambling of

small feet, and whispering of voices. In Summer, when coolness was an

advantage, the ladies still dined in the great hall.

“Austine, you have not seen Everard since he returned from America,”

said Miss Susan. “How strong and well he looks!”--here she gave a sigh;

not that she grudged Everard his good looks, but the very words brought

the other before her, at thought of whom every other young man’s

strength and health seemed cruel.

“He has escaped the fate of the family,” said Miss Augustine. “All I can

pray for, Everard, is that you may never be the Austin of Whiteladies.

No wealth can make up for that.”

“Hush, hush!” said Miss Susan with a smile, “these are your fancies. We

are not much worse off than many other families who have no such curse

as you think of, my dear? Are all the old women comfortable--and

grumbling? What were you about to-day?”

“I met them in chapel,” said the younger sister, “and talked to them. I

told them, as I always do, what need we have of their prayers; and that

they should maintain a Christian life. Ah, Susan, you smile; and

Everard, because he is young and foolish, would laugh if he could; but

when you think that this is all I can do, or any one can do, to make up

for the sins of the past, to avert the doom of the family--”

“If we have anything to make up more than others, I think we should do

it ourselves,” said Miss Susan. “But never mind, dear, if it pleases

you. You are spoiling the people; but there are not many villages

spoiled with kindness. I comfort myself with that.”

“It is not to please myself that I toil night and day, that I rise up

early and lie down late,” said Miss Augustine, with a faint gleam of

indignation in her eyes. Then she looked at Everard and sighed. She did

not want to brag of her mortifications. In the curious balance-sheet

which she kept with heaven, poor soul, so many prayers and vigils and

charities, against so many sinful failings in duty, she was aware that

anything like a boast on her part diminished the value of the

compensation she was rendering. Her unexpressed rule was that the, so to

speak, commercial worth of a good deed disappeared, when advantage was

taken of it for this world; she wanted to keep it at its full value for

the next, and therefore she stopped short and said no more. “Some of

them put us to shame,” she said; “they lead such holy lives. Old Mary

Matthews spends nearly her whole time in chapel. She only lives for God

and us. To hear her speak would reward you for many sacrifices,

Susan--if you ever make any. She gives up all--her time, her comfort,

her whole thoughts--for us.”

“Why for us?” said Everard. “Do you keep people on purpose to pray for

the family, Aunt Augustine? I beg your pardon, but it sounded something

like it. You can’t mean it, of course?”

“Why should not I mean it? We do not pray so much as we ought for

ourselves,” said Miss Augustine; “and if I can persuade holy persons to

pray for us continually--”

“At so much a week, a cottage, and coals and candles,” said Miss Susan.

“Augustine, my dear, you shall have your way as long as I can get it for

you. I am glad the old souls are comfortable; and if they are good, so

much the better; and I am glad you like it, my dear; but whatever you

think, you should not talk in this way. Eh, Stevens, what do you say?”

“If I might make so bold, ma’am,” said the butler, “not to go against

Miss Augustine; but that hold Missis Matthews, mum, she’s a hold--”

“Silence, sir!” said Miss Susan promptly, “I don’t want to hear any

gossip; my sister knows best. Tell Everard about your schools, my dear;

the parish must be the better with the schools. Whatever the immediate

motive is, so long as the thing is good,” said this casuist, “and

whatever the occasional result may be, so long as the meaning is

charitable--There, there, Everard, I won’t have her crossed.”

This was said hastily in an undertone to Everard, who was shaking his

head, with a suppressed laugh on his face.

“I am not objecting to anything that is done, but to your reasoning,

which is defective,” he said.

“Oh, my reasoning! is that all? I don’t stand upon my reasoning,” said

Miss Susan. And then there was a pause in the conversation, for Miss

Susan’s mind was perturbed, and she talked but in fits and starts,

having sudden intervals of silence, from which she would as suddenly

emerge into animated discussion, then be still again all in a moment.

Miss Augustine, in her long limp gray dress, with pale hands coming out

of the wide hanging sleeves, talked only on one subject, and did not eat

at all, so that her company was not very cheerful. And Everard could not

but glance up now and then to the gallery, which lay in deep shade, and

feel as if he were in a dream, seated down below in the light. How

vividly the childish past had come upon him; and how much more cheerful

it had been in those old days, when the three atoms in the dusty corner

of the gallery looked down with laughing eyes upon the solemn people at

table, and whispered and rustled in their restlessness till they were

found out!

At last--and this was something so wonderful that even the servants who

waited at table were appalled--Miss Augustine recommenced the

conversation. “You have had some one here to-day,” she said.

“Farrel-Austin--I met him.”

“Yes!” said Miss Susan, breathless and alarmed.

“It seemed to me that the shadow had fallen upon them already. He is

gray and changed. I have not seen him for a long time; his wife is ill,

and his children are delicate.”

“Nonsense, Austine, the girls are as strong and well as a couple of

young hoydens need be.” Miss Susan spoke almost sharply, and in a

half-frightened tone.

“You think so, Susan; for my part I saw the shadow plainly. It is that

their time is drawing near to inherit. Perhaps as they are girls,

nothing will happen to them; nothing ever happened to us; that is to

say, they will not marry probably; they will be as we have been. I wish

to know them, Susan. Probably one of them would take up my work, and

endeavor to keep further trouble from the house.”

“Farrel’s daughter? you are very good, Austine, very good; you put me to

shame,” said Miss Susan, bending her head.

“Yes; why not Farrel’s daughter? She is a woman like the rest of us and

an Austin, like the rest of us. I wish the property could pass to women,

then there might be an end of it once for all.”

“In that case it would go to Reine, and there would not in the least be

the end of it; quite the reverse.”

“I could persuade Reine,” said Miss Augustine. “Ah, yes; I could

persuade _her_. She knows my life. She knows about the family, how we

have all suffered. Reine would be led by me; she would give it up, as I

should have done had I the power. But men will not do such a thing. I am

not blaming them, I am saying what is the fact. Reine would have given

it up.”

“You speak like a visionary,” said Miss Susan sighing. “Yes, I daresay

Reine would be capable of a piece of folly, or you, or even myself. We

do things that seem right to us at the moment without taking other

things into consideration, when we are quite free to do what we like.

But don’t you see, my dear, a man with an entailed estate is not free?

His son or his heir must come after him, as his father went before him;

he is only a kind of a tenant. Farrel, since you have spoken of

Farrel--I would not have begun it--dare not alienate property from

Everard; and Everard, when it comes to him, must keep it for his son, if

he ever has one.”

“The thing would be,” said Miss Augustine, “to make up your mind never

to have one, Everard.” She looked at him calmly and gravely, crossing

her hands within her long sleeves.

“But, my dear Aunt Augustine,” said Everard, laughing, “what good would

that do me? I should have to hand it on to the next in the entail all

the same. I could not do away with the estate without the consent of my

heir at least.”

“Then I will tell you what to do,” said Miss Augustine. “Marry; it is

different from what I said just now, but it has the same meaning. Marry

at once; and when you have a boy let him be sent to me. I will train

him, I will show him his duty; and then with his consent, which he will

be sure to give when he grows up, you can break the entail and restore

Whiteladies to its right owner. Do this, my dear boy, it is quite

simple; and so at last I shall have the satisfaction of feeling that the

curse will be ended one day. Yes; the thing to be done is this.”

Miss Susan had exclaimed in various tones of impatience. She had laughed

reluctantly when Everard laughed; but what her sister said was more

serious to her than it was to the young man. “Do you mean to live

forever,” she said at last, “that you calculate so calmly on bringing up

Everard’s son?”

“I am fifty-five,” said Miss Augustine, “and Everard might have a son in

a year. Probably I shall live to seventy-five, at least,--most of the

women of our family do. He would then be twenty, approaching his

majority. There is nothing extravagant in it; and on the whole, it seems

to me the most hopeful thing to do. You must marry, Everard, without

delay; and if you want money I will help you. I will do anything for an

object so near my heart.”

“You had better settle whom I am to marry, Aunt Augustine.”

Everard’s laughter made the old walls gay. He entered into the joke

without any _arrière pensée_; the suggestion amused him beyond measure;

all the more that it was made with so much gravity and solemnity. Miss

Susan had laughed too; but now she became slightly alarmed, and watched

her sister with troubled eyes.

“Whom you are to marry? That wants consideration,” said Miss Augustine.

“The sacrifice would be more complete and satisfying if two branches of

the family concurred in making it. The proper person for you to marry

in the circumstances would be either--”

“Austine!”

“Yes! I am giving the subject my best attention. You cannot understand,

no one can understand, how all-important it is to me. Everard, either

one of Farrel’s girls, to whom I bear no malice, or perhaps Reine.”

“Austine, you are out of your senses on this point,” said Miss Susan,

almost springing from her seat, and disturbing suddenly the calm of the

talk. “Come, come, we must retire; we have dined. Everard, if you choose

to sit a little, Stevens is giving you some very good claret. It was my

father’s; I can answer for it, much better than I can answer for my own,

for I am no judge. You will find us in the west room when you are ready,

or in the garden. It is almost too sweet to be indoors to-night.”

She drew her sister’s arm within hers and led her away, with peremptory

authority which permitted no argument, and to which Augustine

instinctively yielded; and Everard remained alone, his cheek tingling,

his heart beating. It had all been pure amusement up to this point; but

even his sense of the ludicrous could not carry him further. He might

have known, he said to himself, that this was what she must say. He

blushed, and felt it ungenerous in himself to have allowed her to go so

far, to propose these names to him. He seemed to be making the girls

endure a humiliation against his will, and without their knowledge. What

had they done that he should permit any one even to suggest that he

could choose among them? This was the more elevated side of his

feelings; but there was another side, I am obliged to allow, a

fluttered, flattered consciousness that the suggestion might be true;

that he might have it in his power, like a sultan, to choose among them,

and throw his princely handkerchief at the one he preferred. A mixture,

therefore, of some curious sense of elation and suppressed pleasure,

mingled with the more generous feeling within him, quenching at once the

ridicule of Miss Augustine’s proposal, and the sense of wrong done to

those three girls. Yes, no doubt it is a man’s privilege to choose; he,

and not the woman, has it in his power to weigh the qualities of one and

another, and to decide which would be most fit for the glorious position

of his wife. They could not choose him, but he could choose one of them,

and on his choice probably their future fate would depend. It was

impossible not to feel a little pleasant flutter of consciousness. He

was not vain, but he felt the sweetness of the superiority involved, the

greatness of the position.

When the ladies were gone Everard laughed, all alone by himself, he

could not help it; and the echoes took up the laughter, and rang into

that special corner of the gallery which he knew so well, centring

there. Why there, of all places in the world? Was it some ghost of

little Reine in her childhood that laughed? Reine in her childhood had

been the one who exercised choice. It was she who might have thrown the

handkerchief, not Everard. And then a hush came over him, and a

compunction, as he thought where Reine was at this moment, and how she

might be occupied. Bending over her brother’s death-bed, hearing his

last words, her heart contracted with the bitter pang of parting, while

her old playfellow laughed, and wondered whether he should choose her

out of the three to share his grandeur. Everard grew quite silent all at

once, and poured himself out a glass of the old claret in deep

humiliation and stillness, feeling ashamed of himself. He held the wine

up to the light with the solemnest countenance, trying to take himself

in, and persuade himself that he had no lighter thoughts in his mind,

and then having swallowed it with equal solemnity, he got up and

strolled out into the garden. He had so grave a face when Miss Susan met

him, that she thought for the first moment that some letter had come

and that all was over, and gasped and called to him, what was it? what

was it? “Nothing!” said Everard more solemnly than ever. He was

impervious to any attempt at laughter for the rest of the evening,

ashamed of himself and his light thoughts, in sudden contrast with the

thoughts that must be occupying his cousins, his old playmates. And yet,

as he went home in the moonlight, the shock of that contrast lessened,

and his young lightness of mind began to reassert itself. Before he got

out of hearing of the manor he began to whistle again unawares; but this

time it was not one of Reine’s songs. It was a light opera air which, no

doubt, one of the other girls had taught him, or so, at least, Miss

Susan thought.

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