In the form of a letter from Professor Spence to his friend, Dr. John
Rogers.
No letter yet from you, Bones; Bainbridge must be having the measles.
Or perhaps I am not allowing for the fact that it takes almost a
fortnight to go and come across this little bit of Empire. Also Li Ho
hasn't been across the Inlet for a week. He says "Tillicum too muchy
hole. Li Ho long time patch um."
On still days, I can hear him doing it. Perhaps my hostess is right and
we are not so far away from the beach as I fancied on the night of my
arrival. I'll test this detail, and many others, soon. For today I am
sitting up. I'm sure I could walk a little, if I were to try. But I am
not in a hurry. Hurry is a vice of youth.
And I am actually getting some work done. Bones, old thing, I have made
a discovery for the lack of which many famous men have died too soon. I
have discovered the perfect secretary!
These blank lines represent all the things which I might say but which,
with great moral effort, I suppress. I know what a frightful bore is
the man who insists upon talking about a new discovery. Therefore I
shall not indulge my natural inclination to tell you just how perfect
this secretary is. I shall merely note that she is quick, accurate,
silent, interested, appreciative, intelligent to a remarkable
degree--Good Heavens! I'm doing it! I blush now when I remember that I
engaged Miss Farr's services in the first place from motives of
philanthropy. Is it possible that I was ever fatuous enough to believe
that I was the party who conferred the benefit? If so, I very soon
discovered my mistake. In justice to myself I must state that I saw at
once what a treasure I had come upon. You remember what a quick, sure
judgment my father had? Somehow I seem to be getting more like him all
the time. The moment any proposition takes on a purely business aspect,
I become, as it were, pure intellect. I see the exact value, business
value, of the thing. Aunt Caroline never agrees with me in this. She
insists upon referring to that oil property at Green Lake and that
little matter of South American Mines. But those mistakes were trifles.
Any man might have made them.
In this case, where I am right on the spot, there can be no possibility
of a mistake. I see with my own eyes. Miss Farr is a dream of
secretarial efficiency. She combines, with ease, those widely differing
qualities which are so difficult to come by in a single individual. It
is inspiring to work with her. I find that her co-operation actually
stimulates creative thought. My notes are expanding at a most
satisfactory rate. My introductory chapter already assumes form.
And--by Jove! I seem to be doing it again.
But one simply does not make these discoveries every day.
The other aspects of the situation here, the non-business aspects, are
not so satisfactory. The menage is certainly peculiar. I had what
amounted to a bloodless duel with mine host the other day. Perhaps I
was not as tactful as I might have been. But he is an irritating
person. One of those people who seem to file your nerves. In fact there
is something almost upsetting' about that mild old scoundrel. He gives
me what the Scots call a "scunner." (You have to hear a true Scot
pronounce it before you get its inner meaning.) And when, that day, he
began talking about his daughter's future being her father's care, I
said--I forget exactly what I said but he seemed to get the idea all
right. It annoyed him. We were both annoyed. He did not put his
feelings into words. He put them into his eyes instead. And horrid,
nasty feelings they were. Quite murderous.
The duel was interrupted by Li Ho. Li Ho never listens but he always
hears. Seems to have some quieting influence over his "honorable Boss,"
too.
But I wish you could have seen the old fellow's eyes, Bones. I think
they might have told some tale to a medical mind. Normally, his eyes
are blurry like the rest of his fatherly face. And their color, I
think, is blue. But just then they looked like no eyes I have ever
seen. A cold light on burnished steel is the only simile I can think
of--perfect hardness, perfect coldness, lustre without depth! The
description is poor, but you may get the idea better if I describe the
effect of the look rather than the look itself. The warm spot in my
heart froze. And it takes something fairly eerie to freeze the heart at
its core.
From this, as a budding psychologist, I draw a conclusion--there was
something abnormal, something not quite human in that flashing look.
The conclusion seems somewhat strained now. But at the time I was
undoubtedly glad to see Li Ho. Li Ho may be a Chink, but he is human.
You may gather that our "battle of the Glances" did not smooth my
pillow here. If the old chap didn't want me to stay before, he is even
less anxious for my company now. But I am going to stay. Aunt Caroline
would call this stubbornness. But of course it isn't. It is merely a
certain strength of character and a business determination to carry out
a business bargain. Dr. Farr allowed me to engage board here and to pay
for it. I am under no obligation to take cognizance of his deeper
feelings.
The only feelings which concern me in this matter are the feelings of
his daughter. If my staying were to prove a burden for her I could not,
of course, stay. But I see many ways in which I may be helpful, and I
know that she needs and wants the secretarial work which I have given
her. Usually she holds her head high and one isn't even allowed to
guess. But one does guess. Her meagre ration of life is plain beyond
all artifice of pride.
John, she interests me intensely. She is a strange child. She is a
strange woman. For both child and woman she seems to be, in fascinating
combination. But, lest you should mistake me, good old bone-head, let
me make it plain that there is absolutely no danger of my falling in
love with her. My interest is not that kind of interest. I am far too
hard headed to be susceptible. I can appreciate the tragedy of a
charming girl placed in such unsavory environment, and feel impelled to
seek some way of escape for her without being for one moment disturbed
by that unreasoning madness called love. Every student of psychology
understands the nature and the danger of loving. 'Every sensible
student profits by what he understands. You and I have had this out
before and you know my unalterable determination never to allow myself
to become the slave of those primitive and passing instincts. Nature,
the old hussy, is welcome to the use of man as a tool for her own
purposes. But there are enough tools without me. The race will not
perish because I intend to remain my own man. But I shall have to
evolve some way of helping Miss Farr. She cannot be left here under
these conditions.
I am writing to Aunt Caroline, briefly, that I am immersed in study and
that my return is indefinite. Don't, for heaven's sake, let her suspect
that I have employed Miss Farr as secretary. You know Aunt Caroline's
failing. Do be discreet!
Yours,
B. H. S.
P.S.: Any arrangement I may find it necessary to propose in Miss Farr's
case will be based on business, not sentiment. B.