CHAPTER XLI

A STRONG TEMPTATION

Now it will be said, and I also knew, that there was nothing as yet,

except most frail and feeble evidence, to connect that nameless stranger

with the crime charged upon my father. Indeed, it might be argued well

that there was no evidence at all, only inference and suspicion. That,

however, was no fault of mine; and I felt as sure about it as if I had

seen him in the very act. And this conclusion was not mine alone; for

Mrs. Busk, a most clever woman, and the one who kept the post-office,

entirely agreed with me that there could be no doubt on earth about it.

But when she went on to ask me what it was my intention to do next, for

the moment I could do nothing more than inquire what her opinion was.

And she told me that she must have a good night's rest before advising

any thing. For the thought of having such a heinous character in her own

delivery district was enough to unhinge her from her postal duties, some

of which might be useful to me.

With a significant glance she left me to my own thoughts, which were sad

enough, and too sad to be worth recording. For Mrs. Busk had not the

art of rousing people and cheering them, such as Betsy Strouss, my

old nurse, had, perhaps from her knowledge of the nursery. My present

landlady might be the more sagacious and sensible woman of the two, and

therefore the better adviser; but for keeping one up to the mark she was

not in any way equal to Betsy.

There is no ingratitude in saying this, because she herself admitted it.

A clever woman, with a well-balanced mind, knows what she can do, and

wherein she fails, better than a man of her own proportion does. And

Mrs. Busk often lamented, without much real mortification, that she had

not been “born sympathetic.”

All the more perhaps for that, she was born sagacious, which is a less

pleasing, but, in a bitter pinch, a more really useful, quality. And

before I had time to think much of her defects, in the crowd of more

important thought, in she came again, with a letter in her hand, and a

sparkle of triumph in her small black eyes. After looking back along the

passage, and closing my door, she saw that my little bay-window had its

old-fashioned shutters fastened, and then, in a very low whisper, she

said, “What you want to know is here, miss.”

“Indeed!” I answered, in my usual voice. “How can you know that? The

letter is sealed.”

“Hush! Would you have me ruined for your sake? This was at the bottom of

the Nepheton bag. It fell on the floor. That was God's will, to place it

in your power.”

“It is not in my power,” I answered, whispering in my turn, and staring

at it, in the strong temptation. “I have no right even to look at it. It

is meant for some one else, and sealed.”

“The seal is nothing. I can manage that. Another drop of wax--and I

strike our stamp by accident over the breakage. I refuse to know any

thing about it. I am too busy with the other letters. Five minutes--lock

the door--and I will come again.”

This was a desperate conflict for me, worse even than bodily danger. My

first impulse was to have nothing to do with it--even to let the letter

lie untouched, and, if possible, unglanced at. But already it was too

late for the eyes to turn away. The address had flashed upon me before I

thought of any thing, and while Mrs. Busk held it up to me. And now

that address was staring at me, like a contemptuous challenge, while the

seal, the symbol of private rights and deterrent honor, lay undermost.

The letter was directed to “H. W. C., Post-office, Newport, Sussex.” The

writing was in round hand, and clear, so as not to demand any scrutiny,

and to seem like that of a lawyer's clerk, and the envelope was of thin

repellent blue.

My second impulse was to break the letter open and read it without

shrinking. Public duty must conquer private scruples. Nothing but the

hand of Providence itself could have placed this deadly secret in my

power so amazingly. Away with all squeamishness, and perhaps prevent

more murder.

But that “perhaps” gave me sudden pause. I had caught up the letter, and

stood near the candle to soften the wax and lift the cover with a small

sharp paper-knife, when it flashed on my mind that my cousin would

condemn and scorn what I was doing. Unconsciously I must have made him

now my standard of human judgment, or what made me think of him at that

moment? I threw down the letter, and then I knew. The image of Lord

Castlewood had crossed my mind, because the initials were his own--those

of Herbert William Castlewood. This strange coincidence--if it were,

indeed, an accident--once more set me thinking. Might not this letter be

from his agent, of whom he had spoken as my protector here, but to whom

as all unseen I scarcely ever gave a thought? Might not young Stixon,

who so often was at Bruntsea, be employed to call at Newport for such

letters, and return with them to his master? It was not very likely, for

my cousin had the strongest contempt of anonymous doings. Still it was

possible, and the bare possibility doubled my reluctance to break the

seal.

For one minute longer I stood in doubt, and then honor and candor and

truth prevailed. If any other life had been in peril but my own, duty to

another might have overridden all. But duty to one's self, if overpushed

in such a case, would hold some taint of cowardice. So I threw the

letter, with a sense of loathing, on a chair. Whatever it might contain,

it should pass, at least for me, inviolate.

Now when Mrs. Busk came to see what I had done, or rather left undone,

she flew into a towering passion, until she had no time to go on with

it. The rattle of the rickety old mail-cart, on its way to Winchester

that night, was heard, and the horn of the driver as he passed the

church.

“Give it me. 'A mercy! A young natural, that you are!” the good woman

cried, as she flung out of the room to dash her office stamp upon that

hateful missive, and to seal the leathern bag. “Seal, indeed! Inviolate!

How many seals have I got to make every day of my life?”

I heard a great thump from the corner of the shop where the business of

the mails was conducted; and she told me afterward that she was so put

out, that broken that seal should be--one way or another. Accordingly

she smashed it with the office stamp, which was rather like a

woman's act, methought; and then, having broken it, she never looked

inside--which, perhaps, was even more so.

When she recovered her leisure and serenity, and came in, to forgive

me and be forgiven, we resolved to dismiss the moral aspect of the

question, as we never should agree about it, although Mrs. Busk was not

so certain as she had been, when she found that the initials were the

initials of a lord. And then I asked her how she came to fix upon that

letter among so many others, and to feel so sure that it came from my

treacherous enemy.

“In the first place, I know every letter from Nepheton,” she answered,

very sensibly. “There are only fourteen people that write letters in the

place, and twelve of those fourteen buy their paper in my shop--there is

no shop at all at Nepheton. In the next place, none of them could write

a hand like that, except the parson and the doctor, who are far above

disguise. And two other things made me certain as could be. That letter

was written at the 'Green Man' ale-house; not on their paper, nor yet

with their ink; but being in great hurry, it was dusted with their

sand--a sand that turns red upon ink, miss. And the time of dispatch

there is just what he would catch, by walking fast after his dig where

you saw him, going in that direction too, and then having his materials

ready to save time. And if all that is not enough to convince you,

miss--you remember that you told me our old sexton's tale?”

“To be sure I do. The first evening I was left alone here. And you have

been so kind, there is nothing I would hide from you.”

“Well, miss, the time of old Jacob's tale is fixed by the death of poor

old Sally Mock; and the stranger came again after you were here, just

before the death of the miller's eldest daughter, and you might almost

have seen him. Poor thing! we all called her the 'flower of the Moon,'

meaning our little river. What a fine young woman she was, to be sure!

Whenever we heard of any strangers about, we thought they were prowling

after her. I was invited to her funeral, and I went, and nothing could

be done nicer. But they never will be punctual with burials here; they

like to dwell on them, and keep the bell going, for the sake of the

body, and the souls that must come after it. And so, when it was done, I

was twenty minutes late for the up mail and the cross-country post,

and had to move my hands pretty sharp, I can assure you. That doesn't

matter; I got through it, with the driver of the cart obliging, by means

of some beer and cold bacon. But what I feared most was the Nepheton

bag, having seen the old man at the funeral, and knowing what they do

afterward. I could not return him 'too late' again, or he would lose his

place for certain, and a shilling a day made all the difference to

him, between wife and no wife. The old pair without it must go to the

workhouse, and never see one another. However, when I was despairing

quite of him, up he comes with his bag quite correct, but only one

letter to sort in it, and that letter was, miss, the very identical of

the one you held in your hands just now. And a letter as like it as two

peas had come when we buried old Sally. It puzzled me then, but I had

no clew to it; only now, you see, putting this and that together, the

things we behold must have some meaning for us; and to let them go

without it is against the will of God; especially when at the bottom of

the bag.”

“If you hear so soon of any stranger in the valley,” I asked, to escape

the re-opening of the opening question, “how can that man come and go--a

man of remarkable stature and appearance--without any body asking who he

is?”

“You scarcely could have put it better, miss, for me to give the answer.

They do ask who he is, and they want to know it, and would like any

body to tell them. But being of a different breed, as they are, from all

outside the long valley, speaking also with a different voice, they fear

to talk so freely out of their own ways and places. Any thing they can

learn in and out among themselves, they will learn; but any thing out of

that they let go, in the sense of outlandish matter. Bless you, miss,

if your poor grandfather had been shot any where else in England, how

different it would have been for him!”

“For us, you mean, Mrs. Busk. Do you think the man who did it had that

in his mind?”

“Not unless he knew the place, as few know it. No, that was an accident

of his luck, as many other things have been. But the best luck stops at

last, Miss Erema; and unless I am very much mistaken, you will be the

stop of his. I shall find out, in a few days, where he came from, where

he staid, and when he went away. I suppose you mean to let him go away?”

“What else am I to do?” I asked. “I have no evidence at all against him;

only my own ideas. The police would scarcely take it up, even if--”

“Oh, don't talk of them. They spoil every thing. And none of our people

would say a word, or care to help us, if it came to that. The police are

all strangers, and our people hate them. And, indeed, I believe that

the worst thing ever done was the meddling of that old Jobbins. The old

stupe is still alive at Petersfield, and as pompous-headed as ever. My

father would have been the man for your sad affair, miss, if the

police had only been invented in his time. Ah, yes, he was sharp! Not a

Moonstock man--you may take your oath of that, miss--but a good honest

native from Essex. But he married my mother, a Moonstock woman; or they

would not put up with me here at all. You quality people have your ideas

to hold by, and despise all others, and reasonable in your opinions; but

you know nothing--nothing--nothing--of the stiffness of the people under

you.”

“How should I know any thing of that?” I answered; “all these things are

new to me. I have not been brought up in this country, as you know. I

come from a larger land, where your stiffness may have burst out into

roughness, from having so much room suddenly. But tell me what you think

now your father would have done in such a case as mine is.”

“Miss Erema, he was that long-headed that nobody could play leap-frog

with him. None of them ever cleared over his barrel. He walked into this

village fifty-five years back, this very month, with his spade upon his

shoulder and the knowledge of every body in his eye. They all put up

against him, but they never put him down; and in less than three months

he went to church, I do assure you, with the only daughter of the only

baker. After that he went into the baking line himself; he turned his

spade into a shovel, as he said, and he introduced new practices.”

“Oh, Mrs. Busk, not adulteration?”

“No, miss, no! The very last thing he would think of. Only the good use

of potatoes in the bread, when flour was frightful bad and painful dear.

What is the best meal of the day? he used to reason. Dinner. And why?

Why, because of the potatoes. If I can make people take potato for their

breakfast, and potato for their supper too, I am giving them three meals

a day instead of one. And the health of the village corresponded to it.”

“Oh, but, Mrs. Busk, he might have made them do it by persuasion, or at

least with their own knowledge--”

“No, miss, no! The whole nature of our people, Moonstock or out of it,

is never to take victuals by any sort of persuasion. If St. Paul was to

come and preach, 'Eat this or that,' all I had of it in the shop would

go rotten. They hate any meddling with their likings, and they suspect

doctor's rubbish in all of it.”

“I am quite of their opinion,” I replied; “and I am glad to hear of

their independence. I always used to hear that in England none of the

poor people dared have a will of their own.”

Mrs. Busk lifted up her hands to express amazement at my ignorance,

and said that she “must run away and put the shutters up, or else the

policeman would come rapping, and look for a glass of beer, which he had

no right to till it came to the bottom of the firkin; and this one was

only tapped last Sunday week. Don't you ever think of the police, miss.”

Probably this was good advice, and it quite agreed with the opinions

of others, and my own impressions as to the arrogant lethargy of “the

force,” as they called themselves, in my father's case. Mrs. Busk had

more activity and intelligence in her little head than all the fat

sergeants and inspectors of the county, helmet, belt, and staff, and

all.

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