AT MRS. ROMAINE'S.
The reason why Caspar Brooke spoke somewhat sharply to Lesley was not
far to seek. He had been to Mrs. Romaine's house to tea. The sequence of
cause and effect can easily be conjectured.
"How charmingly your daughter sang!" Mrs. Romaine began, when she had
got Mr. Brooke into his favorite corner, and given him a cup of her best
China tea.
"Yes, she sang very well," said Brooke, carelessly.
"I had no idea that she _could_ sing! Why, by the bye--did you not tell
me that she said she was not musical?--declined singing lessons, and so
on?"
"Yes, I think I said so. Yes, she did."
"She must be very modest!" said Mrs. Romaine, lifting her eyebrows.
"I don't know--I fancy she did not want to be indebted to me for more
than she could help."
Mrs. Romaine looked pained, and kept for a few moments a pained silence.
"My poor friend!" she said at last. "This is very sad! Could she"--and
Brooke knew that the pronoun referred to Lady Alice, not to
Lesley--"could she not be content with abandoning you, without poisoning
your daughter's mind against you?"
Caspar said nothing. He leaned forward, tea-cup in hand, and studied the
carpet. It was, perhaps, hard for him to find a suitable reply.
"It is too much," Rosalind continued, with increasing energy. "You have
taken not a daughter, but an enemy into your house. She sits and
criticizes all you do--sends accounts to her mother, doubtless, of all
your comings and goings. She looks upon you as a tyrant, and a
disreputable person, too. She has been taught to hate you, and she
carries out the teaching--oh, I can see it in every line of her face,
every inflection of her voice: she has been taught to loathe you, my
poor, misjudged friend, and she does not disguise her loathing!"
It is not quite pleasant for a man to hear that his daughter hates him,
and makes no secret of the hatred. Caspar immediately concluded that
Lesley had made some outspoken remarks upon the subject to Mrs. Romaine.
Secretly he felt hurt and angry: outwardly he smiled.
"What would you have?" he said, lightly but bitterly. "Lady Alice has no
doubt indoctrinated her daughter, as you say; all that I can expect from
Lesley is civility. And I generally get that."
"Civility? Between father and daughter? When she ought to be proud of
such a father--proud of all that you are, and all that you have done!
She should be adoring you, slaving for you, ready to sacrifice herself
at your smallest word--and see what she is! A machine, silent, useless,
unwilling--from whom all that you can claim is--civility! Oh, women are
capable sometimes of taking a terrible revenge!"
She threw her hands out with a gesture of despair and deprecation, which
was really fine in its way; then she rose from her chair, went to the
mantelpiece, and stood with her face bent upon her clasped hands. Caspar
rose too, and stood on the hearthrug beside her, looking down at the
pretty ruffled head, with something very like affection in his eye.
He did not quite understand this emotion of hers, but its sincerity
touched as well as puzzled him. For she was sincere as far as he was
concerned, and this sincerity gave her a certain amount of power, such
as sincerity always gives. The ring of true feeling in her voice could
not be counterfeited, and Caspar was flattered by it, as any man would
have been flattered at having excited so much sympathy in the heart of a
talented and beautiful woman.
He knew that Alice had been jealous of Rosalind Romaine, but, he
thought, quite unreasonably so. Poor Rosalind, tied to a dry old stick
of a husband, to whom she did her duty most thoroughly, was naturally
glad to talk now and then to a man who knew something of Art and Life.
That was simple enough, and he had been glad of her interest and
sympathy, especially as these were denied to him by his wife. There was
nothing for Lady Alice to be jealous about. And he had dismissed the
matter impatiently from his thoughts. Alice had left him because she
hated his opinions, his manner of life, his profession--not because she
was jealous of Rosalind Romaine. But Rosalind knew better.
The woman's sympathy affected him so far, however, that, after standing
silent for a minute or two, he laid his hand softly upon her arm. It was
a foolish thing to do, but then Caspar Brooke was never a particularly
wise man, in spite of his goodness of heart and fertility of brain. And
Rosalind felt, by the thrill that ran through her at his touch, that she
had gained more from him than she had ever gained before. What would he
say next?
Well, he did not say very much. "Your sympathy, Rosalind," he said, "is
very pleasant--very dear to me. But you must not give me too much of it.
Sympathy is enervating, as other men have found before me!"
"May I not offer you mine?" she said, plaintively. "It is so hard to be
silent! If only I could make Lesley understand what you are--how
noble--how good----"
Caspar laughed, and took away his hand. "Don't talk to her about me; it
would do no good," he said.
He stood in the firelight, looking so massive, so stern, so resolved,
that Mrs. Romaine lost herself for a moment in admiration of his great
frame and leonine head. And as she paused he spoke again.
"I have not lately observed much hostility to myself in Lesley's
demeanor," he said. "At first, of course--but lately--well, I have been
more struck by a sort of languor, a want of interest and comprehension,
than anything else. No doubt she feels that she is in a new world----"
"Ah yes, a world of intellect and activity to which she has not been
accustomed," said Mrs. Romaine, briskly. Since Caspar had removed his
hand she had been standing erect, watchfully observant of him. It was by
his moods that she intended to regulate her own. "I suppose she has been
accustomed to nothing but softness and self-indulgence; and she does not
understand this larger life to which she now has access."
"Poor child!" said Mr. Brooke.
But this was not at all the remark that Mrs. Romaine wanted him to make.
She tried to beat back the tide of paternal affection that was evidently
setting in.
"She wants rousing I am afraid. She ought not to be allowed to sink into
a dreamy, listless state. It must be very trying for you to see it; you
must be pained by the selfishness and waywardness from which it
proceeds----"
"Do you think it does?" said Mr. Brooke, almost wistfully. "I should be
sorry to think Lesley selfish. Sophy says that she is more ignorant than
selfish."
"But what is ignorance save a form of selfishness?" cried Rosalind,
indignantly. "She might know if she chose! She does know the common
duties of humanity, the duty of every man or woman to labor for others,
to gain knowledge, to make broad the borders of light! Oh, I cannot bear
to hear ignorance alleged as an excuse for self-love! It is impossible
that any one with Lesley's faculties should not see her duty, even if
she is idle and indifferent enough to let it pass when she does see it."
Mr. Brooke sat down, regardless of the fact that Mrs. Romaine was
standing, and looked at the carpet again with a sigh.
"You may be right," he said, in a pained tone; "but if so, what am I to
do?"
"You must speak to her," said Rosalind, energetically. "You must tell
her not to be idle and obstinate and wayward: you must show her her
duty, so that she may have no excuse for neglecting it."
He shrugged his shoulders.
"That's not a man's duty, it seems to me. Woman to woman, man to man. I
wish you would do it, Rosalind!"
"Oh, no; I have not a _mother's_ right," said she, softly.
But the remark had an effect which she had not anticipated.
"That is true. It is a mother who should tell a girl her duty. Poor
Lesley's mother has not done all that she might do in that respect. Our
unhappy quarrel has caused her to represent me to the girl in very dark
colors, I believe. But I have lately been wondering whether that might
not be amended. Did you hear that man's taunt this afternoon--about the
wife that had left me? I can't endure that sort of thing. Think of the
harm it does. And then the child must needs go and sing 'Home, Sweet
Home.' To me, whose home was broken up by _her_ mother. I had the
greatest possible difficulty in sitting through that song, Rosalind. And
I said to myself that I was a great fool to put up with this state of
things."
His sentences were unusually short, his tones abrupt; both covered an
amount of agitation which Mrs. Romaine had not expected to see. She sat
down and remained silent and motionless: she even held her breath, not
well knowing what to expect. Presently he resumed, in a lower tone--
"I know that if I alter existing arrangements I shall give myself some
pain and discomfort, and inflict more, perhaps, upon others; but I think
this is inevitable. I am determined, if possible, to end my solitary
life, and the solitary life also of a woman who is--I may say it
now--dear to me." He spoke with deliberate gravity. Mrs. Romaine's
pulses beat faster: the hot color began to steal into her cheeks. "I
never wished to inflict pain upon her. I have always regretted the years
of separation and loneliness that we have both spent. So I have
resolved--perhaps that is too strong a word--I am thinking of asking her
to share my home with me again."
"Again?" The word escaped Rosalind's lips before she knew that she had
spoken.
"Yes, once again," said Caspar, quite unconscious of her emotion. "We
did not get on very well when we lived together, but we are older now,
and I think that if we made a fresh start it _might_ be possible--I
wonder if Alice would consent?"
There was a moment's pause. Then--"You think of asking Lady Alice to
come back to you?" said Mrs. Romaine, in a hard, measured voice, which
made Caspar look at her with some transient feeling of surprise. But he
put down the change of tone to her astonishment at his proposition, and
went on unmoved.
"I thought of it--yes. It would be much better for Lesley."
"Are you so devoted to Lesley that you want to sacrifice your whole life
for her?" asked Rosalind, in the same hard, strained voice.
"My whole life? Well, no--but you exaggerate, Rosalind. I do not
sacrifice my whole life by having my wife and daughter in my house."
"That is plausibly said. But one has to consider what sort of wife and
daughter yours are, and what part of your life will have to be devoted
to them."
Brooke sat and stroked his beard. He began to wish that he had not
mentioned his project to Mrs. Romaine. But he could not easily tell her
to hold her tongue.
"I am not going to presume," said Rosalind, "to say anything
unkind--anything harsh of your wife: I know I have not the right, and I
know that you would--very properly--resent it. So don't be afraid. But I
only want to remind you that Lady Alice is not even where she was when,
as an over-sensitive, easily-offended girl, she fled from you. She has
had twelve years of life under conditions differing most entirely from
yours. She has lived in the fashionable world--a world which of all
others you dislike. What sympathy can there be between you? She may be
perfect in her own line, but it is not your line: you are different; and
you will never be happy together."
"That is a hard thing to say, Rosalind."
"It will be a harder thing for you if you try it. Believe me,
Caspar"--her voice trembled as she used his Christian name, which she
very seldom did--"believe me that if it would be for your happiness I
would welcome the change! But when I remember the discord, the
incompatibility, the want of sympathy, which used to grieve me in those
old days, I cannot think----"
She stopped short, and put her handkerchief to her eyes.
"Lady Alice could not understand you--could not appreciate you," she
said. "And it was hard--hard for your friends to look on and
say--_nothing_!"
Brooke rose abruptly from his chair. "No one ever had a truer friend
than I have in you," he said, huskily. "But it seems to me that Alice
may have changed with the lapse of years; she may have become easier to
satisfy, better able to sympathize----"
"Does she show that spirit in the way she has spoken of you to your
daughter? What do you gather from Lesley as to her state of mind?" said
Mrs. Romaine, keenly.
He paused. She knew very well that the question was a hard one for him
to answer.
"Ah," he said, with a heavy sigh, "you know as well as I do."
Then he turned aside, and for an instant or two there was a silence.
"I suppose it would not be wise," he continued, at last. "But I wish
that it could have been done. It would be better in many ways. A man
and wife ought to live together. A girl ought to live with her parents.
We are all in false positions. And, perhaps, if any one is to be
sacrificed, it ought to be myself," he said, with a curious smile.
"You forget," said Mrs. Romaine with emotion, "that you sacrifice others
in sacrificing yourself."
"Others? No, I don't think so. You allude to my sister?"
"No--not your sister."
"Sophy could go on living with us and managing the household affairs,"
said Brooke, who had no conception of what poor Mrs. Romaine meant; "and
she is not a person who would willingly interfere with other people's
views or opinions. Indeed, she carries the _laisser-faire_ principle
almost to an extreme. Sophy is no proselytizer, thank God!"
"I did not mean Sophy: I meant your friends--old friends like myself,"
said Rosalind, desperately. "You will cast us all off--you will forget
us--forget--_me_!"
There was unusual passion in her voice. Then she hid her face in her
hands and burst into tears. Brooke made two steps towards her, and
stopped short.
"Rosalind!" he exclaimed. "You cannot think that! you cannot think that
I shall ever forget old friends!"
Then he halted, and stood looking down at her, and biting his beard,
which he was crushing up to his lips with one hand, after his fashion
when he was embarrassed or perplexed. Some glimmer of the truth had
begun to manifest itself to him. A hot, red flush crossed his brow.
"Rosalind," he said, in a softer but also a colder tone, "you must not
take this matter so much to heart. Rest assured that I--and my wife, if
she comes back, and my daughter also--will always look upon you as a
very dear and valued friend."
"I am so alone in the world," she said, wiping away her tears and
slightly lifting her head. "I cannot bear to think that the day will
come when I----"
She paused--perhaps purposely. But Caspar was resolved to treat the
subject more lightly now.
"When you are without friends? Oh, that will never be. You are too kind
and sympathetic to be without as many friends as you choose to have."
"And you--yourself----"
"Oh, I am of a very constant disposition," he said, cheerfully. "I
suppose it is for that reason that I want Alice back. You know that in
spite of all our disagreements, I have always held to it that I never
saw a woman half as charming, half as attractive, as Alice."
This was a speech not calculated to soothe Mrs. Romaine's wounded
feelings, or to implant in her a liking for Lady Alice. For Mrs. Romaine
was not very generous, and she was irritated by the thought that she had
betrayed her own secret. She rose to her feet at once, with a quick and
rather haughty gesture.
"You are indeed a model of constancy," she said. "Some men would resent
insults, even if offered to them by wives. You are capable, it seems, of
much forgetfulness and much forgiveness."
"Do you think that a fault?" asked Brooke, calmly. Her mood changed at
once. She burst into a shrill little laugh.
"Oh, not at all. Most convenient--for the wife. There is one danger--you
may incur the censure of more worldly men; but then you are too
high-minded to care for that!"
Caspar shrugged his broad shoulders.
"I think I can take care of myself," he said, good-humoredly. "And now I
must go. Pray don't distress yourself on my account. I will not do
anything rash."
They stood facing each other, she with her eyes down, he looking
straight into her face. Some instinct told her not to break the spell by
looking up. There was a conflict going on in Caspar Brooke's mind--a
conflict between pity (not love) and duty. He was a tender-hearted man,
and it would have been very easy to him just then to have given her some
friendly, comforting words, or even----
Yes, he acknowledged to himself, he would have liked to kiss those soft
lips of hers, those downcast eyelids, slightly reddened by recent tears!
And he did not think that she would resent the caress.
But how could he ask his wife to return to him if he did this thing? As
he had indicated by his words, he still loved Lady Alice. He had the
courage to be faithful to her, too. For Caspar Brooke was a man of
strong convictions, steadfast will, and stainless honor. However great
the temptation might be, he was not going to do a thing that he knew he
should afterwards regret.
"Good-bye, Mrs. Romaine."
"Good-bye, Mr. Brooke."
So they took leave of each other; and Rosalind went to bed with a bad
headache, while Caspar Brooke returned home to find fault with his
daughter Lesley.