CHAPTER XXIII

When Rosalind Hollis found herself on her feet again a slight sensation

of fright checked her for a moment. Then, resolutely suppressing such

unworthy weakness, the lofty inspiration of her mission in life

dominated her, and she stepped forward undaunted. And Carden, seeing her

advance toward him, arose in astonishment to meet her.

For a second they stood facing each other, he astounded, she a trifle

pale but firm. Then in a low voice she asked his pardon for disturbing

him.

"I am Rosalind Hollis, a physician," she said quietly, "and physicians

are sometimes obliged to do difficult things in the interest of their

profession. It is dreadfully difficult for me to speak to you in this

way. But"--she looked fearlessly at him--"I am confident you will not

misinterpret what I have done."

He managed to assure her that he did not misinterpret it.

She regarded him steadily; she examined the dark circles under his eyes;

she coolly observed his rising color under her calm inspection; she saw

him fidgeting with his walking stick. She _must_ try his pulse!

"Would you mind if I asked you a few questions in the interest of

science?" she said earnestly.

"As a m-m-matter of fact," he stammered, "I don't know much about

science. Awfully glad to do anything I can, you know."

"Oh, I don't mean it that way," she reassured him. A hint of a smile

tinted her eyes with brilliant amethyst. "Would you mind if I sat here

for a few moments? _Could_ you overlook this horrid unconventionality

long enough for me to explain why I have spoken to you?"

"I could indeed!" he said, so anxiously cordial that her lovely face

grew serious and she hesitated. But he was standing aside, hat off,

placing the bench at her disposal, and she seated herself, placing her

book on the bench beside her.

"Would you mind sitting here for a few moments?" she asked him gravely.

Dazed, scarcely crediting the evidence of his senses, he took possession

of the end of the bench with the silent obedience of a schoolboy. His

attitude was irreproachable. She was grateful for this, and her

satisfaction with herself for not having misjudged him renewed her

confidence in him, in herself, and in the difficult situation.

She began, quietly, by again telling him her name and profession; where

she lived, and that she was studying to be a specialist, though she did

not intimate what that specialty was to be.

Outwardly composed and attentively deferential, his astonishment at

times dominated a stronger sentiment that seemed to grow and expand with

her every word, seizing him in a fierce possession absolutely and

hopelessly complete.

The bewildering fascination of her mastered him. No cool analysis of

what his senses were confirming could be necessary to convince him of

his condition. Every word of hers, every gesture, every inflection of

her sweet, clear voice, every lifting of her head, her eyes, her

perfectly gloved hands, only repeated to him what he knew was a

certainty. Never had he looked upon such physical loveliness; never had

he dreamed of such a voice.

She had asked him a question, and, absorbed in the pure delight of

looking at her, he had not comprehended or answered. She flushed

sensitively, accepting his silence as refusal, and he came out of his

trance hastily.

"I beg your pardon; I did not quite understand your question, Miss

Hollis--I mean, Dr. Hollis."

"I asked you if you minded my noting your pulse," she said.

He stretched out his right hand; she stripped off her glove, laid the

tip of her middle finger on his wrist, and glanced down at the gold

watch which she held.

"I am wondering," he said, laughing uncertainly, "whether you believe me

to be ill. Of course it is easy to see that you have found something

unusual about me--something of particular interest to a physician. Is

there anything very dreadful going to happen to me, Dr. Hollis? I feel

perfectly well."

"Are you sure you feel well?" she asked, so earnestly that the smile on

his lips faded out.

"Absolutely. Is my pulse queer?"

"It is not normal."

He could easily account for that, but he said nothing.

She questioned him for a few minutes, noted his pulse again, looked

closely at the bluish circles under his eyes. Naturally he flushed up

and grew restless under the calm, grave, beautiful eyes.

"I--I have an absolutely new and carefully sterilized thermometer--" She

drew it from a tiny gold-initialed pocket case, and looked wistfully at

him.

"You want to put that into my mouth?" he asked, astonished.

"If you don't mind."

She held it up, shook it once or twice, and deliberately inserted it

between his lips. And there he sat, round-eyed, silent, the end of the

thermometer protruding at a rakish angle from the corner of his mouth.

And he grew redder and redder.

"I _don't_ wish to alarm you," she was saying, "but all this is so

deeply significant, so full of vital interest to me--to the world, to

science--"

"_What_ have I got, in Heaven's name?" he said thickly, the thermometer

wiggling in his mouth.

"Ah!" she exclaimed with soft enthusiasm, clasping her pretty ungloved

hands, "I cannot be sure yet--I dare not be too sanguine--"

"Do you mean that you _want_ me to have something queer?" he blurted

out, while the thermometer wiggled with every word he uttered.

"N-no, of course, I don't _want_ you to be ill," she said hastily.

"Only, if you _are_ ill it will be a wonderful thing for me. I

mean--a--that I am intensely interested in certain symptoms which--"

She gently withdrew the glass tube from his lips and examined it

carefully.

"_Is_ there anything the matter?" he insisted, looking at the instrument

over her shoulder.

She did not reply; pure excitement rendered her speechless.

"I seem to _feel_ all right," he added uneasily. "If you really believe

that there's anything wrong with me, I'll stop in to see my doctor."

"Your doctor!" she repeated, appalled.

"Yes, certainly. Why not?"

"Don't do that! Please don't do that! I--why _I_ discovered this case. I

beg you most earnestly to let me observe it. You don't understand the

importance of it! You don't begin to dream of the rarity of this case!

How much it means to me!"

He flushed up. "Do you intend to intimate that I am afflicted with some

sort of rare and s-s-trange d-d-disease?" he stammered.

"I dare not pronounce upon it too confidently," she said with

enthusiasm; "I have not yet absolutely determined the nature of the

disease. But, oh, I am beginning to hope--"

"Then I _am_ diseased!" he faltered. "I've got _something_ anyhow; is

that it? Only you are not yet perfectly sure what it is called! Is that

the truth, Miss Hollis?"

"How can I answer positively until I have had time to observe these

symptoms? It requires time to be certain. I do not wish to alarm you,

but it is my duty to say to you that you should immediately place

yourself under medical observation."

"You think that?"

"I do; I am convinced of it. Please understand me; I do not pronounce

upon these visible symptoms; I do not express an unqualified opinion;

but I could be in a position to do so if you consent to place yourself

under my observations and care. For these suspicious symptoms are not

only very plainly apparent to me, but were even noted by that old

gentleman whom you may perhaps have observed conversing with me."

"Yes, I saw him. Who is he?"

"Dr. Austin Atwood," said the girl solemnly.

"Oh! And you say he also observed something queer about me? What did he

see? Are there spots on me? Am I turning any remarkable color? Am I--"

And in the very midst of his genuine alarm he suddenly remembered the

make-up box and what the Tracer of Lost Persons had done to his eyes.

Was _that_ it? Where was the Tracer, anyway? He had promised to appear.

And then Carden recollected the gray wig and whiskers that the Tracer

had waved at him from the cupboard, bidding him note them well. _Could_

that beaming, benignant, tottering old gentleman have been the Tracer of

Lost Persons himself? And the same instant Carden was sure of it, spite

of the miraculous change in the man.

Then logic came to his aid; and, deducing with care and patience, an

earnest conviction grew within him that the dark circles under his eyes

and the tottering old gentleman resembling Dr. Austin Atwood had a great

deal to do with this dreadful disease which Dr. Hollis desired to study.

He looked at the charming girl beside him, and she looked back at him

very sweetly, very earnestly, awaiting his decision.

For a moment he realized that she had really scared him, and in the

reaction of relief an overwhelming desire to laugh seized him. He

managed to suppress it, to compose himself. Then he remembered the

Tracer's admonition to acquiesce in everything, do what he was told to

do, not to run away, and to pay his court at the first decent

opportunity.

He had no longer any desire to escape; he was quite willing to do

anything she desired.

"Do you really want to study me, Dr. Hollis?" he asked, feeling like a

hypocrite.

"Indeed I do," she replied fervently.

"You believe me worth studying?"

"Oh, truly, truly, you are! You don't suspect--you cannot conceive how

important you have suddenly become to me."

"Then I think you had better take my case, Dr. Hollis," he said

seriously. "I begin now to realize that you believe me to be a sort of

freak--an afflicted curiosity, and that, in the interest of medicine, I

ought to go to an asylum or submit myself to the ceaseless observation

of a competent private physician."

"I--I think it best for you to place yourself in my care," she said.

"Will you?"

"Yes," he said, "I will. I'll do anything in the world you ask."

"That is very--very generous, very noble of you!" she exclaimed,

flushing with excitement and delight. "It means a great deal to me--it

means, perhaps, a fame that I scarcely dared dream of even in my most

enthusiastic years. I am too grateful to express my gratitude

coherently; I am trying to say to you that I thank you; that I recognize

in you those broad, liberal, generous qualities which, from your

appearance and bearing, I--I thought perhaps you must possess."

She colored again very prettily; he bowed, and ventured to remind her

that she had not yet given him the privilege of naming himself.

"That is true!" she said, surprised. "I had quite forgotten it." But

when he named himself she raised her head, startled.

"Victor Carden!" she repeated. "You are the _artist_, Victor Carden!"

"Yes," he said, watching her dilated eyes like two violet-tinted jewels.

For a minute she sat looking at him; and imperceptibly a change came

into her face, and its bewildering beauty softened as the vivid tints

died out, leaving her cheeks almost pale.

"It is--a pity," she said under her breath. All the excitement, all the

latent triumph, all the scarcely veiled eager enthusiasm had gone from

her now.

"A pity?" he repeated, smiling.

"Yes. I wish it had been only an ordinary man. I--why should this happen

to you? You have done so much for us all--made us forget ourselves in

the beauty of what you offer us. Why should this happen to _you_!"

"But you have not told me yet what has happened to me, Miss Hollis."

She looked up, almost frightened.

"_Are_ you our Victor Carden? I do not wish to believe it! You have done

so much for the world--you have taught us to understand and desire all

that is noble and upright and clean and beautiful!--to desire it, to

aspire toward it, to venture to live the good, true, wholesome lives

that your penciled creations must lead--_must_ lead to wear such

beautiful bodies and such divine eyes!"

"Do _you_ care for my work?" he asked, astonished and moved.

"I? Yes, of course I do. Who does not?"

"Many," he replied simply.

"I am sorry for them," she said.

They sat silent for a long while.

At first his overwhelming desire was to tell her of the deception

practiced upon her; but he could not do that, because in exposing

himself he must fail in loyalty to the Tracer of Lost Persons. Besides,

she would not believe him. She would think him mad if he told her that

the old gentleman she had taken for Dr. Atwood was probably Mr. Keen,

the Tracer of Lost Persons. Also, he himself was not absolutely certain

about it. He had merely deduced as much.

"Tell me," he said very gently, "what is the malady from which you

believe I am suffering?"

For a moment she remained silent, then, face averted, laid her finger on

the book beside her.

"That," she said unsteadily.

He read aloud: "Lamour's Disease. A Treatise in sixteen volumes by Ero

S. Lamour, M.D., M.S., F.B.A., M.F.H."

"All that?" he asked guiltily.

"I don't know, Mr. Carden. Are you laughing at me? Do you not believe

me?" She had turned suddenly to confront him, surprising a humorous

glimmer in his eyes.

"I really do not believe I am seriously ill," he said, laughing in spite

of her grave eyes.

"Then perhaps you had better read a little about what Lamour describes

as the symptoms of this malady," she said sadly.

"Is it fatal?" he inquired.

"Ultimately. That is why I desire to spend my life in studying means to

combat it. That is why I desire you so earnestly to place yourself under

my observation and let me try."

"Tell me one thing," he said; "is it contagious? Is it infectious? No?

Then I don't mind your studying me all you wish, Dr. Hollis. You may

take my temperature every ten minutes if you care to. You may observe my

pulse every five minutes if you desire. Only please tell me how this is

to be accomplished; because, you see, I live in the Sherwood Studio

Building, and you live on Madison Avenue."

"I--I have a ward--a room--fitted up with every modern surgical

device--every improvement," she said. "It adjoins my office. _Would_ you

mind living there for a while--say for a week at first--until I can be

perfectly certain in my diagnosis?"

"Do you intend to put me to bed?" he asked, appalled.

"Oh, no! Only I wish to watch you carefully and note your symptoms from

moment to moment. I also desire to try the effects of certain medicines

on you--"

"What kind of medicines?" he asked uneasily.

"I cannot tell yet. Perhaps antitoxin; I don't know; perhaps formalin

later. Truly, Mr. Carden, this case has taken on a graver, a more

intimate significance since I have learned who you are. I would have

worked hard to save any life; I shall put my very heart and soul into my

work to save you, who have done so much for us all."

The trace of innocent emotion in her voice moved him.

"I am really not ill," he said unsteadily. "I cannot let you think I

am--"

"Don't speak that way, Mr. Carden. I--I am perfectly miserable over it;

I don't feel any happiness in my discovery now--not the least bit. I had

rather live my entire life without seeing one case of Lamour's Disease

than to believe you are afflicted with it."

"But I'm not, Miss Hollis!--really, I am not--"

She looked at him compassionately for a moment, then rose.

"It is best that you should be informed as to your probable condition,"

she said. "In Lamour's works, volume nine, you had better read exactly

what Lamour says. Do you mind coming to the office with me, Mr. Carden?"

"Now?"

"Yes. The book is there. Do you mind coming?"

"No--no, of course not." And, as they turned away together under the

trees: "You don't intend to begin observing me this afternoon, do you?"

he ventured.

"I think it best if you can arrange your affairs. Can you, Mr. Carden?"

"Why, yes, I suppose I can. Did you mean for me to begin to occupy that

surgical bedroom at once?"

"Do you mind?"

"N-no. I'll telephone my servants to pack a steamer trunk and send it

around to your apartment this evening. And--where am I to board?"

"I have a dining room," she said simply. "My apartment consists of the

usual number of servants and rooms, including my office, and my

observation ward which you will occupy."

He walked on, troubled.

"I only w-want to ask one or two things, Dr. Hollis. Am I to be placed

on a diet? I hate diets!"

"Not at once."

"May I smoke?"

"Certainly," she said, smiling.

"And you won't p-put me--send me to bed too early?"

"Oh, no! The later you sit up the better, because I shall wish to take

your temperature every ten minutes and I shall feel very sorry to arouse

you."

"You mean you are coming in to wake me up every ten minutes and put that

tube in my mouth?" he asked, aghast.

"Only every half-hour, Mr. Carden. Can't you stand it for a week?"

"Well," he said, "I--I suppose I can if _you_ can. Only, upon my honor,

there is really nothing the matter with me, and I'll prove it to you out

of your own book."

"I wish you could, Mr. Carden. I should be only too happy to give you

back to the world with a clear bill of health if you can convince me I

am wrong. Do you not believe me? Indeed, indeed I am not selfish and

wicked enough to wish you this illness, no matter how rare it is!"

"The rarer a disease is the madder it makes people who contract it," he

said. "I should be the maddest man in Manhattan if I really did have

Lamour's malady. But I haven't. There is only one malady afflicting me,

and I am waiting for a suitable opportunity to tell you all about it,

but--"

"Tell me now," she said, raising her eyes to his.

"Not now."

"To-night?"

"I hope so. I will if I can, Miss Hollis."

"But you must not fear to tell a physician about anything which troubles

you, Mr. Carden."

"I'll remember that," he said thoughtfully, as they emerged from the

Park and crossed to Madison Avenue.

A moment later he hailed a car and they both entered.

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