They, too, had wondered much about the sensations of the soldier in
battle, and one of them asked me if I did not think the glory in taking
part in great deeds, was a powerful stimulus causing soldiers to emulate
the great heroes of history. I replied:
“Not at all.”
Then they wanted to know what was the sentiment that took possession of
the soldier when he was actually fighting. I replied that three words,
only three, were frequently uttered by all classes of soldiers in the
thick of a fight, and these words fully indicate the soldier’s dominant
sentiment.
In my division was a captain who was noted for religious life and extreme
orthodoxy in belief and conduct. He was a strong Sabbatarian and had
never been known to utter an oath, or even a mild word of the “cuss”
variety. I regarded him as a Miss Nancy sort of man and feared he would
be of no use in a battle, unless a quick and successful retreat might be
necessary. But one day, while a big battle was going on, I saw right in
the thickest of the fight, my mild mannered Captain waving his sword and
urging his men on in such splendid style that I could not help admiring
him! I rode up to compliment him, but when I got near him his language
made me smile.
“Give ’em hell! Give ’em hell, boys!” he would yell after each volley—and
he did not vary his remarks. I couldn’t resist saying,
“Captain, I’m really surprised at such language from you,—you, our most
religious soldier.”
“Well, General,” he replied, “I’m saying just what I feel, and just what
I mean. Excuse me, but—business is business.” Then he waved his sword
again and repeated, “Give ’em hell, boys, give ’em hell—— Give ’em hell——
Give ’em hell,” and gentlemen, those three words express the entire
sentiment of a soldier while he is in battle! And, religious though they
were, those three ministers looked as if they felt compelled to believe
me.
One evening I stood at the landing of the grand staircase of General
Alger’s handsome residence at Detroit, looking down on a great social
gathering on the floor below. Great men and charming women, elegant
attires and animated faces combined to make a picture that I would not
have missed for anything, but somehow my thoughts persisted in running
in a contemplative groove, so I was not astonished when the general
tapped me on the shoulder and rallied me on standing apart and being very
quiet and serious. I replied, there were times when a professional funny
man found it hard to live up to his reputation when he chanced to find
himself alone and in a reflective mood. He not only understood me, but
spoke most sympathetically of the necessary fluctuations of a mercurial
temperament, and of the tendency of quicksilver to fall as quickly as it
mounts.
Most truthfully did John G. Saxe, the humorous poet, write, “It’s a very
serious thing to be a funny man.” Real fun must be spontaneous. The
hostess who pounces upon me suddenly when the guests begin to yawn and
exclaims imploringly, “Oh, Mr. Wilder! _Do_ say something funny!” does
not realize that she sends the mercury down with a rush.
Several times I have had the pleasure of meeting General Lew Wallace,
the distinguished soldier, author and diplomat. He served his country
gallantly in the Mexican War, when he was but twenty-one years of age,
and afterward did inestimable service in the Civil War; he has been
Governor of New Mexico, and American minister to Turkey, yet it is as the
author of “Ben Hur” that he is most widely known and loved by his own
country, as well as by Christian people of all nations, for his book has
been translated into almost every European tongue.
When I was in New Mexico I visited the Spanish Palace at Santa Fé, which
was General Wallace’s residence during his governorship. The building was
erected in 1598, long before the Pilgrim Fathers and Captain John Smith
ever set foot on the Western Hemisphere, so it is one of the show places
of the American Continent, yet the greatest interest of every visitor is
the room in which “Ben Hur” was written.
Like every other real man of affairs, General Wallace has a large sunny
side to his nature, and a gift for story-telling. I have listened to him
with huge delight. To repeat all his stories good enough to print would
crowd everything else out of my book, but here is one that I have often
recalled, and with a hearty laugh each time:
In Stamboul, Turkey, lived a well-to-do native, named Ismail Hassan. He
did not have the imagination of Rider Haggard or the eloquence of some
Americans I could name, but he had a ready oriental wit that could always
be trusted to get him out of a tight place. A neighbor called on him one
day and wanted to borrow his donkey. Ismail made a low salaam and replied:
“Neighbor, I am very sorry, but my boy started on the donkey an hour ago
for Scutari. By this time he is gaily trotting over the hills, far from
the sacred precincts of Stamboul.”
Just as Ismail finished speaking a loud bray was heard from the stable,
which was under the same roof as the house. The neighbor exclaimed:
“How now, friend Ismail? I heard your donkey bray.”
Ismail protested that the neighbor’s ear had been deceived, and that the
noise was not a donkey’s bray. But the donkey, who was supposed to be
trotting toward Scutari, brayed again, brayed twice, and loudly, so the
neighbor cried,
“Surely that is your donkey, Ismail. Allah be praised, I can now borrow
him.” But Ismail replied angrily,
“Which do you believe is lying, the donkey or I?”
The neighbor could not set up the word of a donkey against that of Ismail
Hassan, so he had to depart on foot.
[Illustration: “Who Is Lying, the Donkey or I?”]
Although it has been my rare luck to meet many great and prominent men,
I am frequently surprised anew that my first impression is of their
simplicity of manner and their lack of affectation.
General Nelson A. Miles, until recently General-in-Chief of our Army,
was always of distinguished appearance. In his earlier days he was known
among the ladies in army circles as “Beauty Miles,” and his photograph
was in wild demand by young women at every military post in the west;
yet he was always as modest and approachable as any ordinary mortal, and
I am sure no American ever was more grateful for it than I, for I never
outgrew my boyhood’s adoration for soldiers.
I gratefully remember Miles calling on me once when I was in Washington.
I ought to have been overcome by the honor, which certainly it was, but
he disarmed embarrassment by “droppin’ in” informally, head of the army
though he was, in ordinary civilian costume and with an old soft hat
on his head. On another occasion, when he chanced to be in New York,
he saw me standing in front of “The Alpine,” where I lived many years,
stopped and chatted with me for a full half hour. As we were on Broadway,
scores of men passed us every minute, and it was plain to see that many
of them knew who he was and gazed at him respectfully and admiringly,
yet no crowd collected and no one “rung in”; he was as little disturbed
as if we had been in the middle of a ten acre lot. I was so delighted
with the incident, with his manner and that of the people, that I asked
him in what other country of the world the head of the army could be so
unconventional and democratic.
“Well, Marsh,” he replied, with a big smile of content, “that’s the
beauty of this country of ours—a man doesn’t have to be anything but
himself, or more than he wishes to be.”
General Miles is loaded to the muzzle with good stories; he has so many
that he tells them in as few words as possible, so as to have time to
tell a lot of them. Here are some that he gave me one day in quick
succession.
One Irishman bet another that he could drink a bottle of whiskey and not
stagger. The other Irishman covered the bet, and the first one won, by
going to bed and drinking the whiskey there.
A darky approached a fish stand kept by another darky and asked:
“Got any fresh fish?”
“’Cose I has. What you tink I’ze sellin’? Shoes?”
“Oh, I knows you’s sellin’ fish, but is dey fresh?”
“’Cose dey’s fresh. Hyah!—quit smellin’ o’ dem fish!”
“I ain’t smellin’ ’em.”
“What you doin’, den?”
“I’ze jus’ whisperin’ to ’em: dat’s all.”
“An’ what you whisperin’ to dem fish?”
“Oh, I’ze jus’ askin’ ’em how’s all dey’re relations dat dey lef’ in de
ocean.”
“An’ what dey say?”
“Dey say it’s so long since day seen ’em dat dey forgits.”
An Irishman said: “Last night at two o’clock in the marnin’ whin I was
walkin’ up and down the flure wid me bare feet on the oil-cloth wid a
cryin’ child on aich arm, I cuddent help rememberin’ that me father
wanted me to be a priest. But I thought I knew better than he did!”
XXVII
SOME FIRST EXPERIENCES
When I was a Boy.—One Christmas Frolic.—How I Got on One
Theatre’s Free List.—My First Experience as a Manager.—Strange
Sequel of a Modest Business Effort.—My First Cigar and How
It Undid Me.—The Only “Drink” I Ever Took.—My First Horse in
Central Park.—I Volunteer as a Fifer in School Band, with Sad
Results to All Concerned.
Senator Jones of Nevada, whose stories have greater influence than some
other Senator’s speeches, tells of a professional “repeater” who on
election day voted early and late and often for the candidate of the
party which had employed him, but who, just before the polls closed,
begged permission to vote once the other ticket, which was that of his
own party. With similar spirit I, who have been filling a book with
mention of other people, want to record a few of my occasional doings. If
some of these seem insignificant, I can only explain, in Shakespeare’s
words, “A poor thing, but mine own.”
My memory goes back to the day I was baptized, but the first Christmas I
can recall—and Christmas is the small boy’s largest day, dawned when I
was seven years old. My father and I had lived together as bachelors,
so two aunts were the only mothers I ever knew. They lived at Wolcott,
New York; together they owned a full dozen of children, and every boy and
girl was healthy and full of fun. I always spent Christmas with them,
and the first of these holidays I recall is still vivid in my mind,
for I upset the whole town. My cousins and I exhausted our collective
repertoires of mischief on the day before Christmas; children are usually
“too serious.” Suddenly I conceived the idea of disguising myself and
discovering how it would feel to be somebody else.
So I blacked my face and in other ways hid my identity until even the
family dog failed to recognize me. Then I practiced on several neighbors,
not one of whom succeeded in seeing more than skin-deep. Thus encouraged,
I called on a young lady of whom I was very fond—and let me remind my
readers that a seven-year old boy’s adoration is more whole-hearted,
unselfish and intense than that of chaps who are from ten to twenty years
older.
Well, I knocked at her door, after dark, intending to ask for something
to eat. She herself opened the door, holding a lamp aloft, to see who the
caller might be. Forgetting my disguise, I sprang toward her, after the
manner of seven-year old lovers. She shrieked, dropped the lamp—which
fortunately went out, and fled down several steps to the kitchen. Her
cry of alarm startled a large bulldog, whose existence I had forgotten,
but whose voice I recognized as he said distinctly, in dog lingo, “I’m
after you.” I took to my heels and ran homeward; he was handicapped by a
door that had to be opened for him but I had barely got within my room
door when he struck it with the impact of a cart-load of rocks and a roar
which I can recall whenever I least want to.
[Illustration: “Struck it with the impact of a cart-load of rocks.”]
In my fright I confessed all and was sent to bed in disgrace. But I
remained awake, for it was Christmas eve, and I had resolved to learn
whether Santa Claus was the real thing. I got up at four o’clock,
went down-stairs, but not a thing did I find. So I went back to bed,
overslept, missed the prologue, and the others had the laugh on me. But
I was round in time for the distribution of gifts, and as it was a case
of twelve to one, all the cousins giving me presents, I felt that but for
the dog incident I had got even with this first Christmas I can recall.
While I was a schoolboy at Rochester I was very fond of the theatre and
used to “take in” every show that came to town. Generally this cost me
nothing, although I was not on the manager’s complimentary list. I would
assist Janitor William Halloway light up old Corinthian Hall, where
almost all attractions appeared; then after making a pretense of going
home, I would conceal myself in the darkest part of the house I could
find. This was easy to do, for I was very short; when the performance was
about to begin I would bob up serenely, and no one would question me.
My first public appearance on any stage was back of our old house on
North Fitzhugh Street, in a barn which my father never used. So some of
my schoolmates and I turned the loft into a theatre. We rigged a stage
with scenery and arranged for the lighting by making an opening in the
roof. Pins were the only kind of currency accepted at the box-office, and
I “in my time played many parts”; I would sell tickets at the lower door,
keep children waiting to make them believe a great crowd was up-stairs,
then I would hurry to the upper door, take the tickets and seat the
holders wherever they would see best, if girls, where they would look
best. My duties did not end here, for I was stage manager and appeared
at every performance in various characters, so I honestly believe the
audience got its money’s worth.
My first business venture was in the peddling line; most boys have
longings in that direction, but I was one of the few that persisted
in spite of all opposition at home and elsewhere. I went from house
to house with a basket of things which I was sure would be desired by
housekeepers. The results were not as satisfactory as I had expected,
housekeepers didn’t really know how much they needed the articles I
displayed and explained, yet I got some lessons that have made me a
lifelong sympathizer with venders, book agents, canvassers, etc., for I
recall distinctly the sensation of having doors closed in my face with
some such remark as “Oh, get out of here; we don’t want any.”
On one occasion I rang the bell of a house on Thirty-fourth Street,
near Park Avenue, New York. When the maid opened the door two lovely
little girls peeped from the fold of her dress and exchanged wondering
remarks about “the funny little man.” I offered my wares; the maid said
she would see the mistress. The little girls remained, we began to “make
friends” and had reached the degree of confidence at which names and ages
are compared. The maid returned to say that the mistress did not care to
buy, but was sorry for me and had sent me a nickel. Being proud as well
as poor, my impulse was to refuse the coin, but I put it in my pocket,
saying I would keep it for luck (which it seemed to bring me). Years
afterward at a Lambs’ Club dinner a prominent judge said to me, “Mr.
Wilder, I want you to meet my wife and daughters. Will you dine with us
next Wednesday evening?”
I accepted, but when I climbed the steps of the house something compelled
my memory to run backward and when I entered the drawing-room and was
presented to the wife and charming daughters of my host it became clear
to me that these were the kind-hearted people of long ago—the two little
girls who had made friends with “the funny little man,” and the good lady
who was sorry for me and sent me a nickel.
I am not a smoker, but I did try a cigar once, and this first cigar
is one of my lifelong memories. I encountered this cigar at a dinner
given at the Hotel Astoria by the Aborigines Club. The decorations were
appropriate in the extreme, the walls being hung with Indian blankets,
war bonnets, bows and arrows and many other reminders of the noble red
man. The central ornament of the large round table was a small Indian
tepee, or tent, in which I, in the full regalia of an Indian brave,
was stored before the guests arrived. At a signal given by Col. Tom
Ochiltree, after the club and its guests were seated, I lighted a cigar;
it was necessary for artistic verisimilitude that smoke could issue from
the top of the tepee, and it would not be proper at the beginning of a
dinner, for the smoke to be from anything not fragrant. Well, I never
hesitated to try anything new, so the smoke went up, but soon afterward
I went down—and out. The tepee began to dance; I felt smothered, and
without waiting for the signal for my formal and stately appearance I
threw open the flap, staggered about the table and saw the forty diners
multiply into a hundred and fifty, all of whom engaged in erratic and
fantastic gyrations. General Miles who was one of the guests, caught me
as I was about to fall from the table. I was carried to another room
and put to bed in a dejected state of mind and with a wet towel about
my head. It was literally a case of “Lo, the poor Indian.” Such is the
history of my first, and—heaven help me—my last cigar.
[Illustration: “I threw open the flap and staggered about the table.”]
Although a total abstainer from spirituous liquors—for I can get as
lively on cold water as any other man can on whiskey, I have to my credit
or discredit, one single “drink.” It was on a railway train, going from
Liverpool to London, that I was tempted; unlike Adam and many drunkards,
I cannot say “the woman tempted me,” for it was a party of good fellows
with whom I was traveling. As is generally known, European sleeping cars
are divided into compartments—one for men and the other for women. Toward
bedtime a flask of something stronger than water was passed—they called
it “a nightcap”; all but I drank from it; I declined when invited, but
when some one “dared” me to take a drink it was too much for my pride,
so I yielded. There is a story of an Irishman who said to another,
“Have a drink, Moike?”
“No, Oi’ve just had wan.”
“Well, have another. Ye can’t fly wid wan wing.”
I believed this assertion, for I was so exhausted by what I had swallowed
that I soon made flying leaps from one berth to another and in other
ways so conducted myself as to elicit shouts of laughter from the other
men; our party became so noisy that the ladies in the next compartment
got into a state of extreme indignation, rapped angrily on the wall, and
sent the guard to us with frenzied appeals for silence. The effect of my
physical condition was not so disastrous as that of my first cigar, but
I caused as much disturbance as a man with a “load” which he should have
made two trips for, and I was so grateful that matters were no worse that
I resolved that my first drink should also be my last.
My first horse was another man’s. On the site of Hammerstein’s Theatre
of Varieties used to be a stable, whose proprietor was so kind to me,
when I was a New York schoolboy, that I used to spend much of my spare
time there. He owned a little black mare which he allowed me to ride in
Central Park. Her age and pedigree were unknown; some men said she had
been in the Civil War; others dated her back to the Mexican War; she
ought to have been in both for she was full of fighting blood, indicated
by defiant waves of a little flag-like tail. I could not possibly fall
off, for her back sloped into a natural cradle; her hips and shoulders
would have made fine vantage points for wireless telegraphy. Her manner
was distinguished by severe dignity, and her walk was slow and stately;
nothing could urge her out of it, but occasionally of her own free will
she would break into a decorous trot for two or three minutes. She was a
capital illustration of Milton’s idea of the female will:—
“When she will, she will, you may depend on’t:
And when she won’t she won’t, and there’s the end on’t.”
When she thought she had gone far enough she would calmly disregard any
opinion I might have on the subject and return to the stable. I was much
like the Irishman who drove a mule up and down a street, backward and
forward, until a friend asked:
“I say, Moike, where are ye goin’?”
“How should I know? Ask the mule.”
I must have been the cause of much amusement to beholders as I nestled in
the depression of that animal’s back. A facetious Park policeman once
hailed me with,
“Say, young fellow? Why don’t you get off and get inside?”
My first appearance as a musician was while I was in a primary school
“annex” in the basement of a church which stood where the New Amsterdam
Theatre now is. The teachers were so indulgent to me that I gave loose
rein to my inclination toward practical joking, and I became an element
of mischief which kept that school in a wild but constant ferment. One
of the teachers planned a juvenile fife-and-drum corps and requested all
boys who could perform on either instrument to step forward. I improved
the opportunity to join the fifers, although I could not play a note. In
time we made a creditable band; I stood next a boy who played well, and
followed his motions industrially, though “faking” all the while. This
went on a long time, to the huge delight of the boys who were in the
secret; the teacher did not suspect me.
But the end came one day, in the presence of distinguished visitors.
The fifers were few; the one I had imitated had remained at home, so I
shook in my shoes when the corps was called on for music. The teacher,
who was at the piano, missed the customary volume of sound, and looked
searchingly at me. When she told me to stand beside her I knew my doom
was sealed; I had never professed to be a soloist anyhow. But before I
became officially dead I would have some more fun, and play the joke to
the end. My short stature brought my instrument about to the level of
the teacher’s ear, from which position I let off at intervals a piercing
blast which made that poor woman jump as if a wasp had stung her. I
knew what was coming, after the visitors went, so beside having fun I
was getting my revenge in advance. It is said that when Nemesis catches
up with a man he feels her hand on his shoulder, but it was not on my
shoulder that the hand of fate, represented by that teacher, was felt,
for those were the good old days of corporal punishment in the public
schools—the days when an offended teacher could flog a pupil as long as
her strength lasted.
If these recollections do not please, at least I am at a safe distance,
like the man who sent a poem in to Eugene Field, entitled, “Why Do I
Live?” Field replied, “Because you sent your poem by mail.”