When David awoke late and drowsily the next morning after the storm, he
lay awhile, listening. No rending, crashing, booming in the woods now,
nor rattling of his window-frames. No contemplative twitter of winter
birds about the cedars in the yard, nor caw of crow, crossing the house
chimneys toward the corn shocks. All things hushed, silent, immovable.
Following so quickly upon the sublime roar and ravage of the night
before, the stillness was disturbing. He sprang up and dressed
quickly--admonished by the coldness of his room--before hurrying to his
window to look out. When he tried the sash, it could not be raised. He
thrust his hand through the broken pane and tugged at the shutters;
they could not be shaken. Running downstairs to the kitchen and
returning with hot water, he melted away the ice embedding the bolts
and hinges.
A marvel of nature, terrible, beautiful, met his eyes: ice-rain and a
great frost Cloud, heavy still, but thinner than on the day before,
enwrapped the earth. The sun, descending through this translucent roof
of gray, filled the air beneath with a radiance as of molten pearl; and
in this under-atmosphere of pearl all earthly things were tipped and
hung in silver. Tree, bush, and shrub in the yard below, the rose
clambering the pillars of the porch under his window, the scant ivy
lower down on the house wall, the stiff little junipers, every blade of
grass--all encased in silver. The ruined cedars trailed from sparlike
tops their sweeping sails of incrusted emerald and silver. Along the
eaves, like a row of inverted spears of unequal lengths, hung the
argent icicles. No; not spun silver all this, but glass; all things
buried, not under a tide of liquid silver, but of flowing and then
cooling glass: Nature for once turned into a glass house, fixed in a
brittle mass, nowhere bending or swaying; but if handled roughly, sure
to be shivered.
The ground under every tree in the yard was strewn with boughs; what
must be the ruin of the woods whence the noises had reached him in the
night? Looking out of his window now, he could see enough to let him
understand the havoc, the wreckage.
He went at once to the stable for the feeding and found everything
strangely quiet--the stilling influence of a great frost on animal
life. There had been excitement and uneasiness enough during the night;
now ensued the reaction, for man is but one of the many animals with
nerves and moods. A catastrophe like this which covers with ice the
earth--grass, winter edible twig and leaf, roots and nuts for the brute
kind that turns the soil with the nose, such putting of all food
whatsoever out of reach of mouth or hoof or snout--brings these
creatures face to face with the possibility of starving: they know it
and are silent with apprehension of their peril; know it perhaps by the
survival of prehistoric memories reverberating as instinct still. And
there is another possible prong of truth to this repression of their
characteristic cries at such times of frost: then it was in ages past
that the species which preyed on them grew most ravenous and far
ranging. The silence of the modern stable in a way takes the place of
that primeval silence which was a law of safety in the bleak
fastnesses, hunted over by flesh eating prowlers. It is the prudent
noiselessness of many a species to-day, as the deer and the moose.
The sheep, having enjoyed little shelter beside the hayrick, had
encountered the worst of the storm. When David appeared in the stable
lot, they beheld him at once; for their faces were bunched expectantly
toward the yard gate through which he must emerge. But they spoke not a
word to one another or to him as they hurried slipping forward. The man
looked them over pityingly, yet with humor; for they wore many
undesirable pendants of glass and silver dangling under their bellies
and down their tails.
"You shall come into the barn this night," he vowed within himself.
"I'll make a place for you this day."
Little did he foresee what awful significance to him lay wrapped in
those simple words. Breakfast was ready when, carrying his customary
basket of cobs for his mother, he returned to the house. One good
result at least the storm had wrought for the time: it drew the members
of the household more closely together, as any unusual event--danger,
disaster--generally does. So that his father, despite his outburst of
anger the night previous, forgot this morning his wrongs and
disappointments and relaxed his severity. During the meal he had much
to recount of other sleets and their consequences. He inferred similar
consequences now if snow should follow, or a cold snap set in: no work
in the fields, therefore no hemp-breaking, and therefore delay in
selling the crop; the difficulty of feeding and watering the stock; no
hauling along the mud roads, and little travel of any sort between
country and town; the making of much cord wood out of the fallen
timber, with plenty of stuff for woodpiles; the stopping of mill wheels
on the frozen creeks, and scarcity of flour and meal.
"The meal is nearly out now," said David's mother. "The negroes waste
it."
"We might shell some corn to-day," suggested David's father,
hesitatingly. It was the first time since his son's return from college
that he had ever proposed their working together.
"I'll take a look at the woods first," said David; "and then I want to
make a place in the stable for the sheep, father. They must come under
shelter to-night I'll fix new stalls for the horses inside where we
used to have the corn crib. The cows can go where the horses have been,
and the sheep can have the shed of the cows: it's better than nothing.
I've been wanting to do this ever since I came home from college."
A thoughtless, unfortunate remark, as connected with that shabby,
desperate idea of finding shelter for the stock--fresh reminder of the
creeping, spreading poverty. His father made no rejoinder; and having
finished his breakfast in silence, left the table.
His mother, looking across her coffeecup and biscuit at David, without
change of expression inquired,--
"Will you get that hen?"
"WHAT hen, mother?"
"I told you last night the cook wanted one of the old hens for soup
to-day. Will you get it?"
"No, mother; I will not get the hen for the cook; the cook will
probably get the hen for me."
"She doesn't know the right one."
"But neither do I."
"I want the blue dorking."
"I have a bad eye for color; I might catch something gray."
"I want the dorking; she's stopped laying."
"Is that your motive for taking her life? It would be a terrible
principle to apply indiscriminately!"
"The cook wants to know how she is to get the vegetables out of the
holes in the garden to-day--under all this ice."
"How would she get the vegetables out of the garden under all this ice
if there were no one on the place but herself? I warrant you she'd have
every variety."
"It's a pity we are not able to hire a man. If we could hire a man to
help her, I wouldn't ask you. It's hard on the cook, to make her suffer
for our poverty."
"A little suffering in that way will do her a world of good," said
David, cheerily.
His mother did not hesitate, provocation or no provocation, to sting
and reproach him in this way.
She had never thought very highly of her son; her disappointment,
therefore, over his failure at college had not been keen. Besides,
tragical suffering is the sublime privilege of deep natures: she
escaped by smallness. Nothing would have made her very miserable but
hunger and bodily pains. Against hunger she exercised ceaseless
precautions; bodily pains she had none. The one other thing that could
have agitated her profoundly was the idea that she would be compelled
to leave Kentucky. It was hard for her to move about her house, much
less move to Missouri. Not in months perhaps did she even go upstairs
to bestow care upon, the closets, the bed, the comforts of her son. As
might be expected, she considered herself the superior person of the
family; and as often happens, she imposed this estimate of herself upon
her husband. The terrifying vanity and self-sufficiency of the
little-minded! Nature must set great store upon this type of human
being, since it is regularly allowed to rule its betters.
But his father! David had been at home two months now, for this was the
last of February, and not once during that long ordeal of daily living
together had his father opened his lips either to reproach or question
him.
Letters had been received from the faculty, from the pastor; of that
David was aware; but any conversation as to these or as to the events
of which they were the sad consummation, his father would not have. The
gulf between them had been wide before; now it was fathomless.
Yet David well foreknew that the hour of reckoning had to come, when
all that was being held back would be uttered. He realized that both
were silently making preparations for that crisis, and that each day
brought it palpably nearer. Sometimes he could even see it threatening
in his father's eye, hear it in his voice. It had reached the verge of
explosion the night previous, with that prediction of coming
bankruptcy, the selling of the farm of his Kentucky ancestors, the
removal to Missouri in his enfeebled health. Not until his return had
David realized how literally his father had begun to build life anew on
the hopes of him. And now feel with him in his disappointment as deeply
as he might, sympathy he could not openly offer, explanation he could
not possibly give. His life-problem was not his father's problem; his
father was simply not in a position to understand. Doubt anything in
the Bible--doubt so-called orthodox Christianity--be expelled from the
church and from college for such a reason--where could his father find
patience or mercy for wilful folly and impiety like that?
Meantime he had gone to work; on the very day after his return he had
gone to work. Two sentences of his father's, on the afternoon of his
coming home, had rung in David's ears loud and ceaselessly ever since:
"WHY HAVE YOU COME BACK HERE?" And "I ALWAYS KNEW THERE WAS NOTHING IN
YOU?" The first assured him of the new footing on which he stood: he
was no longer desired under that roof. The second summed up the
life-long estimate which had been formed of his character before he had
gone away.
Therefore he had worked as never even in the old preparatory days. So
long as he remained there, he must at least earn daily bread. More than
that, he must make good, as soon as possible, the money spent at
college. So he sent away the hired negro man; he undertook the work
done by him and more: the care of the stock, the wood cutting,
everything that a man can be required to do on a farm in winter. Of
bright days he broke hemp. Nothing had touched David so deeply as the
discovery in one corner of the farm of that field of hemp: his father
had secretly raised it to be a surprise to him, to help him through his
ministerial studies. This David had learned from his mother; his father
had avoided mention of it: it might rot in the field! In equal silence
David had set about breaking it; and sometimes at night his father
would show enough interest merely to ask some questions regarding the
day's work.
Yet, notwithstanding this impending tragedy with his father, and
distress at their reduced circumstances caused by his expenses at
college, David, during these two months, had entered into much new
happiness.
The doubts which had racked him for many months were ended. He had
reached a decision not to enter the ministry; had stripped his mind
clean and clear of dogmas. The theologies of his day, vast, tangled
thickets of thorns overspreading the simple footpath of the pious
pilgrim mind, interfered with him no more. It was not now necessary for
him to think or preach that any particular church with which he might
identify himself was right, the rest of the human race wrong. He did
not now have to believe that any soul was in danger of eternal
damnation for disagreeing with him. Release from these things left his
religious spirit more lofty and alive than ever.
For, moreover, David had set his feet a brief space on the wide plains
of living-knowledge; he had encountered through their works many of the
great minds of his century, been reached by the sublime
thought-movements of his time, heard the deep roar of the spirit's
ocean. Amid coarse, daily labor once more, amid the penury and discord
in that ruined farmhouse, one true secret of happiness with David was
the recollection of all the noble things of human life which he had
discovered, and to which he meant to work his way again as soon as
possible. And what so helps one to believe in God as knowledge of the
greatness of man?
Meantime, also, his mind was kept freshly and powerfully exercised. He
had discarded his old way of looking at Nature and man's place in it;
and of this fundamental change in him, no better proof could be given
than the way in which he regarded the storm, as he left the
breakfast-table this morning and went to the woods.
The damage was unreckonable. The trees had not been prepared against an
event like that. For centuries some of them had developed strength in
root and trunk and branch to resist the winds of the region when clad
in all their leaves; or to carry the load of these leaves weighted with
raindrops; or to bear the winter snows. Wise self-physicians of the
forest! Removing a weak or useless limb, healing their own wounds and
fractures! But to be buried under ice and then wrenched and twisted by
the blast--for this they had received no training: and thus, like so
many of the great prudent ones who look hourly to their well-being,
they had been stricken down at last by the unexpected.
"Once," said David reverently to himself, beholding it all, "once I
should have seen in this storm some direct intention of the Creator
toward man, even toward me. It would have been a reminder of His power;
perhaps been a chastisement for some good end which I must believe in,
but could not discover. Men certainly once interpreted storms as
communications from the Almighty, as they did pestilence and famine.
There still may be in this neighborhood people who will derive some
such lesson from this. My father may in his heart believe it a judgment
sent on us and on our neighbors for my impiety. Have not cities been
afflicted on account of the presence of one sinner? Thankful I am not
to think in this way now of physical law--not so to misconceive man's
place in Nature. I know that this sleet, so important to us, is but one
small incident in the long history of the planet's atmosphere and
changing surface. It is the action of natural laws, operating without
regard to man, though man himself may have had a share in producing it.
It will bring death to many a creature; indirectly, it may bring death
to me; but that would be among the results, not in the intention."
He set his face to cross the wood--sliding, skating, steadying himself
against the trunks, driving his heels through the ice crust The
exercise was heating; his breath rose as a steam before his face.
Beyond the woods he crossed a field; then a forest of many acres and
magnificent timber, on the far edge of which, under the forest trees
and fronting a country lane, stood the schoolhouse of the district.
David looked anxiously, as he drew near, for any signs of injury that
the storm might have done. One enormous tree-top had fallen on the
fence. A limb had dropped sheer on the steps. The entire yard was
little better than a brush heap. He soon turned away home relieved: he
would be able to tell Gabriella to-night that none of the windows had
been broken nor the roof; only a new woods scholar, with little feet
and a big hard head and a bunch of mistletoe in one hand, was standing
on the steps, waiting for her to open the door.
David's college experience had effected the first great change in him
as he passed from youth to manhood; Gabriella had wrought the second.
The former was a fragment of the drama of man's soul with God; the
latter was the drama of his heart with woman.
It had begun the day the former ended--in the gloom of that winter
twilight day, when he had quit the college after his final interview
with the faculty, and had wandered forlorn and dazed into the happy
town, just commencing to celebrate its season of peace on earth and
good will to man. He had found her given up heart and soul to the work
of decorating the church of her faith, the church of her fathers.
When David met her the second time, it was a few days after his return
home. He was at work in the smoke-house. The meat had been salted down
long enough after the killing: it must be hung, and he was engaged in
hanging it. Several pieces lay piled inside the door suitably for the
hand. He stood with his back to these beside the meat bench, scraping
the saltpetre off a large middling and rubbing it with red pepper.
Suddenly the light of the small doorway failed; and turning he beheld
his mother, and a few feet behind her--David said that he did not
believe in miracles--but a few feet behind his mother there now stood a
divine presence. Believe it or not, there she was, the miracle! All the
bashfulness of his lifetime--it had often made existence well-nigh
insupportable--came crowding into that one moment. The feeblest little
bleat of a spring lamb too weak to stand up for the first time would
have been a deafening roar in comparison with the silence which now
penetrated to the marrow of his bones. He faced the two women at bay,
with one hand resting on the middling.
"This is my son," said his mother neutrally, turning to the young lady.
This information did not help David at all. He knew who HE was. He took
it for granted that every one present knew. The visitor at once
relieved the situation.
"This is the school-teacher," she said, coloring and smiling. "I have
been teaching here ever since you went away. And I am now an old
resident of this neighborhood."
Not a thing moved about David except a little smoke in the chimney of
his throat. But the young lady did not wait for more silence to render
things more tense. She stepped forward into the doorway beside his
mother and peered curiously in, looking up at the smoke-blackened
joists, at the black cross sticks on which the links of sausages were
hung, at the little heap of gray ashes in the ground underneath with a
ring of half-burnt chips around them, at the huge meat bench piled with
salted joints.
"And this is the way you make middlings?" she inquired, smiling at him
encouragingly.
The idea of that archangel knowing anything about middlings! David's
mind executed a rudimentary movement, and his tongue and lips responded
feebly:--
"This is the way."
"And this is the way you make hams, sugar-cured hams?"
"This is the way."
"And this is the way you make--shoulders?"
"This is the way."
David had found an answer, and he was going to abide by it while
strength and daylight lasted.
The young lady seemed to perceive that this was his intention.
"Let me see you HANG one," she said desperately. "I have never seen
bacon hanged--or hung. I suppose as I teach grammar, I must use both
participles."
David caught up the huge middling by the string and swung it around in
front of him, whereupon it slipped out of his nerveless fingers and
fell over in the ashes. It did not break the middling, but it broke the
ice.
"Can I help you?"
Those torturing, blistering words! David's face got as red as though it
had been rubbed with red pepper and saltpetre both. The flame of it
seemed to kindle some faint spark of spirit in him. He picked up the
middling, and as he looked her squarely in the eye, with a humorous
light in his, he nodded at the pieces of bacon by the entrance.
"Hang one of those," he said, "if you've a mind."
As he lifted the middling high, Gabriella noticed above his big red
hands a pair of arms like marble for lustre and whiteness (for he had
his sleeves rolled far back)--as massive a pair of man's arms as ever
were formed by life-long health and a life-long labor and life-long
right living.
"Thank you," she said, retreating through the door. "It's all very
interesting. I have never lived in the country before. Your mother told
me you were working here, and I asked her to let me come and look on.
While I have been living in your neighborhood, you have been living in
my town. I hope you will come to see me, and tell me a great deal."
As she said this, David perceived that she, standing behind his mother,
looked at him with the veiled intention of saying far more. He had such
an instinct for truth himself, that truth in others was bare to him.
Those gentle, sympathetic eyes seemed to declare: "I know about your
troubles. I am the person for whom, without knowing it, you have been
looking. With me you can break silence about the great things. We can
meet far above the level of such poor scenes as this. I have sought you
to tell you this. Come."
"Mother," said David that evening, after his father had left the table,
dropping his knife and fork and forgetting to eat, "who was that?"
He drew out all that could be drawn: that she had come to take charge
of the school the autumn he had gone away; that she was liked as a
teacher, liked by the old people. She had taken great interest in HIM,
his mother said reproachfully, and the idea of his studying for the
ministry. She had often visited the house, had been good to his father
and to her. This was her first visit since she had gotten back; she had
been in town spending the holidays.
David had begun to go to see Gabriella within a week. At first he went
once a week--on Saturday nights. Soon he went twice a week--Wednesdays
and Saturdays invariably. On that last day at college, when he had
spoken out for himself, he had ended the student and the youth; when he
met her, it was the beginning of the man: and the new reason of the
man's happiness.
As he now returned home across the mile or more of country, having
satisfied himself as to the uninjured condition of the schoolhouse,
which had a great deal to do with Gabriella's remaining in that
neighborhood, he renewed his resolve to go to see her to-night, though
it was only Friday. Had not the storm upset all regular laws and
customs?
Happily, then, on reaching the stable, he fell to work upon his plan of
providing a shelter for the sheep.
David felt much more at home in the barn than at the house. For the
stock saw no change in him. Believer or unbeliever, rationalist,
evolutionist, he was still the same to them. Upon them, in reality,
fell the ill consequences of his misspent or well-spent college life;
for the money which might have gone for shingles and joists and more
provender, had in part been spent on books describing the fauna of the
earth and the distribution of species on its surface. Some had gone for
treatises on animals under domestication, while his own animals under
domestication were allowed to go poorly fed and worse housed. He had
had the theory; they had had the practice. But they apprehended nothing
of all this. How many tragedies of evil passion brutes escape by not
understanding their owners! We of the human species so often regret
that individuals read each other's natures so dimly: let us be
thankful! David was glad, then, that this little aggregation of
dependent creatures, his congregation of the faithful, neither
perceived the change in him, nor were kept in suspense by the tragedy
growing at the house.
They had been glad to see him on his return. Captain, who had met him
first, was gladdest, perhaps. Then the horses, the same old ones. One
of them, he fancied, had backed up to him, offering a ride. And the
cows were friendly. They were the same; their calves were different.
The sheep about maintained their number, their increase by nature
nearly balancing their decrease by table use.
One member of the flock David looked for in vain: the boldest,
gentlest--there usually is one such. Later on he found it represented
by a saddle blanket. After his departure for college, his mother had
conceived of this fine young wether in terms of sweetbreads, tallow for
chapped noses, and a soft seat for the spine of her husband. Even the
larded dame of the snow-white sucklings had remembered him well, and
had touched her snout against his boots; so that hardly had he in the
old way begun to stroke her bristles, before she spoke comfortably of
her joy, and rolled heavily over in what looked like a grateful swoon.
No: his animals had not changed in their feelings toward him; but how
altered he in his understanding of them! He had formerly believed that
these creatures were created for the use of man--that old conceited
notion that the entire earth was a planet of provisions for human
consumption. It had never even occurred to him to think that the horses
were made but to ride and to work. Cows of course gave milk for the
sake of the dairy; cream rose on milk for ease in skimming; when
churned, it turned sour, that the family might have fresh buttermilk.
Hides were for shoes. The skin on sheep, it was put there for Man's
woollens.
Now David declared that these beings were no more made for Man than Man
was made for them. Man might capture them, keep them in captivity,
break, train, use, devour them, occasionally exterminate them by
benevolent assimilation. But this was not the reason of their being
created: what that reason was in the Creator's mind, no one knew or
would ever know.
"Man seizes and uses you," said David, working that day in his barn;
"but you are no more his than he is yours. He calls you dependent
creatures: who has made you dependent? In a state of wild nature, there
is not one of you that Man would dare meet: not the wild stallion, not
the wild bull, not the wild boar, not even an angry ram. The argument
that Man's whole physical constitution--structure and function-shows
that he was intended to live on beef and mutton, is no better than the
argument that the tiger finds man perfectly adapted to his system as a
food, and desires none better. Every man-eating creature thinks the
same: the wolf believes Man to be his prey; the crocodile believes him
to be his; an old lion is probably sure that a man's young wife is
designed for his maw alone. So she is, if he manages to catch her."
As David said this rather unexpectedly to himself, he fell into a novel
revery, forgetting philosophy and brute kind. It was late when David
finished his work that day. Toward nightfall the cloud had parted in
the west; the sun had gone down with dark curtains closing heavily over
it. Later, the cloud had parted in the east, and the moon had arisen
amid white fleeces and floated above banks of pearl. Shining upon all
splendid things else, it illumined one poor scene which must not be
forgotten: the rear of an old barn, a sagging roof of rotting shingles;
a few common sheep passing in, driven by a shepherd dog; and a big
thoughtful boy holding the door open.
He had shifted the stock to make way for these additional pensioners,
putting the horses into the new stalls, the cows where the horses had
been, and the sheep under the shed of the cows. (It is the horse that
always gets the best of everything in a stable.) He reproached himself
that he did least for the creatures that demanded least.
"That's the nature of man," he said disapprovingly, "topmost of all
brutes."
When he stepped out of doors after supper that night, the clouds had
hidden the moon. But there was light enough for him to see his way
across the ice fields to Gabriella. The Star of Love shone about his
feet.