WHAT THOMAS WAS ABOUT.
When Thomas left Rotherhithe with Jim Salter, he had no idea in his
head but to get away somewhere. Like the ostrich, he wanted some sand
to stick his head into. But wherever he went there were people, even
policemen, about, and not one of the places they went through looked
more likely to afford him shelter than another. Had he given Jim any
clearer information concerning the necessity he was in of _keeping
dark_, perhaps he would have done differently with him. As it was, he
contented himself with piloting him about the lower docks and all that
maritime part of London. They walked about the whole day till Thomas
was quite weary. Nor did refuge seem nearer than before. All this time
the police might be on his track, coming nearer and nearer like the
bloodhounds that they were. They had some dinner at an eating-house,
where Thomas's fastidiousness made yet a farther acquaintance with dirt
and disorder, and he felt that he had fallen from his own sphere into
a lower order of things, and could never more climb into the heaven
from whence he had fallen. But the fear of yet a lower fall into a
prison and the criminal's dock kept him from dwelling yet upon what he
had lost. At night Jim led him into Ratcliff Highway, the Paradise of
sailors at sea--the hell of sailors on shore. Thomas shrunk from the
light that filled the street from end to end, blazing from innumerable
public-houses, through the open doors of which he looked across into
back parlors, where sailors and women sat drinking and gambling, or
down long passages to great rooms with curtained doorways, whence
came the sounds of music and dancing, and through which passed and
re-passed seafaring figures and gaily bedizened vulgar girls, many of
whom, had the weather been warmer, would have been hanging about the
street-doors, laughing and _chaffing_ the passers-by, or getting up a
dance on the pavement to the sound of the music within. It was a whole
streetful of low revelry. Poor Jack! Such is his coveted reward on
shore for braving Death, and defying him to his face. He escapes from
the embrace of the bony phantom to hasten to the arms of his far more
fearful companion--the nightmare Life-in-Death--"who thicks man's blood
with cold." Well may that pair casting their dice on the skeleton ship
symbolize the fate of the sailor, for to the one or the other he falls
a victim.
Opposite an open door Jim stopped to speak to an acquaintance. The door
opened directly upon a room ascending a few steps from the street.
Round a table sat several men--sailors, of course--apparently masters
of coasting vessels. A lithe lascar was standing with one hand on the
table, leaning over it, and talking swiftly, with snaky gestures of the
other hand. He was in a rage. The others burst out laughing. Thomas saw
something glitter in the hand of the Hindoo. One of the sailors gave a
cry, and started up, but staggered and fell.
Before he fell the lascar was at the door, down the steps with a bound,
and out into the street. Two men were after him at full speed, but they
had no chance with the light-built Indian.
"The villain has murdered a man, Jim," said Thomas--"in there--look!"
"Oh, I dare say he ain't much the worse," returned Jim. "They're always
a outing with their knives here."
For all his indifference, however, Jim started after the Hindoo, but he
was out of sight in another moment.
Jim returned.
"He's crowding all sail for Tiger Bay," said he. "I shouldn't care to
follow him there. Here's a Peeler."
"Come along, Jim," said Thomas. "Don't stand here all the night."
"Why _you_ ain't afraid o' the place, are you, guv'nor?"
Thomas tried to laugh, but he did not enjoy the allusion--in the
presence of a third person especially.
"Well, good-night," said Jim to his acquaintance.
"By the way," he resumed, "do you know the figure of Potts's ken?"
"What Potts? I don't know any Potts."
"Yes you do. Down somewhere about Lime 'us, you know. We saw him that
night--"
Here Jim whispered his companion, who answered aloud:
"Oh, yes, I know. Let me see. It's the Marmaid, I think. You ain't
a-going there, are you?"
"Don't know. Mayhap. I'm only taking this gen'leman a sight-seeing.
He's from the country."
"Good-night, then." And so they parted.
It was a sudden idea of Jim's to turn in the direction of the man whose
child Thomas had saved. But Thomas did not know where he was taking him.
"Where will you sleep to-night, guv'nor?" asked Jim, as they walked
along.
"I don't know," answered Thomas. "I must leave you to find me a place.
But I say, Jim, can you think of anything I could turn to? for my money
won't last me long."
"Turn to!" echoed Jim. "Why a man had need be able to turn to
everything by turns to make a livin' nowadays. You ain't been used to
hard work, by your hands. Do you know yer Bible well?"
"Pretty well," answered Thomas; "but I don't know what that can have to
do with making a living."
"Oh, don't you, guv'nor? Perhaps you don't know what yer Bible means.
It means pips and pictures."
"You mean the cards. No, no, I've had enough of that. I don't mean ever
to touch them again."
"Hum! Bitten," said Jim to himself, but so that Thomas heard him.
"Not very badly, Jim. In the pocket-book I told you I lost I had a
hundred pounds, won at cards the night before last."
"My eye!" exclaimed Jim. "What a devil of a pity! But why don't you try
your luck again?" he asked, after a few moments of melancholy devoted
to the memory of the money.
"Look here, Jim. I don't know where to go to sleep. I have a
comfortable room that I dare not go near; a father--a rich man, I
believe--who would turn me out; and, in short, I've ruined myself
forever with card-playing. The sight of a pack would turn me sick, I do
believe."
"Sorry for you, guv'nor. I know a fellow, though, that makes a good
thing of the thimble."
"I've no turn for tailoring, I'm afraid."
"Beggin' your pardon, guv'nor, but you are a muff! You never thought
I meant a gen'leman like you to take to a beastly trade like that. I
meant the thimble and peas, you know, at fairs, and such like. It's all
fair, you know. You tell 'em they don't know where the pea is and they
don't. I know a friend o' mine'll put you up to it for five or six bob.
Bless you! there's room for free trade and money made."
Thomas could hardly be indignant with Jim for speaking according to his
kind. But when he looked into it, it stung him to the heart to think
that every magistrate would regard him as capable of taking to the
profession of thimble-rigging after what he had been already guilty
of. Yet in all his dealings with cards Thomas had been scrupulously
honorable. He said no more to Jim about finding something to do.
They had gone a good way, and Thomas's strength was beginning to fail
him quite. Several times Jim had inquired after the _Marmaid_, always
in public-houses, where he paid for the information or none, as the
case might be, by putting a name upon something at Thomas's expense; so
that he began to be rather uplifted.
At length he called out joyfully:
"Here's a fishy one, guv'nor, _at last_! Come along."
So saying, he pushed the swing door, to which was attached a leather
strap to keep it from swinging outward, and entered. It admitted them
to a bar served by a big fat man with an apron whose substratum was
white at the depth of several strata of dirt, and a nose much more
remarkable for color than drawing, being in both more like a half-ripe
mulberry than anything else in nature. He had little round, watery
eyes, and a face indicative of nothing in particular, for it had left
its original conformation years behind. As soon as they entered, Jim
went straight up to the landlord, and stared at him for a few moments
across the counter. "You don't appear to know me, guv'nor?" he said,
for the many things he had drank to find the way had made him _barky_.
His vocabulary of address, it will be remarked, was decidedly defective.
"Well, I can't take upon me to say as I do," answered the man, putting
his thumbs in the strings of his apron, and looking at Jim with a
mixture of effort and suspicion on his puffy face. "And I'll be bound
to say," remarked Jim, turning toward Thomas, "that you don't know this
gen'leman either. Do 'ee now guv'nor? On yer honor, right as a trivet?
No, ye don't."
"Can't say I do."
"Look at him, then. Ain't he fit to remember? Don't he look
respectable?"
"Come, none o' your chaff! Say what you've got to say. What do you
want?"
"Cut it short, Jim," said Thomas.
"How's your young marmaid as took to the water so nat'ral at the
Horsleydown tother day, Mr. Potts?" asked Jim, leaning on his elbows on
the counter.
"Jolly," answered the landlord. "Was you by?"
"Wasn't I, then! And there's a guv'nor was nearer than I was. Mr.
Potts, that's the very gen'leman as went a header into the water and
saved her, Mr. Potts. Hold up yer head, guv'nor."
"You're a chaffin of me, I know," said Potts.
"Come, come, Jim, don't make a fool of me," said Thomas.
"I wish I had known you were bringing me here. Come along. I won't
stand it."
But Jim was leaning over the counter, speaking in a whisper to the
down-bent landlord.
"You don't mean it?" said the latter.
"Ask the mis'ess, then," said Jim.
"You don't mean it!" repeated the landlord, in a husky voice, and with
increase of energy. Then looking toward Thomas, "What will he take?"
and with the words turned his back upon Jim, and his face toward
a shelf on which stood his choicest bottles between two cask-like
protuberances. He got down one of brandy, but Thomas, who was vexed at
being brought there as if he wanted some acknowledgment of the good
deed he had been fortunate enough to perform, refused to take anything.
"What _will_ you take then?" said the man, whose whole stock of ideas
seemed to turn upon _taking_.
But at the moment a woman entered from behind the shop.
"There, mis'ess," said her husband, "can _you_ tell who that gentleman
is?"
She looked at him for a moment, and exclaimed:
"Bless my soul! It's the gentleman that took our Bessie out of the
water. How do you do, sir?" she continued, with mingled pleasure and
respect, as she advanced from behind the counter, and curtsied to
Thomas.
"None the worse for my ducking, thank you," said Thomas, holding out
his hand in the delight a word of real friendship always gives.
She shook it warmly, and would hardly let it go.
"Oh! isn't he, then?" muttered Jim, mysteriously, but loud enough for
Potts to hear.
"Won't you come in, sir?" said the woman, turning to lead the way.
"Thank you," answered Thomas. "I have been walking about all day, and
am very tired. If you would let me sit down awhile--and--perhaps it
wouldn't be giving you too much trouble to ask for a cup of tea, for my
head aches rather."
"Come in, sir," she said, in a tone of truest hospitality. "That I
will, with pleasure, I'm sure."
Thomas followed her into a dingy back room, where she made him lie
down on a sofa from which he would have recoiled three days ago, but
for which he was very grateful now. She then bustled about to get him
some tea, and various little delicacies besides, in the shape of ham,
and shrimps, etc., etc. It was pretty clear from her look, and the way
she pressed her offerings of gratitude, that she had a true regard for
inward comforts, if not for those outward luxuries of neatness and
cleanliness.
The moment Thomas was out of the shop, Jim Salter began to be more
communicative with Mr. Potts.
"None the worse!" said he, reflectively. "Oh, no. That's the way your
quality talk about a few bank-notes. Nothing but a hundred pounds the
worst. Oh, no."
"You don't mean it?" said Mr. Potts, making his eyes as round as two
sixpences.
"Well, to be sure," said Salter, "I can't take my davy on it; 'cause as
how I've only his word for it. But he don't look like a cony-catcher,
do he? He's a deal too green for that, I can tell you. Well, he is
green!" repeated Jim, bursting into a quiet chuckle.
"I don't mean he's a fool, neither. There's a vasty heap o' difference
betwixt a leek in yer eye and a turnip in yer brain-box. Ain't there
now, guv'nor?"
"You don't mean it?" said Mr. Potts, staring more than ever.
"What don't I mean, Mr. Potts?"
"You don't mean that that 'ere chap? What _do_ you mean about them
hundred pounds?"
"Now I'll tell 'ee, guv'nor. It's a great pleasure to me to find I can
tell a story so well."
"There you are--off again, no mortal man can tell to where. You ain't
told me no story yet."
"Ain't I? How came it then, guv'nor, that I ha' made you forget your
usual 'ospitable manners? If I hadn't ha' been telling you a story,
you'd ha'--I know you'd ha' asked me to put a name upon something long
ago."
Mr. Potts laughed, and saying, "I beg yer pardon, Mr. Salter, though
I'm sure I don't remember ever meetin' of you afore, only that's no
consequence; the best o' friends must meet some time for the first
time," turned his face to the shelf as he had done before, and, after
a little hesitation, seemed to conclude that it would be politic to
take down the same bottle. Jim tossed off the half of his glassful,
and, setting the rest on the counter, began his story. Whether he
wished to represent himself as Thomas's confidant, or, having come to
his conclusions to the best of his ability, believed himself justified
in representing them as the facts of the case, it is not necessary to
inquire; the account he gave of Thomas's position was this: That when
Thomas went overboard after little Bessie, he had in the breast of his
coat a pocket-book, with a hundred pounds of his master's in it; that
he dared not go home without it; that the police were after him; and,
in short, that he was in a terrible fix. Mr. Potts listened with a
general stare, and made no reply.
"You'll give him a bed to-night, won't you, guv'nor? I'll come back in
the morning and see what can be done."
Jim finished his glass of brandy as if it had been only the last drops,
and set it on the counter with a world of suggestion in the motion, to
which Mr. Potts mechanically replied by filling it again, saying as he
did so, in a voice a little huskier than usual, "All right." Jim tossed
off the brandy, smacked his lips, said "Thank you, and good-night," and
went out of the beer-shop. Mr. Potts stood for five minutes motionless,
then went slowly to the door of the back parlor, and called his wife.
Leaving Thomas to finish his meal by himself, Mrs. Potts joined her
husband and they had a talk together. He told her what Jim had just
communicated to him, and they held a consultation, the first result of
which was that Mrs. Potts proceeded to get a room--the best she could
offer--ready for Thomas. He accepted her hospitality with gratitude,
and was glad to go to bed.
Meantime, leaving his wife to attend to the thirst of the public, Mr.
Potts set out to find his brother-in-law, the captain of a collier
trading between Newcastle and London, who was at the moment in the
neighborhood, but whose vessel was taking in ballast somewhere down the
river. He came upon him where he had expected to find him, and told him
the whole story.
The next morning, when Thomas, more miserable than ever, after rather a
sleepless night, came down stairs early, he found his breakfast waiting
for him, but not his breakfast only: a huge seafaring man, with short
neck and square shoulders, dressed in a blue pilot-coat, was seated in
the room. He rose when Thomas entered, and greeted him with a bow made
up of kindness and patronage. Mrs. Potts came in the same moment.
"This is my brother, Captain Smith, of the _Raven_," she said, "come to
thank you, sir, for what you did for his little pet, Bessie."
"Well, I donnow," said the captain, with a gruff breeziness of manner.
"I came to ask the gentleman if, bein' on the loose, he wouldn't like a
trip to Newcastle, and share my little cabin with me."
It was the first glimmer of gladness that had lightened Thomas's
horizon for what seemed to him an age.
"Thank you, thank you!" he said; "it is the very thing for me."
And, as he spoke, the awful London wilderness vanished, and open sea
and sky filled the world of his imaginings.
"When do you sail?" he asked.
"To-night, I hope, with the ebb," said the captain; "but you had better
come with me as soon as you've had your breakfast, and we'll go on
board at once. You needn't mind about your chest. You can rough it a
little, I dare say. I can lend you a jersey that'll do better than your
'longshore togs."
Thomas applied himself to his breakfast with vigor. Hope even made him
hungry. How true it is that we live by hope! Before he had swallowed
his last mouthful, he started from his seat.
"You needn't be in such a hurry," said the captain. "There's plenty of
time. Stow your prog."
"I have quite done. But I must see Mr. Potts for a minute."
He went to the bar, and, finding that Jim had not yet made his
appearance, asked the landlord to change him a sovereign, and give half
to Jim.
"It's too much," said Mr. Potts.
"I promised him a day's wages."
"Five shillings is over enough, besides the brandy I gave him last
night. He don't make five shillings every day."
Thomas, however, to the list of whose faults stinginess could not be
added, insisted on Jim having the half sovereign, for he felt that he
owed him far more than that.
In pulling out the small remains of his money, wondering if he could
manage to buy a jersey for himself before starting, he brought out with
it two bits of pasteboard, the sight of which shot a pang to his heart:
they were the pawn-tickets for his watch and Lucy's ring, which he had
bought back from the holder on that same terrible night on which he had
lost almost everything worth having. It was well he had only thrust
them into the pocket of his trousers, instead of putting them into his
pocket-book. They had stuck to the pocket, and been dried with it, had
got loose during the next day, and now came to light, reminding him of
his utter meanness, not to say dishonesty, in parting with the girl's
ring that he might follow his cursed play. The gleam of gladness which
the hope of escaping from London gave him had awaked his conscience
more fully; and he felt the despicableness of his conduct as he had
never felt it before. How could he have done it? The ring, to wear
which he had been proud because it was not his own, but Lucy's, he had
actually exposed to the contamination of vile hands--had actually sent
from her pure, lovely person into the pocket of a foul talker, and
thence to a pawnbroker's shop. He could have torn himself to pieces at
the thought. And now that she was lost to him forever, was he to rob
her of her mother's jewel as well? He _must_ get it again. But if he
went after it now, even if he had the money to redeem it, he might run
into the arms of the searching Law, and he and it too would be gone.
But he had not the money. The cold dew broke out on his face, as he
stood beside the pump-handles of the beer-shop. But Mr. Potts had been
watching him for some time. He knew the look of those tickets, and dull
as his brain was, with a dullness that was cousin to his red nose, he
divined at once that Thomas's painful contemplation had to do with some
effects of which those tickets were the representatives. He laid his
hand on Thomas's shoulder from behind. Thomas gave a great start.
"I beg your pardon for frightening of you, sir," said Mr. Potts; "but I
believe a long experience in them things makes me able to give you good
advice."
"What things?" asked Thomas.
"Them things," repeated Potts, putting a fat forefinger first on the
one and then on the other pawn-ticket. "'Twasn't me, nor yet Bessie.
'Tis long since I was in my uncle's. All I had to do there was
a-getting of 'em down the spout. I never sent much up it; my first
wife, Joan--not Bessie, bless her! Now I ain't no witch, but I can
see with 'alf a heye that you've got summat at your uncle's you don't
like to leave there, when you're a-goin' a voyagin' to the ends o' the
earth. Have you got the money as well as the tickets?"
"Oh dear, no!" answered Thomas, almost crying.
"Come now," said Potts, kindly, "sweep out the chimley. It's no use
missing the crooks and corners, and having to send a boy up after all.
Sweep it out. Tell me all about it, and I'll see what I can do--or
can't do, it may be."
Thomas told him that the tickets were for a watch--a gold watch, with
a compensation balance--and a diamond ring. He didn't care about the
watch; but he would give his life to get the ring again.
"Let me look at the tickets. How much did you get on 'em separate?"
Thomas said he did not know, but gave him the tickets to examine.
Potts looked at them. "You don't care so much for the watch?" he said.
"No, I don't," answered Thomas; "though my mother did give it to me,"
he added, ruefully.
"Why don't you offer 'em both of the tickets for the ring, then?" said
Potts.
"What?" said Thomas. "I don't see--"
"You give 'em to me," returned Potts. "Here, Bess! you go in and have
a chat with the captain--I'm going out, Bessie, for an hour. Tell the
captain not to go till I come back."
So saying, Potts removed his white apron, put on a black frock coat and
hat, and went out, taking the tickets with him.
Mrs. Potts brought a tumbler of grog for her brother, and he sat
sipping it. Thomas refused to join him; for he reaped this good from
his sensitive organization, that since the night on which it had helped
to ruin him, he could scarcely endure even the smell of strong drink.
It was rather more than an hour before Mr. Potts returned, during which
time Thomas had been very restless and anxious. But at last his host
walked into the back room, laid a small screw of paper before him, and
said:
"There's your ring, sir. You won't want your watch this voyage. I've
got it, though; but I'm forced to keep it, in case I should be behind
with my rent. Any time you look in, I shall have it, or know where it
is."
Thomas did what he could to express his gratitude, and took the ring
with a wonderful feeling of relief. It seemed like a pledge of farther
deliverance. He begged Mr. Potts to do what he pleased with the watch;
he didn't care if he never saw it again; and hoped it would be worth
more to him than what it had cost him to redeem them both. Then, after
many kind farewells, he took his leave with the captain of the _Raven_.
As they walked along, he could not help looking round every few yards;
but after his new friend had taken him to a shop where he bought a blue
jersey and a glazed hat, and tied his coat up in a handkerchief--his
sole bundle of luggage--he felt more comfortable. In a couple of hours
he was on board of the _Raven_, a collier brig of a couple of hundred
tons. They set sail the same evening, but not till they reached the
Nore did Thomas begin to feel safe from pursuit.
The captain seemed a good deal occupied with his own thoughts, and
there were few things they understood in common, so that Thomas was
left mostly to his own company; which, though far from agreeable, was
no doubt the very best for him under the circumstances. For it was
his real self that he looked in the face--the self that told him what
he was, showed him whence he had fallen, what he had lost, how he had
hitherto been wasting his life, and how his carelessness had at length
thrown him over a precipice up which he could not climb--there was no
foothold upon it. But this was not all: he began to see not only his
faults, but the weakness of his character, the refusal to combat which
had brought him to this pass. His behavior to Lucy was the bitterest
thought of all. She looked ten times more lovely to him now that he
had lost her. That she should despise him was terrible--even more
terrible the likelihood that she would turn the rich love of her strong
heart upon some one else. How she had entreated him to do her justice!
and he saw now that she had done so even more for his sake than for
her own. He had not yet any true idea of what Lucy was worth. He did
not know how she had grown since the time when, with all a girl's
inexperience, she had first listened to his protestations. While he
had been going down the hill, she had been going up. Long before they
had been thus parted, he would not have had a chance of winning her
affections had he had then to make the attempt. But he did see that
she was infinitely beyond him, infinitely better than--to use a common
phrase--he could have deserved if he had been as worthy as he fancied
himself. I say _a common phrase_, because no man can ever _deserve_
a woman. Gradually--by what gradations he could not have told--the
truth, working along with his self-despising, showed him something of
all this; and it was the first necessity of a nature like his to be
taught to look down on himself. As long as he thought himself more than
somebody, no good was to be expected of him. Therefore, it was well
for him that the worthlessness of his character should break out and
show itself in some plainly worthless deed, that he might no longer be
able to hide himself from the conviction and condemnation of his own
conscience. Hell had come at last; and he burned in its fire.
He was very weary, and went to bed in a berth in the cabin. But he was
awaked while it was yet quite dark by the violent rolling and pitching
of the vessel, and the running to and fro overhead. He got up at once,
dressed in haste, and clambered up the companion-ladder. It was a
wild scene. It had come on to blow hard. The brig was under reefed
topsails and jib: but Thomas knew nothing of sea affairs. She was a
good boat, and rode the seas well. There was just light enough for him
to see the water by the white rents in its darkness. Fortunately, he
was one of those few favored individuals in whose nerves the motion of
a vessel finds no response--I mean he did not know what sea-sickness
was. And that storm came to him a wonderful gift from the Father who
had not forgotten his erring child--so strangely did it harmonize
with his troubled mind. New strength, even hope, invaded his weary
heart from the hiss of the wind through the cordage as it bellied out
from the masts; his soul rejoiced in the heave of the wave under the
bows and its swift rush astern; and though he had to hold hard by the
weather shrouds, not a shadow of fear crossed his mind. This may have
partly come from life being to him now a worthless thing, save as he
had some chance of--he did not know what; for although he saw no way
of recovering his lost honor, and therefore considered that eternal
disgrace was his, even if God and man forgave him, there was yet a
genuine ray of an unknown hope borne into him, as I say, from the
crests of those broken waves. But I think it was natural to Thomas to
fear nothing that merely involved danger to himself. In this respect he
possessed a fine physical courage. It was in moral courage--the power
of looking human anger and contempt in the face, and holding on his own
way--that he was deficient. I believe that this came in a great measure
from a delicate, sensitive organization. He could look a storm in the
face; but a storm in a face he could not endure; he quailed before
it. He would sail over a smooth human sea, if he might; when a wind
rose there, he would be under bare poles in a moment. Of course this
sensitiveness was not in itself an evil, being closely associated with
his poetic tendencies, which ought to have been the center from which
all the manlier qualities were influenced for culture and development;
but he had been spoiled in every way, not least by the utterly
conflicting discords of nature, objects, and character in his father
and mother. But although a man may be physically brave and morally a
coward--a fact too well known to be insisted upon--a facing of physical
danger will help the better courage in the man whose will is at all
awake to cherish it; for the highest moral courage is born of the will,
and not of the organization. The storm wrought thus along with all that
was best in him. In the fiercest of it that night, he found himself
often kissing Lucy's ring, which, as soon as he began to know that they
were in some danger, and not till then, he had, though with a strong
feeling of the sacrilege of the act, ventured to draw once more upon
his unworthy hand.
The wind increased as the sun rose. If he could only have helped the
men staggering to and fro, as they did on the great sea in the days of
old! But he did not know one rope from another. Two men were at the
tiller. One was called away on some emergency aloft. Thomas sprang to
his place.
"I will do whatever you tell me," he said to the steersman; "only let
me set a man free."
Then he saw it was the captain himself. He gave a nod, and a squirt
of tobacco-juice, as cool as if he had been steering with a light
gale over a rippling sea. Thomas did his best, and in five minutes
had learned to obey the word the captain gave him as he watched the
binnacle. About an hour after the sun rose the wind began to moderate;
and before long the captain gave up the helm to the mate, saying to
Thomas:
"We'll go and have some breakfast. You've earned your rations, anyhow.
Your father ought to have sent you to sea. It would have made a man of
you."
This was not very complimentary. But Thomas had only a suppressed sigh
to return for answer. He did not feel himself worth defending any more.