DOWN AT LAST.
In the very absence of purpose, he strolled up Guild Court to call upon
Molken, who was always at home at that hour.
Molken welcomed him even more heartily than usual. After a few minutes'
conversation they went out together: having no plan of his own, Thomas
was in the hands of any one who had a plan of which he formed a part.
They betook themselves to one of their usual haunts. It was too early
yet for play, so they called for some refreshment, and Thomas drank
more than he had ever drunk before, not with any definite idea of
drowning the trouble in his mind, but sipping and sipping from mere
restlessness and the fluttering motion of a will unable to act.
It was a cold evening. An autumn wind which had dropped in its way all
the now mournful memories of nature, and was itself the more dreary
therefore, tumbled a stray billow now and then through the eddies of
its chimney-rocks and housetop-shoals upon the dirty window of the
little dreary den in which they sat, drinking their gin and water at a
degraded card-table whose inlaid borders were not yet quite obscured by
the filth caked upon it from greasy fingers and dusters dirtier than
the smoke they would remove. They talked--not about gaming--no: they
talked about politics and poetry; about Goethe and Heine; and Molken
exerted all his wit and sympathy to make himself agreeable to his
dejected friend, urging him to rise above his dejection by an effort
of the will; using, in fact, much the same arguments as Lady Macbeth
when she tried to persuade her husband that the whole significance of
things depended on how he chose to regard them: "These things must not
be thought after these ways." Thomas, however, had not made a confidant
of Molken. He had only dropped many words that a man like him would not
fail to piece together into some theory regarding the condition and
circumstances of one of whom he meant to make gain.
At length, what between Molken's talk and the gin, a flame of
excitement began to appear in Thomas's weary existence; and almost
at the same instant a sound of voices and footsteps was heard below;
they came up the stair; the door of the room opened; and several
fellows entered, all eager for the excitement of play as a drunkard
for his drink, all talking, laughing, chaffing. A blast of wind laden
with rain from a laboring cloud which had crept up from the west
and darkened the place, smote on the windows, and soft yet keen the
drops pattered on the glass. All outside was a chaos of windy mist
and falling rain. They called for lights, and each man ordered his
favorite drink; the face of Nature, who was doing her best to befriend
them, was shut out by a blind of green and black stripes stained with
yellow; two dirty packs of cards were produced--not from the pocket of
any of the company, for none of the others would have trusted such a
derivation, but from the archives of the house; and, drawing round the
table, they began to offer their sacrifice to the dreary excitement for
whose presence their souls had been thirsting all the day. Two of them
besides Molken were foreigners, one of them apparently a German, a very
quiet and rather a gentlemanly man, between whom and Molken, however,
if Thomas had been on the outlook, he might, I fancy, have seen certain
looks of no good omen interchanged.
They began playing very gently--and fairly no doubt; and Thomas for
some time went on winning.
There was not even the pretense of much money among them. Probably a
few gold pieces was the most any of them had. When one of them had
made something at this sort of small private game, he would try his
luck at one of the more public tables, I presume. As the game went
on and they grew more excited, they increased their stakes a little.
Still they seemed content to go on for a little. Thomas and Molken were
partners, and still they won. Gradually the points were increased, and
betting began. Thomas began to lose and lose, of course, more rapidly
than he had won. He had had two or three pounds in his pocket when he
began, but all went now--the last of it in a bet on the odd trick. He
borrowed of Molken--lost; borrowed and lost, still sipping his gin and
water, till Molken declared he had himself lost everything. Thomas laid
his watch on the table, for himself and Molken--it was not of great
value--a gift of his mother only. He lost it. What was to be done?
He had one thing left--a ring of some value which Lucy had given him
to wear for her. It had belonged to her mother. He pulled it off his
finger, showed that it was a rose diamond, and laid it on the table.
It followed the rest. He rose, caught up his hat, and, as so many
thousands of gamblers have done before, rushed out into the rain and
the darkness.
Through all the fumes of the gin which had begun to render "the
receipt of reason a limbeck only," the thought gleamed upon his cloudy
mind that he ought to have received his quarter's salary that very day.
If he had had that, what might he not have done? It was his, and yet
he could not have it. His mind was all in a confused despair, ready
to grasp at anything that offered him a chance of winning back what
he had lost. If he had gone home and told his father--but he was not
capable of reasoning out anything. Lucy's ring was his chief misery:
so much must be said for him. Something--he did not know what--drove
him toward Guild Court. I believe, though in his after reflections he
could not identify the impulse, that it was the same which he obeyed at
last. Before he knew where he was going, he was at Mrs. Boxall's door.
He found it ajar, and walked up the stair to the sitting-room. That
door too was open, and there was no one there. But he saw at a glance,
from the box on the floor and the shawl on the table, that Lucy had
returned, and he supposed that her grandmother had gone up stairs with
her. The same moment his eyes sought the wall, and there hung two keys.
They were the keys of the door of communication and of the safe.
Mr. Stopper, wise in his generation, sought, as we have seen, to stand
as well as possible with the next of kin and supposed heir to Mr.
Boxall, namely, his mother. He had, therefore, by degrees, made himself
necessary to her, in her fancy at least, by giving her good advice till
she thought she could not do without his wisdom. Nor that alone; he
had pleased her by a hundred little acknowledgments of her suzerainty,
especially grateful to one who loved power as Mrs. Boxall did. Among
the rest, one evening, after locking up the counting-house, he went to
her with those two keys in his hand, and kept playing with them till he
was taking his leave--then, as if a sudden thought had struck him, said:
"But I don't see the use of troubling myself with these keys. I may as
well hang them up somewhere," he added, looking about for a place.
"I don't know that it's wise to leave them here," objected Mrs. Boxall.
"Oh! don't be uneasy, ma'am," returned Mr. Stopper. "You mustn't
suppose we leave a mint of money in the house at night. If we
did, _you_ wouldn't be safe either. It's only what comes in after
banking-hours--a matter of ten pounds, or thereabouts, sometimes more,
sometimes less. The safe's more for the books--in case of fire, you
know."
"I hope there's no danger of that, Mr. Stopper."
"Not as long as the neighbors don't take fire. I see every spark out
when we have a fire before I turn my back on the premises. Indeed, I'm
rather more careful over the fire than the cash-box."
In the meantime Mr. Stopper had discovered a brass-headed nail in the
wall, and thereupon he had hung the keys, and there he had hung them
every evening since, and there they hung at this moment when Thomas's
eyes went in search of them.
When he considered the whole affair afterward, Thomas thought he must
have been driven by a demon. He hardly knew whether he was thinking
over or doing the thing that was present to him. No thought of
resisting it as a temptation arose to meet it. He knew that there was
eleven pounds odd shillings in the cash box, for he had seen one of
the other clerks count it; he knew that the cash-box was in the safe;
he knew that that was the key of it; he knew that the firm owed him
twenty-five pounds; he could replace it again before the morning; and
while thinking all this he was "doing the effect of his thinking,"
almost without knowing it: he found himself standing before the safe
with the key already in the lock, and the cold handle of the door in
his hand. But it was dark all around and within him. In there alone lay
light and hope. In another moment the door was open, and the contents
of the cash-box--gold, silver, copper--in his pocket. It is possible
that even then he might have restored the money if he had not heard the
step of the policeman at the street-door. He left the safe open as it
was, with the key in it, and sped from the house.
Nothing more marked itself on his memory till he reached the room where
he had left his _friends_. It was dark. There was no one there. They
had gone to try their luck in a more venturous manner, where rogue
met rogue, and fortune was umpire rather than cunning. He knew their
haunts, followed and found them. But his watch and ring were gone.
They told him, however, where they were. He would go and seek them
to-morrow. Meantime he would play. He staked and lost--lost, won, won
again; doubled his stakes, won still; and when he left the house it was
with a hundred pounds in his pocket and a gray dawn of wretchedness in
his heart.