FISHING FOR A DAUGHTER.
Mr. Spelt sat in his watch-tower, over the head of patiently cobbling
Mr. Dolman, reflecting. He too was trying to cobble--things in general,
in that active head of his beneath its covering of heathery hair.
But he did not confine his efforts to things in general--one very
particular thing had its share in the motions of his spirit--how to
prove that Poppie was indeed his own child. He had missed his little
Mattie much, and his child-like spirit was longing greatly after some
child-like companionship. This, in Mattie's case, he had found did him
good, cleared his inward sight, helped him to cobble things even when
her questions showed him the need of fresh patching in many a place
where he had not before perceived the rent or the thin-worn threads of
the common argument or belief. And the thought had come to him that
perhaps Mattie was taken away from him to teach him that he ought
not, as Mattie had said with regard to Mrs. Morgenstern, to cultivate
friendship only where he got good from it. The very possibility that he
had a child somewhere in London seemed at length to make it his first
duty to rescue some child or other from the abyss around him, and they
were not a few swimming in the vast vortex.
Having found out that Mrs. Flanaghan knew more about Poppie than anyone
else, and that she crept oftener into the bottom of an empty cupboard
in her room than anywhere else, he went one morning to see whether he
could not learn something from the old Irishwoman. The place looked
very different then from the appearance it presented to Lucy the day
she found it inhabited by nobody, and furnished with nothing but the
gin-bottle.
When the tailor opened the door, he found the room swarming with
children. Though it was hot summer weather, a brisk fire burned in
the grate; and the place smelt strongly of _reesty_ bacon. There were
three different groups of children in three of the corners: one of them
laying out the dead body of a terribly mutilated doll; another, the
tangle-haired members of which had certainly had no share in the bacon
but the smell of it, sitting listlessly on the floor, leaning their
backs against the wall, apparently without hope and without God in the
world; one of the third group searching for possible crumbs where she
had just had her breakfast, the other two lying ill of the measles on
a heap of rags. Mrs. Flanaghan was in the act of pouring a little gin
into her tea. The tailor was quick-eyed, and took in the most of this
at a glance. But he thought he saw something more, namely, the sharp
eyes of Poppie peeping through the crack of the cupboard. He therefore
thought of nothing more but a hasty retreat, for Poppie must not know
he came after her.
"Good-morning to you, Mrs. Flanaghan," he said, with almost Irish
politeness. Then, at a loss for anything more, he ventured to
add--"Don't you think, ma'am, you'll have too much on your hands if
all them children takes after the two in the corner? They've got the
measles, ain't they, ma'am?"
"True for you, sir," returned Mrs. Flanaghan, whom the gin had soothed
after the night's abstinence. "But we'll soon get rid o' the varmint,"
she said, rising from her seat. "Praise God the Father! we'll soon
get rid o' them. Get out wid ye!" she went on, stamping with her
foot on the broken floor. "Get out! What are ye doin' i' the house
when ye ought to be enjoyin' yerselves in the fresh air? Glory be to
God!--there they go, as I tould you. And now what'll I do for yerself
this blessed marnin'?"
By this time the tailor had made up his mind to inquire after a certain
Irishman, for whom he had made a garment of fustian, but who had
never appeared to claim it. He did not expect her to know anything
of the man, for he was considerably above Mrs. Flanaghan's level,
but it afforded a decent pretext. Mrs. Flanaghan, however, claimed
acquaintance with him, and begged that the garment in question might
be delivered into her hands in order to reach him, which the tailor,
having respect both to his word and his work, took care not to promise.
But as he went to his workshop, he thought what a gulf he had escaped.
For suppose that Mrs. Flanaghan had been communicative, and had proved
to his dissatisfaction that the girl was none of his! Why, the whole
remaining romance of his life would have been gone. It was far better
to think that she was or might be his child, than to know that she
was not. And, after all, what did it matter whether she was or was
not?--thus the process of thinking went on in the tailor's brain--was
she not a child? What matter whether his own or someone else's? God
must have made her all the same. And if he were to find his own child
at last, neglected and ignorant and vicious, could he not pray better
for her if he had helped the one he could help? Might he not then say,
"O Lord, they took her from me, and I had no chance with _her_, but I
did what I could--I caught a wild thing, and I tried to make something
of her, and she's none the worse for it--do Thou help my poor child,
for I could not, and Thou canst. I give thee back thine, help mine."
Before he had reached his perch, he had resolved that he would make no
further inquiry whatever about Poppie, but try to get a hold of her,
and do for her what he could. For whether he was her father or not,
neither case could alter the facts, that she was worth helping, and
that it would be very hard to get a hold of her. All that Poppie could
know of fathers would only make her more unwilling to be caught if she
had a suspicion that Mr. Spelt laid such a claim to her; and he would
therefore scheme as if their nearest common relations were "the grand
old gardener and his wife," and with the care which the shy _startling_
nature of Poppie, to use a Chaucerian word, rendered necessary.
Tailors have time to think about things; and no circumstances are more
favorable to true thought than those of any work which, employing the
hands, leaves the head free. Before another day had passed Mr. Spelt
had devised his bait.
The next morning came--a lovely morning for such fishing as he
contemplated. Poppie appeared in the court, prowling as usual in the
hope of seeing Lucy. But the tailor appeared to take no notice of her.
Poppie's keen eyes went roving about as usual, wide awake to the chance
of finding something. Suddenly she darted at a small object lying near
the gutter, picked it up, put it in her mouth, and sucked it with
evident pleasure. The tailor was as one who seeing sees not. Only he
plied his needle and thread more busily, casting down sidelong glances
in the drawing of the same. And there was no little triumph, for it was
the triumph of confidence for the future, as well as of success for the
present, in each of those glances. Suddenly Poppie ran away.
The morning after she was there again. Half involuntarily, I suppose,
her eyes returned to the spot where she had found the bull's-eye.
There, to the astonishment even of Poppie, who was very seldom
astonished at anything, lay another--a larger one, as she saw at a
glance, than the one she had found yesterday. It was in her mouth in
a moment. But she gave a hurried glance round the court, and scudded
at once. Like the cherub that sat aloft and saw what was going to come
of it all, the little tailor drew his shortening thread, and smiled
somewhere inside his impassive face, as he watched the little human
butterfly, with its torn wings, lighting and flitting as in one and the
same motion.
The next morning there again sat Mr. Spelt at his work--working and
watching. With the queerest look of inquiry and doubtful expectation,
Poppie appeared from under the archway, with her head already turned
toward El Dorado--namely, the flag-stone upon which the gifts of
Providence had been set forth on other mornings. There--could she,
might she, believe her eyes?--lay a splendid polyhedral lump of
rock; white as snow, and veined with lovely red. It was not quartz
and porphyry, reader, but the most melting compound of sugar and
lemon-juice that the sweet inventing Genius--why should she not have
the name of a tenth muse? Polyhedia, let us call her--had ever hatched
in her brooding brain, as she bent over melting sugar or dark treacle,
"in linked sweetness long drawn out." This time Poppie hesitated a
little, and glanced up and around. She saw nobody but the tailor, and
he was too cunning even for her. Busy as a bee, he toiled away lightly
and earnestly. Then, as if the sweetmeat had been a bird for which she
was laying snares, as her would-be father was laying them for her,
she took two steps nearer on tiptoe, then stopped and gazed again.
It was not that she thought of stealing, any more than the birds who
take what they find in the fields and on the hedges; it was only from
a sort of fear that it was too good fortune for her, and that there
must be something evanescent about it--wings somewhere. Or perhaps she
vaguely fancied there must be some unfathomable design in it, awful and
inscrutable, and therefore glanced around her once more--this time all
but surprising the tailor, with uplifted head and the eager eyes of a
fowler. But the temptation soon overcame any suspicion she might have.
She made one bound upon the prize, and scudded as she had never scudded
before. Mr. Spelt ran his needle in under the nail of his left thumb,
and so overcame his delight in time to save his senses.
And now came a part of the design which Mr. Spelt regarded as a very
triumph of cunning invention. That evening he drove two tiny staples
of wire--one into Mr. Dolman's door-post close to the ground; the
other into his own. The next morning, as soon as he arrived, he chose
a thread as near the color of the flag-stones that paved the passage
as he could find, fastened one end with a plug of toffee into a hole
he bored with his scissors in another splendor of rock, laid the bait
in the usual place, drew the long thread through the two eyes of the
staples, and sat down in his lair with the end attached to the little
finger of his left hand.
The time arrived about which Poppie usually appeared. Mr. Spelt got
anxious--nervously anxious. She was later than usual, and he almost
despaired; but at length, there she was, peeping cautiously round the
corner toward the trap. She saw the bait--was now so accustomed to it
that she saw it almost without surprise. She had begun to regard it
as most people regard the operations of nature--namely, as that which
always was so and always will be so, and therefore has no reason in
it at all. But this time a variety in the phenomenon shook the couch
of habitude upon which her mind was settling itself in regard to the
saccharine bowlders; for, just as she stooped to snatch it to herself
and make it her own, away it went as if in terror of her approaching
fingers--but only to the distance of half a yard or so. Eager as the
tailor was--far more eager to catch Poppie than Poppie was to catch
the lollypop--he could scarcely keep his countenance when he saw the
blank astonishment that came over Poppie's pretty brown face. Certainly
she had never seen a living lollypop, yet motion is a chief sign of
life, and the lollypop certainly moved. Perhaps it would have been
wiser to doubt her senses first, but Poppie had never yet found her
senses in the wrong, and therefore had not learned to doubt them. Had
she been a child of weak nerves, she might have recoiled for a moment
from a second attempt, but instead of that she pounced upon it again
so suddenly that the Archimago of the plot was unprepared. He gave his
string a tug only just as she seized it, and, fortunately, the string
came out of the plugged hole. Poppie held the bait, and the fisherman
drew in his line as fast as possible, that his fish might not see it.
The motions of Poppie's mind were as impossible to analyze as those of
a field-mouse or hedge-sparrow. This time she began at once to gnaw the
sugar, staring about her as she did so, and apparently in no hurry to
go. Possibly she was mentally stunned by the marvel of the phenomenon,
but I do not think so. Poppie never could be much surprised at
anything. Why should anything be surprising? To such a child everything
was interesting--nothing overwhelming. She seemed constantly shielded
by the divine buckler of her own exposure and helplessness. You could
have thought that God had said to her, as to his people of old, "Fear
not thou, O Poppie," and therefore Poppie did not fear, and found it
answer. It is a terrible doctrine that would confine the tender care
of the Father to those that know and acknowledge it. He carries the
lambs in his bosom, and who shall say when they cease to be innocent
lambs and become naughty sheep? Even then he goes into the mountains,
and searches till he finds.
Not yet would the father aspirant show his craft. When he saw her stand
there gnawing his innocent bait, he was sorely tempted to call, in the
gentlest voice, "Poppie, dear;" but, like a fearful and wise lover, who
dreads startling the maiden he loves, he must yet dig his parallels
and approach with guile. He would even refine upon his own cunning.
The next morning his bait had only a moral hook inside, that is, there
was no string attached. But now that happened which he had all along
feared. A child of the court--in which there were not more than two, I
think--whom Mr. Spelt regarded, of course, as a stray interloper, for
had she not enough of the good things already?--spied the sweetmeat,
and following the impulses of her depraved humanity, gobbled it up
without ever saying, like heathen Cassius, "By your leave, gods."
Presently after Poppie appeared, looked, stared--actually astonished
now--and, with fallen face, turned and went away. Whether she or her
cunning enemy overhead was the more disappointed, I will not venture
to determine, but Mr. Spelt could almost have cried. Four-and-twenty
long tedious hours of needle and thread must pass before another chance
would arrive--and the water so favorable, with the wind from the right
quarter just clouding its surface, and the fly so taking!--it was hard
to bear. He comforted himself, however, by falling back upon a kind
of divine fatalism with which God had endowed him, saying to himself,
"Well, it's all for the best,"--a phrase not by any means uncommon
among people devoutly inclined; only there was this difference between
most of us and Mr. Spelt, that we follow the special aphorism with
a sigh, while he invariably smiled and brightened up for the next
thing he had to do. To say things are all right and yet gloom does
seem rather illogical in you and me, reader, does it not? Logical or
illogical, it was not Spelt's way anyhow. He began to whistle, which he
never did save upon such occasions when the faithful part of him set
itself to conquer the faithless.
But he would try the bait without the line once more. Am I wearying my
reader with the process? I would not willingly do so, of course. But I
fancy he would listen to this much about a salmon any day, so I will
go on with my child. Poppie came the next morning, notwithstanding
her last disappointment, found the bull's-eye, for such I think it
was this time, took it, and sucked it to nothing upon the spot--did
it leisurely, and kept looking about--let us hope for Lucy, and that
Poppie considered a kiss a lovelier thing still than a lollypop.
The next morning Mr. Spelt tried the string again, watched it better,
and by a succession of jerks, not slow movements, lest, notwithstanding
the cunning of the color, she should see the string, drew her step by
step in the eagerness of wonder; as well as of that appetite which is
neither hunger nor thirst, and yet concerned with the same organs, but
for which we have, so far as I am aware, no word, I mean the love of
sweets, to the very foot of his eyrie. When she laid hold of the object
desired at the door-post, he released it by a final tug against the eye
of the staple. Before she could look up from securing it, another lump
of rock fell at her feet. Then she did look up, and saw the smiling
face of the tailor looking out (once more like an angel over a cloudy
beam) over the threshold, if threshold it could properly be called, of
his elevated and stairless door. She gave back a genuine whole-faced
smile, and turned and scudded. The tailor's right hand shuttled with
increased vigor all the rest of that day.