CHAPTER XXV

Haidee, waiting for Darlington in Paris, spent the time in a state of

perfect peace, amused herself easily and successfully, and at the same

time kept clear of such of her acquaintance as she knew to be in the

French capital at that moment. On the morrow Darlington would return,

and after that everything would be simple. She had arranged it all in

her own mind as she travelled from London, and she believed--having a

confident and sanguine disposition--that the way in which the affair

presented itself to her was the only way in which it could possibly

present itself to any one. It had been a mistake to marry Lucian. Well,

it wasn’t too late to rectify the mistake, and one was wise, of course,

in rectifying it. If you find out that you are on the wrong road--why,

what more politic and advisable than to take the shortest cut to the

right one? She was sorry for Lucian, but the path which he was following

just then was by no means to her own taste, and she must leave him to

tread it alone. She was indeed sorry for him. He had been an ardent and

a delightful lover--for a while--and it was a pity he was not a rich

man. Perhaps they might be friends yet. She, at any rate, would bear no

malice--why should she? She was fond enough of Lucian in one way, but

she had no fondness for a quiet life in Florence or Pisa or anywhere

else, and she had been brought up to believe that a woman must be good

to the man who can best afford to be good to her, and she felt as near

an approach to thankfulness as she had ever felt in her life when she

remembered that Eustace Darlington still cherished a benevolent

disposition towards her.

Darlington did not return to Paris until nearly noon of the following

day. When he reached his hotel he was informed by his valet, whom he had

left behind, that Mrs. Damerel had arrived, and had asked for him.

Darlington felt no surprise on hearing this news; nothing more serious

than a shopping expedition occurred to him. He sent his man to Haidee’s

rooms with a message, and after changing his clothes went to call upon

her himself. His manner showed her that he neither suspected nor

anticipated anything out of the common, but his first question paved the

way for her explanation. It was a question that might have been put had

they met in New York or Calcutta or anywhere, a question that needed no

definite answer.

‘What brings you here? Frills, or frocks, or something equally feminine,

I suppose?’ he said carelessly, as he shook hands with her. ‘Staying

long?’

The indifference of his tone sounded somewhat harshly in Haidee’s

hearing. It was evident that he suspected nothing and had no idea of the

real reason of her presence. She suddenly became aware that there might

be difficulties in the path that had seemed so easy.

‘Lucian here?’ asked Darlington, with equal carelessness.

‘No,’ she said. Then, in a lower tone, she added, ‘I have left Lucian.’

Darlington turned quickly from the window, whither he had strolled after

their greeting. He uttered a sharp, half-suppressed exclamation.

‘Left him?’ he said. ‘You don’t mean----’

His interrogative glance completed the sentence. There was something in

his eyes, something stern and businesslike, that made Haidee afraid. Her

own eyes turned elsewhere.

‘Yes,’ she said.

Darlington put his hands in his pockets and came and stood in front of

her. He looked down at her as if she had been a child out of whom he

wished to extract some information.

‘Quarrelling, eh?’ he said.

‘No, not quarrelling at all,’ she answered.

‘Then--what?’

‘He has spent all the money,’ she said, ‘and lots beside, and he is

going to sell everything in the house in order to pay you, and then he

wanted me to go and live cheaply--_cheaply_, you understand?--in Italy;

and--and he said I must sell my diamonds.’

‘Did he?’ said Darlington. ‘And he is going to sell everything in order

to pay me, is he? Well, that’s honest; I didn’t think he’d the pluck.

He’s evidently not quite such an utter fool as I’ve always thought him.

Well?’

‘And, of course, I left him.’

‘That “of course” is good. Of course, being you, you did, “of course.”

Yes, I understand that part, Haidee. But’--he looked around him with an

expressive glance at her surroundings, ‘why--here?’ he inquired sharply.

‘I came to you,’ she said in a low and not too confident voice.

Darlington laughed--a low, satirical, cynical laughter that frightened

her. She glanced at him timidly; she had never known him like that

before.

‘I see!’ he said. ‘You thought that I should prove a refuge for the

fugitive wife? But I’m afraid that I am not disposed to welcome refugees

of any description--it isn’t my _métier_, you know.’

Haidee looked at him in astonishment. Her eyes caught and held his: he

saw the growing terror in her face.

‘But----’ she said, and came to a stop. Then she repeated the word,

still staring at him with questioning eyes. Darlington tore himself away

with a snarl.

‘Look here!’ he said, ‘I’m not a sentimental man. If I ever had a scrap

of sentiment, _you_ knocked it out of me four years ago. I was fond of

you then. I’d have made you a kind husband, my girl, and you’d have got

on, fool as you are by nature. But you threw me over for that half-mad

boy, and it killed all the soft things I had inside me. I knew I should

have my revenge on both of you, and I’ve had it. He’s ruined; he hasn’t

a penny piece that isn’t due to me; and as for you--listen, my girl,

and I’ll tell you some plain truths. You’re a pretty animal, nice to

play with for half an hour now and then, but you’re no man’s mate for

life, unless the man’s morally blind. I once heard a scientific chap say

that the soul’s got to grow in human beings. Well, yours hasn’t sprouted

yet, Haidee. You’re a fool, though you are a very lovely woman. I

suppose--’--he came closer to her, and looking down at her astonished

face smiled more cynically than ever--‘I suppose you thought that I

would run away with you and eventually marry you?’

‘I--yes--of course!’ she whispered.

‘Well,’ he said, ‘if I, too, had been a fool, I might have done that.

But I am not a fool, my dear Haidee. Perhaps I’m hard, brutal,

cynical--the world and its precious denizens have made me so. I’m not

going to run away with the woman who ran away with another man on the

very eve of her marriage to me; and as to marrying you, well--I’m plain

spoken enough to tell you that I made up my mind years ago that whatever

other silliness I might commit, I would never commit the crowning folly

of marrying a woman who had been my mistress.’

Haidee caught her breath with a sharp exclamation. If she had possessed

any spirit she would have risen to her feet, said things, done things:

having none, like most of her sort, she suddenly buried her face in her

hands and sobbed.

‘I dare say it doesn’t sound nice,’ said Darlington, ‘but Lord knows

it’s best to be plain spoken. Now, my girl, listen to me. Go home and

make the best of your bargain. I’ll let Lucian Damerel off easily,

though to tell you the truth I’ve always had cheerful notions of ruining

him hopelessly. If he wants to live cheaply in Italy, go with him--you

married him. You have your maid here?--tell her to pack up and be ready

to leave by the night train. I dare say Damerel thinks you have only run

over here to buy a new gown; he never need know anything to the

contrary.’

‘B-b-b-but I have t-t-_told_ him!’ she sobbed. ‘He _knows_!’

‘Damn you for a fool!’ said Darlington, between his teeth. He put his

hands in his pockets again and began rattling the loose money there. For

a moment he stood staring at Haidee, his face puckered into frowning

lines. He came up to her. ‘How did you tell him?’ he said. ‘You

didn’t--write it?’

‘Yes,’ she answered. ‘I did--I wrote him a letter.’

Darlington sighed.

‘Oh, well!’ he said, ‘it doesn’t matter, only he’ll be able to get heavy

damages, and I wanted to clear him out. It’s the fortune of war. Well,

I’m going. Good-day.’

He had walked across to the door and laid his hand upon the latch ere

Haidee comprehended the meaning of his words. Then she sprang up with a

scream.

‘And what of me?’ she cried. ‘Am I to be left here?’

‘You brought yourself here,’ he retorted, eyeing her evilly. ‘I did not

ask you to come.’

She stared at him open-mouthed as if he were some strange thing that had

come into her line of vision for the first time. Her breath began to

come and go in gasps. She was an elementary woman, but at this treatment

from the man she had known as her lover a natural indignation sprang up

in her and she began to find words.

‘But this!’ she said, with a nearer approach to honesty than she had

ever known, ‘this is--desertion!’

‘I am under no vow to you,’ he said.

‘You have implied it. I trusted you.’

‘As Lucian trusted you,’ he sneered.

She became speechless again. Something in her looks brought Darlington

back from the door to her side.

‘Look here, Haidee,’ he said, not unkindly, ‘don’t be a little fool. Go

home quickly and settle things with your husband. Tell him you wrote

that letter in a fit of temper; tell him--oh, tell him any of the lies

that women invent so easily on these occasions! It’s absolutely

hopeless to look to me for protection, absolutely impossible for me to

give it----’

He stopped. She was staring at him in a strange way--the way in which a

dumb animal might stare if the butcher who was about to kill it

condescended to try to explain to it why it was necessary that he should

presently cut its throat. Darlington hummed and ha’d when he caught that

look. He cast a furtive glance at the door and half turned away from

Haidee.

‘Yes, quite impossible,’ he repeated. ‘The fact is--well, you may as

well knew it now as hear it later on--I am going to be married.’

She nodded her head as if she quite understood his meaning, and he,

looking full at her again, noticed that she was trying to moisten her

lips with the tip of her tongue, and that her eyes were dilated to an

unusual degree.

‘You can’t say that I’ve treated you badly,’ he said. ‘After all, you

had the first chance, and it wasn’t my fault if you threw it away.

There, now, be sensible and go back to London and make it up with

Damerel. You can easily get round him--he’ll believe anything you tell

him. Say you were upset at the thought of going to Italy with him, and

lost your head. Things will come all right if you only manage your cards

properly. Well, I’m going--good-day.’

He turned slowly from her as if he were somewhat ashamed of his

desertion. They had been standing by the side of a table, littered about

on which were several odds and ends picked up by Haidee on the previous

day. Amongst them was an antique stiletto, sharp as a needle, which had

taken her fancy at a shop in the Palais Royal. She had thought of using

it as a hat-pin, and was charmed when the dealer suggested that it had

probably tasted the heart’s-blood of more than one victim. Its glitter

caught her eye now, and she picked it up and struck furiously at

Darlington’s back.

At that moment Lucian was being conducted to his wife’s room by a

courteous manager. At the threshold they paused, brought to a

simultaneous standstill by a wild scream. When they entered the room,

Darlington lay crumpled up and dead in the centre of the floor, and

Haidee, gazing spellbound at him from the furthest corner, was

laughing--a long, low ripple of laughter that seemed as if it would

never cease. The stiletto, thrown at her feet, flashed back a ray of

sunlight from the window.

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